N\u00eb radh\u00eb t\u00eb par\u00eb, dua t\u2019u k\u00ebrkoj falje t\u00eb gjith\u00eb atyre prind\u00ebrve q\u00eb kur t\u00eb lexojn\u00eb m\u00ebkatin q\u00eb kam b\u00ebr\u00eb, do t\u00eb mendojn\u00eb se un\u00eb jam nj\u00eb shembull i keq p\u00ebr f\u00ebmij\u00ebt e tyre. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
U mendova gjat\u00eb para se ta nisja k\u00ebt\u00eb let\u00ebr, por m\u00eb n\u00eb fund vendosa\u2026 <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ndihem shum\u00eb n\u00eb faj p\u00ebr at\u00eb q\u00eb kam b\u00ebr\u00eb dhe dua q\u00eb t\u00eb shfaj\u00ebsohem disi, qoft\u00eb edhe vet\u00ebm duke treguar nj\u00eb t\u00eb fsheht\u00eb q\u00eb e mbaj n\u00eb zem\u00ebr prej shum\u00eb koh\u00ebsh.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Plus q\u00eb, nga ana tjet\u00ebr, n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb, shum\u00eb nga lexuesit e letr\u00ebs sime do t\u00eb mendoheshin mir\u00eb para se t\u00eb vepronin, n\u00ebse do t\u00eb gjendeshin n\u00eb nj\u00eb situat\u00eb t\u00eb ngjashme me timen. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Tani, un\u00eb jam 33 vje\u00e7. Jetoj n\u00eb nj\u00eb\nqytet t\u00eb vog\u00ebl ku edhe kam hapur nj\u00eb biznes, por nuk ndihem aspak mir\u00eb n\u00eb jet\u00ebn\ntime. Jam i martuar, por f\u00ebmij\u00eb nuk kam dhe nuk dua t\u00eb kem\u2026 Mendoj se nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb\nmir\u00eb t\u00eb sjell\u00ebsh n\u00eb jet\u00eb nj\u00eb foshnje t\u00eb pafajshme, q\u00eb pastaj ai t\u00eb vuaj\u00eb p\u00ebr\nt\u2019u p\u00ebrshtatur n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb bot\u00eb t\u00eb posht\u00ebr, ku mund t\u00eb jetosh mir\u00eb vet\u00ebm n\u00ebse je\nmaskara ose b\u00ebhesh i till\u00eb. Un\u00eb jam nj\u00eb nga k\u00ebta t\u00eb dyt\u00ebt\u2026 N\u00eb adoleshenc\u00eb isha\nshum\u00eb idealist. Mendoja se njeriu nuk duhet t\u2019i b\u00ebj\u00eb kurr\u00eb keq njeriu sepse\npastaj e p\u00ebson nga Zoti dhe isha betuar se kurr\u00eb n\u00eb jet\u00ebn time nuk do t\u2019i\nshkelja kujt n\u00eb kallo, deri dit\u00ebn kur kuptova se duke u sjell\u00eb k\u00ebshtu,\nrrezikoja t\u00eb mos b\u00ebja p\u00ebrpara n\u00eb jet\u00eb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sapo kisha mbaruar t\u00eb mesmen dhe\nnuk kisha nd\u00ebrmend ta nisja shkoll\u00ebn e lart\u00eb sepse shkolla m\u00eb ishte m\u00ebrzitur\nshum\u00eb. Pa llogaritur pastaj q\u00eb nuk isha mir\u00eb me m\u00ebsime. Un\u00eb doja t\u00eb punoja dhe\nt\u00eb b\u00ebhesha i pasur, si shum\u00eb t\u00eb tjer\u00eb n\u00eb qytetin tim. Pa humbur koh\u00eb, sapo\nmbarova t\u00eb mesmen, nisa pun\u00ebn te kush\u00ebriri im, n\u00eb nj\u00eb firm\u00eb hekurishtesh.