P\u00ebrsh\u00ebndetje redaksia e gazet\u00ebs \u201cIntervista\u201d! Jam Suela (faktikisht, ky nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb emri im i v\u00ebrtet\u00eb, por dua t\u00eb mbetem anonime). Historia q\u00eb do t\u2019ju tregoj ka rreth nj\u00eb jav\u00eb q\u00eb m\u00eb ka ndodhur. Nuk i kam folur askujt p\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb gj\u00eb, ndaj dhe zgjodha gazet\u00ebn tuaj p\u00ebr t\u2019u rr\u00ebfyer, sepse kam me t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb shum\u00eb nevoj\u00eb. Kjo q\u00eb kam b\u00ebr\u00eb m\u00eb b\u00ebn t\u00eb ndihem shum\u00eb n\u00eb faj sepse n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb l\u00ebmsh t\u00eb madh q\u00eb u krijua jan\u00eb n\u00eb loj\u00eb ndershm\u00ebria ime, i dashuri im, personi tjet\u00ebr q\u00eb kishte gjithashtu nj\u00eb pjes\u00eb t\u00eb fajit dhe familja e tij. Un\u00eb dua q\u00eb atyre q\u00eb jan\u00eb l\u00ebnduar t\u2019u k\u00ebrkoj t\u00eb falur, por besoj se kjo nuk ka p\u00ebr t\u00eb ndodhur asnj\u00ebher\u00eb drejtp\u00ebrdrejt sepse nuk kam guximin e duhur p\u00ebr ta b\u00ebr\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb gj\u00eb.<\/p>\n
Jam studente n\u00eb vit t\u00eb par\u00eb n\u00eb nj\u00eb fakultet t\u00eb Tiran\u00ebs. Ky \u00ebsht\u00eb viti i par\u00eb q\u00eb banoj k\u00ebtu sepse kam lindur e jam rritur n\u00eb Lushnj\u00eb. Kam marr\u00eb nj\u00eb sht\u00ebpi me qira bashk\u00eb me tre shoqe t\u00eb miat, q\u00eb gjithashtu jan\u00eb nga Lushnja.
\nJo shum\u00eb koh\u00eb pasi erdha k\u00ebtu u lidha me nj\u00eb djal\u00eb t\u00eb klas\u00ebs sime, i cili m\u00eb p\u00eblqeu q\u00eb n\u00eb momentin e par\u00eb q\u00eb u pam\u00eb. Filluam t\u00eb dilnim p\u00ebr kafe dhe ai m\u00eb p\u00eblqeu. K\u00ebshtu, u lidh\u00ebm. Kam kuptuar q\u00eb kam nj\u00eb ndjenj\u00eb t\u00eb ve\u00e7ant\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb dhe i kam treguar edhe mamit e motr\u00ebs ne Lushnj\u00eb. Edhe ai m\u00eb do shum\u00eb dhe m\u00eb ka premtuar q\u00eb kur t\u00eb mbarojm\u00eb shkoll\u00ebn e lart\u00eb do fejohemi.
\nSapo u mbyll sezoni i provimeve t\u00eb cilat un\u00eb kisha synimin t\u2019i merrja me rezultate sa m\u00eb t\u00eb larta. Edhe n\u00eb gjimnaz kam patur nota shum\u00eb t\u00eb mira se gjithnj\u00eb kam qen\u00eb tip studioz. Sigurisht q\u00eb leksionet e universitetit jan\u00eb m\u00eb t\u00eb v\u00ebshtira, por un\u00eb m\u00ebsova p\u00ebr dit\u00eb t\u00eb t\u00ebra. Kam ndjekur me interes \u00e7do leksion dhe nuk kam munguar asnj\u00ebher\u00eb n\u00ebp\u00ebr seminare. Nga t\u00eb gjitha l\u00ebnd\u00ebt vet\u00ebm nj\u00ebr\u00ebn e kisha paksa t\u00eb v\u00ebshtir\u00eb p\u00ebr ta kuptuar. Kisha d\u00ebgjuar t\u00eb flitej se ai profesori q\u00eb ma jepte k\u00ebt\u00eb l\u00ebnd\u00eb ishte shum\u00eb i rrept\u00eb, sa edhe pes\u00ebn me zor ta vinte. P\u00ebrve\u00e7 k\u00ebtyre m\u00eb kishin ardhur edhe llafe t\u00eb tjera n\u00eb vesh q\u00eb ngacmon shum\u00eb gocat etj. N\u00eb fakt, gjat\u00eb or\u00ebve t\u00eb m\u00ebsimit me t\u00eb mua nuk m\u00eb ra n\u00eb sy nj\u00eb gj\u00eb e till\u00eb, bile ai m\u00eb dukej shum\u00eb i sert\u00eb me femrat. Edhe n\u00eb korridor nuk i fliste asnjeriu. Pyetjeve t\u00eb testit t\u00eb atij provimi mendoja se u isha p\u00ebrgjigjur shum\u00eb mir\u00eb, ndaj edhe u habita kur profesori m\u00eb kishte vler\u00ebsuar me not\u00ebn kat\u00ebr.
