Un\u00eb jam nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb fatkeqe nga Durr\u00ebsi. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
E quaj veten time k\u00ebshtu sepse \u00e7do gj\u00eb q\u00eb ka ndodhur deri tani n\u00eb jet\u00ebn time ka qen\u00eb e mallkuar. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
T\u00eb gjith\u00eb m\u00eb thon\u00eb q\u00eb jam njeri i mir\u00eb dhe faktikisht ashtu jam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I dua t\u00eb af\u00ebrmit e mi, b\u00ebj sakrifica p\u00ebr ta dhe nuk ia uroj asnjeriu nj\u00eb fat t\u00eb zi si ky i imi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kur isha ende e vog\u00ebl, babai, q\u00eb vuante nga nj\u00eb s\u00ebmundje e pash\u00ebrueshme nd\u00ebrroi\njet\u00eb. Ishte nj\u00eb tronditje e madhe p\u00ebr mua dhe dy motrat e mia. P\u00ebrve\u00e7se na u\ndesh t\u00eb p\u00ebrballonim nj\u00eb dhimbje kaq t\u00eb r\u00ebnd\u00eb, problemi tjet\u00ebr p\u00ebr ne ishte\nmbijetesa. Me asistenc\u00ebn q\u00eb na jepte shteti nuk ia dilnim dot mban\u00eb. Mbet\u00ebm kat\u00ebr\nfemra n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi dhe fare t\u00eb vetme, pa pranin\u00eb e nj\u00eb figure mashkullore q\u00eb ta\nkishim si \u201cprij\u00ebs\u201d. Me rrog\u00ebn e mamas\u00eb nuk mund t\u00eb jetonim, ndaj edhe motrave t\u00eb\nmia m\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00ebdha se un\u00eb n\u00eb mosh\u00eb, iu desh t\u00eb hynin n\u00eb pun\u00eb shum\u00eb shpejt p\u00ebr t\u00eb\nsiguruar jetes\u00ebn. Ato kan\u00eb b\u00ebr\u00eb lloj-lloj pun\u00ebsh, por e r\u00ebnd\u00ebsishme p\u00ebr ne \u00ebsht\u00eb\nq\u00eb kemi punuar gjithnj\u00eb ndershm\u00ebrisht dhe p\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb na respekton gjith\u00eb fisi.\nJemi fis i madh dhe t\u00eb gjith\u00eb kur kan\u00eb mund\u00ebsi na ndihmojn\u00eb. P\u00ebr maman\u00eb ka qen\u00eb\nshum\u00eb e v\u00ebshtir\u00eb t\u00eb rris\u00eb tre f\u00ebmij\u00eb krejt e vetme, aq m\u00eb tep\u00ebr ne q\u00eb ishim\nvajza q\u00eb duhet t\u00eb tregonte nj\u00eb kujdes maksimal se tani \u00e7far\u00eb nuk po ndodh!…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Un\u00eb jam n\u00eb gjimnaz dhe n\u00eb pushimet e ver\u00ebs kur t\u00eb gjitha shoqet e mia\nshkojn\u00eb n\u00eb plazh, punoj p\u00ebr t\u00eb p\u00ebrmbushur sadopak nevojat e mia financiare. Gjat\u00eb\nver\u00ebs s\u00eb fundit, tek punoja n\u00eb nj\u00eb fast-food u njoha me nj\u00eb djal\u00eb q\u00eb punonte si\nkamarier te lokali ngjitur. E kuptova q\u00eb edhe ai m\u00eb p\u00eblqente, pra, ishte nj\u00eb\nndjenj\u00eb e nd\u00ebrsjell\u00eb. Ai vinte shpesh t\u00eb m\u00eb takonte. M\u00eb sillte ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb kafen\u00eb,\nvinte porosiste sandui\u00e7\u00eb ose kur mbaronte turnin, ngulej aty dhe hante ndonj\u00eb\ngj\u00eb t\u00eb b\u00ebr\u00eb nga \u201cduart e specialistes\u201d, si\u00e7 m\u00eb th\u00ebrriste ai me shaka. T\u00eb gjitha\nvajzat q\u00eb punonin aty e kishin v\u00ebn\u00eb re k\u00ebt\u00eb gj\u00eb, ndaj edhe m\u00eb thonin t\u00eb pranoja\nt\u00eb dilja me t\u00eb p\u00ebr kafe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
