T\u00eb dashur lexues! Historia q\u00eb do t\u2019ju tregoj, ndryshon nga historit\u00eb q\u00eb mund t\u00eb keni lexuar n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb gazet\u00eb. \u00cbsht\u00eb histori personale dhe nuk ka t\u00eb b\u00ebj\u00eb shum\u00eb me dashurin\u00eb e tradhtirat, por se si m\u00eb mashtruan, si u tregova naiv dhe tani mbeta n\u00eb nj\u00eb gjendje q\u00eb shum\u00eb shpejt do t\u00eb m\u00eb \u00e7oj\u00eb drejt depresionit.
\nUn\u00eb jam nj\u00eb burr\u00eb 53 vje\u00e7. N\u00eb jet\u00eb kam patur edhe t\u00eb mira, por edhe t\u00eb k\u00ebqija. N\u00eb koh\u00ebn ton\u00eb, kishte dhe ekzistonte dashuria e past\u00ebr. Un\u00eb u martova pak von\u00eb dhe gruan e mora me shkuesi, por meqen\u00ebse ajo ishte pa shkoll\u00eb dhe e re, e kisha t\u00eb leht\u00eb t\u00eb jetoja me t\u00eb. Ajo ishte nj\u00eb sh\u00ebrb\u00ebtore e mir\u00eb dhe shum\u00eb e urt\u00eb. Edhe pse nuk u martua me dashuri me mua, m\u00eb deshi e nuk i shkonte syri p\u00ebr burr\u00eb tjet\u00ebr. Mir\u00ebpo pasi rriti f\u00ebmij\u00ebt, ajo vazhdoi shkoll\u00ebn dhe si\u00e7 thot\u00eb populli, \u201ciu hap\u00ebn syt\u00eb\u201d, filloi t\u00eb krijonte shoq\u00ebri me gra intelektuale dhe ndryshoi t\u00ebr\u00ebsisht. Ndryshoi n\u00eb t\u00eb mir\u00eb t\u00eb saj, sepse edhe ajo nuk ishte lindur p\u00ebr t\u00eb sh\u00ebrbyer, por p\u00ebr t\u00eb jetuar jet\u00ebn n\u00eb t\u00eb gjitha aspektet, por ndryshoi n\u00eb t\u00eb keqen time. Ajo kuptoi se nuk duhej t\u2019i p\u00ebrkushtohej me mish e me shpirt familjes e aq m\u00eb pak, mua, q\u00eb jetoja si princ, me t\u00eb gjitha sh\u00ebrbimet. Un\u00eb nuk isha m\u00ebsuar t\u00eb b\u00ebja asnj\u00eb nga k\u00ebto pun\u00eb dhe k\u00ebshtu, dit\u00ebt p\u00ebrrallore mbaruan.
\nMenj\u00ebher\u00eb pas k\u00ebsaj, m\u00eb hoq\u00ebn nga puna e shtetit dhe u futa n\u00eb privat. Jeta u v\u00ebshtir\u00ebsua p\u00ebr familjen time jo vet\u00ebm nga ana ekonomike, se rroga ishte m\u00eb e vog\u00ebl, por edhe sepse duhej t\u00eb punoja jasht\u00eb orarit e gruaja dyshonte se mos e tradhtoja. N\u00eb fakt, m\u00eb par\u00eb un\u00eb e tradhtoja e ajo nuk kuptonte asgj\u00eb, por ju thash\u00eb se ato koh\u00eb ajo ishte tjet\u00ebrsuar, nuk e g\u00ebnjeje dot m\u00eb. Tani m\u00eb duhej nj\u00eb tjet\u00ebr m\u00ebnyr\u00eb.
\nMenj\u00ebher\u00eb m\u00eb hoq\u00ebn nga puna sepse nuk rrija jasht\u00eb orarit dhe mbeta mes kat\u00ebr rrug\u00ebve. \u00c7do dit\u00eb dilja t\u00eb k\u00ebrkoja pun\u00eb, por asgj\u00eb. Nj\u00eb dit\u00eb takova nj\u00eb shok t\u00eb shkoll\u00ebs. Ai m\u00eb premtoi se do t\u00eb m\u00eb gjente nj\u00eb pun\u00eb, madje shum\u00eb shpejt. Dhe ashtu ndodhi, nuk m\u00eb g\u00ebnjeu. Fol\u00ebm n\u00eb telefon dhe ai m\u00eb tha t\u00eb takoheshim e t\u00eb pinim kafe e t\u00eb sqaroheshim. U takuam.
