A thua ku ishe q\u00eb nuk u pame aq koh\u00eb, kend e dashurove m\u00eb shum\u00eb se mua gjat\u00eb k\u00ebsaj kohe? At\u00eb kohe te mori era e mua me dogji malli. Aq shum\u00eb prisja t\u00eb t\u00eb shihja. Kujtoja se do t\u00eb bie ne perqafimin tend sa her\u00eb trokiste dera. Sa shume e kam pritur diten e ardhjes sate, e thosha me vete se do t\u00eb kthehesh e do te jemi bashk\u00eb p\u00ebrgjithmone. Kujtoja se edhe ti ndiheshe i nj\u00ebjt\u00eb si une, se kjo q\u00eb ndiejme do ti ndryshoj gj\u00ebrat, por si\u00e7 po e shoh un\u00eb, ti deshiron rrugen tjeter, edhe pse nuk po me l\u00eb t\u00eb qet\u00eb as mua. Deri kur do t\u00eb vazhdosh k\u00ebshtu? Dit\u00ebt me jan\u00eb b\u00ebr\u00eb monotone ne kete bote te poshter, ndoshta bota \u00ebsht\u00eb e bukur, por ti ma ke b\u00ebr\u00eb t\u00eb tille. Kam krijuar urrejtje ndaj te gjitheve, por m\u00eb vjen shum\u00eb keq per veten time. Mendoja se nuk do ti humbisja shpresat, n\u00eb shpirtin tim ndjeja te ardhmen dhe gjithmone thosha se do ta gjej nje dite pikturen qe syte e mi kerkojne. Por ti mi vrave shpresat, endrrat, cdo gje te bukur qe kisha ne jeten time. M\u00eb e keqja eshte se te dua aq shume, sa e ndiej aromen tende ngado qe shkoj, se n\u00eb \u00e7do fytyre shoh syt\u00eb e tu, e ne cdo buzeqeshje dua t\u00eb t\u00eb gjej ty. Nganj\u00ebhere, as q\u00eb dua te jetoj, se nuk e mendoj dot jeten pa ato qe kam \u00ebnd\u00ebrruar per ti b\u00ebr\u00eb bashk\u00eb. Kjo kohe po me \u00e7mend, e ti vjen e shkon ne jeten time. M\u00eb torturon, m\u00eb streson, me thua se me don dhe jemi aq larg, e une nuk e kuptoj se \u00e7fare n\u00eb t\u00eb vertete ndien per mua. Asgj\u00eb e bukur nuk po me ndodh, asgj\u00eb nuk po me shkon mire, e di se ti je nj\u00eb \u00ebnd\u00ebrr e gjate per mua, nje enderr qe me diftohesh \u00e7do stine e m\u00eb sjelle vetem dhimbje. Kjo enderr po mi lodh syt\u00eb! Megjithat\u00eb t\u00eb dua shume\u2026 por, te lutem ti mos me thuaj se m\u00eb don, se m\u00eb ke dashur\u2026 sepse me dhemb kur me thua k\u00ebshtu! K & L.
