Jam nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb nga Tirana, 23 vje\u00e7e, q\u00eb dua t\u00eb ngelem anonime. Kam lexuar n\u00eb gazet\u00ebn tuaj shum\u00eb histori t\u00eb bukura e t\u00eb trishtuara dhe doja q\u00eb edhe un\u00eb t\u00eb tregoja historin\u00eb time, q\u00eb ka filluar n\u00eb mosh\u00ebn 20-vje\u00e7are e q\u00eb vazhdon akoma. Shpresoj q\u00eb nj\u00eb dit\u00eb shum\u00eb t\u00eb af\u00ebrt, t\u00eb nis\u00eb nj\u00eb epok\u00eb e re n\u00eb jet\u00ebn time. Isha nj\u00eb studente n\u00eb Universitetin Ekonomik t\u00eb Tiran\u00ebs. E fitova k\u00ebt\u00eb shkoll\u00eb me forcat e mia, me notat q\u00eb kisha nxjer\u00eb n\u00eb gjimnaz. Gjith\u00e7ka po shkonte m\u00eb s\u00eb miri deri kur babai im b\u00ebri aksident, u paralizua dhe gjith\u00eb jeta e tij u mbyll mes kat\u00ebr mureve, n\u00eb nj\u00eb karrige me rrota. Babai im nuk ishte m\u00ebsuar t\u00eb rrinte i mbyllur mes kat\u00ebr mureve t\u00eb asaj sht\u00ebpie. \u00c7do dit\u00eb ai ishte m\u00ebsuar t\u00eb shkonte n\u00eb pun\u00eb dhe n\u00eb dark\u00eb, shpesh, luante shah me shok\u00ebt e tij. Ngaq\u00eb ishte nj\u00eb person q\u00eb nuk rrinte dot n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi, filloi t\u00eb stresohej, nuk hante, nuk fliste me njeri dhe shpeshher\u00eb, reagonte shum\u00eb ashp\u00ebr kundrejt nesh. Nuk kishte nat\u00eb q\u00eb nuk qaja. Kur zgjohesha n\u00eb m\u00ebngjes, isha me sy t\u00eb enjtur dhe b\u00ebja sa m\u00eb shum\u00eb makiazh, q\u00eb t\u00eb mos m\u00eb dallonin n\u00eb shkoll\u00eb. N\u00eb shkoll\u00eb isha nj\u00eb nd\u00ebr studentet m\u00eb t\u00eb mira t\u00eb universitetit, por kjo fatkeq\u00ebsi q\u00eb m\u00eb ndodhi m\u00eb b\u00ebri t\u00eb bie shum\u00eb nga m\u00ebsimet, nuk m\u00eb b\u00ebhej t\u2019i prekja librat me dor\u00eb. Pothuajse t\u00eb gjith\u00eb si sht\u00ebpi po kalonim n\u00eb stres. Ne sht\u00ebpin\u00eb ton\u00eb kishte mbizot\u00ebruar trishtimi dhe varf\u00ebria. T\u00eb ardhurat u pak\u00ebsuan n\u00eb gjys\u00ebm, ndoshta m\u00eb shum\u00eb se n\u00eb gjys\u00ebm. Un\u00eb isha nj\u00eb studente dhe sigurisht, duhet t\u00eb kisha para. N\u00eb vitin e par\u00eb t\u00eb universitetit, isha m\u00ebsuar t\u00eb dilja me shoqet n\u00eb kafe dhe shpesh organizonim edhe fundjavat larg sht\u00ebpis\u00eb, por tashm\u00eb s\u2019kishte m\u00eb p\u00ebr mua kafe e xhiro me shoq\u00ebrin\u00eb. Sa mbaroja shkoll\u00ebn, vija n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi se nuk kisha para t\u00eb dilja. Shoq\u00ebria me merrte n\u00eb telefon e m\u00eb th\u00ebrriste t\u00eb dilnim dhe un\u00eb gjithmon\u00eb nxirja justifikime nga m\u00eb t\u00eb ndryshmet. Po e shikoja q\u00eb nuk mund t\u00eb vazhdoja m\u00eb ashtu dhe vendosa t\u00eb futesha