\n– Nj\u00eb miku im i familjes t\u00eb ka gjetur nj\u00eb vend t\u00eb shk\u00eblqyer n\u00eb zyr\u00eb, ashtu si\u00e7 ke punuar gjithmon\u00eb.
\n– Faleminderit ty.
\n– Mua? Po \u00e7\u2019b\u00ebra un\u00eb? Ai e gjeti vendin.
\nN\u00eb at\u00eb koh\u00eb, miku e mori n\u00eb telefon. Ai fliste me t\u00eb dhe me gisht b\u00ebnte \u201cokej\u201d nga un\u00eb, q\u00eb do t\u00eb thoshte se \u00e7do gj\u00eb u rregullua. Kur uli telefonin, m\u00eb tha:
\n– \u00c7do gj\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb n\u00eb rregull. Tani po marr dokumentet e tua dhe pasdite do t\u2019ia jap atij mikut. Nes\u00ebr ai i \u00e7on te drejtori e pasnes\u00ebr, ti fillon pun\u00eb.
\n– Faleminderit, un\u00eb do t\u00eb t\u00eb jap kafen t\u00ebnde.
\nAi nuk tha jo.
\n– T\u00eb rregullojm\u00eb nj\u00ebher\u00eb drejtorin, pastaj flasim.
\n– N\u00eb rregull – i thash\u00eb i emocionuar dhe po k\u00ebshtu isha edhe n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi.
\nNuk i tregova gruas sepse nuk kisha patur asnj\u00ebher\u00eb d\u00ebshir\u00eb t\u2019ia thoja asaj gj\u00ebrat e mia. Ndoshta kjo ishte edhe arsyeja pse ajo u largua nga un\u00eb n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb, por nuk e kisha edhe aq shum\u00eb problem q\u00eb t\u00eb shkonim mir\u00eb bashk\u00eb. Mjaftonte q\u00eb ajo ishte gruaja dhe aq.
\nT\u00eb nes\u00ebrmen m\u00eb telefonoi shoku. N\u00eb fakt, vet\u00ebm m\u00eb \u00e7onte zile dhe un\u00eb q\u00eb kisha mbushur telefonin, e merrja.
\n– Kan\u00eb k\u00ebrkuar 4 mij\u00eb euro. A i b\u00ebn dot? N\u00ebse po, vendi i pun\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb i yti! – U mpiva menj\u00ebher\u00eb. Ku t\u2019i gjeja? – Megjithat\u00eb, – vazhdoi ai. – Do takohemi pasdite dhe fol vet\u00eb me t\u00eb.
\n– Dakord. – i thash\u00eb shkurt me gjys\u00ebm z\u00ebri.
\nPasdite u takuam. Ishte shoku, miku i tij dhe sekseri. U ul\u00ebm t\u00eb pim\u00eb kafe. Ata filluan me k\u00ebrkesat e tyre. Jo duhet master, jo t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt mund t\u00eb ken\u00eb nota m\u00eb t\u00eb mira… E kuptova se di\u00e7ka luhej, megjithat\u00eb kisha shum\u00eb nevoj\u00eb p\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb pun\u00eb. I d\u00ebgjova me v\u00ebmendje dhe n\u00eb fund, u thash\u00eb:
\n– Do t\u00eb mundohem t\u2019i gjej lek\u00ebt. Nes\u00eb ju e ulni pak \u00e7mimin, un\u00eb i b\u00ebj shpejt. 4 mij\u00eb nuk mundem. Me 3 mij\u00eb jam gati kur t\u00eb doni.
\nAta shikuan nj\u00ebri-tjetrin dhe ran\u00eb dakord.
\nPo ku t\u2019i merrja lek\u00ebt? Do merrja kredi, por m\u00eb duhej nj\u00eb v\u00ebrtetim pune. I thash\u00eb shefit me t\u00eb cilin punoja kur u futa n\u00eb privat e ai, se si e b\u00ebri, nuk e di. Ishte i shkath\u00ebt p\u00ebr k\u00ebto gj\u00ebra. I b\u00ebra t\u00eb gjitha dokumentet dhe mora kredin\u00eb. T\u00eb gjitha k\u00ebto, pa i th\u00ebn\u00eb asgj\u00eb gruas.
\nI thirra n\u00eb telefon dhe u takuam p\u00ebrs\u00ebri.
\n– Sa shpejt i b\u00ebre! – m\u00eb tha miku i shokut.
