S\u2019e di pse kam nevoj\u00eb t\u00eb flas\u00eb sot u b\u00ebn\u00eb koh\u00eb pa folur me njeri, u b\u00ebn\u00eb koh\u00eb pa u hapur me dik\u00eb pa treguar dhimbjet q\u00eb mbart n\u00eb vetvete, pa qar\u00eb diku n\u00eb shpatull\u00ebn e dikujt q\u00eb nuk tallet me lot\u00ebt e mi, se di pse po kam\u00eb nevoj\u00eb t\u00eb flas dhe vet\u00ebm t\u00eb flas\u00eb se di pse. Po s\u2019e mbaj dot m\u00eb brenda vetes frik\u00ebn q\u00eb kam p\u00ebr ty shpirt, m\u00eb mungon tej mase, s\u2019e di ku je. Dikush m\u00eb tha q\u00eb je martuar, s\u2019e besoj, s\u2019e di pse po m\u00eb duket e pamundur q\u00eb nj\u00eb person si ti, t\u00eb arrij\u00eb t\u00eb martohet me dik\u00eb q\u00eb nuk e do, por \u00e7far\u00eb nuk ndodh n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb bot\u00eb. M\u00eb than\u00eb q\u00eb je n\u00eb vendlindje, po s\u2019e besoj, m\u00eb duket nj\u00eb \u00ebnd\u00ebrr e keqe q\u00eb m\u00eb duhet t\u00eb zgjohem, por nuk po zgjohem dot… L & K.
\nNd\u00ebrsa \u00ebndrra vazhdon t\u00eb m\u00eb gllab\u00ebroj\u00eb n\u00eb kthetrat e saj, takova v\u00ebllain t\u00ebnd para ca dit\u00ebsh, ai m\u00eb tregoi gjith\u00e7ka p\u00ebr ty p\u00ebr dasm\u00ebn t\u00ebnde, p\u00ebr m\u00ebnyr\u00ebn se si t\u00eb trajtonin. S\u2019m\u00eb prite shpirt, mbase p\u00ebr nj\u00eb jet\u00eb m\u00eb t\u00eb mir\u00eb rrezikova kaq shum\u00eb. Po \u00e7\u2019m\u00eb duhen ato para, ajo makin\u00eb kur ty s\u2019t\u00eb kam pran\u00eb, \u00e7\u2019m\u00eb duhet buz\u00ebqeshja fallco e dashnor\u00ebve kur t\u00eb kisha ty shpirt, q\u00eb dije se si t\u00eb m\u00eb b\u00ebje t\u00eb lumtur?! Eh, sa gj\u00ebra dua t\u00eb t\u00eb them, po s\u2019e di a do vij\u00eb ajo dit\u00eb q\u00eb do takohemi p\u00ebrs\u00ebri. T\u00eb dua shum\u00eb, mbase nj\u00eb dit\u00eb do vij n\u00eb qytetin t\u00ebnd t\u00eb pyes p\u00ebr ty e p\u00ebr gruan t\u00ebnde. Mbase do jesh me f\u00ebmij\u00eb, po \u00e7\u2019r\u00ebnd\u00ebsi ka, un\u00eb do t\u00eb t\u00eb dua p\u00ebrs\u00ebri nj\u00ebsoj si dit\u00ebn e par\u00eb q\u00eb u takuam n\u00eb park, \u00e7\u2019r\u00ebnd\u00ebsi ka n\u00ebse do jesh plakur apo m\u00ebrzitur nga hallet, p\u00ebrs\u00ebri do t\u00eb t\u00eb dua si dikur kur shkonim t\u00eb takoheshim. I ruaj me kujdes fotot tona mos plaken, mos t\u2019i vyshk\u00eb era dhe i ftohti. Do t\u2019i mbaj ngroht\u00eb mos ftohen, eh, thon\u00eb q\u00eb njeriu b\u00ebhet me fiksime. Mbase \u00ebsht\u00eb e v\u00ebrtet\u00eb, por ti je fiksimi im!
