Jam nj\u00eb nx\u00ebn\u00ebse e vitit t\u00eb kat\u00ebrt gjimnaz. Banoj n\u00eb Fier dhe m\u00eb p\u00eblqen shum\u00eb qyteti im se k\u00ebtu kam t\u00eb af\u00ebrmit dhe miqt\u00eb e mi, por e kam \u00ebnd\u00ebrr t\u00eb vij n\u00eb Tiran\u00eb p\u00ebr shkoll\u00eb t\u00eb lart\u00eb e m\u00eb pas t\u00eb martohem e t\u00eb jetoj po aty. K\u00ebtu nuk kam shum\u00eb mund\u00ebsi p\u00ebr t\u00eb jetuar ashtu si\u00e7 \u00ebnd\u00ebrroj…<\/p>\n
V\u00ebllai im jeton n\u00eb Greqi prej 6 vjet\u00ebsh dhe ai \u00ebsht\u00eb i vetmi burim financiar p\u00ebr familjen ton\u00eb. Atje b\u00ebn pun\u00eb t\u00eb ndryshme, por ne kemi besim se mbi t\u00eb gjitha \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb njeri i ndersh\u00ebm dhe punon me djers\u00ebn e ballit q\u00eb t\u00eb na siguroj\u00eb neve jetes\u00ebn. Edhe ai ka ato problemet e veta atje, se i duhet t\u00eb paguaj\u00eb qiran\u00eb e sht\u00ebpis\u00eb ku banon, t\u00eb ushqehet, etj., k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb ne rregullohemi me \u00e7\u2019na sjell ai. Kur vajta n\u00eb gjimnaz shihja ndryshimin mes nivelit t\u00eb jetes\u00ebs sime me at\u00eb t\u00eb bashk\u00ebmoshatar\u00ebve t\u00eb mi. I k\u00ebrkoja familjes ndonj\u00eb para xhepi kur i thon\u00eb, por ata nuk kishin. Shihja vajzat q\u00eb shkonin n\u00eb lokal, por un\u00eb nuk mund t\u00eb shkoja. Ato iknin n\u00ebp\u00ebr dit\u00eblindje, n\u00eb disko, kurse un\u00eb nuk ikja se nuk kisha lek\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb b\u00ebja dhurata ose t\u00eb vishja ndonj\u00eb gj\u00eb t\u00eb ve\u00e7ant\u00eb p\u00ebr at\u00eb rast. Ndihesha shum\u00eb e m\u00ebnjanuar dhe sa s\u2019m\u00eb vinte t\u00eb plasja kur shihja shoqet q\u00eb iknin t\u00eb pinin kafe kur kishim or\u00eb pushimi, nd\u00ebrsa un\u00eb rrija n\u00eb klas\u00eb me pretekstin se do p\u00ebrs\u00ebrisja ndonj\u00eb gj\u00eb p\u00ebr or\u00ebn tjet\u00ebr.
\nNj\u00eb dit\u00eb, nj\u00eb shoqe e klas\u00ebs m\u00eb tha se nj\u00eb shok i t\u00eb dashurit t\u00eb saj i kishte k\u00ebrkuar t\u00eb m\u00eb prezantonte me t\u00eb. M\u00eb tha:
\n\u201cAtij i p\u00eblqen shum\u00eb… Si thua, do vish me ne n\u00eb disko t\u00eb premten pas shkolle q\u00eb ta njoh\u00ebsh?\u201d
\nUn\u00eb shtanga p\u00ebr nj\u00eb moment se thash\u00eb: \u201c\u00c7\u2019ne ai q\u00eb m\u00eb ka p\u00eblqyer mua?\u201d. Ai as m\u00eb njite, pasta plus q\u00eb un\u00eb nuk isha si moshataret e mia, q\u00eb mbahesha e lyhesha. Gjithsesi thash\u00eb ta takoja nj\u00ebher\u00eb. I mora borxh k\u00ebsaj shoqes nj\u00eb kanatiere shum\u00eb t\u00eb bukur dhe nj\u00eb pal\u00eb xhinse paksa ekstravagante dhe pas shkolle vajt\u00ebm n\u00eb disko. Si\u00e7 e kishim l\u00ebn\u00eb, aty do ishte dhe Goni.