\n– Mora kredi se vet\u00eb nuk kisha.
\n– T\u00eb lumt\u00eb! – tha ai i k\u00ebnaqur se do merrte edhe ai pjes\u00ebn e vet, me siguri. I fal\u00ebnderova, ua dhash\u00eb lek\u00ebt dhe t\u00eb nes\u00ebrmen, do paraqitesha n\u00eb pun\u00eb. Nuk i filmova, edhe pse kisha nj\u00eb telefon sepse kisha shum\u00eb besim te shoku. K\u00ebshtu, fillova pun\u00ebn t\u00eb nes\u00ebrmen. Ishte nj\u00eb ambient i bukur dhe puna ishte shum\u00eb e leht\u00eb e komode. Edhe gruaja u k\u00ebnaq, pavar\u00ebsisht se nuk e dinte se si kisha hyr\u00eb. Nuk gjeja asnj\u00ebher\u00eb nevoj\u00ebn t\u2019i hapesha asaj. Her\u00ebt e tjera kisha patur t\u00eb dashur, nd\u00ebrsa tani nuk ia thoja gj\u00ebrat sepse ashtu isha m\u00ebsuar. Punoja dhe paralelisht, paguaja kredin\u00eb. Pra, i rregullova gj\u00ebrat. K\u00ebshtu, punova p\u00ebr disa koh\u00eb, kur nj\u00eb dit\u00eb m\u00eb soll\u00ebn nj\u00eb asistente. Ajo ishte nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb e re q\u00eb sapo kishte mbaruar shkoll\u00ebn. Nuk do paguhej, por vet\u00ebm do merrte eksperienc\u00eb. Dukej se kishte patur nj\u00eb mik t\u00eb fort\u00eb. Nejse. Un\u00eb e m\u00ebsova se si punohej dhe si gjithmon\u00eb, ashtu si m\u00eb kishte ndodhur n\u00eb t\u00eb gjitha pun\u00ebt ku kisha punuar, gjeta gjysm\u00ebn plot\u00ebsuese q\u00eb nuk e kisha te gruaja ime, pra, njeriun q\u00eb m\u00eb duhej p\u00ebr t\u00eb folur, qeshur, treguar gj\u00ebrat e mia. U miq\u00ebsova shum\u00eb me at\u00eb vajz\u00eb, madje nj\u00ebher\u00eb tentova edhe ta puthja. Ajo nuk hezitoi, por n\u00eb at\u00eb moment trokiti dera dhe mbeti pa p\u00ebrfunduar at\u00eb \u00e7ka nisa. E dija se do t\u00eb vinte shum\u00eb shpejt \u00e7asti kur ajo do t\u00eb m\u00eb hidhej vet\u00eb n\u00eb krah\u00eb, sepse ashtu m\u00eb kishte ndodhur gjithmon\u00eb, mir\u00ebpo ky \u00e7ast nuk erdhi sepse mua m\u00eb erdhi shkresa se m\u00eb kishin transferuar, m\u00eb kishin \u00e7uar n\u00eb nj\u00eb institucion tjet\u00ebr. U m\u00ebrzita pak, por m\u00eb shum\u00eb u m\u00ebrzita kur m\u00eb than\u00eb arsyen e largimit:
\n– K\u00ebtu pun\u00ebn t\u00ebnde do ta b\u00ebj\u00eb asistentja, sepse kemi marr\u00eb urdh\u00ebr q\u00eb t\u00eb gjith\u00eb punonj\u00ebsit duhet t\u00eb ken\u00eb mbaruar me mesatare mbi 8 dhe masterin.
\n– Un\u00eb ato nota i kam marr\u00eb me djers\u00eb n\u00eb koh\u00ebn time dhe jo si i kan\u00eb marr\u00eb k\u00ebto t\u00eb rejat sot! – kund\u00ebrshtova.
\n– Po ju nuk keni pse t\u00eb m\u00ebrziteni. – tha drejtori – mir\u00eb do jeni dhe atje ku do t\u00eb shkoni.
\n– Pse, p\u00ebr kaq koh\u00eb pagova gjith\u00eb at\u00eb shum\u00eb un\u00eb?
\n– M\u00eb falni, ju lutem, nuk po ju kuptoj…
\n– Tani nuk m\u00eb kuptoni, por kur mor\u00ebt eurot, e kuptuat mir\u00eb!
