T\u00eb dashur lexues, kur t\u00eb lexoni historin\u00eb time, do t\u00eb m\u00eb gjykoni mund t\u2019ju duket si nj\u00eb gj\u00eb q\u00eb nuk mund t\u00eb ndodh\u00eb, por ja q\u00eb mua m\u00eb ndodhi. Jam nj\u00eb burr\u00eb n\u00eb mosh\u00eb mesatare, n\u00eb fakt dhe jo shum\u00eb mesatare, sepse jam pak vje\u00e7, por nga paraqitja ngjaj me nj\u00eb 45 vje\u00e7ar. T\u00eb gjitha problemet e burrave, sipas mendimit tim, vijn\u00eb nga grat\u00eb. Shumica mendojn\u00eb nga grat\u00eb q\u00eb i kan\u00eb n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi, nd\u00ebrsa un\u00eb, nga eksperienca ime, do t\u2019ju v\u00ebrtetoj se nga gruaja e sht\u00ebpis\u00eb nuk t\u00eb vjen asnj\u00eb e keqe. E keqja p\u00ebrgatitet q\u00eb n\u00eb \u00e7astin q\u00eb nj\u00eb burr\u00eb sheh nj\u00eb fem\u00ebr tjet\u00ebr me sy dhe me q\u00ebllim q\u00eb ta b\u00ebj\u00eb p\u00ebr vete. K\u00ebshtu m\u00eb ndodhi edhe mua.
\nIsha shum\u00eb mir\u00eb me familjen time. Edhe pse nuk kisha nj\u00eb grua shum\u00eb t\u00eb bukur, e kisha pun\u00ebtore dhe pa llafe. Punonte si n\u00eb pun\u00eb, ashtu edhe n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi. Megjithat\u00eb, un\u00eb e ndihmoja shum\u00eb n\u00eb pun\u00ebt e sht\u00ebpis\u00eb, sepse m\u00eb jepet p\u00ebr k\u00ebsi pun\u00ebsh. Kishim nj\u00eb djal\u00eb 10 vje\u00e7 dhe b\u00ebnim nj\u00eb jet\u00eb familjare t\u00eb qet\u00eb. Punoja n\u00eb nj\u00eb pun\u00eb shtet\u00ebrore dhe nj\u00eb dit\u00eb m\u00eb caktuan n\u00eb nj\u00eb tjet\u00ebr vend. Ishte pozicion m\u00eb i lart\u00eb, puna ishte pak m\u00eb e v\u00ebshtir\u00eb dhe si rrjedhim, rroga, m\u00eb e lart\u00eb. Kisha punuar me shum\u00eb p\u00ebrkushtim dhe tani m\u00eb erdhi shp\u00ebrblimi. Mir\u00ebpo te puna e re ndjehesha pak si i vetmuar, sepse nuk jam dhe shum\u00eb i zoti t\u00eb formoj shoq\u00ebrin\u00eb shpejt. Jo se jam ndonj\u00eb i l\u00ebn\u00eb, por jam pak si i ngrysur dhe nga kjo, njer\u00ebzit m\u00eb rrin\u00eb larg n\u00eb fillim.
\nDal\u00ebngadal\u00eb fillova t\u00eb njihesha me disa prej tyre dhe t\u00eb kisha p\u00eblqimet e para. Ishte nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb e cila punonte n\u00eb zyr\u00ebn ngjitur. Sa her\u00eb pinim kafe dhe bisedonim me koleg\u00ebt, ajo bashkohej me mendimin tim; dukej sikur t\u00eb dy ishim dakord me t\u00eb nj\u00ebjtat gj\u00ebra. Kjo gj\u00eb po m\u00eb t\u00ebrhiqte shum\u00eb. Ndjehesha i mikluar dhe m\u00eb dukej nj\u00eb gj\u00eb e bukur dhe arg\u00ebtuese. Kisha shum\u00eb nevoj\u00eb t\u00eb rrija me vajz\u00ebn e cila m\u00eb t\u00ebrhiqte. Ajo quhej Eleni. Ishte nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb e bukur e shum\u00eb e qet\u00eb. Kishte nj\u00eb trup t\u00eb mbajtur mir\u00eb dhe sigurisht, vishej shum\u00eb bukur. Nuk doja t\u00eb interesohesha vet\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb, q\u00eb t\u00eb mos bija n\u00eb sy p\u00ebr keq, por fati na bashkoi n\u00eb nj\u00eb trajnim. Ishim caktuar un\u00eb e ajo dhe, p\u00ebr fatin tim t\u00eb mir\u00eb, trajnimi ishte n\u00eb nj\u00eb qytet tjet\u00ebr. U nis\u00ebm me makin\u00ebn time, sepse me furgon do t\u00eb vonoheshim e nuk do ta arrinim. Rrug\u00ebs, ndaluam t\u00eb pinim nj\u00eb kafe.