\nPunoja si qen, kur i thon\u00eb llafit. Isha i ri e i fuqish\u00ebm dhe mendoja se sa m\u00eb\nshum\u00eb t\u00eb punoja, aq m\u00eb shum\u00eb do t\u00eb paguhesha, pa marr\u00eb parasysh pastaj faktin\nq\u00eb pronarin e kisha kush\u00ebri\u2026 Vazhdova k\u00ebshtu derisa mora rrog\u00ebn e par\u00eb. Isha\nshum\u00eb i lumtur sepse ajo do t\u00eb ishte rroga e par\u00eb q\u00eb merrja n\u00eb jet\u00eb, por\u2026\nKush\u00ebriri m\u2019i dha lek\u00ebt t\u00eb mbledhura shuk dhe un\u00eb nuk arrita t\u00eb shihja sa\nishin. Nuk kishim folur m\u00eb par\u00eb p\u00ebr pages\u00eb, k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb un\u00eb s\u2019kisha si ta dija se\nsa do t\u00eb merrja. Kur i preka parate, m\u2019u duk\u00ebn shum\u00eb. Kush\u00ebriri m\u00eb tha t\u2019i\nnum\u00ebroja, por mua m\u00eb erdhi turp ta b\u00ebja n\u00eb syt\u00eb e tij. E fal\u00ebnderova disa her\u00eb,\nduke u skuqur deri te vesh\u00ebt, a thua se ai po m\u2019i falte ato para dhe se ato nuk\nishin frut i djers\u00ebs q\u00eb kisha derdhur e ika. Padurimi p\u00ebr t\u00eb par\u00eb sa lek\u00eb kisha\nme vete po m\u00eb pengonte p\u00ebr t\u00eb hedhur hapat deri n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi. Kur arrita atje,\nndihesha shum\u00eb i lodhur. U futa n\u00eb dhom\u00eb dhe nxora lek\u00ebt nga xhepi. Vet\u00ebm aty\nvura re se thuajse t\u00eb gjitha kartmonedhat ishin 1000 lek\u00ebshe (t\u00eb vjetra) dhe un\u00eb,\np\u00ebr nj\u00eb muaj pun\u00eb derr\u00e7e, kur i themi ne k\u00ebtej, kisha marr\u00eb vet\u00ebm 17.000 lek\u00eb.\nNuk po g\u00ebnjej, jo! Kjo ishte e v\u00ebrteta, p\u00ebr fat t\u00eb keq. Kurr\u00eb ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb m\u00eb par\u00eb\nnuk isha ndier m\u00eb keq se at\u00eb dit\u00eb, megjithat\u00eb, u mundova ta justifikoja kush\u00ebririn\ntim, duke kujtuar se ai shpesh na thoshte se biznesi s\u2019po i ecte mir\u00eb, se\nvazhdimisht kishte probleme\u2026 K\u00ebshtu, un\u00eb idealisti, mendova se duke vazhduar\npun\u00ebn te fimra e tij, n\u00eb nj\u00ebfar\u00eb m\u00ebnyre edhe e ndihmoja q\u00eb t\u00eb rim\u00ebk\u00ebmbej.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kur e kujtoj at\u00eb periudh\u00eb m\u00eb vjen\np\u00ebr t\u00eb qar\u00eb e p\u00ebr t\u00eb qeshur nj\u00ebkoh\u00ebsisht. Kush\u00ebriri im e kishte hapur magazin\u00ebn\ne hekurishteve n\u00eb katin e par\u00eb t\u00eb vil\u00ebs s\u00eb tij trekat\u00ebshe, e para n\u00eb at\u00eb zon\u00eb\ndhe un\u00eb shihja her\u00eb pas here at\u00eb dhe gruan e tij teksa ktheheshin n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi me\nqeset e m\u00ebdha me ushqime, shumic\u00ebn e t\u00eb cilave un\u00eb nuk i kisha par\u00eb kurr\u00eb m\u00eb\npar\u00eb e jo m\u00eb t\u2019i kisha shijuar. Dhe, t\u00eb mendoje se vet\u00ebm nj\u00ebra nga ato qese\nkishte brenda ushqime q\u00eb vlenin sa rroga ime e nj\u00eb muaji! E di, do t\u00eb mendoni\nse isha ziliqar. Ndoshta, megjith\u00ebse un\u00eb do t\u00eb thoja se nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb kjo fjala e\np\u00ebrshtatshme. N\u00eb t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb, ndihesha i fyer, i pavler\u00ebsuar\u2026 Ndihesha si ai\nqeni q\u00eb pret nj\u00eb kock\u00eb nga padroni i tij barkmadh q\u00eb ishte edhe padroni im e q\u00eb\nnuk ngurronte edhe ta shqelmonte, sa her\u00eb i tekej. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kjo periudh\u00eb nuk zgjati m\u00eb shum\u00eb\nse tre muaj, por kur e kujtoj, m\u00eb duket sikur kan\u00eb qen\u00eb tre vjet t\u00eb t\u00ebr\u00eb. Them\n\u201ckjo periudh\u00eb\u201d sepse megjith\u00ebse punova edhe p\u00ebr nj\u00eb vit n\u00eb firm\u00ebn e kush\u00ebririt\ntim, erdhi nj\u00eb dit\u00eb q\u00eb sh\u00ebnoi edhe kthes\u00ebn e madhe t\u00eb jet\u00ebs sime. At\u00eb dit\u00eb, e\npash\u00eb si gjithmon\u00eb kush\u00ebririn t\u00eb ngjiste shkall\u00ebt i ngarkuar me qese me\nushqime. Kisha di\u00e7ka p\u00ebr t\u2019i th\u00ebn\u00eb, ndaj ngjita shkall\u00ebt pas tij, por pash\u00eb\ndi\u00e7ka q\u00eb ndoshta do t\u00eb kishte qen\u00eb m\u00eb mir\u00eb p\u00ebr mua t\u00eb mos e shihja\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ai, sapo ishte futur n\u00eb port\u00eb dhe\npo grindej keq me t\u00eb shoqen. Megjith\u00ebse nuk kisha p\u00ebrgjuar kurr\u00eb n\u00eb jet\u00ebn time,\nkureshtja m\u00eb shtu t\u00eb mos kthehesha mbrapsh, por t\u00eb rrija e t\u00eb d\u00ebgjoja fjal\u00ebt e\ntyre.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– T\u00eb kam th\u00ebn\u00eb nj\u00eb mij\u00eb her\u00eb t\u00eb\nmos rrish n\u00eb dritare kur njer\u00ebzit punojn\u00eb! \u2013 ul\u00ebriti ai.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Un\u00eb e di vet\u00eb \u00e7far\u00eb b\u00ebj \u2013 u\np\u00ebrgjigj gruaja e tij me z\u00eb t\u00eb ul\u00ebt. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
M\u2019u duk e trembur. Kurr\u00eb m\u00eb par\u00eb\nnuk e kisha d\u00ebgjuar t\u00eb fliste. Ajo gjithmon\u00eb i ngjiste shkall\u00ebt thuajse me vrap\ndhe megjith\u00ebse ishte gruaja e kush\u00ebririt tim, un\u00eb t\u00eb them t\u00eb drejt\u00ebn, asnj\u00ebher\u00eb\nnuk kisha arritur ta shihja n\u00eb fytyr\u00eb. Kurr\u00eb nuk e kisha vrar\u00eb mendjen se pse\najo nuk na p\u00ebrsh\u00ebndeste kur kalonte, bile jo. Mendoja se e b\u00ebnte ngaq\u00eb ne ishim\npun\u00ebtor\u00eb t\u00eb thjesht\u00eb, kurse ajo zonj\u00eb e madhe. Z\u00ebri i saj i trembur at\u00eb dit\u00eb m\u00eb\ntrembi edhe mua. Nuk e di pse e p\u00ebrjetova aq keq. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Mos m\u00eb fol mua ashtu! \u2013 bu\u00e7iti\ns\u00ebrish z\u00ebri i tij dhe un\u00eb d\u00ebgjova zhurm\u00ebn e nj\u00eb shuplake t\u00eb shoq\u00ebruar nga nj\u00eb\nzhurm\u00eb tjet\u00ebr, m\u00eb e fort\u00eb. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Zbrita me vrap shkall\u00ebt, por nuk\nu ktheva n\u00eb pun\u00eb. Ika n\u00eb lokalin aty af\u00ebr dhe mora nj\u00eb teke konjak. Ndihesha\nshum\u00eb keq. M\u00eb mir\u00eb t\u00eb mos e kisha par\u00eb at\u00eb sken\u00eb. Megjith\u00ebse n\u00eb fakt, m\u00eb mir\u00eb\nq\u00eb e pash\u00eb, sepse q\u00eb nga ai moment un\u00eb vendosa t\u00eb hakmerresha ndaj atij njeriu\nq\u00eb po na pinte gjakun dhe q\u00eb nuk ngopej me k\u00ebt\u00eb, por po i merrte shpirtin edhe\nasaj gruaje q\u00eb nuk e njihja, por q\u00eb mendoja se duhet t\u00eb ishte nj\u00eb grua e mir\u00eb. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