\nKur shkova un\u00eb, Manuela m\u00eb tha:
\n\u201cJa, ai tek dera \u00ebsht\u00eb ai djali q\u00eb t\u00eb thash\u00eb!\u201d.
\nMua m\u2019u duk simpatik dhe vendosa t\u00eb prezantoheshim. U takuam dhe ai m\u00eb ftoi brenda t\u00eb pinim nonj\u00eb gj\u00eb. U ul\u00ebm, po bisedonim dhe m\u2019u duk djal\u00eb i mir\u00eb. M\u00eb tha q\u00eb kishte qen\u00eb n\u00eb Zvic\u00ebr dhe nuk kishte shum\u00eb koh\u00eb q\u00eb kishte ardhur. Po mendonte t\u00eb hapte ndonj\u00eb aktivitet t\u00eb vetin k\u00ebtu, si p\u00ebr shembull ndonj\u00eb lokal apo restorant.
\nM\u00eb tha q\u00eb m\u00eb kishte par\u00eb ku dilja nga shkolla dhe se i p\u00eblqeja, pasi isha vajz\u00eb e ndershme e nuk rrija n\u00ebp\u00ebr lokale si gjith\u00eb t\u00eb tjerat. Me th\u00ebn\u00eb t\u00eb drejt\u00ebn, un\u00eb nuk shkoja n\u00eb lokale p\u00ebr arsyet q\u00eb thash\u00eb pak m\u00eb par\u00eb, por atij nuk doja t\u2019ia tregoja. Mendova se k\u00ebshtu atij do t\u2019i p\u00eblqeja edhe m\u00eb shum\u00eb.
\nAt\u00eb dit\u00eb ai m\u00eb tha se i kishte seriozisht ato q\u00eb po m\u00eb thoshte dhe m\u00eb puthi. Ajo ishte puthja ime e par\u00eb. E kisha menduar t\u00eb ishte ndryshe, me nj\u00eb njeri q\u00eb do e doja shum\u00eb, n\u00eb nj\u00eb vend m\u00eb romantik, por nuk e di, nj\u00eb z\u00eb i brendsh\u00ebm m\u00eb thoshte q\u00eb me t\u00eb do ia kaloja shum\u00eb mir\u00eb dhe nuk do kisha m\u00eb probleme si ato t\u00eb m\u00ebparshmet.
\nK\u00ebshtu, filluam t\u00eb dilnim ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb pas shkolle. Ai m\u00eb thoshte se duhet t\u00eb dilnim vet\u00ebm bashk\u00eb sepse ishte shum\u00eb xheloz. Pranova, sepse p\u00ebr mua e r\u00ebnd\u00ebsishme ishte t\u00eb dilja me dik\u00eb, pasi m\u00ebrzitesha shum\u00eb kur shkoja direkt n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi pas shkolle.
\nNj\u00eb dit\u00eb m\u00eb tha q\u00eb donte t\u00eb m\u00eb b\u00ebnte nj\u00eb dhurat\u00eb. I thash\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb dilnim n\u00ebp\u00ebr dyqane q\u00eb t\u00eb shihnim bashk\u00eb \u00e7far\u00eb mund t\u00eb m\u00eb p\u00eblqente.
\nK\u00ebshtu, dol\u00ebm dhe m\u00eb bleu disa gj\u00ebra t\u00eb shtrenjta q\u00eb un\u00eb vet\u00ebm n\u00eb \u00ebndrra i kisha par\u00eb. Mezi po prisja t\u00eb kisha ndonj\u00eb fest\u00eb me shkoll\u00ebn q\u00eb t\u2019i vishja dhe t\u2019ua tregoja shoqeve. M\u00eb n\u00eb fund po afronte Sh\u00ebn Valentini dhe shkolla do organizonte nj\u00eb fest\u00eb. Un\u00eb u g\u00ebzova shum\u00eb dhe vendosa t\u00eb shkoja me Gonin.
\nU vesha me nj\u00eb fustan t\u00eb kadifenjt\u00eb dhe me nj\u00eb pal\u00eb \u00e7izme t\u00eb bukura t\u00eb zeza. Kur u futa brenda t\u00eb gjith\u00eb ata t\u00eb klas\u00ebs sime u habit\u00ebn e nis\u00ebn t\u00eb m\u00eb b\u00ebnin komplimente.