\n– Je shum\u00eb i zoti n\u00eb pun\u00eb! – tha ajo.
\n– Faleminderit! Ne t\u00eb vjetrit na ndihmon eksperienca.
\n– M\u00eb falni, ju i vjet\u00ebr? Haha \u2013 qeshi ajo. – Ju jeni nj\u00eb burr\u00eb q\u00eb shum\u00eb ju kan\u00eb zili.
\n– Po m\u00eb rriten vesh\u00ebt! Nuk ma thon\u00eb shpesh k\u00ebt\u00eb!
\n– Ju kan\u00eb inat, prandaj.
\nU k\u00ebnaqa nga fjal\u00ebt q\u00eb m\u00eb tha. U b\u00ebra me krah\u00eb dhe mendova se isha me t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb me fat. N\u00eb trajnim isha shum\u00eb mir\u00eb, ndjehesha i plot\u00ebsuar dhe alegro. Pastaj, kur h\u00ebngr\u00ebm drek\u00ebn, ajo m\u00eb foli p\u00ebr jet\u00ebn e saj. Ishte e fejuar dhe s\u00eb shpejti do t\u00eb martohej. Kishte ambicie p\u00ebr t\u00eb ecur para dhe m\u00eb tha se ishte me fat q\u00eb u njoh me mua, q\u00eb ta ndihmoja n\u00eb karrier\u00ebn e saj.
\nDhe k\u00ebshtu, un\u00eb u afrova me k\u00ebt\u00eb vajz\u00eb. Ajo m\u00eb kishte ndezur nj\u00eb zjarr n\u00eb zem\u00ebr dhe ndjehesha gati 20 vjet m\u00eb i ri. E m\u00ebsoja se si t\u00eb punonte dhe t\u00eb ishte sa m\u00eb e aft\u00eb, q\u00eb t\u00eb binte n\u00eb sy, mir\u00ebpo bashk\u00eb me k\u00ebt\u00eb rriteshin edhe ndjenjat e mia p\u00ebr t\u00eb. Ia shpreha k\u00ebt\u00eb dhe ajo pranoi menj\u00ebher\u00eb, pa nj\u00eb, pa dy. Filloi nj\u00eb histori dashurie e zjarrt\u00eb… Shkonim bashk\u00eb kudo dhe k\u00ebnaqeshim, sepse ajo ishte nj\u00eb fem\u00ebr e v\u00ebrtet\u00eb dhe jo si gruaja q\u00eb kisha n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi. Sa her\u00eb shkoja n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi, gruaja m\u00eb thoshte:
\n– M\u00eb dhemb koka, m\u00eb dhemb shpina, u lodha me pun\u00ebt e sht\u00ebpis\u00eb… – e k\u00ebto gj\u00ebra m\u00eb b\u00ebnim ta doja m\u00eb shum\u00eb kolegen.
\nEdhe ishte m\u00eb e re, sigurisht. Kishte trupin e bukur dhe m\u00eb p\u00ebrkushtohej 100 p\u00ebr qind mua. Nganj\u00ebher\u00eb b\u00ebhesha xheloz p\u00ebr t\u00eb fejuarin e saj. Asaj nuk ia thosha, por mua m\u00eb brente shum\u00eb mendimi se si sillej ajo me t\u00eb. A b\u00ebnte me t\u00eb gj\u00ebrat q\u00eb b\u00ebnte me mua? Ajo dukej se nuk ishte shum\u00eb e lidhur me t\u00eb. Sa her\u00eb ishim bashk\u00eb, nuk i binte asnj\u00ebher\u00eb telefoni dhe kur un\u00eb e pyeta nj\u00ebher\u00eb se kush ishte kur i ra zilja, m\u2019u p\u00ebrgjigj:
\n– Ai! – vet\u00ebm kaq dhe nuk shtoi asgj\u00eb tjet\u00ebr.