\nGjithsesi, vendosa t\u00eb m\u00ebsoja edhe m\u00eb shum\u00eb q\u00eb n\u00eb riprovim (se me k\u00ebt\u00eb kart\u00ebn e re t\u00eb Bolonj\u00ebs ke t\u00eb drejt\u00eb ta jap\u00ebsh provimin dy her\u00eb brenda sezonit n\u00ebse ke ngelur) t\u00eb mund t\u00eb merrja not\u00ebn q\u00eb d\u00ebshiroja. Dat\u00ebn e riprovimit kur hyra n\u00eb klas\u00eb, profesori shp\u00ebrndau flet\u00ebt dhe tha:
\n\u201cJu uroj suksese!\u201d
\nM\u00eb pas buz\u00ebqeshi edhe pa k\u00ebtej nga un\u00eb.
\n\u201cUa\u201d, thash\u00eb me vete, \u201chera e par\u00eb q\u00eb e shoh k\u00ebt\u00eb njeri t\u00eb buz\u00ebqesh\u00eb!\u201d
\nUn\u00eb fillova t\u00eb shkruaja, por sa her\u00eb ngrija kok\u00ebn vija re q\u00eb ai m\u00eb hidhte ca v\u00ebshtrime t\u00eb \u00e7uditshme. Pastaj, k\u00ebto shikime po b\u00ebheshin m\u00eb t\u00eb shpeshta dhe po m\u00eb bezdisnin aq shum\u00eb sa i thash\u00eb vetes: \u201cShkruaj aty shpejt dhe mos e shih m\u00eb!\u201d.
\nKur mbarova dhe dor\u00ebzova flet\u00ebn ai m\u00eb tha me z\u00eb t\u00eb ul\u00ebt:
\n\u201cPrit aty jasht\u00eb!\u201d
\nUn\u00eb dola dhe po mendoja \u201cPo ky?\u201d. At\u00ebhere m\u2019u kujtuan fjal\u00ebt q\u00eb kisha d\u00ebgjuar p\u00ebr t\u00eb, por nuk doja t\u00eb besoja se ishin t\u00eb v\u00ebrteta. Gjithsesi, mendova se duhet t\u00eb prisja. Pas dy minutash ai doli n\u00eb korridor dhe pasi pa rreth e rrotull se mos kishte njeri, m\u00eb tha:
\n\u201cSuela, un\u00eb e pash\u00eb q\u00eb tek provimi i par\u00eb nuk kishe dal\u00eb mir\u00eb dhe edhe n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb t\u00eb dytin s\u2019besoj se do kesh ndonj\u00eb p\u00ebrmir\u00ebsim. Tani \u00ebsht\u00eb vet\u00ebm n\u00eb dor\u00ebn t\u00ebnde n\u00eb do ta kalosh apo jo!\u201d.
\nDhe n\u00ebnqeshi.
\nM\u00eb k\u00ebrkoi numrin e telefonit dhe nuk e di \u00e7far\u00eb m\u00eb shtyu t\u2019ia jepja. Mbase fakti se un\u00eb kisha shum\u00eb nevoj\u00eb p\u00ebr nj\u00eb not\u00eb t\u00eb mir\u00eb (sepse e di q\u00eb do t\u00eb m\u00eb duhet mesatarja p\u00ebr nj\u00eb vend t\u00eb mir\u00eb pune n\u00eb t\u00eb ardhmen). Ju do mendoni se ky nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb justifikim, por duhet t\u00eb keni parasysh se ai nuk m\u00eb la shum\u00eb mund\u00ebsi zgjedhjeje. Po sikur edhe n\u00eb vjesht\u00eb kur un\u00eb ta jepja prap\u00eb at\u00eb provim, ai t\u00eb m\u00eb ngelte prap\u00eb?
