Jeta asnj\u00ebher\u00eb nuk t\u00eb shkon vaj, <\/p>\n\n\n\n
madje as ata q\u00eb kan\u00eb pushtet dhe para nuk jan\u00eb t\u00eb aft\u00eb ta nd\u00ebrtojn\u00eb lumturin\u00eb ashtu si\u00e7 nd\u00ebrtojn\u00eb financat e tyre.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cbsht\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb ardhur keq p\u00ebr at\u00eb q\u00eb mendon se ai q\u00eb ka lek me shumic\u00eb i ka t\u00eb zgjidhura hallet.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Jo, jo, ai q\u00eb ka, ai vuan m\u00eb shum\u00eb. Un\u00eb kam vuajtur shum\u00eb pak n\u00eb jet\u00eb p\u00ebr para… Zhg\u00ebnjimi i par\u00eb ishte ndarja nga i dashuri, kur isha n\u00eb gjimnaz. Familjar\u00ebt e mi e mor\u00ebn vesh dhe b\u00ebn t\u00eb pamundur\u00ebn p\u00ebr t\u00eb m\u00eb ndar\u00eb. Ai tashm\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb fejuar dhe ka krijuar familjen e tij, kurse jeta ime ka marr\u00eb nj\u00eb rrug\u00eb\u2026 <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Un\u00eb kam studiuar n\u00eb\nLiceun Artistik \u201cJordan Misja\u201d. Nuk isha nx\u00ebn\u00ebse e mir\u00eb, por isha harrakate, si\ndjal\u00eb. Nuk hipnin \u00e7unat e lagjes n\u00eb pem\u00eb p\u00ebr kumbulla, por isha un\u00eb ajo q\u00eb\nkacavirresha pem\u00eb m\u00eb pem\u00eb dhe u hidhja kumbullat t\u00eb tjer\u00ebve. Me m\u00ebsime nuk kam\nqen\u00eb mir\u00eb, madje edhe fakulteti m\u00eb ka dal\u00eb me vones\u00eb. Nuk kam p\u00ebr t\u00eb harruar\nkurr\u00eb babain q\u00eb b\u00ebrtiste n\u00ebp\u00ebr sht\u00ebpi: \u201cNuk ke p\u00ebr t\u00eb qen\u00eb ti q\u00eb do t\u00eb f\u00eblliq\u00ebsh\nfisin dhe t\u00eb mbetesh pa shkoll\u00eb t\u00eb lart\u00eb\u201d. Aty mora edhe shuplak\u00ebn e par\u00eb nga\nbabai, q\u00eb s\u2019kam p\u00ebr ta harruar sa t\u00eb kem jet\u00ebn. Fillova t\u00eb k\u00ebndoja, pasi kjo\nishte edhe tradita e familjes sime; t\u00eb gjith\u00eb artist\u00eb. Un\u00eb ika n\u00eb emigrim dhe\naty fillova t\u00eb nd\u00ebrtoja jet\u00ebn time. M\u00eb njihnin nga emri i babait, por pjes\u00ebn m\u00eb\nt\u00eb madhe do t\u00eb m\u00eb duhej ta b\u00ebja vet\u00eb. T\u2019ju them t\u00eb drejt\u00ebn, atje pata nj\u00eb jet\u00eb\npa frena. Isha e re dhe p\u00eblqehesha nga t\u00eb gjith\u00eb. Menaxher\u00ebt e buzuqeve,\nklabeve e lokaleve me muzik\u00eb live, m\u00eb ftonin dhe un\u00eb shkoja me k\u00ebnaq\u00ebsin\u00eb m\u00eb t\u00eb\nmadhe. Ah, k\u00ebto ftesat e shumta kishin p\u00ebrve\u00e7 pages\u00ebs, edhe di\u00e7ka tjet\u00ebr n\u00eb\nk\u00ebmbim: TRUPIN TIM. N\u00eb fillim e urreja veten time se si e lejoja veten t\u00eb bija\npre e k\u00ebtyre mashtrimeve, por pastaj edhe seksi me ta m\u2019u b\u00eb si pjes\u00eb e pun\u00ebs\nsime, puna part-time, nj\u00eb pun\u00eb e urryer p\u00ebr mua. N\u00eb Shqip\u00ebri nuk doja t\u00eb\nkthehesha pasi isha shum\u00eb mir\u00eb atje ku ndodhesha dhe atje harrova edhe t\u00eb\ndashurin e par\u00eb. Nuk isha e nd\u00ebrgjeshme se \u00e7far\u00eb b\u00ebja, thjesht doja t\u00eb\nhakmerresha ndaj prind\u00ebrve q\u00eb m\u00eb ndan\u00eb dhe ish-it tim, q\u00eb nuk diti t\u00eb m\u00eb\npriste. Prind\u00ebrit k\u00ebtu b\u00ebnin \u00e7mos q\u00eb un\u00eb t\u00eb kthehesha, por un\u00eb nuk isha m\u00eb\nvet\u00ebm n\u00eb mes t\u00eb rrug\u00ebve t\u00eb bot\u00ebs. Prisja nj\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00eb, gj\u00eb t\u00eb cil\u00ebn, deri m\u00eb sot,\nfamilja ime nuk e ka marr\u00eb vesh. Jam p\u00ebrpjekur me mish e me shpirt q\u00eb ta mbaj\nt\u00eb fsheht\u00eb. Kur erdha p\u00ebr her\u00eb t\u00eb par\u00eb n\u00eb Shqip\u00ebri, vajz\u00ebn nuk e mora me vete.