P\u00ebrsh\u00ebndetje, gazeta \u201cIntervista\u201d!<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Un\u00eb q\u00eb po ju shkruaj jam nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb rreth t\u00eb nj\u00ebzetave q\u00eb p\u00ebr hir t\u00eb dashuris\u00eb, ka kaluar n\u00ebp\u00ebr sfida shum\u00eb t\u00eb rrezikshme.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Jam nga nj\u00eb qytet i vog\u00ebl i Shqip\u00ebris\u00eb, leht\u00ebsisht i paragjykuesh\u00ebm nga shum\u00eb njer\u00ebz dhe kjo ka ndikuar n\u00eb shum\u00eb veprime t\u00eb miat. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
U rrita n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb qytet dhe aty vazhdova t\u00eb jetoja derisa mbarova gjimnazin. Kam qen\u00eb nj\u00eb nx\u00ebn\u00ebse e shk\u00eblqyer n\u00eb m\u00ebsime dhe shum\u00eb m\u00eb kishin zili deri n\u00eb momentin q\u00eb u njoha me G.G. Ai ishte nj\u00eb djal\u00eb n\u00eb t\u00eb nj\u00ebjt\u00ebn shkoll\u00eb me mua, madje e kisha n\u00eb klas\u00eb paralele. Ne u njoh\u00ebm rast\u00ebsisht me an\u00eb t\u00eb nj\u00eb shoqes sime dhe q\u00eb at\u00eb dit\u00eb, pati nj\u00eb t\u00ebrheqje t\u00eb padiskutueshme nga ana e t\u00eb dyve. At\u00eb dit\u00eb nuk e kisha menduar se ai do t\u00eb ishte njeriu q\u00eb do t\u00eb shkat\u00ebrronte \u00e7do gj\u00eb q\u00eb un\u00eb kisha nd\u00ebrtuar deri n\u00eb ato momente n\u00eb jet\u00ebn time, madje edhe vet\u00eb mua. Me kalimin e koh\u00ebs u njoh\u00ebm m\u00eb mir\u00eb dhe pas disa jav\u00ebsh, ne u lidh\u00ebm. Gjat\u00eb koh\u00ebs q\u00eb ishim t\u00eb lidhur, un\u00eb u dashurova aq marr\u00ebzisht pas tij, sa fillova t\u00eb harroja \u00e7do gj\u00eb q\u00eb m\u00eb rrethonte. N\u00eb familje e kisha humbur plot\u00ebsisht identitetin tim, nd\u00ebrsa n\u00eb shkoll\u00eb kisha nj\u00eb ecuri jo t\u00eb k\u00ebnaqshme si nj\u00eb nx\u00ebn\u00ebse e shk\u00eblqyer q\u00eb kisha qen\u00eb deri n\u00eb at\u00eb moment. P\u00ebrpos k\u00ebtyre, lidhja me G.-n\u00eb po shkonte shk\u00eblqyer. Kjo, deri n\u00eb momentin q\u00eb familja e tij vendosi t\u00eb transferohej n\u00eb Tiran\u00eb p\u00ebr arsyet e veta. P\u00ebr mua, kjo ka qen\u00eb nj\u00eb periudh\u00eb shum\u00eb stresuese. Kur ai m\u00eb tha se do t\u00eb shkonte t\u00eb jetonte n\u00eb Tiran\u00eb, fillova t\u00eb qaja si e \u00e7mendur dhe kalova n\u00eb veprime vet\u00ebshkat\u00ebrruese. G.-ja mundohej t\u00eb m\u00eb qet\u00ebsonte. Ai m\u00eb thonte se do t\u00eb takoheshim shum\u00eb shpesh, se do m\u00eb shkruante gjithmon\u00eb dhe do flisnim gjat\u00eb gjith\u00eb koh\u00ebs n\u00eb telefon, por k\u00ebto ishin p\u00ebr mua premtime me vler\u00eb dhe un\u00eb u mundova ta mbaja disi veten. U mundova p\u00ebr hir t\u00eb tij, pasi atij i besoja m\u00eb shum\u00eb se gjithkujt. N\u00eb muajt e par\u00eb ndodhi pik\u00ebrisht ashtu si tha ai; flisnim pothuajse gjith\u00eb dit\u00ebn, ai vinte shpesh t\u00eb m\u00eb takonte dhe dukej se gj\u00ebrat po shkonin mir\u00eb, por kjo nuk do t\u00eb zgjaste edhe p\u00ebr shum\u00eb koh\u00eb. Ashtu si\u00e7 e prisja, gj\u00ebrat filluan t\u00eb ftoheshin dal\u00ebngadal\u00eb dhe lidhja jon\u00eb po shkat\u00ebrrohej. Ai nuk m\u00eb tregonte asgj\u00eb, megjith\u00ebse un\u00eb e dija, e ndjeja se di\u00e7ka kishte ndodhur, pasi gj\u00ebrat nuk ishin m\u00eb si m\u00eb par\u00eb. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
E gjith\u00eb kjo \u201ckatrahur\u00eb\u201d n\u00eb lidhje\npo m\u00eb \u00e7onte n\u00eb probleme t\u00eb m\u00ebtejshme. Nuk po merresha pothuajse fare me shkoll\u00ebn,\nmegjith\u00ebse isha n\u00eb vit t\u00eb fundit dhe duhet t\u2019i jepja r\u00ebnd\u00ebsi maksimale asaj. N\u00eb\nfund t\u00eb fundit, un\u00eb n\u00eb po t\u00eb nj\u00ebjtin vit do vendosja p\u00ebr t\u00eb ardhmen time. Mbyllesha\ngjith\u00eb dit\u00ebn n\u00eb dhom\u00eb, prisja me padurim or\u00ebn q\u00eb ai do t\u00eb m\u00eb telefononte dhe b\u00ebhesha\nsi e \u00e7mendur kur kjo nuk ndodhte. Me shoq\u00ebrin\u00eb shfaqja nj\u00eb histeriz\u00ebm t\u00eb\ntepruar, grindesha p\u00ebr arsyet m\u00eb t\u00eb vogla dhe shpesh, edhe pa arsye. Kjo m\u00eb kishte\nb\u00ebr\u00eb t\u00eb largohesha prej mikeve t\u00eb mia m\u00eb t\u00eb mira pasi ato ishin m\u00eb shum\u00eb se t\u00eb\nzhg\u00ebnjyera prej meje. Un\u00eb madje nuk e kuptoja gjith\u00eb ndryshimin q\u00eb po m\u00eb\nndodhte si individ dhe mendoja se kjo ishte nj\u00eb gj\u00eb fare normale. Nuk e llogarisja\nfaktin q\u00eb shum\u00eb njer\u00ebz po l\u00ebndoheshin prej meje pasi n\u00eb mendjen time ishte vet\u00ebm\nG. Mesazhet, telefonatat dhe takimet filluan t\u00eb rralloheshin gjithmon\u00eb e m\u00eb\nshum\u00eb dhe un\u00eb shkat\u00ebrrohesha m\u00eb tep\u00ebr. Ashtu si\u00e7 pritej, kjo ndikoi shum\u00eb n\u00eb shkoll\u00eb\npasi n\u00eb provimet me zgjedhje t\u00eb matur\u00ebs dola shum\u00eb dob\u00ebt (n\u00eb t\u00eb dy mora 5) dhe\nnuk arrita t\u00eb grumbulloja pik\u00ebt e duhura p\u00ebr t\u00eb vazhduar shkoll\u00ebn e lart\u00eb. Kjo ishte\nnj\u00eb goditje e madhe p\u00ebr mua, pasi shkoll\u00ebn e lart\u00eb e mendoja edhe si nj\u00eb mund\u00ebsi\nperfekte p\u00ebr t\u00eb q\u00ebndruar af\u00ebr me G.-n\u00eb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Gjat\u00eb ver\u00ebs kalova n\u00eb depresion\ndhe, p\u00ebr pasoj\u00eb, u p\u00ebrpoqa t\u00eb vet\u00ebvritesha duke helmuar veten me nj\u00eb mbidoz\u00eb ila\u00e7esh.\nShp\u00ebtova p\u00ebr nj\u00eb fije! Familja ime ishte e tmerruar dhe e shkat\u00ebrruar nga veprimet\ne mia, por nd\u00ebrkoh\u00eb q\u00eb un\u00eb vazhdoja t\u00eb mbytesha n\u00eb stres, G.-ja as q\u00eb e mori\nmundimin t\u00eb vinte t\u00eb m\u00eb takonte n\u00eb spital, megjith\u00ebse e dinte \u00e7far\u00eb m\u00eb kishte\nndodhur. Mesazheve t\u00eb mia nuk u p\u00ebrgjigjej, nd\u00ebrsa telefonin e hapte shum\u00eb rrall\u00eb,\nduke gjetur justifikime nga m\u00eb t\u00eb ndryshmet. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Erdhi periudha e fillimit t\u00eb universitetit.\nPrind\u00ebrit e mi u siguruan t\u00eb shkoja n\u00eb nj\u00eb shkoll\u00eb private duke qen\u00eb se ishim n\u00eb\ngjendje t\u00eb mir\u00eb ekonimike dhe un\u00eb duhet t\u00eb vazhdoja studimet, pavar\u00ebsisht t\u00eb gjithave.\nMora edhe nj\u00eb sht\u00ebpi me qira t\u00eb cil\u00ebn e ndava me nj\u00eb shoqen time. Sht\u00ebpin\u00eb u sigurova\nta gjeja vet\u00eb dhe e gjeta af\u00ebr sht\u00ebpis\u00eb s\u00eb G.-s\u00eb sepse kurrsesi nuk e pranoja\nndarjen nga ai. Fakti q\u00eb e dija se ku e kishte sht\u00ebpin\u00eb, m\u00eb kishte ndihmuar ta\np\u00ebrndiqja n\u00eb shum\u00eb momente dhe jo pak her\u00eb, t\u2019i \u00e7oja dhurata, madje shpesh e\nkam tepruar duke \u00e7uar shuma t\u00eb ndryshme n\u00eb lek, para t\u00eb cilat familja ime m\u2019i sillte\np\u00ebr t\u00eb jetuar m\u00eb mir\u00eb se t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt. K\u00ebto veprime ishin t\u00eb vazhdueshme dhe besoj\nse edhe t\u00eb bezdishme p\u00ebr G.-n\u00eb, derisa nj\u00eb dit\u00eb e pash\u00eb me nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb tjet\u00ebr n\u00eb\nlagjen ton\u00eb. Ishin duke qeshur dhe shum\u00eb t\u00eb afruar me nj\u00ebri-tjetrin. N\u00eb at\u00eb moment,\nu b\u00ebra histerike n\u00eb kulm dhe b\u00ebra nj\u00eb superskandal n\u00eb rrug\u00eb. T\u00eb gjith\u00eb i kishin\nsyt\u00eb nga un\u00eb, por mua aq m\u00eb b\u00ebnte! Isha \u00e7mendur komplet dhe e kisha flakur tej identitetin\ntim t\u00eb m\u00ebparsh\u00ebm. Depresioni m\u00eb kishte g\u00ebrryer komplet dhe nuk mendoja qart\u00eb. Ashtu,\nn\u00eb lot e \u00e7menduri, u ngjita n\u00eb sht\u00ebpin\u00eb time dhe aty preva damar\u00ebt. Fal\u00eb Zotit,\nshoqet e mia t\u00eb dhom\u00ebs kishin nj\u00eb kopje t\u00eb \u00e7el\u00ebsave me vete dhe erdh\u00ebn n\u00eb koh\u00eb.\nAshtu, t\u00eb tmerruara, mor\u00ebn ambulanc\u00ebn n\u00eb telefon, m\u00eb \u00e7uan drejt QSUT-s\u00eb e p\u00ebr\ngjith\u00e7ka m\u00eb tej u kujdes\u00ebn ato. Prind\u00ebrit e mi nuk i lajm\u00ebruam, pasi ata\nmjaftuesh\u00ebm ishin shkat\u00ebrruar me mua! Kjo do t\u00eb ishte nj\u00eb goditje e tep\u00ebrt p\u00ebr\nta. Dola nga spitali dhe dashuria e p\u00ebrkujdesja e shoqeve m\u00eb t\u00eb mira n\u00eb bot\u00eb m\u00eb\nndihmoi t\u00eb merrja veten dhe t\u00eb sh\u00ebrohesha si fizikisht, ashtu edhe psikologjikisht,\nt\u00eb kaloja depresionin. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Tashm\u00eb e kam harruar plot\u00ebsisht\nG.-n\u00eb. Edhe pse jemi n\u00eb t\u00eb nj\u00ebjten lagje dhe e shoh shpesh, p\u00ebr mua, ky \u00ebsht\u00eb\nnj\u00eb kapitull i mbyllur. Kam vendosur t\u00eb mos dashurohem m\u00eb, pasi dashuria e madhe\nsjell vet\u00ebm shkat\u00ebrrim dhe dhimbje, por gjithsesi, jeta vazhdon!<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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