n\u00eb nj\u00eb pun\u00eb ku t\u00eb merrja nj\u00eb pages\u00eb t\u00eb mir\u00eb dhe nd\u00ebrkoh\u00eb, t\u00eb vazhdoja edhe shkoll\u00ebn. Po k\u00ebrkoja gjithandej, por nuk gjeta asnj\u00eb pun\u00eb. Shum\u00eb k\u00ebrkonin eksperienc\u00eb, di\u00e7ka q\u00eb un\u00eb nuk e kisha. N\u00eb shum\u00eb raste t\u00eb tjera, binim n\u00eb kund\u00ebrshtim me orarin q\u00eb doja un\u00eb, se n\u00eb m\u00ebngjes isha n\u00eb shkoll\u00eb. Nuk m\u00eb ngeli zgjidhje tjet\u00ebr ve\u00e7se t\u00eb punoja si kubiste n\u00eb klubet e nat\u00ebs. Shkova n\u00eb nj\u00eb klub dhe direkt m\u00eb pranuan, e para se kishin nevoj\u00eb p\u00ebr nj\u00eb kubiste dhe e dyta, se un\u00eb isha e paraqitshme dhe sigurisht, do t\u00ebrhiqja klient\u00ebt. Me pranuan dhe vazhdova nat\u00ebn e par\u00eb. Ishte e tmerrshme! Gjith\u00eb koh\u00ebn isha e frik\u00ebsuar, por isha e detyruar ta b\u00ebja at\u00eb pun\u00eb se p\u00ebrndryshe do dilnim t\u00eb k\u00ebrkonim para n\u00eb rrug\u00eb, pasi gjendja n\u00eb familjen time u b\u00eb shum\u00eb keq. Nga nata n\u00eb nat\u00eb, fillova t\u00eb ambientohesha. Shum\u00eb klient\u00eb t\u00eb lokalit m\u00eb k\u00ebrkonin t\u00eb kaloja edhe nat\u00ebn me ta. N\u00eb fillim, kur u futa n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb pun\u00eb, pronari nuk m\u00eb tha q\u00eb un\u00eb duhet t\u00eb kryeja marr\u00ebdh\u00ebnie edhe me klient\u00ebt q\u00eb e k\u00ebrkonin k\u00ebt\u00eb sh\u00ebrbim. Un\u00eb isha 20 vje\u00e7e, kisha patur t\u00eb dashur, por asnj\u00ebher\u00eb nuk kisha shkuar me t\u00eb. Isha e virgj\u00ebr.<\/p>\n
Nat\u00ebn e par\u00eb q\u00eb m\u00eb k\u00ebrkuan t\u00eb b\u00ebja seks, nuk pranova. Bisedova me pronarin t\u00eb nesermen dhe ai m\u00eb tha se, ose duhet t\u00eb shkoja me klient\u00ebt, ose do t\u00eb m\u00eb hiqte nga puna. Un\u00eb pranova t\u00eb rrija n\u00eb pun\u00eb dhe t\u00eb kryeja marr\u00ebdh\u00ebnie me klient\u00ebt; ishte urdh\u00ebr nga pronari. Kisha frik\u00eb se kisha d\u00ebgjuar nga shoqet e mia q\u00eb hera e par\u00eb ishte shum\u00eb e v\u00ebshtir\u00eb. N\u00eb fakt, ishte e v\u00ebrtet\u00eb, ashtu m\u00eb ndodhi. M\u2019u duk e tmerrshme. Kaloi ajo nat\u00eb, q\u00eb u pasua edhe shum\u00eb t\u00eb tj\u00ebra pas saj. Frika m\u00eb e madhe q\u00eb kisha ishte se mos merrja ndonj\u00eb s\u00ebmundje. Gjithmon\u00eb gjat\u00eb marr\u00ebdh\u00ebnieve p\u00ebrdorja kontraceptiv\u00eb, q\u00eb t\u00eb mos ngelesha shtatz\u00ebn\u00eb. Fatkeq\u00ebsisht, isha edhe jetime nga n\u00ebna, e cila m\u00eb la n\u00eb mosh\u00ebn 7-vje\u00e7are dhe motr\u00ebn tjet\u00ebr 5 vje\u00e7e. Motra, n\u00eb at\u00eb koh\u00eb, ishte 18 vje\u00e7e dhe ishte maturante at\u00eb vit. Sigurisht, edhe ajo ishte e shk\u00eblqyer me m\u00ebsime.