\nPun\u00ebsova dik\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb kujdesej p\u00ebr t\u00eb, por e dini se \u00e7far\u00eb b\u00ebn\u00eb prind\u00ebrit e mi?!\nM\u00eb dogj\u00ebn t\u00eb gjitha letrat q\u00eb kisha dhe nuk kisha se si t\u00eb kthehesha atje ku\nkisha vajz\u00ebn. Flasim k\u00ebtu p\u00ebr vitet \u201998. Kur u b\u00ebra n\u00ebn\u00eb p\u00ebr her\u00eb t\u00eb par\u00eb, vet\u00ebm\n5 muaj ndenja pran\u00eb vajz\u00ebs sime, menj\u00ebher\u00eb kur erdha, m\u00eb fut\u00ebn n\u00eb shkoll\u00eb t\u00eb\nlart\u00eb dhe m\u00eb detyruan me pahir, q\u00eb ta vazhdoja jet\u00ebn n\u00eb Shqip\u00ebri. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Fakultetin u binda\ndhe e vazhdova, por zemra ime ishte e plagosur p\u00ebr vajz\u00ebn q\u00eb kisha jasht\u00eb\nshtetit. S\u2019munda t\u00eb kthehesha n\u00eb koh\u00eb si\u00e7 i kisha premtuar asaj q\u00eb po kujdesej\np\u00ebr vajz\u00ebn time. Vet\u00ebm i telefonova dhe i thash\u00eb q\u00eb ta linte n\u00eb nj\u00eb jetimore. E\nmora edhe nj\u00eb her\u00eb n\u00eb telefon dhe ajo m\u00eb siguroi q\u00eb vajza ishte n\u00eb duar t\u00eb\nsigurta, por un\u00eb nuk vija gjum\u00eb n\u00eb sy. Asgj\u00eb nuk m\u00eb b\u00ebhej. Nuk munda as t\u2019u\nthoja familjar\u00ebve q\u00eb kisha nj\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00eb sepse duke e njohur fanatizmin e familjes\ndhe kryesisht, t\u00eb babait, e dija se do m\u00eb vriste. Isha munduar shpesh ta hapja\nsi tem\u00eb dhe babai m\u00eb ishte p\u00ebrgjigjur: \u201cBastarde un\u00eb nuk pranoj n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi. N\u00eb qoft\u00eb\nse ndodh, kushdo nga f\u00ebmij\u00ebt e mi ta ket\u00eb un\u00eb do ta vras, nuk e b\u00ebj veten me\nturp un\u00eb!\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nuk mund t\u00eb flisja,\nishte nj\u00ebsoj sikur t\u00eb k\u00ebrkoja vdekjen time para kohe. N\u00eb fakultet njoha shum\u00eb\ndjem, por me asnj\u00eb nuk rrija m\u00eb shum\u00eb se 10 muaj. S\u2019e di pse, por asnj\u00ebri nuk\nm\u00eb p\u00ebrshtatej. Atje u njoha me Gertin. Nuk mund t\u00eb them se ky ishte i pari q\u00eb\npata kur u ktheva, por me t\u00eb fillova t\u00eb sh\u00ebroja plag\u00ebt e s\u00eb shkuar\u00ebs dhe u\nridashurova. Ishte djal\u00eb i mir\u00eb, m\u00eb p\u00eblqente dhe ia kaloja mir\u00eb n\u00eb shoq\u00ebrin\u00eb e\ntij. Nuk ishte si ish-at e tjer\u00eb q\u00eb kam patur, ai m\u00eb linte t\u00eb k\u00ebndoja dhe t\u00eb\nushtroja profesionin tim. Ai ishte biznesmen, kishte nj\u00eb lokal n\u00eb pron\u00eb t\u00eb tij\ndhe ishte djal\u00eb i pasur. Fillova v\u00ebrtet ta p\u00eblqeja, madje e toleroja edhe p\u00ebr\ngabime t\u00eb r\u00ebnda dhe defekte nuk i v\u00ebreja, pasi e doja marr\u00ebzisht. Ai ishte i\ntreti q\u00eb po e merrja seriozisht. Kurr\u00eb nuk u grind\u00ebm, madje edhe un\u00eb habitesha\nse si ai nuk m\u00eb jepte shkak t\u00eb grindeshim. Shkonim p\u00ebr mrekulli! Ai m\u00eb tha se\npo nd\u00ebrtonte nj\u00eb vil\u00eb tre kat\u00ebshe pran\u00eb Liqenit Artificial k\u00ebtu