Un\u0451 q\u0451 po ju shkruaj jam nj\u0451 vajz\u0451 q\u0451 kam pak m\u0451 shum\u0451 se nj\u0451 vit q\u0451 jetoj n\u0451 Shqip\u0451ri.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Prind\u0451rit e mi u larguan nga Shqip\u0451ria kur isha shum\u0451 e vog\u0451l, k\u0451shtu q\u00eb kur u ktheva n\u0451 Shqip\u0451ri, gjith\u00e7ka m\u0451 dukej ndryshe dhe n\u0451 fakt, ashtu ishte.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M\u0451 dukej e pamundur t\u0451 jetoja k\u0451tu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Megjith\u0451se ishte shum\u0451 e v\u0451shtir\u0451 t\u0451 futesha n\u0451 rrjedh\u0451n e jet\u0451s s\u0451 k\u0451tushme, prap\u0451 se prap\u0451 u m\u0451sova shpejt dhe zura shum\u0451 shoqe. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kur z\u0451 shoqe, do t\u0451 thot\u0451 se ato menj\u0451her\u0451 do t\u0451 t\u00eb lidhin me ndonj\u0451 djal\u0451.\nShoqja e par\u0451 q\u0451 zura ishte nj\u0451 komshie e gjyshes. Ajo ishte vajz\u0451 shum\u0451 e mir\u0451\ndhe ishte e dashuruar me nj\u0451 shok shkolle. Q\u00eb t\u0451 dilte me t\u0451 m\u0451 lirsh\u0451m, ajo m\u0451\nlidhi me shokun e tij. Ai ishte nj\u0451 djal\u0451 i mir\u0451 dhe mua m\u0451 p\u0451lqente shoq\u0451ria me\nt\u00eb. Dol\u0451m bashk\u0451 disa her\u0451, por nuk zgjati shum\u0451, sepse ishte shum\u0451 fanatik. M\u0451\npyeste vet\u0451m se sa her\u00eb kisha qen\u0451 e lidhur, kur isha dashuruar p\u0451r her\u0451 t\u0451\npar\u0451 e gj\u0451ra t\u0451 tilla t\u0451 cilat mua m\u0451 dukeshin t\u0451 v\u0451shtira p\u0451r t\u2019u p\u0451rballuar. Shoqja\nime vazhdonte me t\u0451 sajin, edhe pse dukej haptas q\u0451 ai nuk ndjente ndonj\u0451 gj\u0451\np\u0451r t\u0451, vet\u0451m e mashtronte, duke i marr\u0451 t\u0451 gjitha lek\u0451t q\u0451 i jepnin prind\u0451rit.\nNejse, ajo ishte e fiksuar pas tij dhe nuk kishte gj\u0451 q\u00eb t\u2019ia prishte mendjen. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
M\u0451 von\u0451, u njoha me nj\u0451 djal\u0451 tjet\u0451r. Ai ishte n\u0451 nj\u0451 kurs me mua. Ishte\nshum\u0451 i pash\u0451m dhe un\u0451, q\u0451 e kisha v\u0451n\u0451 re q\u0451 dit\u0451n e par\u0451, nuk e b\u0451ra dysh\nk\u0451rkes\u0451n e tij p\u0451r kafe. U lidh\u0451m shum\u0451 shpejt, madje tani e kuptoj se ky mund\nt\u0451 ket\u0451 qen\u0451 arsyeja pse un\u0451 tani po e vuaj k\u0451t\u0451 dashuri. Lidhja jon\u0451 ishte nj\u0451\nlidhje krejt ndryshe nga ajo para saj. Ai nuk ishte aspak xheloz, madje nj\u0451 dit\u0451,\nkur takuam rast\u0451sisht djalin q\u0451 ju thash\u0451 m\u0451 lart se kisha qen\u00eb e lidhur, e\nftoi n\u00eb kafe dhe fliste me t\u0451 sikur t\u0451 kishte vite q\u0451 e njihte. Un\u0451 isha e\ndashuruar dhe nuk e kuptova at\u0451her\u0451, por tani q\u0451 e mendoj, them se q\u0451 aty duhet\nt\u0451 ishim ndar\u00eb. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ai tregohej shum\u0451 i sjellsh\u0451m me mua dhe m\u0451 mbante shum\u0451 mir\u0451. Pas pak kohe,\nfilloi t\u0451 ankohej p\u0451r kushtet e konviktit. Jo nuk kishte ku t\u0451 lante rrobat, ku\nt\u0451 lahej vet\u0451 e gj\u0451ra t\u0451 tilla si k\u0451to. E kuptova se donte q\u0451 ta ndihmoja, por\nnuk kisha d\u0451shir\u0451 ta prezantoja me ata t\u0451 sht\u0451pis\u0451 se m\u0451 dukej sikur ishte\nshpejt. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nj\u0451 dit\u0451 ai m\u0451 tha se nuk mund t\u0451 duronte m\u0451 t\u0451 rrinte n\u0451 konvikt. Ose do\nt\u0451 linte shkoll\u0451n e t\u0451 kthehej n\u0451 qytetin e tij, ose do t\u0451 gjente nj\u0451 sht\u0451pi me\nqira dhe do t\u0451 futej n\u0451 pun\u0451. Un\u0451 e binda q\u0451 t\u0451 mos e linte shkoll\u00ebn dhe k\u0451shtu,\nai u shp\u0451rngul nga konvikti dhe mori me qira nj\u0451 sht\u0451pi, s\u0451 bashku me nj\u0451 shok.\nParadite shkonte n\u0451 shkoll\u0451 dhe pasdite, punonte. Ishte nj\u0451 gj\u0451 shum\u0451 e mir\u0451, por\nkjo b\u0451ri q\u0451 ne t\u0451 takoheshim shum\u0451 rrall\u0451. Ai ishte aq i dh\u0451n\u0451 pas pun\u0451s sa\nnganj\u0451her\u0451 punonte t\u0451 shtun\u0451n e t\u0451 diel\u0451n gjith\u0451 dit\u0451n. Pra, kalonte java dhe\nne nuk pinim dot asnj\u0451 kafe. Isha shum\u0451 e m\u0451rzitur dhe m\u0451 dukej sikur ai po\nftohej me mua. Edhe kur shkonim n\u0451 ndonj\u0451 pab nat\u0451n, ai th\u0451rriste t\u0451 gjith\u0451\nshoq\u0451rin\u0451 e re t\u0451 pun\u0451s dhe un\u0451 ndjehesha e l\u0451n\u0451 pas dore, nd\u0451rsa ai ndihej\nshum\u0451 i lumtur dhe shum\u0451 i zhd\u0451rvjell\u0451t. Qeshte, b\u0451nte shaka dhe nganj\u0451her\u0451, kur\nkujtohej p\u0451r mua, m\u0451 thoshte:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Mos rri kaq e heshtur se mendojn\u0451 shoq\u0451ria keq p\u0451r ne. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Po pse, \u00e7\u2019pun\u00eb ka shoq\u0451ria se si rri un\u0451? \u2013 i thosha. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Po dukesh keq mi dhe ata kan\u0451 shum\u0451 r\u0451nd\u0451si p\u0451r mua. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nuk fola m\u0451 tep\u0451r sepse shqipja ime akoma nuk ishte shum\u0451 e mir\u0451. Po t\u0451\nisha tani, do t\u0451 dija si t\u2019i p\u0451rgjigjesha. Nejse, u m\u0451rzita, por nuk e dhash\u0451\nveten. Ai nuk kuptoi asgj\u0451 nga gjendja ime, sepse e kishte mendjen gjetiu. Kur\nshkova n\u0451 sht\u0451pi, mami e kuptoi menj\u0451her\u0451 se nuk isha mir\u0451 dhe m\u0451 b\u0451ri aq shum\u0451\npyetje sa m\u2019u desh t\u2019ia tregoja t\u0451 gjith\u0451n fije p\u0451r pe. Ajo mendonte se un\u0451 nuk\nkisha faj, por un\u0451 i thash\u0451 se un\u0451 isha fajtorja. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
– E pse na qenke ti fajtorja? \u2013 m\u00eb pyeti shum\u00eb e m\u00ebrzitur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Sepse po t\u0451 rrinte te sht\u0451pia jon\u0451, ai do t\u00eb kishte shum\u0451 koh\u00eb p\u0451r mua. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Dhe ti do t\u0451 pranoje ta sillje n\u0451 sht\u0451pi?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– At\u0451here jo, por tani q\u0451 po e shoh se ai m\u0451 \u0451sht\u0451 larguar shum\u0451, do t\u0451\nb\u0451ja \u00e7do gj\u0451 q\u0451 t\u00eb mos e humbisja. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Mir\u0451, bija ime, si t\u0451 duash ti vepro. Dua vet\u0451m q\u0451 t\u0451 mos m\u0451rzitesh e mos\nt\u00eb t\u00eb shoh t\u0451 l\u0451nduar. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ajo ishte shum\u0451 mir\u00ebkuptuese, mbase sepse kishte jetuar shum\u0451 vite jasht\u0451\nShqip\u0451ris\u0451 dhe ishte ndikuar nga shoqet q\u0451 kishte, t\u0451 cilat i zgjidhte\ngjithmon\u0451 me nivel dhe shum\u0451 t\u0451 p\u0451rparuara. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