\nN\u00eb nj\u00eb moment, kur Goni iku jasht\u00eb me t\u00eb dashurin e Manuel\u00ebs, vajzat e klas\u00ebs nga xhelozia filluan t\u00eb m\u00eb thonin batuta t\u00eb ndryshme me ironi q\u00eb un\u00eb t\u00eb ndihesha keq. Nj\u00ebra m\u2019u afrua dhe m\u00eb tha:
\n\u201cH\u00eb mi, e paske kap veten?!\u201d
\nMua sa s\u2019m\u00eb vinte ta kapja prej flok\u00ebsh, se e di shum\u00eb mir\u00eb q\u00eb e kan\u00eb nga zilia, sepse ajo vajza q\u00eb m\u00eb tha k\u00ebshtu e p\u00eblqen p\u00ebr vete Gonin. M\u00eb kishte th\u00ebn\u00eb Manuela q\u00eb ajo vdiste p\u00ebr t\u00eb, madje at\u00eb dit\u00eb n\u00eb fest\u00eb ajo i kishte k\u00ebrkuar Gonit t\u00eb k\u00ebrcente n\u00eb nj\u00eb moment q\u00eb un\u00eb vajta n\u00eb tualet, por ai nuk kishte pranuar.
\nPasi mbaroi festa dhe ika n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi, po mendoja p\u00ebr lidhjen time. Atij njeriu i kam dhuruar edhe virgj\u00ebrin\u00eb, por nuk ndiej dashuri p\u00ebr t\u00eb. Nuk dua t\u00eb mendoj se ajo q\u00eb dua un\u00eb jan\u00eb vet\u00ebm parat\u00eb e tij, edhe pse k\u00ebto t\u00eb fundit m\u00eb kan\u00eb b\u00ebr\u00eb shum\u00eb t\u00eb lumtur. Un\u00eb nuk e ndiej m\u00eb veten inferiore ndaj shoqeve t\u00eb mia dhe mund t\u00eb plot\u00ebsoj t\u00eb gjitha d\u00ebshirat q\u00eb kam. Ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb ndihem e shfryt\u00ebzuar, sepse pasi kryejm\u00eb marr\u00ebdh\u00ebnie seksuale ai m\u00eb jep lek\u00eb dhe m\u00eb thot\u00eb:
\n\u201cBli shpirti im \u00e7far\u00eb t\u00eb t\u00eb doj\u00eb zemra, vet\u00ebm ti mos m\u2019u m\u00ebrzit!\u201d
\nMomenti kur ia marr parat\u00eb nga dora m\u00eb b\u00ebn t\u00eb ndihem keq. Nuk kam \u00e7\u2019t\u00eb b\u00ebj tjet\u00ebr!
\nNdonj\u00ebher\u00eb ndihem n\u00eb faj sepse kur ai m\u00eb thot\u00eb q\u00eb m\u00eb do, un\u00eb i p\u00ebrgjigjem: \u201cedhe un\u00eb\u201d, por brenda vetes e di q\u00eb po e g\u00ebnjej dhe m\u00eb vjen keq edhe p\u00ebr t\u00eb, pasi s\u2019po i tregoj t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00ebn. Mbase me kalimin e koh\u00ebs do t\u00eb ndiej di\u00e7ka p\u00ebr t\u00eb, mbase tani \u00ebsht\u00eb vet\u00ebm fillimi dhe nuk kam pse ta sforcoj veten time me pyetje dhe akuza t\u00eb tilla. Do t\u00eb doja shum\u00eb q\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb lidhje t\u00eb mos e merrte vesh v\u00ebllai se do t\u00eb b\u00ebhej shum\u00eb keq dhe do t\u00eb m\u00eb thoshte \u201cPse p\u00ebr k\u00eb po punoj un\u00eb, q\u00eb ti t\u00eb shoq\u00ebrohesh me njer\u00ebz t\u00eb till\u00eb p\u00ebr interes?\u201d. Do kisha shum\u00eb frik\u00eb nga paragjykimi i tij, edhe pse ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb mendoj se ai do t\u00eb mendonte p\u00ebr mua thjesht at\u00eb q\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb e v\u00ebrtet\u00eb.<\/p>\n