Mbr\u00ebm\u00eb t\u00eb \u00ebnd\u00ebrrova. Ishe aq i bukur, i \u00ebmb\u00ebl, i buz\u00ebqeshur si dikur. M\u00eb t\u00ebrhiqje pran\u00eb vetes dhe b\u00ebrtisje: tregoj t\u00eb gjith\u00ebve se ne t\u00eb dy duhemi! Pastaj vrapoje plot gaz fushave. E un\u00eb dehesha duke t\u00eb v\u00ebshtruar pa ndalur nga g\u00ebzimi m\u00eb rridhnin lot\u00ebt si shi. E \u00e7mendur hapa syt\u00eb dhe u ndesha me terrin e zi, me heshtjen e nat\u00ebs, me qet\u00ebsin\u00eb e vdekjes. Ti nuk ishe askund. M\u00eb kot t\u00eb k\u00ebrkova…. M\u00eb kot e thirra emrin t\u00ebnd… M\u00eb kot \u00ebnd\u00ebrrova p\u00ebrqafimin t\u00ebnd t\u00eb ngroht\u00eb… Qe sa dit\u00eb kam shpresuar q\u00eb t\u00eb t\u00eb shoh t\u00eb pakt\u00ebn n\u00eb \u00ebnd\u00ebrr q\u00eb ta shuaj mallin q\u00eb m\u00eb p\u00ebrvlon shpirtin,dhe ja sonte m\u00eb erdhe po me at\u00eb buz\u00ebqeshje t\u00eb dikurshme. Oh, kurr\u00eb s’do t\u00eb arrij ti kuptoj njer\u00ebzit kur thon\u00eb: “\u00c7do gj\u00eb harrohet,e e nes\u00ebrmja sjell diqka t\u00eb re!”. E un\u00eb kurr\u00eb nuk mund t\u00eb t\u00eb harroj, as q\u00eb do t\u00eb provoj ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb. Vitet do t\u00eb ikin, por mua do t\u00eb m\u00eb shtohet edhe m\u00eb shum\u00eb malli p\u00ebr ty! Do t\u00eb jetoj \u00e7do dit\u00eb me kujtimin t\u00ebnd t\u00eb paharruar, dhe \u00e7do nat\u00eb kur t\u00eb bie n\u00eb gjum\u00eb do t\u00eb lutem q\u00eb s’paku n\u00eb \u00ebnd\u00ebrr t\u00eb m\u00eb vish, sepse prej asaj dite q\u00eb vdekja t\u00eb mori un\u00eb mbeta t\u00eb jetoj me \u00ebndrra t\u00eb kota… Arbit.
\nSi mos t\u00eb enderroj kur ti me fale endrrat. Si mos te te besoj kur ti me ktheve besimin? O zot cdo dite te bekuar lutem qe te mos largohesh nga une. Lutem qe te vish sa me shpejt, lutem q\u00eb t\u00eb mos me braktisesh. Lutem qe te mos merzitesh kurre nga un\u00eb. Lutem qe te mos b\u00ebj dicka qe te te mund plagosi. M\u00eb fal per gjith\u00e7ka kam b\u00ebr\u00eb, per gjith\u00e7ka te ka vrare apo te ka merzitur. E di me mire se vdes sesa te te merzis ty jeta ime. M\u00eb fal per gabimet e mia, per fjalet e pakuptimta, per budalliqet. Gjithshka kam bere e kam bere nga frika se mund te largoheshe nga mua, e ashtu do me sillje vdekjen. Se une ne kete bote vetem ty te kam e vetem ty do te kem. M\u00eb fal per te gjitha e nese e ke te veshtire te pakten mundohu ta besh, e mundohu edhe te me durosh, edhe t\u00eb m\u00eb duash pak se kjo eshte gjithshka kerkoj nga jeta… vetem dashurine dhe pranine tende, dhe mos harro qe gjithshka te ndodhi cfaredo te them apo te bej, sido qe te vijne punet une nuk do rresht kurre se te dashuri. E do te te dashuroj cdo dite e me shum\u00eb. T\u00eb lutem vetem per nje gj\u00eb, ti qe ma dhe jeten te lutem mos u bej vrases, mos ma merr prape ate duke me braktisur… T\u00eb dua… Estela. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Mbr\u00ebm\u00eb t\u00eb \u00ebnd\u00ebrrova. Ishe aq i bukur, i \u00ebmb\u00ebl, i buz\u00ebqeshur si dikur. M\u00eb t\u00ebrhiqje pran\u00eb vetes dhe b\u00ebrtisje: tregoj t\u00eb gjith\u00ebve se ne t\u00eb dy duhemi! Pastaj vrapoje plot gaz fushave. E un\u00eb dehesha duke t\u00eb v\u00ebshtruar pa ndalur nga g\u00ebzimi m\u00eb rridhnin lot\u00ebt si shi. E \u00e7mendur hapa syt\u00eb dhe u ndesha me […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[104],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-6751","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-mesazhe"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6751","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=6751"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6751\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=6751"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=6751"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=6751"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}