At\u00eb nat\u00eb nuk fjeta. Nuk m\u00eb linte\ninati q\u00eb kisha ndaj kush\u00ebririt tim. Doja t\u00eb b\u00ebja di\u00e7ka t\u00eb keqe kund\u00ebr tij, por\nnuk dija se si. T\u00eb nes\u00ebrmen n\u00eb m\u00ebngjes u ngrita nga gjumi si i dehur dhe me nj\u00eb\ndhimbje ther\u00ebse koke, megjithat\u00eb shkova n\u00eb pun\u00eb dhe me kush\u00ebririn tim u solla\nshum\u00eb mir\u00eb, si t\u00eb mos kish ndodhur asgj\u00eb. Bile, u solla m\u00eb mir\u00eb se zakonisht\u2026 Fillova\nt\u00eb b\u00ebja me t\u00eb biseda q\u00eb nuk i kisha b\u00ebr\u00eb m\u00eb par\u00eb. Fillova t\u2019i q\u00ebndroja af\u00ebr.\nKisha vendosur t\u00eb b\u00ebhesha krahu i tij i djatht\u00eb, megjith\u00ebse m\u00eb nevojitej mundim\ni madh p\u00ebr t\u2019u sjell\u00eb miq\u00ebsisht me t\u00eb. Thash\u00eb se e urreja shum\u00eb. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Megjith\u00ebse ai ishte qen bir qeni,\nmua filloi t\u00eb m\u00eb besonte aq shum\u00eb sa nisi t\u00eb m\u00eb fuste edhe n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi, kur e\nshoqja nuk ishte. Aty u binda plot\u00ebsisht se ai ishte shum\u00eb xheloz p\u00ebr t\u00eb. Gjeta\nk\u00ebshtu pik\u00ebn e tij t\u00eb dob\u00ebt. Doja t\u2019i ndaja ata t\u00eb dy. E di q\u00eb duket makabre ta\nmendosh, por n\u00eb fillim dua t\u00eb sqaroj se nuk kisha asnj\u00eb q\u00ebllim t\u00eb keq, apo m\u00eb\nmir\u00eb, interes p\u00ebr nusen e tij si fem\u00ebr. Doja vet\u00ebm t\u2019i ndaja, por pa i b\u00ebr\u00eb\nasnj\u00eb t\u00eb keqe asaj. Nuk dija si ta gjeja m\u00ebnyr\u00ebn p\u00ebr t\u00eb folur me t\u00eb, pasi ai e\nkontrollonte gjat\u00eb t\u00eb gjith\u00eb koh\u00ebs, k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb vendosa t\u2019i \u00e7oja nj\u00eb let\u00ebr. \u00c7far\u00eb\nnuk i shkrova atje! I shkrova se ai kishte nj\u00eb grua tjet\u00ebr jasht\u00eb shtetit, atje\nku shkonte p\u00ebr t\u00eb marr\u00eb furnizimet. Kjo, me sa duket shkaktoi rr\u00ebmuj\u00ebn n\u00eb\nsht\u00ebpin\u00eb e tyre dhe mua m\u00eb dha mund\u00ebsi t\u00eb fitoja m\u00eb tep\u00ebr besimin e kush\u00ebririt\ntim, t\u00eb cilit i thoja se grat\u00eb ishin t\u00eb poshtra\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Vazhdova k\u00ebshtu, me letra, p\u00ebr\nnj\u00eb koh\u00eb t\u00eb gjat\u00eb dhe k\u00ebnaqesha tmerr\u00ebsisht shum\u00eb kur shihja se si t\u00ebrbohej dhe\ne humbte qet\u00ebsin\u00eb kush\u00ebriri im p\u00ebr shkak t\u00eb problemeve n\u00eb familje. Shum\u00eb her\u00eb\nerdh\u00ebn edhe v\u00ebllez\u00ebrit e saj dhe