\n– Un\u00eb euro? Un\u00eb t\u00eb kam futur jasht\u00eb list\u00ebs se i b\u00ebra nder mikut tim. Sa t\u00eb tjer\u00eb me master m\u00eb erdh\u00ebn dhe i refuzova!…
\n– M\u00eb falni, por un\u00eb filanit i kam dh\u00ebn\u00eb 3 mij\u00eb euro q\u00eb t\u2019jua sillte juve q\u00eb t\u00eb hyja k\u00ebtu n\u00eb pun\u00eb.
\n– Un\u00eb nuk merrem me k\u00ebshtu pun\u00ebsh, prandaj ju lutem dilni nga zyra dhe boshatisni sa m\u00eb shpejt zyr\u00ebn, q\u00eb t\u00eb mos pengohet puna.
\nM\u00eb von\u00eb kam menduar se ai me siguri kishte marr\u00eb nj\u00eb shum\u00eb parash, por i erdhi inat se pse i kishin dh\u00ebn\u00eb m\u00eb pak e i kishin mbajtur t\u00eb tjerat p\u00ebr vete. Un\u00eb dola nga zyra dhe shkova te zyra ime. Aty ishte asistentja s\u00eb cil\u00ebs i kisha m\u00ebsuar gjith\u00e7ka, pa e ditur se do t\u00eb m\u00eb zinte vendin. Ajo u mundua t\u00eb justifikohej se nuk e dinte q\u00eb do t\u00eb ndodhte kjo gj\u00eb, por un\u00eb nuk e lash\u00eb t\u00eb fliste.
\n– Isha me fat at\u00eb dit\u00eb q\u00eb ra dera dhe… – i thash\u00eb shkurt dhe ajo nuk foli m\u00eb. Tek institucioni tjet\u00ebr m\u00eb than\u00eb se nuk kishte vend dhe do t\u00eb prisja p\u00ebr konkurrimin. Pra, si\u00e7 u kishte ndodhur dhe t\u00eb tjer\u00ebve para meje. T\u00eb \u201ctransferojn\u00eb\u201d, kur duan t\u00eb t\u00eb heqin nga puna…
\nUn\u00eb nuk kisha asnj\u00eb prov\u00eb q\u00eb kisha dh\u00ebn\u00eb lek\u00ebt. Takova shokun q\u00eb m\u00eb b\u00ebri k\u00ebt\u00eb \u201cnder\u201d dhe i thash\u00eb:
\n– Po ti, more nga ato lek\u00eb?
\n– \u00c7\u2019po thua k\u00ebshtu? Si mund t\u00eb ta b\u00ebj nj\u00eb gj\u00eb t\u00eb till\u00eb? Edhe mua m\u00eb erdhi shum\u00eb keq… Faji yt, por edhe imi ishte q\u00eb nuk i filmuam…
\nNuk kishte faj ai dhe fjal\u00ebt q\u00eb po thoshte ishin t\u00eb v\u00ebrteta. Duhej t\u00eb kishim ndonj\u00eb fakt, sidomos kur dham\u00eb aq shum\u00eb para, por ishte von\u00eb p\u00ebr ta menduar k\u00ebt\u00eb…
\nTani kam mbetur pa pun\u00eb. Gruaja nuk do t\u2019ia dij\u00eb se si ndodhi, sepse e kuptoi se gjithmon\u00eb e kisha mashtruar. Tani edhe f\u00ebmij\u00ebt jan\u00eb rritur dhe m\u00eb gjykojn\u00eb; kan\u00eb t\u00eb drejt\u00eb. Pra, gjith\u00eb jet\u00ebn jetova mrekulli dhe tanim\u00eb duket se ka ardhur koha t\u2019i paguaj t\u00eb gjitha padrejt\u00ebsit\u00eb q\u00eb i b\u00ebra gruas.<\/p>\n
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T\u00eb dashur lexues! Historia q\u00eb do t\u2019ju tregoj, ndryshon nga historit\u00eb q\u00eb mund t\u00eb keni lexuar n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb gazet\u00eb. \u00cbsht\u00eb histori personale dhe nuk ka t\u00eb b\u00ebj\u00eb shum\u00eb me dashurin\u00eb e tradhtirat, por se si m\u00eb mashtruan, si u tregova naiv dhe tani mbeta n\u00eb nj\u00eb gjendje q\u00eb shum\u00eb shpejt do t\u00eb m\u00eb \u00e7oj\u00eb drejt […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[94],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-5197","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-histori-nga-jeta"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5197","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=5197"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5197\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=5197"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=5197"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=5197"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}