\nUn\u00eb duhej t\u00eb punoja gjith\u00eb nat\u00ebn dhe n\u00eb m\u00ebngjes duhet t\u00eb shkoja n\u00eb shkoll\u00eb. Zgjati k\u00ebshtu nj\u00eb muaj, para po fitoja, por \u00e7do dit\u00eb po tretesha, ishte shum\u00eb e v\u00ebshtir\u00eb p\u00ebr mua t\u00eb punoja nat\u00ebn dhe t\u00eb shkoja n\u00eb shkoll\u00eb dit\u00ebn. E shtyva nj\u00eb muaj ashtu dhe nj\u00eb dit\u00eb m\u00eb ra t\u00eb fik\u00ebt n\u00eb klas\u00eb. Direkt m\u00eb \u00e7uan n\u00eb urgjenc\u00eb. Pasi m\u00eb b\u00ebn\u00eb nj\u00eb serum, m\u00eb \u00e7uan n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi. Nuk mund t\u00eb vazhdoja m\u00eb ashtu. Duhet t\u00eb vendosja; ose shkoll\u00ebn, ose pun\u00ebn. Pun\u00ebn nuk mund ta lija se me at\u00eb ushqeja veten, motr\u00ebn dhe babain, k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb u detyrova ta l\u00eb shkoll\u00ebn; nuk kisha zgjidhje tjet\u00ebr. Q\u00eb prej asaj dite q\u00eb m\u00eb ra t\u00eb fik\u00ebt, un\u00eb nuk u pash\u00eb m\u00eb n\u00eb shkoll\u00eb. Pushoja gjat\u00eb dit\u00ebs dhe nat\u00ebn m\u00eb duhej t\u00eb shkoja n\u00eb pun\u00eb. Jam b\u00ebr\u00eb tjet\u00ebr njeri dhe k\u00ebt\u00eb gj\u00eb e vuaj \u00e7do dit\u00eb e m\u00eb shum\u00eb. Kam humbur shoq\u00ebrin\u00eb, pasi sapo e mor\u00ebn vesh q\u00eb punoja n\u00eb nj\u00eb klub nate, m\u00eb shohin n\u00eb rrug\u00eb dhe nuk m\u00eb flasim m\u00eb. Tani kam shoq\u00ebri vet\u00ebm me femra q\u00eb kan\u00eb pasur fatin tim. Shpresoj q\u00eb nj\u00eb dit\u00eb t\u00eb largohem nga kjo rrug\u00eb ku jam futur dhe t\u00eb krijoj nj\u00eb familje; kjo \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb \u00ebnd\u00ebr q\u00eb e \u00ebnd\u00ebrroj \u00e7do dit\u00eb. Tani jam n\u00eb nj\u00eb gjendje t\u00eb mir\u00eb ekonomike, por e d\u00ebrrmuar shpirt\u00ebrisht. Kjo, pra, ishte edhe jeta ime plot fatkeq\u00ebsi dhe vuajtje. Nuk ia uroj asnj\u00eb femre t\u00eb kaloj\u00eb n\u00eb gjurm\u00ebt e mia.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Jam nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb nga Tirana, 23 vje\u00e7e, q\u00eb dua t\u00eb ngelem anonime. Kam lexuar n\u00eb gazet\u00ebn tuaj shum\u00eb histori t\u00eb bukura e t\u00eb trishtuara dhe doja q\u00eb edhe un\u00eb t\u00eb tregoja historin\u00eb time, q\u00eb ka filluar n\u00eb mosh\u00ebn 20-vje\u00e7are e q\u00eb vazhdon akoma. Shpresoj q\u00eb nj\u00eb dit\u00eb shum\u00eb t\u00eb af\u00ebrt, t\u00eb nis\u00eb nj\u00eb epok\u00eb e […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":5825,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[95],"tags":[254],"class_list":["post-5824","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-rrefime-mekatesh","tag-histori-personale"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5824","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=5824"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5824\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/5825"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=5824"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=5824"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=5824"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}