Un\u00eb q\u00eb po shkruaj k\u00ebt\u00eb histori jam nj\u00eb nga ata njer\u00ebz q\u00eb nuk u shp\u00ebtova dhimbjeve e vuajtjeve t\u00eb k\u00ebsaj bote.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Fati im i madh \u00ebsht\u00eb se p\u00ebr pak koh\u00eb provova dhe shijova dashurin\u00eb e v\u00ebrtet\u00eb, <\/p>\n\n\n\n
por me sa duket, nuk qenka e th\u00ebn\u00eb q\u00eb gj\u00ebrat e bukura t\u00eb zgjasin p\u00ebrgjithmon\u00eb. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ky \u00ebsht\u00eb fati im i keq, q\u00eb pasi e njoha dashurin\u00eb, ka gjasa ta humbas shum\u00eb shpejt at\u00eb, ende pa e nisur mir\u00eb. E vetmja gj\u00eb q\u00eb do t\u00eb kisha dashur, \u00ebsht\u00eb t\u00eb kisha pran\u00eb Ledjan\u00ebn, at\u00eb njeri t\u00eb mrekulluesh\u00ebm q\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb gjysma ime dhe e till\u00eb do mbetet p\u00ebrher\u00eb. N\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb koh\u00eb, po kaloj dhimbjen m\u00eb t\u00eb madhe n\u00eb jet\u00eb…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ledjan\u00ebn e kam\nnjohur para shum\u00eb vitesh. Ishte nj\u00eb marr\u00ebdh\u00ebnie e nj\u00ebanshme, e cila q\u00eb n\u00eb\nfillim m\u00eb dha shum\u00eb. Ledjana \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb grua perfekte. Un\u00eb isha i ri at\u00ebher\u00eb,\npor Ledjana ish shum\u00eb e pjekur, me familjen tregon kujdes e kultur\u00eb t\u00eb ve\u00e7ant\u00eb dhe\n\u00ebsht\u00eb shum\u00eb e lidhur me ta. Qysh n\u00eb fillim m\u00eb hyri n\u00eb zem\u00ebr ajo grua e mir\u00eb q\u00eb\nngeli p\u00ebrgjithmon\u00eb tek un\u00eb. Ledjana, e di q\u00eb do qesh\u00ebsh kur ta lexosh dhe mund\nt\u00eb t\u00eb duket \u00e7menduri, por m\u00eb beso kur them q\u00eb un\u00eb t\u00eb ndjej, q\u00eb ti, Ledjana, je\nshpirti im binjak. Un\u00eb ta them pa frik\u00eb premtimin q\u00eb t\u00eb kam dh\u00ebn\u00eb rrug\u00ebs q\u00eb t\u00eb \u00e7on\nte teleferiku n\u00eb Dajt, ku ka qen\u00eb edhe takimi i par\u00eb i yni. U betova at\u00eb dit\u00eb q\u00eb\nvdekja do t\u00eb m\u00eb ndaj\u00eb nga Ledjana, por nuk qe vdekja, prandaj dua t\u00eb shkruaj k\u00ebt\u00eb\nhistori edhe si nj\u00eb kujtim p\u00ebr Ledjan\u00ebn, vendin e s\u00eb cil\u00ebs nuk do ta z\u00ebr\u00eb kurr\u00eb\nasnjeri tjet\u00ebr n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb jet\u00eb. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kam kaluar\ndisa peripeci, por asgj\u00eb nuk mund ta zbehte ndjenj\u00ebn q\u00eb kam pasur p\u00ebr t\u00eb. K\u00ebto\nkoh\u00eb nuk e kam patur t\u00eb leht\u00eb t\u00eb duroj dhimbjen, por ia dola sepse, fal\u00eb\ndashuris\u00eb q\u00eb kam, kur mendoj at\u00eb, \u00e7do gj\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb leht\u00ebsisht e arritshme. Un\u00eb\nkujdesem p\u00ebr t\u00eb n\u00eb t\u00eb gjitha aspektet. P\u00ebr mua, Ledjana \u00ebsht\u00eb