\nAt\u00eb pasdite e kisha l\u00ebn\u00eb me t\u00eb dashurin p\u00ebr t\u2019u takuar dhe kur po pinim kafe e ndjeja veten shum\u00eb n\u00eb faj. Mendoja se kisha b\u00ebr\u00eb nj\u00eb gabim t\u00eb madh q\u00eb i kisha dh\u00ebn\u00eb atij njeriu numrin tim t\u00eb telefonit. N\u00eb nj\u00eb moment profesori m\u00eb d\u00ebrgoi nj\u00eb mesazh. Kur i pash\u00eb emrin, sa s\u2019m\u00eb ra pika. M\u00eb iku fare ngjyra e fytyr\u00ebs, por instiktivisht e g\u00ebnjeva t\u00eb dashurin tim duke i th\u00ebn\u00eb q\u00eb ishte mesazh nga mami q\u00eb m\u00eb thoshte se kisha v\u00ebllain t\u00eb s\u00ebmur\u00eb. I thash\u00eb q\u00eb m\u00eb duhej te ikja n\u00eb mes t\u00eb jav\u00ebs q\u00eb ta shihja.
\nN\u00eb mbr\u00ebmje kur rash\u00eb t\u00eb flija, m\u00eb erdhi nj\u00eb tjet\u00ebr mesazh nga profesori. E lam\u00eb t\u00eb takoheshim t\u00eb nes\u00ebrmen.
\nAt\u00eb nat\u00eb nuk vura gjum\u00eb n\u00eb sy. Shoqja e dhom\u00ebs m\u00eb pyeti se p\u00ebrse isha kaq e m\u00ebrzitur, por un\u00eb as asaj nuk i tregova t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00ebn. I thash\u00eb se isha n\u00eb merak p\u00ebr v\u00ebllain q\u00eb e kisha t\u00eb s\u00ebmur\u00eb.
\nT\u00eb nes\u00ebrmen u takova me profesorin dhe vajt\u00ebm n\u00eb nj\u00eb motel. Kurr\u00eb nuk m\u00eb ka ardhur aq ndoht nga vetja ime sesa n\u00eb ato momente q\u00eb kaluam aty e q\u00eb mua m\u2019u duk\u00ebn aq t\u00eb gjata. M\u00eb tha q\u00eb ishte i martuar dhe q\u00eb kishte dy f\u00ebmij\u00eb. Nd\u00ebrsa ai m\u00eb puthte dhe m\u00eb prekte, mendoja se \u00e7\u2019m\u00ebkat t\u00eb madh po b\u00ebja, por nuk kisha aq forc\u00eb sa t\u2019i k\u00ebrkoja t\u00eb ndalonte.
\nEdhe pse e di q\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb nuk mund t\u00eb jet\u00eb as hera e par\u00eb e as e fundit q\u00eb tradhton gruan e tij, ndihem n\u00eb faj q\u00eb n\u00eb nj\u00eb nga ato her\u00ebt e tij t\u00eb p\u00ebshtira isha edhe un\u00eb.
\nNdihem n\u00eb faj karshi prind\u00ebrve t\u00eb mi, t\u00eb cil\u00ebt edhe pse nuk do ta marrin vesh kurr\u00eb kan\u00eb nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb q\u00eb ka b\u00ebr\u00eb nj\u00eb her\u00eb n\u00eb jet\u00ebn e saj nj\u00eb gj\u00eb kaq t\u00eb ul\u00ebt, por… Mbi t\u00eb gjitha ndihem n\u00eb faj karshi te dashurit tim, i cili m\u00eb beson verb\u00ebrisht dhe at\u00eb dit\u00eb q\u00eb un\u00eb po q\u00ebndroja me profesorin, mendonte se isha tek v\u00ebllai i s\u00ebmur\u00eb! Sinqerisht, m\u00eb vjen shum\u00eb turp p\u00ebr at\u00eb q\u00eb kam i kam b\u00ebr\u00eb vetes dhe t\u00eb tjer\u00ebve.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
P\u00ebrsh\u00ebndetje redaksia e gazet\u00ebs \u201cIntervista\u201d! Jam Suela (faktikisht, ky nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb emri im i v\u00ebrtet\u00eb, por dua t\u00eb mbetem anonime). Historia q\u00eb do t\u2019ju tregoj ka rreth nj\u00eb jav\u00eb q\u00eb m\u00eb ka ndodhur. Nuk i kam folur askujt p\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb gj\u00eb, ndaj dhe zgjodha gazet\u00ebn tuaj p\u00ebr t\u2019u rr\u00ebfyer, sepse kam me t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb shum\u00eb […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[94],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-5453","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-histori-nga-jeta"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5453","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=5453"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5453\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=5453"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=5453"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=5453"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}