T\u00eb dashur lexues, historia ime do t\u2019ju habis\u00eb pak, por un\u00eb po e shkruaj me q\u00ebllim q\u00eb askush t\u00eb mos veproj\u00eb si un\u00eb e t\u00eb mos b\u00ebj\u00eb gabime fatale, vet\u00ebm se \u00ebsht\u00eb m\u00ebsuar t\u00eb besoj\u00eb te t\u00eb gjith\u00eb e sidomos te doktor\u00ebt. K\u00ebtu nuk po them se nuk duhet t\u2019u besojm\u00eb, por kur b\u00ebhet fjal\u00eb p\u00ebr shum\u00eb mjekime t\u00eb cilat t\u00eb b\u00ebjn\u00eb m\u00eb keq, dihet se nuk duhen p\u00ebrdorur. Un\u00eb q\u00eb po shkruaj k\u00ebt\u00eb histori jam nj\u00eb n\u00ebn\u00eb e cila zbatoi me p\u00ebrpikm\u00ebri ato q\u00eb i than\u00eb mjek\u00ebt dhe nuk munda t\u00eb kuptoj se nuk duhet b\u00ebr\u00eb gjith\u00e7ka q\u00eb thuhet.
\nVajza ime u s\u00ebmur n\u00eb mosh\u00ebn 5 vje\u00e7are. At\u00ebher\u00eb nuk kisha f\u00ebmij\u00eb tjet\u00ebr, k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb gjith\u00e7ka kisha ishte p\u00ebr at\u00eb vajz\u00eb. N\u00eb kop\u00ebsht i kishte r\u00ebn\u00eb t\u00eb fik\u00ebt. Menj\u00ebher\u00eb lash\u00eb pun\u00ebn dhe shkova tek kopshti. Kur arrita un\u00eb, vajza ishte mir\u00eb, vet\u00ebm pak si e zbeht\u00eb.
\n– Mos ndoshta s\u2019ka ngr\u00ebn\u00eb? – i thash\u00eb edukatores.
\n– N\u00eb fakt, nuk kishte shum\u00eb oreks, prandaj e ushqeva vet\u00eb m\u00eb dor\u00ebn time – tha edukatorja. E besova sepse ishte nj\u00eb njeri i mir\u00eb e gjithmon\u00eb ishte kujdesur p\u00ebr vajz\u00ebn.
\nE mora vajz\u00ebn n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi at\u00eb dit\u00eb e kur shkova n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi dhe, pasi u ngrit nga gjumi i drek\u00ebs, i ra edhe nj\u00eb her\u00eb t\u00eb fik\u00ebt. U tremba se mos ndoshta kishte ndonj\u00eb gj\u00eb t\u00eb keqe dhe e \u00e7ova menj\u00ebher\u00eb n\u00eb spital. Ata m\u00eb adresuan te mjeku psikiat\u00ebr. Un\u00eb refuzova t\u00eb shkoja, sepse e dija q\u00eb vajza ime nuk kishte problem psikike. Vet\u00eb doktori q\u00eb e vizitoi m\u00eb tha:
\n– Vet\u00ebm b\u00ebj kontroll dhe asgj\u00eb t\u00eb keqe nuk ka. Duhet t\u00eb jesh e sigurt q\u00eb nuk ka ndonj\u00eb gj\u00eb shqet\u00ebsuese dhe t\u00eb rrish e qet\u00eb.
\nNga k\u00ebto fjal\u00eb t\u00eb mjekut un\u00eb e \u00e7ova vajz\u00ebn te psikiatri. Ai m\u00eb tha menj\u00ebher\u00eb se vajza nuk kishte probleme psikike t\u00eb mir\u00ebfillta, por duhet t\u00eb merrte nj\u00eb mjekim p\u00ebr qet\u00ebsim. N\u00eb fakt, vajz\u00ebs sime, tani q\u00eb e mendoj me mendje t\u00eb kthjell\u00ebt, i duhej vet\u00ebm pak besim te vetja.
\nE k\u00ebshtu filloi nj\u00eb jet\u00eb plot me vizita e mjekime te doktor\u00eb t\u00eb ndrysh\u00ebm. N\u00eb fillim vajza nuk kishte ndonj\u00eb shenj\u00eb e cila sillte shqet\u00ebsime, vet\u00ebm se filloi t\u00eb sh\u00ebndoshej pak. Pas nja dy vjet\u00ebsh nis\u00ebn \u00e7rregullimet e para. Ishte gati n\u00eb p\u00ebrfundim t\u00eb klas\u00ebs s\u00eb par\u00eb kur m\u00eb telefonoi m\u00ebsuesja.