shum\u00eb e r\u00ebnd\u00ebsishme,\nun\u00eb kurr\u00eb s\u2019kam mundur t\u00eb kaloj koh\u00ebn me t\u00eb, por m\u00eb motivonte q\u00eb un\u00eb t\u00eb b\u00ebja m\u00eb\nt\u00eb mir\u00ebn p\u00ebr t\u00eb. I jam p\u00ebrkushtuar dhe dua t\u00eb b\u00ebj maksimalen e mundshme, nuk\ndua asgj\u00eb m\u00eb shum\u00eb e asgj\u00eb m\u00eb pak se Ledjan\u00ebn. Kam vendosur ta dua dhe do t\u2019i\nshkoj deri n\u00eb fund k\u00ebsaj dashurie, pavar\u00ebsisht se Ledjana m\u00eb q\u00ebndron larg. Ne t\u00eb\ndy nuk jemi t\u00eb pasur, jemi t\u00eb varf\u00ebr se jetojm\u00eb vet\u00ebm me djers\u00ebn ton\u00eb, por mund\nt\u00eb them me bindje se jemi t\u00eb lumtur dhe lumturia \u00ebsht\u00eb gj\u00ebja m\u00eb e r\u00ebnd\u00ebsishme n\u00eb\njet\u00eb. Parat\u00eb shkojn\u00eb e vijn\u00eb, por lumturia nuk mund t\u00eb z\u00ebvend\u00ebsohet me asgj\u00eb\ntjet\u00ebr. Nj\u00eb njeri i lumtur mund t\u00eb p\u00ebrballoj\u00eb \u00e7do v\u00ebshtir\u00ebsi dhe p\u00ebr mua, fal\u00eb\ndashuris\u00eb dhe lumturis\u00eb q\u00eb po jetoj, arrij t\u2019i kaloj t\u00eb gjitha v\u00ebshtir\u00ebsit\u00eb,\nbile as m\u00eb duket sikur po kaloj ndonj\u00eb v\u00ebshtir\u00ebsi. Me pak fjal\u00eb, gjith\u00e7ka po\nkalonte p\u00ebr mrekulli mes nesh, un\u00eb isha shum\u00eb i lumtur, kisha menduar t\u00eb b\u00ebja\nshum\u00eb gj\u00ebra p\u00ebr Ledjan\u00ebn dhe isha m\u00eb i p\u00ebrkushtuar. Isha i bindur se asgj\u00eb nuk\nmund t\u00eb m\u00eb ndaj\u00eb nga Ledjana, as m\u00eb kish shkuar n\u00eb mend se nj\u00eb dit\u00eb Ledjana do\nnd\u00ebrronte mendje, s\u2019kishte interes t\u00eb m\u00eb merrte n\u00eb telefon dhe kjo ndjenj\u00eb do\nshuhej menj\u00ebher\u00eb p\u00ebr hi\u00e7gj\u00eb. Pres q\u00eb melodia e telefonit t\u00eb saj t\u00eb m\u00eb zgjoj\u00eb\nnga gjumi, q\u00eb p\u00ebrsh\u00ebndetjen e par\u00eb t\u2019ia jap Ledjan\u00ebs, se m\u00eb von\u00eb p\u00ebr mua s\u2019ka m\u00eb\nvler\u00eb e gjith\u00eb dita, q\u00eb kalon n\u00eb trishtim. Nuk e di \u00e7far\u00eb shpirti ka, kur un\u00eb\nkam shprehur shqet\u00ebsimin tim dhe prap\u00eb vazhdon i nj\u00ebjti avaz. Ledjana, po ta\nshkruaj edhe k\u00ebtu n\u00eb let\u00ebr se kam shum\u00eb nevoj\u00eb p\u00ebr telefonatat e tua. M\u00ebngjesin\ndua ta filloj me ty, at\u00ebhere jam i lumtur, dita m\u00eb shkon mbar\u00eb. Mendoj se kishim\nnj\u00eb dashuri t\u00eb sh\u00ebndetshme… t\u00eb dua pa mas\u00eb dhe nuk m\u00eb shkon nd\u00ebrmend se mund\nt\u00eb ekzistonte ndonj\u00eb arsye q\u00eb t\u00eb na ndante, por ja q\u00eb e keqja ndodhi at\u00ebhere\nkur un\u00eb nuk e prisja. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Disa muaj m\u00eb\npar\u00eb ajo filloi t\u00eb luante rolin e indiferentes, s\u2019m\u00eb merrte n\u00eb telefon si m\u00eb\npar\u00eb, q\u00eb un\u00eb e prisja \u00e7do sekond\u00eb. Kur un\u00eb i bija telefonit dhe nuk m\u00eb p\u00ebrgjigjej,\nnuk m\u00eb besohej se mund t\u00eb ishte e v\u00ebrtet\u00eb. Rrija n\u00eb ankth, m\u00eb lotonin syt\u00eb dhe\nprisja \u00e7do sekond\u00eb q\u00eb dikush t\u00eb m\u00eb thoshte se ishte nj\u00eb shaka e sh\u00ebmtuar, jo e\nv\u00ebrtet\u00eb. At\u00ebhere t\u00eb gjitha fuqit\u00eb m\u00eb lan\u00eb dhe gjunj\u00ebt m\u2019u k\u00ebput\u00ebn. E humba. Nuk\ndija si ta p\u00ebrballoja at\u00eb t\u00eb keqe q\u00eb m\u00eb ra. Instiktivisht, mendova Ledjan\u00ebn, at\u00eb\ngrua q\u00eb e dua me shpirt dhe q\u00eb ka humbur motivin e vet\u00ebm t\u00eb jet\u00ebs saj. Nuk di \u00e7\u2019t\u00eb\nthem. \u00c7do \u00ebnd\u00ebrr, \u00e7do plan, \u00e7do gj\u00eb shkat\u00ebrrohet p\u00ebr nj\u00eb koh\u00eb shum\u00eb t\u00eb shkurt\u00ebr.\nLedjana u largua nga un\u00eb duke l\u00ebn\u00eb nj\u00eb mori \u00ebndrrash pa realizuar, \u00ebndrrat e\nveta dhe t\u00eb miat. T\u00eb dy duhet t\u2019i p\u00ebrmbaheshim betimit q\u00eb nuk do ndaheshim kurr\u00eb,\npor mua s\u2019ma merrte mendja q\u00eb do ishte nj\u00eb dit\u00eb q\u00eb do na ndante kaq shpejt, pa\nna dh\u00ebn\u00eb koh\u00eb t\u00eb nd\u00ebrtonim nj\u00eb dashuri t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb, at\u00eb q\u00eb un\u00eb e kam \u00ebnd\u00ebrruar\nnga \u00e7asti i par\u00eb q\u00eb u pam\u00eb n\u00eb sy rrug\u00ebs q\u00eb t\u00eb \u00e7on n\u00eb Dajt. Edhe pse jam akoma i\nri dhe t\u00eb gjith\u00eb m\u00eb thon\u00eb t\u2019i jap koh\u00eb vetes dhe pastaj t\u00eb vazhdoj jet\u00ebn time,\nun\u00eb jam i sigurt\u00eb se askush nuk mund ta z\u00ebr\u00eb vendin e Ledjan\u00ebs n\u00eb zemr\u00ebn time.\nAjo \u00ebsht\u00eb dashuria e jet\u00ebs sime, vet\u00ebm ajo mund t\u00eb m\u00eb kuptonte dhe mund t\u00eb m\u00eb b\u00ebnte\nt\u00eb lumtur. E kam ndjer\u00eb n\u00eb momentin e par\u00eb q\u00eb e pash\u00eb dhe vazhdoj ta ndjej edhe\nsot se Ledjana \u00ebsht\u00eb e duhura p\u00ebr mua. Un\u00eb e gjeta shum\u00eb shpejt dashurin\u00eb e\nmadhe t\u00eb jet\u00ebs time, por fatkeq\u00ebsisht, po ka shpejt e humba. Ndoshta duhej\nbetuar se as vdekja s\u2019do t\u00eb na ndante. Ndoshta Zoti do ta d\u00ebgjonte betimin tim\ndhe nuk do t\u00eb na kishte v\u00ebn\u00eb p\u00ebrpara sprov\u00ebs me emrin \u201cndarje\u201d. E dashura ime,\nLedjana, ti do t\u00eb jetosh p\u00ebrgjithmon\u00eb n\u00eb zemr\u00ebn time. Ledjana, p\u00ebrse s\u2019m\u00eb\nbeson? Mendjen tek un\u00eb s\u2019e ke, asnj\u00eb fjal\u00eb t\u00eb mir\u00eb s\u2019m\u00eb thua, p\u00ebrse? Ledjana,\nun\u00eb kam qejf gjithmon\u00eb t\u00eb jem pran\u00eb teje, ulur aty te divani yt. Ti prap\u00eb s\u2019e\nkthen kok\u00ebn, un\u00eb dua p\u00ebr ty t\u00eb k\u00ebndoj. Ty t\u00eb pikturoj e \u00e7do gj\u00eb p\u00ebr ty t\u00eb b\u00ebj dhe\nti prap\u00eb s\u2019m\u00eb beson e nuk di se \u00e7far\u00eb thua, kurse un\u00eb, sa t\u00eb jetoj, p\u00ebr ty do\nmendoj. Ledjana, q\u00ebkur provova dashurin\u00eb me ty, un\u00eb u b\u00ebra rob i saj:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kur ishe e re,\nt\u00eb gjeta ty moj gonxhe lulebor\u00eb<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Thurur bukur\ndy g\u00ebrsheta, derdhur mbrapa si kuror\u00eb<\/p>\n\n\n\n