n\u00eb Tiran\u00eb, ku\ndo t\u00eb shkonim t\u00eb jetonim pas fejes\u00ebs dhe m\u00eb k\u00ebrkoi ta zgjidhja un\u00eb modelin e\nsaj. Kisha filluar t\u00eb mendoja p\u00ebr mobilimin, p\u00ebr gjith\u00e7ka, por p\u00ebr habin\u00eb time\ngjith\u00e7ka ndryshoi dhe morri nj\u00eb tjet\u00ebr rrjedh\u00eb. M\u00ebngjesin q\u00eb po paketoja rrobat\ndhe i fusja n\u00ebp\u00ebr valixhe, po prisja q\u00eb ai t\u00eb m\u00eb merrte. Kishim bler\u00eb edhe\nunazat, kishim prenotuar lokalin ku do t\u00eb organizonim mbr\u00ebmjen e fejes\u00ebs, me\npak fjal\u00eb, ishte dita kur ne kishim ndar\u00eb fjal\u00ebn se do t\u00eb fejoheshim, kishim\nmenduar nj\u00eb dark\u00eb familjare. U mundova shum\u00eb ta mbaja larg mediave, duke qen\u00eb se\nisha dhe jam person publik. Edhe ai ashtu donte, t\u00eb rrinte larg mediave.\nM\u00ebngjesin kur po paketoja rrobat, ai m\u00eb telefonoi. Si \u00e7do m\u00ebngjes, ai m\u00eb merrte\np\u00ebr t\u00eb sh\u00ebtitur, kurse koh\u00ebt e fundit p\u00ebr t\u00eb m\u00eb pyetur rreth vil\u00ebs q\u00eb po\nnd\u00ebrtonte se si e doja, \u00e7far\u00eb doja etj., kurse m\u00ebngjesin e 8 marsit, dit\u00ebs s\u00eb\ngruas, mendova se do t\u00eb m\u00eb uronte, por ai m\u00eb mallkoi. M\u00eb tha se nuk do t\u00eb b\u00ebhej\nfejes\u00eb mes nesh, as vil\u00eb nuk po nd\u00ebrtonte, as lokalin s\u2019e kishte prenotuar si\u00e7\nm\u00eb kishte th\u00ebn\u00eb, asgj\u00eb nuk kishte b\u00ebr\u00eb. Ajo telefonat\u00eb ishte p\u00ebr t\u2019u ndar\u00eb! <\/p>\n\n\n\n
U shokova shum\u00eb nga\nt\u00eb gjitha k\u00ebto sepse nuk i prisja, por me sa duket jeta ime k\u00ebshtu paska qen\u00eb;\nt\u00eb mos e \u00e7oj asgj\u00eb deri n\u00eb fund. Ashtu si\u00e7 mbeti e braktisur vazja ime, ashtu\nndoshta \u00ebsht\u00eb shkruar edhe fati im. U m\u00ebrzita shum\u00eb dhe u ndam\u00eb n\u00eb telefon, se\nas p\u00ebrball\u00eb nuk mundi t\u00eb ma thonte. E si mund t\u00eb jet\u00eb jeta ime tani?! Jam\nfejuar edhe tre her\u00eb t\u00eb tjera dhe prap\u00eb jam ndar\u00eb, por kjo ishte ndarja ime m\u00eb\ne trisht\u00eb, pasi e p\u00ebrjetova n\u00eb mosh\u00eb t\u00eb re dhe me at\u00eb q\u00eb u dashurova v\u00ebrtet.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Jeta asnj\u00ebher\u00eb nuk t\u00eb shkon vaj, madje as ata q\u00eb kan\u00eb pushtet dhe para nuk jan\u00eb t\u00eb aft\u00eb ta nd\u00ebrtojn\u00eb lumturin\u00eb ashtu si\u00e7 nd\u00ebrtojn\u00eb financat e tyre. \u00cbsht\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb ardhur keq p\u00ebr at\u00eb q\u00eb mendon se ai q\u00eb ka lek me shumic\u00eb i ka t\u00eb zgjidhura hallet. Jo, jo, ai q\u00eb ka, ai vuan […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":21093,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[95],"tags":[245],"class_list":["post-22431","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-rrefime-mekatesh","tag-mekat"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22431","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=22431"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22431\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/21093"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=22431"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=22431"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=22431"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}