\n– Anjeza nuk ndihet mir\u00eb. T\u00eb lutem, eja menj\u00ebher\u00eb.
\n– Po \u00e7far\u00eb ka? – e pyeta e trupi po m\u00eb dridhej.
\n– Ka nj\u00eb gjendje q\u00eb nuk e kuptoj shum\u00eb mir\u00eb, por t\u00eb lutem shum\u00eb t\u00eb vish sa m\u00eb shpejt.
\nShkova menj\u00ebher\u00eb, madje pronarja nuk ishte aty e un\u00eb nuk mora parasysh asgj\u00eb, por lash\u00eb pun\u00ebn e shkova. E gjeta vajz\u00ebn n\u00eb nj\u00eb gjendje shum\u00eb t\u00eb r\u00ebnd\u00eb. Ajo nuk m\u00eb njihte dhe p\u00ebr m\u00eb tep\u00ebr, kishte nj\u00eb fytyr\u00eb t\u00eb ndryshme nga ajo e vetja. Dukej se ishte n\u00eb nj\u00eb bot\u00eb tjet\u00ebr e nuk e dinte se kush ishte n\u00ebna e saj. Erdhi edhe burri e t\u00eb dy e mor\u00ebm dhe e shtruam n\u00eb spital. Aty doktor\u00ebt nuk e kuptonin se \u00e7far\u00eb kishte vajza. Ata b\u00ebn\u00eb konsulta dhe m\u00eb than\u00eb se dyshonin p\u00ebr epilepsi, mir\u00ebpo jo t\u00eb gjitha shenjat e epilepsis\u00eb i shfaqeshin asaj. Shikoja n\u00eb pavion ku ishte shtruar vajza ime e m\u00eb dukej se ajo ndryshonte nga ata t\u00eb s\u00ebmur\u00eb. Nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb se nuk doja ta pranoja, por edhe pse nuk marr vesh nga mjek\u00ebsia, kisha nj\u00eb parandjenj\u00eb se di\u00e7ka nuk ishte e ngjashme me t\u00eb s\u00ebmur\u00ebt e tjer\u00eb. K\u00ebt\u00eb ia thoja shpesh doktorit t\u00eb vajz\u00ebs, por ai m\u00eb thoshte se nuk mund ta kuptoja mjek\u00ebsin\u00eb. Mua m\u2019u fiksua kjo gj\u00eb dhe k\u00ebrkova ta nxirrja vajz\u00ebn nga spitali. M\u00eb duhej t\u00eb firmosja se po e nxirrja kund\u00ebr k\u00ebshillave t\u00eb mjek\u00ebve, por e kisha ndar\u00eb mendjen.
\nE mora vajz\u00ebn n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi dhe dit\u00ebt e para nuk ishte mir\u00eb, por m\u00eb pas i ndalova dhe ila\u00e7et e p\u00ebr \u00e7udi, ajo filloi t\u00eb p\u00ebrmir\u00ebsohej. Tani, jo se u b\u00eb shum\u00eb mir\u00eb, por ishte ndryshe nga ato dit\u00eb kur merrte mjekimin. P\u00ebr shum\u00eb vite i dhash\u00eb vet\u00ebm ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb ndonj\u00eb mjekim t\u00eb leht\u00eb e Zoti m\u00eb b\u00ebri edhe me nj\u00eb djal\u00eb, i cili ishte mir\u00eb nga sh\u00ebndeti. P\u00ebr 10 vjet, familja jon\u00eb ishte pothuaj k\u00ebshtu si\u00e7 e p\u00ebrshkrova m\u00eb lart.
\nAnjeza, nganj\u00ebher\u00eb rrall\u00eb kishte nevoj\u00eb p\u00ebr ndonj\u00eb qet\u00ebsues, por asgj\u00eb m\u00eb e r\u00ebnd\u00eb. Kur Anjeza ishte 17 vje\u00e7e, m\u00eb ndodhi ajo q\u00eb kishte ndodhur para shum\u00eb vitesh. Ajo ishte n\u00eb gjimnaz dhe m\u00ebsuesja kujdestare m\u00eb mori n\u00eb telefon.
\n– Anjeza nuk ndihet mir\u00eb! Ju lutem, ejani shpejt!