\nSot zura v\u00ebnd aty n\u00eb nj\u00eb “tryez\u00eb” bari, e tille se une ashtu e ndieja veten, si n\u00eb nj\u00eb tryeze ku zakonisht mblidhen njer\u00ebzit m\u00eb t\u00eb dashur, por p\u00ebr fat t\u00eb keq isha un\u00eb dhe 3 karriget bosh, t\u00eb cilat p\u00ebr dreq m\u00eb identifikonin mua, ashtu t\u00eb braktisur, t\u00eb vetmuar n\u00eb nj\u00eb v\u00ebnd plote me njer\u00ebz… Ngjitur me mua po zhvillohej nj\u00eb bised\u00eb me nj\u00eb ton m\u00eb t\u00eb lart\u00eb sesa duhej, dhe e di …!? M\u00eb t\u00ebrhoqi v\u00ebm\u00ebndjen nj\u00eb fraz\u00eb e cila p\u00ebr nj\u00eb moment “vrau” gjith\u00eb at\u00eb zhurm\u00eb: “shiko kush flet, ky s’ka buk\u00eb t\u00eb haj\u00eb e rrob\u00eb t\u00eb vesh\u00eb dhe mundohet t\u00eb m\u00eb tregoj\u00eb mua e kam mir\u00eb apo e kam gabim”. P\u00ebr nj\u00eb moment u preka dhe thash\u00eb p\u00ebrderisa jan\u00eb ulur bashk\u00eb duhet t\u00eb njihen, dhe kjo do t\u00eb thot\u00eb se jan\u00eb shok\u00eb, miq apo dhe njer\u00ebz t\u00eb familjes. Kthej koken, e ky kodosh q\u00eb m\u00eb fliste sikur kishte arritur qiellin e 7, bukur i veshur, at\u00eb “cop\u00eb leck\u00eb” q\u00eb i mbulonte trupin “veshja” e n\u00ebnkuptonte si nj\u00eb “arm\u00eb” dhe i dukej sikur kishte fuqin\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb “pushkatuar” ata q\u00eb mund ta kishin ndihmuar p\u00ebr t\u00eb q\u00ebn\u00eb aty ku ishte, por po harronte di\u00e7ka, veshja nuk t\u00eb tregon at\u00eb q\u00eb realisht ti je dhe q\u00eb ajo “arm\u00eb” \u00ebsht\u00eb pa fisheke. E n\u00eb at\u00eb moment ajo pije q\u00eb porosita p\u00ebr t\u00eb freskuar m\u00eb ngeci n\u00eb fyt, karrigia ku isha ulur m\u00eb dukej sikur nuk po m\u00eb mbant dot, e qielli sikur po m\u00eb binte sip\u00ebr. I dashur njeri jeta t\u00eb jep t\u00eb ngre lart, t\u00eb b\u00ebn t\u00eb ndihesh i vlersuar, i rrethuar nga njer\u00ebz q\u00eb nuk t\u00eb l\u00ebn\u00eb kurr\u00eb vetem, dhe t\u00eb b\u00ebn t\u00eb till\u00eb q\u00eb p\u00ebr shum\u00eb njer\u00ebz ti je \u00ebnd\u00ebrr qoft\u00eb sikur p\u00ebr t\u00eb par\u00eb nj\u00ebher\u00eb nga af\u00ebr. Jeta t\u00eb jep \u00e7do gj\u00eb, por me nj\u00eb kusht, ti vler\u00ebsosh, t\u2019ia dish kuptimin dhe r\u00ebnd\u00ebsin\u00eb e nj\u00eb arritjeje, dhe atyre q\u00eb t\u00eb kan\u00eb shtrir\u00eb dor\u00ebn p\u00ebr t\u00eb ndihmuar, se po fillove t\u00eb mburresh, e t\u00eb shkel\u00ebsh m\u00eb k\u00ebmb\u00eb ata q\u00eb t\u00eb dalin p\u00ebrpara, ta dish se i af\u00ebrt \u00ebsht\u00eb momenti q\u00eb jeta do t\u00eb shkel\u00eb ty. Agimi.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
A thua ku ishe q\u00eb nuk u pame aq koh\u00eb, kend e dashurove m\u00eb shum\u00eb se mua gjat\u00eb k\u00ebsaj kohe? At\u00eb kohe te mori era e mua me dogji malli. Aq shum\u00eb prisja t\u00eb t\u00eb shihja. Kujtoja se do t\u00eb bie ne perqafimin tend sa her\u00eb trokiste dera. Sa shume e kam pritur diten e […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[836,104],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-8950","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-komunikoni-me-njeri-tjetrin-2","category-mesazhe"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8950","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=8950"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8950\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=8950"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=8950"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=8950"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}