Hej miq, jam ca e trishtuar k\u00ebt\u00eb jav\u00eb… <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Po lexoja letrat e m\u00ebparshme q\u00eb ju kam shkruar dhe arrita n\u00eb p\u00ebrfundimin se kam shkruar shum\u00eb p\u00ebr femrat, ndaj zonja e zonjusha, t\u00eb m\u00eb falni, por k\u00ebt\u00eb her\u00eb do t\u2019u dedikohem meshkujve, k\u00ebtyre q\u00eb…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
nejse, m\u00eb mir\u00eb, po e nis nga e para.\u00a0 <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Gjith\u00e7ka filloi q\u00ebkur linda. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Linda vajz\u00eb dhe t\u00eb lind\u00ebsh vajz\u00eb nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb gj\u00eb e leht\u00eb, \u00ebsht\u00eb tep\u00ebr e mundimshme. M\u00eb kujtohet fare mir\u00eb kur fillova t\u00eb luaja t\u00eb lagjja ime… Djali i par\u00eb q\u00eb m\u00eb p\u00eblqeu ishte \u00e7uni i lagjes p\u00ebrball\u00eb, m\u00eb sakt\u00eb, ai bjondi me dy sy blu e me flok\u00eb kapelon, si drita! Sigurisht, gjuajtja ime filloi me gur\u00eb se un\u00eb nuk e kisha fare iden\u00eb se \u00e7\u2019do t\u00eb ishte nj\u00eb gjuajtje n\u00eb kuptimin e tanish\u00ebm t\u00eb fjal\u00ebs. Pas disa dit\u00ebsh gjuajtjeje me gur\u00eb, loj\u00eb me hithra e kala dibran\u00e7e me djalin, e kuptova q\u00eb ky lloj p\u00eblqimi ishte pak sadist dhe hoqa dor\u00eb e mendova t\u00eb k\u00ebrkoja dik\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00eb respektonte e t\u00eb mos m\u00eb l\u00ebndonte. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sa mir\u00eb do t\u00eb\nkishte qen\u00eb t\u00eb vazhdoja n\u00eb t\u00eb till\u00eb form\u00eb, sepse q\u00eb thoni ju, t\u00eb dashura\nzonjusha, un\u00eb ju mir\u00ebkuptoj n\u00eb ato situata kur t\u00eb vjen t\u2019i gjuash e ta\nshqelmosh at\u00eb personin, defi\u00e7entin p\u00ebrball\u00eb, nj\u00ebsoj si n\u00eb ato loj\u00ebrat e\ndhunshme t\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00ebris\u00eb. Tani m\u00eb ka ardhur koha p\u00ebr burr\u00eb e s\u2019mund t\u00eb b\u00ebj m\u00eb t\u00eb\nk\u00ebtilla loj\u00ebra, por p\u00ebrbrenda vetes e ndjej dhe m\u00eb vjen gjithmon\u00eb e gatshme\nideja e sadizmit ndaj tyre.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
N\u00ebp\u00ebr kafet ku rri\nzakonisht, m\u00eb vjen shpeshher\u00eb t\u00eb qesh me \u00e7\u2019kam p\u00ebrball\u00eb dhe, q\u00eb t\u00eb jem m\u00eb e\nsinqert\u00eb, e kam ndar\u00eb gjinin\u00eb mashkullore n\u00eb tre stade evoluimi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
T\u00eb par\u00ebt, jan\u00eb ata\ndjemt\u00eb e bukur, t\u00eb lar\u00eb, t\u00eb krehur e veshur bukur, fal\u00eb nj\u00eb n\u00ebne t\u00eb shkret\u00eb q\u00eb\nb\u00ebhet copa q\u00eb djali i saj t\u00eb jet\u00eb sa m\u00eb i mir\u00eb. Jan\u00eb p\u00ebrgjith\u00ebsisht ata \u00e7una t\u00eb\ncil\u00ebve mami u thot\u00eb \u00e7do m\u00ebngjes q\u00eb jan\u00eb m\u00eb t\u00eb bukurit e bot\u00ebs, q\u00eb meritojn\u00eb m\u00eb\nt\u00eb mir\u00ebn e m\u00eb t\u00eb mir\u00eb p\u00ebr ta s\u2019do ket\u00eb asnj\u00ebher\u00eb, sepse asnj\u00eb s\u2019ka p\u00ebr t\u2019u\nkrahasuar me \u201ct\u00eb bukurin e n\u00ebn\u00ebs\u201d. K\u00ebta b\u00ebjn\u00eb biseda t\u00eb lezetshme her\u00ebn e par\u00eb,\npor kur i takon p\u00ebr her\u00eb t\u00eb dyt\u00eb, kupton q\u00eb s\u2019kan\u00eb asgj\u00eb \u00e7\u2019t\u00eb t\u00eb japin. K\u00ebt\u00eb\nher\u00eb, ata do t\u00eb b\u00ebjn\u00eb disa komplimente sa p\u00ebr t\u2019u dukur ose do t\u00eb tregojn\u00eb\nndonj\u00eb barcalet\u00eb t\u00eb lezetshme. Her\u00ebn e tret\u00eb do t\u00eb jen\u00eb totalisht vetvetja, do\nt\u00eb flasin p\u00ebr playstation, se sa bukur ia kalojn\u00eb me \u00e7unat, se s\u2019kan\u00eb si t\u00eb\nshtyjn\u00eb dit\u00ebn dhe q\u00eb k\u00ebrkojn\u00eb di\u00e7ka serioze, por q\u00eb duan t\u00eb g\u00ebzojn\u00eb lirin\u00eb e\ntyre. Jan\u00eb si ata librat q\u00eb sapo e ke lexuar kapitullin e tret\u00eb, e imagjinon\nvet\u00eb se si do t\u00eb shkoj\u00eb historia dhe e mbyll fare se e di si do mbaroj\u00eb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
T\u00eb dyt\u00ebt jan\u00eb ata\nsimpatik\u00ebt q\u00eb jan\u00eb gjithmon\u00eb, po gjithmon\u00eb me \u00e7unat; edhe n\u00eb kafe i sheh bashk\u00eb\nduke mos b\u00ebr\u00eb asnj\u00eb lloj bisede, thjesht duke par\u00eb ato q\u00eb kalojn\u00eb rrug\u00ebs, me\nndonj\u00eb koment sporadik p\u00ebr fundshpin\u00ebn e ndonj\u00ebr\u00ebs. Tipat e k\u00ebtill\u00eb, zor se\nkan\u00eb ambicie. Ata e din\u00eb q\u00eb do t\u00eb b\u00ebjn\u00eb nj\u00eb lloj pune gjith\u00eb jet\u00ebn, do ken\u00eb\nndonj\u00eb shef mbi kok\u00eb dhe k\u00ebrkojn\u00eb ndonj\u00eb vajz\u00eb t\u00eb bukur sepse ajo u mungon q\u00eb\nt\u00eb ndjehen t\u00eb realizuar. Q\u00eb thoni ju, k\u00ebta jan\u00eb ata q\u00eb kur ti je duke ecur p\u00ebr\nqejfin t\u00ebnd n\u00eb rrug\u00eb n\u00eb m\u00ebngjes duke shkuar n\u00eb pun\u00eb ose n\u00eb shkoll\u00eb, je ngritur\nme qejf, je trukuar sa p\u00ebr t\u00eb qen\u00eb okej dhe je munduar t\u00eb vesh\u00ebsh rrobat m\u00eb t\u00eb\nrehatshme p\u00ebr dit\u00ebn (me nj\u00eb lloj optimizmi q\u00eb dita do t\u00eb ec\u00eb mir\u00eb), t\u00eb hedhin at\u00eb\nkomentin: \u201cS\u2019qenka gj\u00eb!\u201d. Ti kthen kok\u00ebn t\u00eb shoh\u00ebsh kush flet dhe shikon nj\u00ebrin\nq\u00eb n\u00ebse do t\u2019i vije nj\u00eb not\u00eb nga 1 n\u00eb 10, do t\u00eb merrte thjesht nj\u00eb 0. Eh, aty\nfillon dita ters. N\u00ebse je vajz\u00eb e zgjuar, do t\u00eb bezdisesh, por s\u2019do ta vras\u00ebsh\nmendjen e do t\u00eb vazhdosh, por duke e ditur si jemi ne femrat, me siguri do t\u00eb\nmendosh q\u00eb s\u2019je mir\u00eb dhe do t\u00eb fillosh direkt t\u00eb b\u00ebhesh me komplekse.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
K\u00ebta pra jan\u00eb ata q\u00eb\nt\u00eb flasin p\u00ebr futbollin, p\u00ebr makinat, p\u00ebr motorrat, q\u00eb her\u00ebn e par\u00eb jan\u00eb\nth\u00ebngjill i mbuluar, t\u00eb l\u00ebn\u00eb ty t\u00eb flas\u00ebsh, t\u00eb d\u00ebgjojn\u00eb me interes dhe ti\nmendon: \u201cOk, ky \u00ebsht\u00eb i lezetsh\u00ebm, t\u00eb respekton\u201d, por m\u00eb von\u00eb e kupton q\u00eb nuk\nflet sepse thjesht nuk ka \u00e7far\u00eb t\u00eb flas\u00eb. K\u00ebta jan\u00eb ata q\u00eb t\u00eb \u00e7ojn\u00eb \u201cnga\nlagjja\u201d, q\u00eb t\u00eb shikojn\u00eb shok\u00ebt se \u201c\u00e7\u2019mall\u201d ka ai. K\u00ebta edhe mund t\u00eb marr\u00ebsh\np\u00ebrsip\u00ebr t\u2019i edukosh, duke b\u00ebr\u00eb jet\u00eb sociale larg kafeve, t\u2019i \u00e7osh n\u00eb kinema, n\u00eb\nteat\u00ebr, t\u00eb shkosh p\u00ebr vrap, etj., por do t\u00eb ta presin shkurt e prer\u00eb: \u201cJam \u00e7un\u201d,\nm\u00eb sakt\u00eb \u201clac, kok\u00eb e k\u00ebmb\u00eb dhe s\u2019i b\u00ebj k\u00ebto gj\u00ebra\u201d. At\u00ebhere mendon me vete:\n\u201c\u00c7\u2019jet\u00eb mund t\u00eb b\u00ebj un\u00eb me k\u00ebt\u00eb?\u201d. Ai do t\u00eb v\u00ebr\u00eb skedina, do t\u00eb t\u00eb l\u00ebr\u00eb n\u00eb\nsht\u00ebpi se \u201cshoku ka hall\u201d dhe do t\u00eb t\u00eb duhet t\u00eb punosh sa p\u00ebr dy sepse ai, tre\u00e7erekun\ne lek\u00ebve i ka l\u00ebn\u00eb p\u00ebr birra…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
K\u00ebshtu, ne femrat e\nshkreta p\u00ebrfundojm\u00eb p\u00ebrs\u00ebri n\u00eb at\u00eb lloj libri q\u00eb e \u00e7on deri n\u00eb fund dhe q\u00eb as s\u2019t\u00eb\nshkon nd\u00ebrmend ta rilexosh… Harroje!<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dhe vijn\u00eb t\u00eb tret\u00ebt,\nbukurosh\u00ebt e zyrave me k\u00ebmish\u00eb e me kollare, me \u00e7ant\u00eb e me nj\u00eb buz\u00ebqeshje t\u00eb\ntipit: \u201cJa ku jam, thjesht, m\u00eb v\u00ebshtro!\u201d. K\u00ebta jan\u00eb m\u00eb problematik\u00ebt sepse k\u00ebt\u00eb\nbuz\u00ebqeshjen e bukur e kan\u00eb p\u00ebr \u00e7do fem\u00ebr. K\u00ebta pin\u00eb kafe n\u00eb vendet m\u00eb t\u00eb\nnjohura, mbajn\u00eb telefonat m\u00eb t\u00eb fundit e mbi t\u00eb gjitha, jan\u00eb gjithmon\u00eb t\u00eb\nkuruar! Her\u00ebn e par\u00eb q\u00eb do t\u2019i shoh\u00ebsh do t\u00eb t\u00eb p\u00eblqejn\u00eb sepse jan\u00eb t\u00eb\nmuhabetit (p\u00ebrve\u00e7 faktit se q\u00eb n\u00eb fillim tregon se ku ka punuar, se sa i aft\u00eb\n\u00ebsht\u00eb, se sa lek\u00eb merr n\u00eb muaj e t\u00eb tjera e t\u00eb tjera), jan\u00eb xhentil\u00eb dhe din\u00eb\nt\u00eb sillen, por kan\u00eb vet\u00ebm nj\u00eb problem tep\u00ebr t\u00eb madh: Q\u00eb n\u00eb takim, duan ta pin\u00eb\nkafen \u201cnat\u00ebn von\u00eb\u201d… Ti mendon: \u201cOk, nj\u00eb kafe \u00ebsht\u00eb\u201d, por jo… djali do t\u00eb\nrrij\u00eb e t\u00eb v\u00ebrdalliset n\u00ebp\u00ebr rrug\u00ebt plot trafik t\u00eb Tiran\u00ebs sepse do t\u00eb ket\u00eb nj\u00eb\nvend t\u00eb ve\u00e7ant\u00eb dhe ky vendi do t\u00eb jet\u00eb n\u00eb nj\u00eb restorant larg vij\u00ebs s\u00eb gjelb\u00ebr,\nose n\u00eb nj\u00eb lokal p\u00ebrgjith\u00ebsisht af\u00ebr sht\u00ebpis\u00eb s\u00eb tij, sepse e ka m\u00eb t\u00eb leht\u00eb\nparkimin. Ti mendon q\u00eb \u00e7\u00ebshtja u zgjidh dhe i thua vetes: \u201cOk, do ta njoh,\n\u00ebsht\u00eb djal\u00eb i mir\u00eb\u201d, por \u00e7do gj\u00eb q\u00eb ti i thua p\u00ebr veten, atij s\u2019i duket\ninteresante dhe n\u00ebse n\u00eb nj\u00eb moment i thua q\u00eb e ka gabim, ah, aty ndryshon gjith\u00e7ka,\ndo t\u00eb t\u00eb hedh\u00eb nj\u00eb shikim me at\u00eb shprehjen: \u201cMua m\u00eb thua ti?!\u201d. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nejse, k\u00ebtyre u bie\npafund\u00ebsisht telefoni dhe jan\u00eb, sigurisht, \u201ctelefonata pune\u201d. Por, t\u00eb lutem,\nkush \u00ebsht\u00eb ai q\u00eb b\u00ebn telefonata pune n\u00eb 11 t\u00eb nat\u00ebs? Po nejse, ti b\u00ebn sikur s\u2019e\nkupton. Pasi keni mbaruar at\u00eb pijen ose dark\u00ebn, pa e marr\u00eb vesh fare ai se si\nje ti dhe \u00e7\u2019mendon, t\u00eb b\u00ebn at\u00eb ftes\u00ebn klishe: \u201cHajde t\u00eb shikojm\u00eb ndonj\u00eb film\nnga sht\u00ebpia ime…\u201d. Dhe ja tek\nzhg\u00ebnjehesh, sepse pret t\u00eb t\u00eb lejoj\u00eb at\u00eb grimc\u00eb dinjiteti e respekti q\u00eb t\u2019i\nmarr\u00ebsh vet\u00eb vendimet e tua n\u00ebse do t\u00eb kesh nj\u00eb raport. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ah, se harrova, ky\n\u00ebsht\u00eb thashethemexhiu m\u00eb i madh, di gjith\u00e7ka p\u00ebr gjithk\u00ebnd, k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb edhe\nlibri i tret\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb ai q\u00eb i sheh vet\u00ebm kopertin\u00ebn, b\u00ebn shum\u00eb buj\u00eb, kushton\nshum\u00eb, ama subjekti s\u2019do t\u00eb t\u00eb p\u00ebrshtatet aspak. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Morali i ndarjes s\u00eb\nstadeve \u00ebsht\u00eb i nj\u00ebjti; t\u00eb tre do t\u00eb t\u00eb l\u00ebndojn\u00eb, ose do t\u00eb t\u00eb zhg\u00ebnjejn\u00eb, k\u00ebshtu\nq\u00eb tanim\u00eb, thjesht, s\u2019k\u00ebrkoj m\u00eb! Do t\u00eb pres at\u00eb librin e kat\u00ebrt, at\u00eb q\u00eb do t\u00eb\njet\u00eb i bukur, me subjekt t\u00eb ve\u00e7ant\u00eb, q\u00eb do t\u00eb kesh qejf ta rilexosh \u00e7do dit\u00eb. Nuk\ne di n\u00eb do t\u00eb dal\u00eb n\u00eb botim, por mendoj se ai do t\u00eb jet\u00eb ai q\u00eb do t\u00eb dua ta kem\naf\u00ebr \u00e7do dit\u00eb. Tani s\u2019jam m\u00eb vajz\u00eb, por jam potencialisht fem\u00ebr, e gatshme t\u00eb\njem grua, k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb loj\u00ebrat sadiste s\u2019i dua m\u00eb!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Hej miq, jam ca e trishtuar k\u00ebt\u00eb jav\u00eb… Po lexoja letrat e m\u00ebparshme q\u00eb ju kam shkruar dhe arrita n\u00eb p\u00ebrfundimin se kam shkruar shum\u00eb p\u00ebr femrat, ndaj zonja e zonjusha, t\u00eb m\u00eb falni, por k\u00ebt\u00eb her\u00eb do t\u2019u dedikohem meshkujve, k\u00ebtyre q\u00eb… nejse, m\u00eb mir\u00eb, po e nis nga e para.\u00a0 Gjith\u00e7ka filloi q\u00ebkur […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":22153,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[94],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-22152","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-histori-nga-jeta"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22152","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=22152"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22152\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/22153"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=22152"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=22152"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=22152"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}