\nKisha vite q\u00eb nuk merrja nj\u00eb telefonat\u00eb t\u00eb till\u00eb. Vrapova menj\u00ebher\u00eb dhe e gjeta Anjez\u00ebn si para 10 viteve. Ajo ishte n\u00eb klas\u00eb bashk\u00eb me m\u00ebsuesen dhe nja dy shoqe. Ndryshe nga para shum\u00eb vitesh, n\u00eb fytyr\u00ebn e saj ishte shtuar edhe nj\u00eb trishtim tjet\u00ebr, trishtim ky q\u00eb do t\u00eb sillte edhe nj\u00eb gjendje tjet\u00ebr t\u00eb re p\u00ebr zemrushen time. At\u00eb dit\u00eb e mora mjekun n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi p\u00ebr ta vizituar dhe ai m\u00eb tha se duhej ta shtroja n\u00eb spital. E mendova se si isha ndjer\u00eb un\u00eb kur ajo ishte e vog\u00ebl e ndodhej n\u00eb at\u00eb spital, por tani q\u00eb ajo ishte e madhe, do ta p\u00ebrjetonte shum\u00eb keq k\u00ebt\u00eb shtrim, andaj vendosa t\u00eb mos e zbatoj k\u00ebshill\u00ebn e mjekut, por mora n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi mjekimet q\u00eb ajo do t\u2019i b\u00ebnte n\u00eb spital. Pasdite ishte mir\u00eb dhe kur ajo ndjehej se mund t\u00eb fliste me mua, m\u00eb pyeti:
\n– M\u00eb kan\u00eb par\u00eb t\u00eb gjith\u00eb shok\u00ebt kur u s\u00ebmura?
\n– Po \u00e7\u2019r\u00ebnd\u00ebsi ka kjo, zemra ime? Pse duhet t\u00eb shqet\u00ebsohemi p\u00ebr t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt? Ne jemi njer\u00ebz dhe t\u00eb gjith\u00eb njer\u00ebzve u ndodhin gj\u00ebra t\u00eb tilla.
\n– Mami, t\u00eb lutem, m\u2019u p\u00ebrgjigj. A kishte shum\u00eb shok\u00eb af\u00ebr meje kur erdhe ti?
\n– Jo, zem\u00ebr, ishin vet\u00ebm dy shoqet e tua t\u00eb ngushta dhe m\u00ebsuesja.
\n– Po cila or\u00eb ishte?
\n– Mesi i or\u00ebs s\u00eb dyt\u00eb.
\n– Po shok\u00ebt e tjer\u00eb?
\n– Nuk e di \u2013 i thash\u00eb – isha e hutuar e nuk i dhash\u00eb r\u00ebnd\u00ebsi k\u00ebsaj gj\u00ebje.
\n– Ah, si do t\u2019ia b\u00ebj tani? – tha ajo e syt\u00eb iu mbush\u00ebn me lot.
\nEdhe pse e dija cili ishte problemi q\u00eb e shqet\u00ebsonte aq shum\u00eb, e pyeta:
\n– Pse, zem\u00ebr? \u00c7\u2019t\u00eb shqet\u00ebson?
\n– Asgj\u00eb, jo. – tha k\u00ebshtu me nj\u00eb ton q\u00eb nuk e kishte p\u00ebrdorur kurr\u00eb me mua e m\u00eb ktheu shpin\u00ebn. At\u00eb nat\u00eb ishte shum\u00eb mir\u00eb e t\u00eb nes\u00ebrmen shkova ta zgjoja p\u00ebr n\u00eb shkoll\u00eb.
\n– Nuk do t\u00eb shkoj… – m\u00eb tha.
\n– Pse, zem\u00ebr? Nuk ndjehesh mir\u00eb? T\u00eb th\u00ebrras doktorin?
\n– Jo, jam mir\u00eb, por nuk dua t\u00eb shkoj n\u00eb shkoll\u00eb.
\nNuk e ngacmova m\u00eb tep\u00ebr. Pasi ika un\u00eb n\u00eb pun\u00eb, kishin ardhur dy shoqet e saj ta takonin, por ajo nuk ua kishte hapur der\u00ebn. U shqet\u00ebsova p\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb fakt sepse e dija se pse e kishte b\u00ebr\u00eb ajo k\u00ebt\u00eb gj\u00eb. Kaloi java dhe un\u00eb nuk e ngacmova q\u00eb t\u00eb shkonte n\u00eb shkoll\u00eb, mir\u00ebpo kur filloi java tjet\u00ebr, e mora me vete dhe i thash\u00eb:
\n– Pse nuk do t\u00eb shkosh n\u00eb shkoll\u00eb?