T\u0451 nes\u0451rmen i k\u0451rkova takim t\u0451 dashurit dhe ai, pas shum\u0451 ankesave, jo \u201clash\u0451\nor\u0451t e m\u0451simit\u201d, \u201cmos vonohem p\u0451r n\u0451 pun\u0451\u201d e shum\u0451 t\u0451 tjera si k\u0451to, erdhi. I\nthash\u0451 se isha m\u0451rzitur shum\u0451 nj\u00eb nat\u00eb m\u00eb par\u00eb dhe mendoja se puna po na ndante.\nAi m\u0451 tha se po t\u0451 linte pun\u0451n, do t\u2019i duhej t\u0451 linte edhe shkoll\u0451n, mir\u0451po un\u0451\ni ofrova nj\u0451 t\u0451 mesme t\u0451 cil\u0451n ai nuk e refuzonte dot. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Kam pyetur mamin e babin dhe ti mund t\u0451 vish t\u0451 jetosh te ne. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Po si k\u0451shtu, kaq papritur? – tha ai q\u00eb dukej se nuk e priste nj\u0451 gj\u0451 t\u0451\ntill\u0451. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
– N\u0451se nuk do, nuk ka problem, por k\u0451t\u0451 po e b\u0451j q\u0451 ti t\u0451 mos lodhesh kaq\nshum\u0451 dhe t\u0451 kemi pak koh\u0451 t\u0451 lir\u0451 q\u0451 t\u0451 rrim\u0451 bashk\u0451. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Mir\u0451, faleminderit. Edhe un\u0451 kam shum\u0451 d\u0451shir\u0451 t\u0451 njihem me prind\u0451rit e\ntu dhe t\u0451 rri n\u0451 sht\u0451pin\u0451 t\u0451nde. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ashtu u b\u0451. Pim\u0451 kafet, si\u00e7 i themi ne fejes\u0451s, dhe ai u shp\u0451rngul te\nsht\u0451pia ime. U miq\u0451sua shum\u0451 shpejt me v\u0451llan\u0451 tim dhe me t\u0451 gjith\u0451 kush\u0451rinjt\u0451.\nT\u0451 gjith\u0451 e adhuronin. Edhe un\u0451, gjithashtu. Ai i kishte t\u0451 gjitha t\u0451 mirat. Kur\nshikoja at\u0451, edhe un\u0451, edhe prind\u0451rit e mi nuk dyshonim n\u0451 ardhjen ton\u0451 n\u0451\nShqip\u0451ri. Para se t\u0451 kthehesha, mendoja se t\u0451 gjith\u0451 djemt\u0451 do t\u0451 lidheshin me mua\nvet\u0451m se do t\u0451 mendonin se kisha para dhe ishim t\u0451 pasur, meqen\u0451se kishim\njetuar shum\u0451 vite jasht\u0451 shtetit, por ky djal\u0451 nuk na dukej si i till\u0451. Them \u201cnuk\nna dukej\u201d se n\u0451 t\u0451 v\u0451rtet\u0451, ai ishte shum\u0451 i zgjuar dhe nuk e tregoi fytyr\u0451n e\ntij p\u0451r shum\u0451 koh\u0451. Shum\u0451 e v\u0451rtet\u0451 \u0451sht\u0451 kur njer\u0451zit duhet t\u0451 ruhen nga\nperfektja. Asgj\u0451 nuk \u0451sht\u0451 reale, n\u0451se \u0451sht\u0451 perfekte. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ai jetoi me ne nj\u0451 vit dhe, gjat\u0451 k\u0451tij viti, un\u0451 isha shum\u0451 e lumtur. Kalonim\nshum\u0451 koh\u0451 s\u0451 bashku dhe \u00e7do gj\u0451 ishte nj\u0451 mrekulli. Ai nuk punonte, vet\u0451m\nshkonim n\u0451 shkoll\u0451 paradite dhe gjith\u0451 pasditen ishte n\u0451 dispozicionin tim e t\u0451\nfamiljes. Jetonte me t\u0451 ardhurat e familjes sime dhe nuk kishte nevoj\u0451 t\u0451\ndjersinte p\u0451r asgj\u0451. Pas nj\u0451 viti, t\u0451 dy mbaruam shkoll\u0451n dhe duhej t\u0451 b\u0451nim\nmasterin. Un\u0451, n\u0451 fakt, doja ta b\u0451ja jasht\u0451 sepse edhe me shqipen akoma nuk\nisha m\u0451suar. Po k\u0451shtu vendosi edhe ai. Hodh\u0451m bursat dhe ai nuk fitoi sepse\nnuk kishte mesataren e lart\u0451, nd\u0451rsa un\u0451 fitova burs\u0451n, pra, do ta b\u0451ja falas\nmasterin. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ai u m\u0451rzit shum\u0451 dhe prind\u0451rit e mi, gjithashtu. Un\u0451 s\u2019diskutohet q\u00eb po\nsepse nuk mund t\u0451 rrija larg tij. Prind\u0451rit e tij ishin t\u0451 varf\u0451r dhe nuk mund\nt\u2019ia paguanin shkoll\u0451n. Kur arrit\u0451m n\u0451 k\u0451t\u0451 pik\u0451, prind\u0451rit e mi vendos\u0451n t\u2019ia\npaguanin ata. M\u0451 than\u0451 mua dhe un\u0451, q\u0451 isha e budallallepsur nga dashuria,\npranova menj\u0451her\u0451. Sapo i thash\u0451 atij, ai m\u2019u ul n\u0451 gjunj\u0451 duke m\u0451 fal\u00ebnderuar.\nIshte shum\u0451 i aft\u0451 p\u0451r k\u0451to gj\u0451ra dhe me k\u0451to ai t\u0451 merrte mendt\u0451 dhe t\u0451 b\u0451nte\nq\u0451 t\u0451 b\u0451je dhe t\u0451 pamundur\u0451n p\u0451r t\u0451. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Tani, t\u0451 dy u nis\u0451m p\u0451r n\u0451 shkoll\u0451 dhe ishte nj\u0451 udh\u0451tim shum\u0451 i bukur. Atje\nvendos\u0451m t\u0451 merrnim nj\u0451 sht\u0451pi dhe t\u0451 jetonim bashk\u0451. N\u0451 fillim ishte shum\u0451\nbukur, por ai m\u0451rzitej sapo na mbaroheshin lek\u0451t. N\u0451 fillim vet\u0451m m\u0451rzitej dhe\nnuk fliste, por pastaj dilte me shok\u0451t dhe nuk kthehej gjith\u0451 nat\u0451n. Un\u0451 isha\nshum\u0451 e stresuar dhe fillova t\u0451 merrja mjekim p\u0451r stresin. Kur m\u0451 erdhi mami\np\u0451r vizit\u0451, m\u0451 pa ila\u00e7et dhe menj\u0451her\u0451 m\u0451 uli t\u0451 m\u0451 merrte n\u0451 pyetje. Ia\ntregova t\u0451 gjitha. Ajo priti sa i dashuri erdhi n\u0451 sht\u0451pi dhe i tha q\u0451 t\u0451\nmerrte rrobat, t\u0451 largohej e t\u0451 mos dukej m\u0451. Ai veproi menj\u0451her\u0451, sikur kishte\nkoh\u0451 q\u0451 e priste k\u0451t\u0451 gj\u0451. U soll aq keq me mamin sa as i ngjante aspak djalit q\u0451\nkishte jetuar p\u0451r aq koh\u00eb n\u0451 sht\u0451pin\u0451 ton\u0451 gjith\u0451 mir\u0451sjellje. Un\u0451 kalova nj\u0451\nstres t\u0451 madh, por m\u0451 von\u0451 e mora veten. Tani i mendoj gj\u0451rat dhe m\u0451 duket e\npamundur t\u0451 m\u0451 ket\u0451 ndodhur mua, nd\u0451rsa ai, si\u00e7 m\u0451 kan\u0451 th\u0451n\u0451, vazhdon t\u0451 lidhet\nme vajza t\u0451 pasura q\u0451 t\u0451 jetoj\u0451 leht\u0451, ashtu si\u00e7 b\u0451ri me mua. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Un\u0451 q\u0451 po ju shkruaj jam nj\u0451 vajz\u0451 q\u0451 kam pak m\u0451 shum\u0451 se nj\u0451 vit q\u0451 jetoj n\u0451 Shqip\u0451ri. Prind\u0451rit e mi u larguan nga Shqip\u0451ria kur isha shum\u0451 e vog\u0451l, k\u0451shtu q\u00eb kur u ktheva n\u0451 Shqip\u0451ri, gjith\u00e7ka m\u0451 dukej ndryshe dhe n\u0451 fakt, ashtu ishte. M\u0451 dukej e pamundur t\u0451 jetoja k\u0451tu. […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":21033,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[95],"tags":[245],"class_list":["post-22206","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-rrefime-mekatesh","tag-mekat"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22206","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=22206"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22206\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/21033"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=22206"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=22206"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=22206"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}