K\u00ebshtu, un\u00eb pranova q\u00eb nj\u00eb dit\u00eb t\u00eb harroja m\u00ebrzin\u00eb q\u00eb m\u00eb kishte mb\u00ebrthyer prej\nvitesh dhe dola me t\u00eb. Ia kaluam shum\u00eb mir\u00eb. N\u00eb momentin q\u00eb ai m\u00eb rr\u00ebmbeu nj\u00eb\nputhje u ndjeva aq e lumtur sa m\u00eb dukej sikur po fluturoja drejt nj\u00eb g\u00ebzimi q\u00eb\ne kisha harruar. Lidhja jon\u00eb vazhdoi t\u00eb ishte shum\u00eb e bukur. Problemet dhe\nhallet e mia m\u00eb dukeshin m\u00eb t\u00eb thjeshta tani q\u00eb i diskutoja me t\u00eb. Alternonim turnet\nbashke dhe kur ishim turni i dyt\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb dy, iknim paradite nga plazhi, nd\u00ebrsa\nkur ishim t\u00eb dy turni i par\u00eb, dilnim pasditeve dor\u00eb p\u00ebr dore nga bregu dhe\nshijonim per\u00ebndimin e diellit, teksa pinim nj\u00eb kafe n\u00eb breg t\u00eb detit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00c7\u2019mund t\u2019ju them?! P\u00ebr mua, lidhja q\u00eb po p\u00ebrjetoja ishte si parajsa vet\u00eb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
E doja aq shum\u00eb \u00c7imin sa i dhurova edhe virgj\u00ebrin\u00eb time. Marr\u00ebdh\u00ebniet tona\nnuk ishin shum\u00eb t\u00eb shpeshta p\u00ebr shkak t\u00eb mund\u00ebsive dhe koh\u00ebs, por at\u00ebhere kur\nndodhnin ishte mrekullia vet\u00eb. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nj\u00eb dit\u00eb kur po punoja ndjeva q\u00eb m\u2019u p\u00ebrzie dhe shkova me vrap n\u00eb tualet.\nMendova se mos e isha nga vapa apo nga er\u00ebrat e ndryshme, ndaj e anashkalova k\u00ebt\u00eb\nsi nj\u00eb gj\u00eb t\u00eb par\u00ebnd\u00ebsishme. Pas disa dit\u00ebsh fillova t\u00eb b\u00ebhesha merak. I\nlutesha e i p\u00ebrgj\u00ebrohesha Zotit t\u00eb mos m\u00eb jepte ndonj\u00eb s\u00ebmundje t\u00eb r\u00ebnd\u00eb. Pastaj,\nkur po m\u00eb vonoheshin edhe menstruacionet m\u00eb lindi nj\u00eb fije dyshimi se mund t\u00eb\nkisha ngelur shtatz\u00ebn\u00eb. Nga nj\u00ebra an\u00eb e dija se \u00c7imi gjithnj\u00eb p\u00ebrdorte masa\nmbrojt\u00ebse, por kisha d\u00ebgjuar q\u00eb edhe ato nuk ishin 100 % t\u00eb sigurta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bleva nj\u00eb test shtatzanie dhe doli v\u00ebrtet q\u00eb isha shtatz\u00ebn\u00eb. M\u2019u duk sikur\nm\u00eb ra qielli mbi kok\u00eb. Nuk dija \u00e7\u2019t\u00eb b\u00ebja, kujt t\u2019i tregoja, \u00e7\u2019vendim t\u00eb\nmerrja. Ishte shum\u00eb her\u00ebt q\u00eb un\u00eb t\u00eb martohesha dhe t\u2019i jepja k\u00ebtij f\u00ebmije nj\u00eb\nfamilje. Nuk kisha as kushtet ekonomike. As \u00c7imi nuk ishte gati. E takova nj\u00eb\ndit\u00eb dhe i thash\u00eb se doja t\u2019i tregoja di\u00e7ka t\u00eb r\u00ebnd\u00ebsisshme… Ai u vrenjt menj\u00ebher\u00eb\nse kujtoi mos do t\u2019i k\u00ebrkoja t\u00eb ndaheshim. Kur i thash\u00eb p\u00ebr f\u00ebmij\u00ebn, u trondit\ndhe m\u00eb pyeti menj\u00ebher\u00eb se \u00e7\u2019do t\u00eb b\u00ebja. I thash\u00eb se nuk isha gati p\u00ebr t\u00eb rritur\nnj\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00eb dhe ai, sigurisht, m\u00eb pohoi t\u00eb nj\u00ebjt\u00ebn gj\u00eb. M\u00eb k\u00ebshilloi t\u00eb bisedoja\nme motr\u00ebn e madhe (meq\u00eb me at\u00eb hapesha m\u00eb shpesh). <\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cGjithsesi\u201d, m\u00eb tha, \u201cun\u00eb do t\u00eb jem me ty n\u00eb \u00e7do moment, por nuk t\u00eb premtoj\nq\u00eb do t\u00eb martohemi, sepse jam ende i vog\u00ebl!