\nKur un\u00eb dhe ti t\u00eb mos jemi m\u00eb s\u00eb bashku, a do m\u00eb mendosh ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb? Kur t\u00eb mos kesh \u00e7far\u00eb t\u00eb b\u00ebsh mbr\u00ebmjeve t\u00eb von\u00eb. A do t\u00eb t\u00eb mungoj\u00eb z\u00ebri im n\u00eb telefon? Kur t\u00eb kesh d\u00ebgjuar nj\u00eb k\u00ebng\u00eb t\u00eb bukur, do t\u00eb m\u00eb k\u00ebrkosh q\u00eb t\u00eb ma dedikosh? Do t\u00eb jem un\u00eb i pari mendim n\u00eb m\u00ebngjes s\u00ebrisht? A do t\u00eb jem un\u00eb ajo q\u00eb t\u00eb b\u00ebn t\u00eb mendosh gjat\u00eb? Kur t\u00eb mos jemi m\u00eb ne a do ti ruash fotot e mia ende? Po gj\u00ebrat q\u00eb un\u00eb kam shkruar dhe i ruaj n\u00eb portofol a do t\u00eb mund t\u2019i mbaj\u00eb m\u00eb gjat\u00eb, ashtu si\u00e7 i ke mbajtur dikur? Kur t\u00eb mos jem m\u00eb a do t\u00eb m\u00eb kujtosh ende? Do t\u00eb mendosh q\u00eb dikur ka qen\u00eb dikush q\u00eb t\u00eb ka dashur, por q\u00eb ti s’mund t’ia ktheje me t\u00eb nj\u00ebjtin intensitet? Kur ne t\u00eb mos jemi m\u00eb bashk\u00eb a do t\u00eb m\u00eb telefonosh p\u00ebr dit\u00eblindjen time? A do t\u00eb kem mund\u00ebsin\u00eb t\u00eb d\u00ebgjoj\u00eb s\u00ebrish z\u00ebrin t\u00ebnd\u2026 qoft\u00eb edhe si nj\u00eb shok i s\u00eb kaluar\u00ebs? A do t\u00eb t\u00eb kujtohen m\u00eb gj\u00ebrat q\u00eb un\u00eb b\u00ebja dhe n\u00ebse do ti d\u00ebgjosh nga dikush tjet\u00ebr, a do t\u00eb t\u00eb marr\u00eb malli p\u00ebr mua? Pyes veten \u00e7far\u00eb v\u00ebndi do t\u00eb t\u00eb kem\u00eb un\u00eb n\u00eb zemr\u00ebn t\u00ebnde? Gjithmon\u00eb n\u00ebse do t\u00eb m\u00eb ruash si nj\u00eb kujtim. Nuk e di a do t\u2019ia fal\u00ebsh vetes t\u00eb gjitha her\u00ebt q\u00eb kam qar\u00eb p\u00ebr ty? Kur t\u00eb mos jemi m\u00eb, do t\u00eb m\u00eb mungojn\u00eb t\u00eb gjitha gjestet e tua. Kur t\u00eb mos jemi m\u00eb, do t\u00eb m\u00eb mungoj\u00eb personi q\u00eb m\u00eb k\u00ebshillonte p\u00ebr \u00e7do gj\u00eb, edhe pse un\u00eb at\u00ebhere do t\u00eb jem rritur.. Kur t\u00eb mos jemi m\u00eb\u2026 do t\u00eb m\u00eb marr\u00eb malli\u2026 do t\u00eb m\u00eb marr\u00eb malli p\u00ebr at\u00eb personin q\u00eb nuk ishte perfekt, por q\u00eb e doja me gjith\u00eb zem\u00ebr\u2026 Do t\u00eb m\u00eb marr\u00eb malli p\u00ebr t\u00eb gjitha her\u00ebt q\u00eb kam qeshur me ty, edhe p\u00ebr ato her\u00eb q\u00eb kam\u00eb qar\u00eb. Do t\u00eb m\u00eb marr\u00eb malli p\u00ebr dashurin\u00eb time, p\u00ebr t\u00eb t\u00ebra her\u00ebt q\u00eb m\u00eb ke dh\u00ebn\u00eb kurajo, p\u00ebr t\u00eb folur\u00ebn t\u00ebnde. Kur t\u00eb mos jemi m\u00eb, do t\u00eb m\u00eb marr\u00eb malli, por do t\u00eb vij\u00eb edhe nj\u00eb dit\u00eb kur un\u00eb nuk do t\u00eb jem m\u00eb p\u00ebr ty, do t\u00eb jem diku tjet\u00ebr, por tani t\u00eb them me krenarin\u00eb m\u00eb t\u00eb madhe dhe sinqeritetin n\u00eb infinit. T\u00eb kam dashur shum\u00eb, do m\u00eb mungosh. Leta.
\nSa shum\u00eb mall, sa deshperim, sa vuajtje, sa shume dashuri ndjej per ty sonte, ne kete nate e dashur. Sonte endrrat dhe kujtimet kur flisnim bashk\u00eb pa pushim edhe ne supermarket kur shkoje me mua n\u00eb telefon flisje, me kujtohen te gjitha, i kam ketu grumbulluar ne shpirtin tim ne zemren time te perlotur. M\u00eb beso ndihem i vetem ne kete bote te madhe i humbur si nje i huaj, ku n\u00eb err\u00ebsiren i harruar dhe i hidhur ne nje qoshe pa skaj. Mes \u00ebndrrash qe ti mi ke ofruar per pak ngrohtesi e per shume dashuri, tani ne zemren time mbreteron vet\u00ebm ndjenja per syt\u00eb e tu te bukur bukuroshe, sonte shoh nje dore qe s’me bindet, shoh dy sy qe te kerkojn\u00eb ty e shpirt dhe ndjej nje zemer qe ndoshta s’me perket mua, ndjej dashuri qe me perpin krejt trupin dhe pastaj shpirtin, mendimin, gjakun, nervat dhe cdo qelize te qenies time. Ti ndoshta imagjinon \u00e7\u2019do t\u00eb thot\u00eb te duash dikend ne heshtje, ne kete largesi te mallkuar, te mendosh dhe te kalosh ditet me ty ne mendje. Neta. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
S\u2019e di pse kam nevoj\u00eb t\u00eb flas\u00eb sot u b\u00ebn\u00eb koh\u00eb pa folur me njeri, u b\u00ebn\u00eb koh\u00eb pa u hapur me dik\u00eb pa treguar dhimbjet q\u00eb mbart n\u00eb vetvete, pa qar\u00eb diku n\u00eb shpatull\u00ebn e dikujt q\u00eb nuk tallet me lot\u00ebt e mi, se di pse po kam\u00eb nevoj\u00eb t\u00eb flas dhe vet\u00ebm t\u00eb […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[104],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-7809","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-mesazhe"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7809","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=7809"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7809\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=7809"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=7809"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=7809"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}