\nPra, lumturia m\u00eb kishte pushtuar. Mir\u00ebpo gj\u00ebrat tep\u00ebr t\u00eb lumtura jan\u00eb pak si t\u00eb d\u00ebshtuara dhe nuk zgjasin shum\u00eb. Ajo kishte aplikuar p\u00ebr nj\u00eb pun\u00eb n\u00eb ministri dhe m\u00eb k\u00ebrkoi ta ndihmoja me njohjet e mia. Un\u00eb nuk e b\u00ebra dysh dhe ajo fitoi, por un\u00eb u m\u00ebrzita shum\u00eb kur ajo iku nga zyra. Isha m\u00ebsuar ta kisha gjithmon\u00eb pran\u00eb dhe e dija se do ta ndjeja shum\u00eb munges\u00ebn e saj. Ajo ishte p\u00ebr mua inspirim p\u00ebr gjith\u00e7ka. Pasi filloi pun\u00eb, kaloi nj\u00eb koh\u00eb gati tre jav\u00eb dhe nuk u takuam. Kur e merrja n\u00eb telefon, ajo m\u00eb thoshte se e kishte marr\u00eb malli shum\u00eb, por ishte shum\u00eb e z\u00ebn\u00eb. Fiks pas nj\u00eb muaji, u takuam. Ajo kishte marr\u00eb nj\u00eb nur t\u00eb mahnitsh\u00ebm. Kuptova se mua m\u00eb kishte marr\u00eb m\u00eb shum\u00eb malli se at\u00eb, pasi ajo ishte pak si m\u00eb e ftoht\u00eb.
\n– \u00c7\u2019ke k\u00ebshtu! Nuk je e k\u00ebnaqur q\u00eb m\u00eb takove?
\n– Sigurisht, vet\u00ebm se jam pak e lodhur nga puna e re.
\n– Mendova se ke nd\u00ebrruar mendje p\u00ebr mua.
\n– Jo \u2013 tha n\u00eb nj\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb q\u00eb m\u00eb b\u00ebri t\u00eb dyshoja se ajo nuk ndjente t\u00eb nj\u00ebjt\u00ebn gj\u00eb si un\u00eb.
\n\u201cMos ka z\u00ebn\u00eb ndonj\u00eb tjet\u00ebr?\u201d, mendova. Jo, nuk do t\u00eb kishte mund\u00ebsi. Ajo mua m\u00eb donte m\u00eb shum\u00eb se t\u00eb fejuarin e saj. Nejse, ndoshta me v\u00ebrtet\u00eb ishte e lodhur nga puna. Takimet tona tani ishin t\u00eb rralla. Un\u00eb isha b\u00ebr\u00eb si i xhindosur si n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi, ashtu edhe n\u00eb pun\u00eb. N\u00eb takimin e fundit me t\u00eb, mora vesh se ishte martuar. Kishte b\u00ebr\u00eb nj\u00eb dasm\u00eb t\u00eb madhe dhe donte t\u00eb ftonte edhe nga kolektivi yn\u00eb, por nuk mundej. Ajo n\u00eb shtrat ishte e zjarrt\u00eb, edhe pse takoheshim rrall\u00eb, por ndjeja se dashuria nuk po m\u00eb kthehej.
\n– Tani q\u00eb jam e martuar, do ta kemi m\u00eb t\u00eb v\u00ebshtir\u00eb t\u00eb takohemi – m\u00eb tha. \u2013 kur jetoja te prind\u00ebrit i g\u00ebnjeja kollaj, por tani burrin nuk kam si ta g\u00ebnjej. Sot i thash\u00eb se do t\u00eb shkoja nga mami, meq\u00eb ishte vet\u00ebm, por po t\u00eb shikoi ai, nuk e di se \u00e7far\u00eb t\u2019i them.
\n– Un\u00eb t\u00eb dua dhe nuk mund t\u00eb jetoj pa ty. Megjithat\u00eb, nuk dua t\u00eb t\u00eb prish pun\u00eb. Ti mundohu t\u00eb takohesh me mua, sepse un\u00eb pa ty nuk mund t\u00eb marr frym\u00eb, por pa e prishur lidhjen me t\u00eb. Do t\u00eb jet\u00eb babai i f\u00ebmij\u00ebve t\u00eb tu… \u2013 e provokova p\u00ebr t\u00eb ditur se si po ecte lidhja e tyre.