me sa kuptoja, n\u00eb at\u00eb sht\u00ebpi kishte plasur\nbomba. P\u00ebr \u00e7udi, nuk ndihesha keq, bile k\u00ebnaqesha shum\u00eb, sidomos kur shihja q\u00eb\nai kishte vet\u00ebm probleme n\u00eb firm\u00ebn e tij, pasi nuk merrej me asgj\u00eb, por e\nkalonte koh\u00ebn duke pir\u00eb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pas ca muajsh, gruaja e tij u\nlargua nga sht\u00ebpia. Ndihesha i lumtur. Ajo nuk meritonte t\u00eb q\u00ebndronte me at\u00eb\nnjeri dhe ai nuk meritonte t\u00eb b\u00ebnte nj\u00eb jet\u00eb si\u00e7 e d\u00ebshironte. Gjith\u00e7ka kishte\nmarr\u00eb fund n\u00eb at\u00eb familje, fal\u00eb meje dhe gjith\u00e7ka kishte marr\u00eb fund t\u00eb biznesin\ne tij. Firma e tij falimentoi shum\u00eb shpejt dhe un\u00eb, duke i ruajtur lidhjet q\u00eb\nkishte patur ai me firma t\u00eb huaja dhe fal\u00eb nj\u00eb shume t\u00eb mir\u00eb parash q\u00eb e mora\nn\u00eb sht\u00ebpin\u00eb e tij, n\u00eb nj\u00eb moment dob\u00ebsie nga ana e tij, munda t\u00eb ngrija nj\u00eb\nfirm\u00eb timen, q\u00eb tani ec\u00ebn shum\u00eb mir\u00eb. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nuk e di ku \u00ebsht\u00eb ish-gruaja e\ntij tani, por e di se i kam b\u00ebr\u00eb nj\u00eb nder t\u00eb madh, duke e ndar\u00eb prej nj\u00eb\nmaskarai q\u00eb ia nxinte jet\u00ebn. \u00cbsht\u00eb e \u00e7uditshme si rrjedhin gj\u00ebrat n\u00eb jet\u00eb. N\u00eb\nsaj\u00eb t\u00eb nj\u00eb maskarall\u00ebku un\u00eb arrita shum\u00eb, por mbi t\u00eb gjitha, arrita t\u00eb b\u00ebhesha\ni pasur, gj\u00eb q\u00eb as nuk e \u00ebnd\u00ebrroja. Dhe, n\u00ebse doni ta dini, nuk jam penduar\naspak p\u00ebr ato q\u00eb kam b\u00ebr\u00eb, bile mendoj se kam b\u00ebr\u00eb sevap, si i thon\u00eb llafit\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
N\u00eb radh\u00eb t\u00eb par\u00eb, dua t\u2019u k\u00ebrkoj falje t\u00eb gjith\u00eb atyre prind\u00ebrve q\u00eb kur t\u00eb lexojn\u00eb m\u00ebkatin q\u00eb kam b\u00ebr\u00eb, do t\u00eb mendojn\u00eb se un\u00eb jam nj\u00eb shembull i keq p\u00ebr f\u00ebmij\u00ebt e tyre. U mendova gjat\u00eb para se ta nisja k\u00ebt\u00eb let\u00ebr, por m\u00eb n\u00eb fund vendosa\u2026 Ndihem shum\u00eb n\u00eb faj p\u00ebr at\u00eb q\u00eb […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":22012,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[95],"tags":[245],"class_list":["post-22295","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-rrefime-mekatesh","tag-mekat"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22295","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=22295"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22295\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/22012"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=22295"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=22295"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=22295"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}