{"id":9940,"date":"2015-07-09T19:00:42","date_gmt":"2015-07-09T17:00:42","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/?p=9940"},"modified":"2015-07-09T12:23:56","modified_gmt":"2015-07-09T10:23:56","slug":"mos-me-thuaj-lamtumire","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/2015\/07\/mos-me-thuaj-lamtumire\/","title":{"rendered":"Mos m\u00eb thuaj lamtumir\u00eb&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>E pyes veten pse rash\u00eb n\u00eb dashni. Ah, moj nene, \u00e7ka t\u00eb b\u00ebj. Jeta ime perfundoi. Per nje vajze qe e deshta shume, ma bani zemren ma dogji shkrum. Ma theu zemren si nje gote por \u00e7ka te bej e dua kot. Jeta pa te me digjet flake syte e mi po derdhin gjak. E dashura ime te prita me mall une tash po vdes ma ben hallall. Pse t\u00eb jetoj kur sjam m\u00eb, ti ma ktheve shpinen me le n\u00eb vetmi. Sikur f\u00ebmij\u00eb m\u00eb le tuj kja si nuk te erdhi\u00a0\u00a0 aspak gjynah. Mi more shpresat e largove dashnin tone ti e lendove. Ti shkove e me le te vuaj askend tjeter une nuk do ta dua, por edhe kujtimet tona une do ti ruaj. Dije se ne zemren time shpirt nuk ka vend per asnje tjeter emer. Arsyen pse vdeka krejt ne ta din ishte arsyeja emri yt. Jeto se une kam vdek pir ti shko e mos me lyp me sy. Dashuroje tjetrin i cili te gezon se per ne te dy dashuria perfundoj. Ti m\u00eb lendove tradheti me tjetrin me dhurove. Qe une shume te deshta bema ti hallall, por pse me tradhetove ti te qoft\u00eb \u00a0haram. Nuk mundesh me m\u00eb harru se te deshta pa hile, nuk jam une si ti me zemer katile. Kur te bie shi dije kush po qan, \u00ebsht\u00eb ai djali me zemer te vrare. Ti je fajtore se ma prishe jeten, deshte me jetu me nje zemer tjeter. Tash more vesh se m\u00eb ke humbur mua, dhe i kerkon fjalet vetem ty te dua. Sikur te ishim sebashku sabah per sabah vete i ke fjalet se lype me u nda. Po kujton ditet se ishe me mu vone e kuptove se me ke lendu. E lendove edhe veten se po don me tu kthy vone e more vesh se zemren ma ke thy. Une po martohem por i lumtur sjam. Si te martohem kur vec ty ne zemer te kam. E dashura ime ne dasem po te th\u00ebrras, per me shiku ti kur zemra me plas. N\u00eb krahet e tu une dua me vdek po ta le amanet kurr\u00eb mos me harro per jete. Deshira ime ka q\u00ebn\u00eb q\u00eb un\u00eb me ty me u martu, por nuk e p\u00ebrjetova dot. Kush ne na ndau e vraft\u00eb Per\u00ebndia, sepse e vrau nj\u00eb gj\u00eb q\u00eb quhet dashuria. Me kujtimet e vjetra un\u00ebt ani po jetoj, dit\u00ebt q\u00eb kaluam nuk mundem ti harroj. Koka po m\u00eb thot\u00eb mos qaj e mos vuaj. Por zemra nuk po m\u00eb len ty me t\u00eb harru, ty t\u00eb desha, t\u00eb dhash\u00eb fjalen. Prap\u00eb erdhi koha t\u00eb ecim rrug\u00ebve tona e kisha dasht\u00eb nj\u00eb p\u00ebrqafim p\u00ebr t\u00eb fundit takim. Ndoshta m\u00eb kurr\u00eb nuk do t\u00eb shoh p\u00ebr jet\u00eb. Se dita se k\u00ebshtu qenka fati t\u00eb mbet\u00eb pa ty i shkret\u00eb. Ve\u00e7 edhe nj\u00eb her\u00eb t\u00eb shoh me sy. Ti preki buz\u00ebt e tua me lot\u00ebt e mij. D\u00ebgjoje zemr\u00ebn time qysh po t\u00eb thot\u00eb. Mos shko t\u00eb lutem e dashur mos m\u00eb le vet\u00ebm. Zemr\u00ebn do ta b\u00ebj gur e ty sdo t\u00eb harroj kurr\u00eb. P\u00ebr her t\u00eb fundit thuaj di\u00e7ka t\u00eb mir\u00eb, por at\u00eb fjalen q\u00eb quhet \u201clamtumir\u00eb\u201d. Endi.<\/p>\n<p>Asnjeher\u00eb mos thuaj asnjeher\u00eb thote nje fjale dhe une e them kete pasi ka plot njer\u00ebz qe e ndjejne dashurine. Ka plot djem qe duan dhe thone fjal\u00eb qe dhe i mendojne por jeta \u00ebsht\u00eb nje mister i \u00e7uditshem por kjo nuk do te thote se nuk ka ndjenja. Per mua gjithmon\u00eb egziston jo ne shum\u00eb rase por egziston nuk mund te them asnjehere sepse gjithmone ka nje her\u00eb. Lil.<\/p>\n<p>Tani e di, jeta ime merr fund sonte. Nuk jam i vetem me gjithe keto yje ne qiell, nuk jam i vetem as me gjith\u00eb keto lote. Por prap\u00eb mos prania jote me b\u00ebn te vuaj si asnjehere me pare. Mallin as lotin nuk e shuajn\u00eb, vetmine se mbulojne as yjet e shumta. Sonte, jeta ime merr fund, e jeta jote ka fillim te ri. Sonte kur ti te heqesh fustanin e bardhe, jeta ime do shkrihet. Pranverat qe i numrojn\u00eb neper gishta sonte me duken shume pak. Edhe zeri i bilbilit sonte me mungon. Edhe flladi i vjeshtes. Edhe akullnajat e dimrit. Me duket sikur te gjithe me mungojne, sikur dua ta shijoj jeten ende. Por smunde&#8230; E.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>E pyes veten pse rash\u00eb n\u00eb dashni. Ah, moj nene, \u00e7ka t\u00eb b\u00ebj. Jeta ime perfundoi. Per nje vajze qe e deshta shume, ma bani zemren ma dogji shkrum. Ma theu zemren si nje gote por \u00e7ka te bej e dua kot. Jeta pa te me digjet flake syte e mi po derdhin gjak. 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