T\u00eb shikoja un\u00eb\np\u00ebrhera, ti m\u00eb jepje plot g\u00ebzime<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Si lulet q\u00eb\nsjell pranvera, skalitur n\u00eb zemr\u00ebn time<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Edhe pse tani\njemi t\u00eb moshuar, dashuria s\u2019plaket kurr\u00eb<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kujtimet s\u2019kan\u00eb\nt\u00eb harruar, val\u00ebviten si flamur\u00eb<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ledjan\u00eb t\u00eb kam\nkanarin\u00eb n\u00eb kafaz, m\u00eb k\u00ebnaq k\u00ebnga jote<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ngado shkoj e\nmarr pas, o engj\u00ebll i k\u00ebsaj bote<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kur hap der\u00ebn\ne kafazit, kanarina fluturon<\/p>\n\n\n\n
N\u00ebp\u00ebr streh\u00ebt\ne pullazit e nuk di se ku q\u00ebndron<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kur ta dija\nun\u00eb i mjeri, q\u00eb kanarina do fluturonte, shk\u00eblqente si hark ylberi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dhe si dara m\u00eb\nshtr\u00ebngonte, kur ti sh\u00ebtisje n\u00ebp\u00ebr pem\u00eb, t\u00eb shikoja me \u00ebmb\u00eblsi<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Vuaj t\u00eb t\u00eb\ngjej folen\u00eb e pastaj t\u00eb t\u00eb mbaj n\u00eb gji<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ledjana,\nrrug\u00ebn ma zuri, Ledjana shpres\u00ebn ma pruri<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I ndrit ylli,\ni ndrit nuri, shqipe ngjitur te flamuri<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Te flamuri i\ntrim\u00ebris\u00eb, te Shqiponja e bukuris\u00eb<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Lulja n\u00eb pem\u00eb\nt\u00eb qershis\u00eb, Ledjana rron n\u00eb fis<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ledjana, p\u00ebr\nmua je ylli q\u00eb rrezaton, je zogu q\u00eb fluturon<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Me cic\u00ebrima\n(k\u00ebng\u00eb) m\u00eb \u00ebmb\u00eblson, nga gjumi i \u00ebmb\u00ebl m\u00eb zgjon <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ledjana, edhe\nn\u00eb gjum\u00eb kur jam zgjuar, si p\u00ebllumb t\u00eb mbaj n\u00eb duar<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Se ti nuk m\u00eb l\u00eb\nt\u00eb vuaj, me ty zjarrin e zemr\u00ebs shuaj<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sa t\u00eb jem e sa\nt\u00eb rroj, g\u00ebzimet me ty i shtoj<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Je si bleta\nmbret\u00ebresh\u00eb n\u00eb zgjoj, mua m\u00eb jep krah\u00eb t\u00eb fluturoj<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ledjana,\nflak\u00ebs zjarrit mos i fryj, se do t\u00eb digjemi t\u00eb dy<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nuk jam un\u00eb\ndiktator, nuk dua t\u00eb mbaj me zor<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Edhe pse dua\nt\u00eb jem me ty, lotin do ta mbaj n\u00eb sy.