\n– Tani po! Un\u00eb e kam mendjen te karriera, \u00ebsht\u00eb her\u00ebt p\u00ebr f\u00ebmij\u00eb – un\u00eb mendova se do t\u00eb thoshte se nuk donte f\u00ebmij\u00eb nga ai, por v\u00ebrtetova se ajo tani nuk ishte 100 p\u00ebr qind e imja.
\nT\u00eb tat\u00ebpjet\u00ebn mori kjo lidhje e t\u00eb tat\u00ebpjet\u00ebn mori edhe puna ime. Isha shum\u00eb i shp\u00ebrqendruar dhe kisha ngat\u00ebrruar t\u00eb gjitha sektor\u00ebt. Ishte krijuar nj\u00eb l\u00ebmsh i madh dhe nuk e dija si do ta zgjidhja. M\u00eb thirri drejtori dhe m\u00eb tha se ajo q\u00eb kisha b\u00ebr\u00eb, ishte shum\u00eb e r\u00ebnd\u00eb. Duhej se s\u2019b\u00ebn t\u00eb rregulloja sektor\u00ebt ashtu si\u00e7 ishin. N\u00eb fakt, un\u00eb nuk e di si m\u00eb kishin fluturuar t\u00eb gjitha idet\u00eb q\u00eb i kisha gjithmon\u00eb t\u00eb gatshme n\u00eb kok\u00eb. U b\u00eb nj\u00eb katrahur\u00eb dhe drejtori m\u00eb propozoi t\u00eb jepja dor\u00ebheqjen. E gjitha kjo do t\u00eb kishte ndonj\u00eb arsye. Un\u00eb e di se isha pak i hutuar, por nuk kishte se si t\u00eb mungonte ndonj\u00eb dor\u00eb tjet\u00ebr.
\nShkova n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi dhe hoqa \u00e7do mendim nga koka. E dija se ajo nuk do t\u00eb kthehej m\u00eb nga un\u00eb dhe ia mbylla vetes k\u00ebt\u00eb \u00e7\u00ebshtje. U p\u00ebrqendrova te puna. Isha i suksessh\u00ebm sepse gjithmon\u00eb ruaja shum\u00eb dokumente. I kisha ruajtur si n\u00eb kompjuterin e pun\u00ebs, ashtu edhe n\u00eb at\u00eb t\u00eb sht\u00ebpis\u00eb. Iu futa pun\u00ebs p\u00ebr t\u00eb zbuluar se si arriti puna deri aty. Pas nj\u00eb nate t\u00eb t\u00ebr\u00eb zgjuar, e gjeta gabimin. Dikush ma kishte p\u00ebrgatitur k\u00ebt\u00eb kurth. E dija se kush. Ajo q\u00eb mbajta m\u00eb shum\u00eb af\u00ebr meje… T\u00eb nes\u00ebrmen shkova n\u00eb pun\u00eb dhe u futa n\u00eb zyr\u00eb. M\u00eb mori drejtori n\u00eb telefon dhe m\u00eb k\u00ebrkoi t\u00eb shkoja n\u00eb zyr\u00ebn e tij. Fillova t\u2019i shpjegoja at\u00eb q\u00eb kisha zbuluar, por ai ma preu shkurt:
\n– T\u00eb ka ardhur letra e shkarkimit. Vendi yt \u00ebsht\u00eb z\u00ebn\u00eb.
\n– Si?
\nAi u mundua t\u00eb ma shpjegonte, por ishte e kot\u00eb. Mora vesh se m\u00eb kishte z\u00ebvend\u00ebsuar v\u00ebllai i saj. Ajo e kishte b\u00ebr\u00eb gjith\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb vinte v\u00ebllain e saj. Ishte treguar aq e ul\u00ebt sa m\u00eb vinte ndoht q\u00eb kisha patur nj\u00eb lidhje me t\u00eb. E prita sa t\u00eb mbaronte pun\u00ebn dhe i dola p\u00ebrpara te shkall\u00ebt e ministris\u00eb.
\n– U tregove shum\u00eb e zonja! M\u00eb the mua se jam i zoti dhe dole ti super e zonja.