\n– Si m\u00eb pyet, mami? Si do t\u00eb shkoj un\u00eb n\u00eb shkoll\u00eb e gjith\u00eb shkolla t\u00eb tallen me mua? T\u00eb gjith\u00eb m\u00eb kan\u00eb par\u00eb at\u00eb dit\u00eb e k\u00ebt\u00eb e kan\u00eb komentuar e do ta komentojn\u00eb gjat\u00eb.
\n– Po si do t\u00eb b\u00ebsh? S\u2019do t\u00eb shkosh m\u00eb n\u00eb shkoll\u00eb? K\u00ebshtu u b\u00ebre edhe e vog\u00ebl dhe e kalove. Ke 10 vjet q\u00eb nuk je s\u00ebmurur.
\n– Mama, un\u00eb e kam vendosur e nuk do t\u00eb nd\u00ebrroj mendje. Merr raport a \u00e7far\u00eb t\u00eb duash b\u00ebj. Un\u00eb nuk kthehem m\u00eb n\u00eb shkoll\u00eb.
\nE ndoshta kishte t\u00eb drejt\u00eb. P\u00ebr t\u00eb marr\u00eb raport t\u00eb gjat\u00eb duhej q\u00eb ajo medeomos t\u00eb shtrohej n\u00eb spital. Un\u00eb nuk doja, por ajo deshi vet\u00eb. Donte q\u00eb t\u00eb mos kthehej m\u00eb n\u00eb at\u00eb shkoll\u00eb e pranoi t\u00eb shtrohej, por nuk e dinte se kjo do t\u00eb ishte shum\u00eb e r\u00ebnd\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb. Dit\u00ebt e para ishte pak si e p\u00ebrhumbur nga qet\u00ebsuesit, por dit\u00ebn e tret\u00eb u b\u00eb shum\u00eb keq. E kapi nj\u00eb kriz\u00eb q\u00eb nuk e kishte kapur asnj\u00ebher\u00eb m\u00eb par\u00eb. Ajo kishte bluar n\u00eb mendjen e saj se her\u00ebt e von\u00eb edhe ajo do p\u00ebrfundonte si t\u00eb shtruarit n\u00eb spital. Kaloi shum\u00eb kriza. Gjendja e saj erdhi duke u r\u00ebnduar dhe mjekimet q\u00eb n\u00eb fillim i kishte marr\u00eb vet\u00ebm p\u00ebr qet\u00ebsim, tani ishin shtuar dhe e kishin kthyer vajz\u00ebn time n\u00eb nj\u00eb t\u00eb s\u00ebmur\u00eb psikike. Kur kishte kriza, ajo ishte shum\u00eb e d\u00ebshp\u00ebruar dhe kjo e b\u00ebri q\u00eb gjendja e saj t\u00eb komplikohej e t\u00eb arrinte fundin. Humbja e saj p\u00ebr mua ishte fatkeq\u00ebsia m\u00eb e madhe n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb jet\u00eb. Kam frik\u00eb se kam gabuar duke u besuar doktor\u00ebve, se ajo thjesht kishte di\u00e7ka t\u00eb vog\u00ebl q\u00eb do t\u2019i kalonte me kalimin e koh\u00ebs dhe se nuk duhet ta kisha shtruar as n\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00ebri n\u00eb spital, pasi ajo e mori gjith\u00eb jet\u00ebn me vete k\u00ebt\u00eb kujtim dhe gjith\u00eb koh\u00ebs mendonte se do t\u00eb p\u00ebrfundonte si ata pacient\u00eb q\u00eb kishte n\u00eb dhom\u00eb. Ky \u00ebsht\u00eb pengu m\u00eb i madh q\u00eb kam… M\u00eb duket sikur kam qen\u00eb un\u00eb q\u00eb ia kam \u201cdh\u00ebn\u00eb\u201d vdekjen me duart e mia…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
T\u00eb dashur lexues, historia ime do t\u2019ju habis\u00eb pak, por un\u00eb po e shkruaj me q\u00ebllim q\u00eb askush t\u00eb mos veproj\u00eb si un\u00eb e t\u00eb mos b\u00ebj\u00eb gabime fatale, vet\u00ebm se \u00ebsht\u00eb m\u00ebsuar t\u00eb besoj\u00eb te t\u00eb gjith\u00eb e sidomos te doktor\u00ebt. K\u00ebtu nuk po them se nuk duhet t\u2019u besojm\u00eb, por kur b\u00ebhet fjal\u00eb […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[94],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-9128","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-histori-nga-jeta"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9128","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=9128"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9128\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=9128"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=9128"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=9128"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}