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ledjana, \u00e7\u2019m\u00eb\nduhen syt\u00eb, kur s\u2019t\u00eb shohin ty<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00c7\u2019m\u00eb duhen\nvesh\u00ebt, kur s\u2019d\u00ebgjojn\u00eb z\u00ebrin t\u00ebnd<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00c7\u2019m\u00eb duhet hunda,\nkur s\u2019e thith arom\u00ebn t\u00ebnde<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00c7\u2019m\u00eb duhen\nbuz\u00ebt, kur s\u2019marrin puthjen t\u00ebnde<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00c7\u2019m\u00eb duhet\ngoja, kur nuk flet me ty<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00c7\u2019m\u00eb duhen\nduart, kur s\u2019t\u00eb prekin ty<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00c7\u2019m\u00eb duhen\nk\u00ebmb\u00ebt, kur nuk ecin p\u00ebr ty<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00c7\u2019m\u00eb duhet\nzemra q\u00eb t\u00eb do ty dhe ti s\u2019m\u00eb beson.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
T\u00eb uroj,\nLedjana, q\u00eb k\u00ebto vargje t\u00eb t\u00eb gjejn\u00eb sh\u00ebndosh\u00eb e mir\u00eb. Mos m\u00eb harro, por m\u00eb\ntelefono, m\u00ebngjesin dua ta filloj me ty, jo t\u00eb harrosh t\u00eb m\u00eb telefonosh. E\npavdekshmja ime, q\u00eb t\u00eb ruaj n\u00eb nj\u00eb vend ku nuk hyn askush. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Un\u00eb q\u00eb po shkruaj k\u00ebt\u00eb histori jam nj\u00eb nga ata njer\u00ebz q\u00eb nuk u shp\u00ebtova dhimbjeve e vuajtjeve t\u00eb k\u00ebsaj bote. Fati im i madh \u00ebsht\u00eb se p\u00ebr pak koh\u00eb provova dhe shijova dashurin\u00eb e v\u00ebrtet\u00eb, por me sa duket, nuk qenka e th\u00ebn\u00eb q\u00eb gj\u00ebrat e bukura t\u00eb zgjasin p\u00ebrgjithmon\u00eb. Ky \u00ebsht\u00eb fati im […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":21033,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[94],"tags":[249],"class_list":["post-22326","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-histori-nga-jeta","tag-histori"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22326","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=22326"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22326\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/21033"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=22326"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=22326"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=22326"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}