\n– M\u00eb fal, po \u00e7\u2019ke q\u00eb je kaq i zem\u00ebruar? Pse ke ardhur k\u00ebtu? Se mos na shohin dhe marrin vesh historin\u00eb ton\u00eb. Pse nuk m\u00eb telefonove? Eja, futemi n\u00eb kafe.
\nPranova, se dhe vet\u00eb nuk doja t\u00eb m\u00eb shihte njeri duke folur me t\u00eb, aq m\u00eb tep\u00ebr q\u00eb n\u00eb ministri kisha shum\u00eb shok\u00eb. Sapo u ul\u00ebm, ajo u mundua t\u00eb m\u00eb qet\u00ebsonte.
\n– Pse nuk m\u00eb telefonove? Do t\u00eb gjeja nj\u00eb hap\u00ebsir\u00eb e do t\u00eb t\u00eb qet\u00ebsoja.
\n– Sepse doja t\u00eb ta thoja n\u00eb sy e t\u00eb t\u00eb shija se si do t\u00eb reagoje. Ashtu si t\u00eb vura ty n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb pun\u00eb q\u00eb je, ashtu do t\u00eb vija edhe v\u00ebllain t\u00ebnd. Nuk kishe pse t\u00eb m\u00eb ngrije nj\u00eb kurth t\u00eb till\u00eb.
\nAjo uli kok\u00ebn dhe nuk foli.
\n– Nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb ashtu si mendon ti…
\n– Po si \u00ebsht\u00eb? Mir\u00eb ma b\u00ebre! Un\u00eb prap\u00eb do t\u00eb arrij atje ku isha, sepse \u00e7do gj\u00eb e kam b\u00ebr\u00eb me kok\u00eb dhe me mend, nd\u00ebrsa ti q\u00eb p\u00ebrdore… do t\u00eb biesh m\u00eb posht\u00eb nga \u00e7\u2019ke qen\u00eb.
\n– Nuk t\u00eb lejoj t\u00eb flas\u00ebsh k\u00ebshtu! Un\u00eb…
\n– N\u00eb fakt, nuk do t\u00eb d\u00ebgjosh m\u00eb shum\u00eb fjal\u00eb nga un\u00eb. Fjala e fundit \u00ebsht\u00eb kjo: Ruaju shum\u00eb nga un\u00eb. Q\u00eb nga ky moment, shijo \u00e7do dit\u00eb n\u00eb at\u00eb pozicion q\u00eb je, sepse edhe pak do ta kesh k\u00ebt\u00eb k\u00ebnaq\u00ebsi!
\nE lash\u00eb ashtu n\u00eb kafe t\u00eb shushatur dhe u ktheva n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi. Aty m\u00eb priste gruaja, q\u00eb m\u00eb pa dhe m\u00eb tha:
\n– \u00c7\u2019ke, pse je i m\u00ebrzitur?
\n– Ja, m\u00eb hoq\u00ebn nga puna!
\n– Mos u m\u00ebrzit, ti do t\u00eb gjesh shum\u00eb shpejt pun\u00eb tjet\u00ebr! Vet\u00ebm m\u00eb vjen keq se ndjeheshe shum\u00eb mir\u00eb kur ishe atje… – m\u00eb tha ajo, m\u00eb puthi dhe u largua.
\nN\u00eb kok\u00ebn time m\u00eb osh\u00ebtinin fjal\u00ebt e saj… Sa grua fisnike ishte!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
T\u00eb dashur lexues, kur t\u00eb lexoni historin\u00eb time, do t\u00eb m\u00eb gjykoni mund t\u2019ju duket si nj\u00eb gj\u00eb q\u00eb nuk mund t\u00eb ndodh\u00eb, por ja q\u00eb mua m\u00eb ndodhi. Jam nj\u00eb burr\u00eb n\u00eb mosh\u00eb mesatare, n\u00eb fakt dhe jo shum\u00eb mesatare, sepse jam pak vje\u00e7, por nga paraqitja ngjaj me nj\u00eb 45 vje\u00e7ar. T\u00eb gjitha […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":6100,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[94],"tags":[282],"class_list":["post-6099","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-histori-nga-jeta","tag-histori-nga-jeta-2"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6099","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=6099"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6099\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/6100"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=6099"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=6099"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=6099"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}