\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ai kishte t\u00eb drejt\u00eb. Ishte 19 vje\u00e7, nd\u00ebrsa un\u00eb vet\u00ebm 17.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bisedova me motr\u00ebn dhe ajo m\u00eb tha q\u00eb nuk mund ta mbaja f\u00ebmij\u00ebn. P\u00ebrve\u00e7\npamund\u00ebsis\u00eb financiare, do t\u00eb m\u00eb shante i gjith\u00eb fisi p\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb gj\u00eb t\u00eb\n\u201cpamoralshme\u201d. Edhe ajo kishte plot\u00ebsisht t\u00eb drejt\u00eb. Nuk mund ta mbaja k\u00ebt\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00eb.\nCaktova nj\u00eb takim n\u00eb nj\u00eb klinik\u00eb private (pasi \u00c7imi m\u00eb tha se do ta paguante ai\nabortin n\u00eb klinik\u00ebn m\u00eb t\u00eb mir\u00eb) dhe shkova p\u00ebr t\u00eb kryer mbase \u201cm\u00ebkatin m\u00eb t\u00eb\nmadh t\u00eb jet\u00ebs sime\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
K\u00ebt\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00eb e doja shum\u00eb pa lindur ende… Tani i k\u00ebrkoj falje Zotit dhe i\nthem q\u00eb nj\u00eb m\u00ebkat t\u00eb till\u00eb nuk do mund ta b\u00ebj m\u00eb, n\u00eb \u00e7do koh\u00eb apo mosh\u00eb. Ajo\nishte nj\u00eb dhurat\u00eb nga ai, t\u00eb cil\u00ebn un\u00eb e hodha tutje… <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Shpresoj q\u00eb kur t\u00eb krijoj nj\u00eb familje n\u00eb t\u00eb ardhmen, t\u00eb mund t\u00eb b\u00ebj ndonj\u00eb\nf\u00ebmij\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb jet\u00eb djal\u00eb, meq\u00eb familjes ton\u00eb i ka munguar shum\u00eb nj\u00eb i till\u00eb!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Un\u00eb jam nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb fatkeqe nga Durr\u00ebsi. E quaj veten time k\u00ebshtu sepse \u00e7do gj\u00eb q\u00eb ka ndodhur deri tani n\u00eb jet\u00ebn time ka qen\u00eb e mallkuar. T\u00eb gjith\u00eb m\u00eb thon\u00eb q\u00eb jam njeri i mir\u00eb dhe faktikisht ashtu jam. I dua t\u00eb af\u00ebrmit e mi, b\u00ebj sakrifica p\u00ebr ta dhe nuk ia uroj asnjeriu […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":21033,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[95],"tags":[2106,245],"class_list":["post-22276","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-rrefime-mekatesh","tag-historia","tag-mekat"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22276","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=22276"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22276\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/21033"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=22276"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=22276"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=22276"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}