Kur isha e vog\u00ebl, kisha nj\u00eb shok n\u00eb pallat me t\u00eb cilin shkoja shum\u00eb mir\u00eb dhe gjithnj\u00eb e kam dashur. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mbase, dashuri nuk e dija \u00e7\u2019do t\u00eb thoshte, por e di q\u00eb pa t\u00eb nuk rrija dot. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kur isha 16 vje\u00e7e, ai m\u00eb propozoi p\u00ebr her\u00eb t\u00eb par\u00eb dhe un\u00eb pranova, pasi edhe un\u00eb e ndjeja shum\u00eb q\u00eb ta kisha gjithnj\u00eb pran\u00eb. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
P\u00ebr disa vjet u dashuruam n\u00eb fsheht\u00ebsi. M\u00eb pas, t\u00eb dy vendos\u00ebm t\u2019u tregonim familjeve p\u00ebr at\u00eb q\u00eb ndjenim, duke qen\u00eb se ishim edhe n\u00eb nj\u00eb mosh\u00eb q\u00eb tashm\u00eb mund t\u00eb merrnim nj\u00eb vendim. Familja ime, fillimisht, e priti pak keq. Ne ishim komshinj dhe nuk e donin k\u00ebt\u00eb lidhje, pasi i druheshin mentalitetit dhe kishin frik\u00eb se po t\u00eb ndodhte ndonj\u00eb gj\u00eb, do t\u2019u vinte turp nga komshinjt\u00eb. Familja e tij, me aq sa m\u00eb kishte th\u00ebn\u00eb ai, e kishin pritur mir\u00eb. U lumturova se thash\u00eb se t\u00eb pakt\u00ebn kisha mb\u00ebshtetjen e prind\u00ebrve t\u00eb tij. Ne filluam t\u00eb shkonim n\u00eb familjet e nj\u00ebri-tjetrit, por tan\u00ebt nuk ishin ende dakord q\u00eb t\u00eb takoheshin dhe ta b\u00ebnim zyrtare fejes\u00ebn ton\u00eb. Asnj\u00ebher\u00eb nuk e kuptova p\u00ebrsen\u00eb, gjersa ne t\u00eb dy duheshim dhe duhet ta pranonin k\u00ebt\u00eb gj\u00eb. Gjithsesi, ne dashuroheshim pa mas\u00eb. Un\u00eb shkoja shpesh te sht\u00ebpia e tij dhe fillova t\u00eb vija re se e \u00ebma nuk m\u00eb kishte shum\u00eb qejf, aq sa nj\u00eb dit\u00eb, pas nj\u00eb debati pa r\u00ebnd\u00ebsi q\u00eb pat\u00ebm me nj\u00ebra-tjetr\u00ebn, m\u00eb tha se isha njeri pa vlera para djalit t\u00eb saj. Mbeta e shokuar dhe e zhg\u00ebnjyer nj\u00ebkoh\u00ebsisht sepse nuk e kisha menduar kurr\u00eb q\u00eb mamaja e njeriut q\u00eb dashuroja do t\u00eb ma shprehte aq shpejt dhe aq hapur antipatin\u00eb q\u00eb kishte ndaj meje. T\u00eb nes\u00ebrmen fola me t\u00eb dhe ai m\u00eb tha t\u00eb mos shqet\u00ebsohesha pasi m\u00eb premtoi se do t\u00eb fliste ai me t\u00eb \u00ebm\u00ebn. U qet\u00ebsova disi, por nd\u00ebrkoh\u00eb, vendosa t\u00eb mos shkoja m\u00eb n\u00eb sht\u00ebpin\u00eb e tij, derisa e \u00ebma t\u00eb m\u00eb telefononte vet\u00eb, por kjo nuk ndodhi kurr\u00eb. Kaluan disa koh\u00eb dhe ne takoheshim kudo, p\u00ebrve\u00e7se n\u00eb sht\u00ebpin\u00eb e tij. P\u00ebr disa koh\u00eb, un\u00eb u s\u00ebmura dhe iu n\u00ebshtrova disa analizave p\u00ebr tre muaj. \u00c7do s\u00ebmundje, madje edhe t\u00eb keqe, prisja q\u00eb ta kisha, por mbeta e shokuar kur zbulova se isha tre muajshe shtatz\u00ebn\u00eb. Isha edhe e g\u00ebzuar, pasi n\u00eb barkun tim po rritej fruti i dashuris\u00eb ton\u00eb, por nd\u00ebrkoh\u00eb, isha edhe e shqet\u00ebsuar sepse ende nuk kishim nj\u00eb pun\u00eb dhe nj\u00eb sht\u00ebpi p\u00ebr t\u2019u sistemuar. Menj\u00ebher\u00eb vendosa t\u2019ia jepja atij lajmin se do t\u00eb b\u00ebheshim prind\u00ebr, por edhe ai mbeti i habitur dhe at\u00eb dit\u00eb thuajse nuk fol\u00ebm fare. Mendova se edhe ai ndjehej konfuz si un\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb nj\u00ebjt\u00ebn gj\u00eb dhe nuk i b\u00ebra shum\u00eb pyetje. T\u00eb nes\u00ebrmen u takuam s\u00ebrish dhe ai ishte b\u00ebr\u00eb si bish\u00eb, m\u00eb kapi nga krah\u00ebt me forc\u00eb dhe m\u00eb pyeti i kujt ishte f\u00ebmija. Nuk doja t\u2019u besoja syve e vesh\u00ebve dhe e pyeta: \u201cPo tallesh, apo \u00e7far\u00eb?\u201d, por ai e p\u00ebrs\u00ebriti s\u00ebrish dhe m\u00eb tha se f\u00ebmija q\u00eb po prisja, nuk mund t\u00eb ishte i tiji. Fillova t\u00eb qaja e d\u00ebshp\u00ebruar pasi nuk mund ta besoja q\u00eb njeriu i vet\u00ebm q\u00eb un\u00eb kam dashur n\u00eb jet\u00ebn time, po m\u00eb thoshte ato fjal\u00eb. Kaluan disa dit\u00eb dhe shkova ta k\u00ebrkoja n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi, duke qen\u00eb se ai nuk ishte b\u00ebr\u00eb m\u00eb i gjall\u00eb. N\u00eb der\u00eb m\u00eb doli e \u00ebma dhe me fjal\u00eb ofenduese, m\u00eb tha: <\/p>\n\n\n\n
– \u00c7far\u00eb k\u00ebrkon n\u00eb sht\u00ebpin\u00eb time, lavire? K\u00ebrkon\nt\u00eb na hedh\u00ebsh hi syve duke na th\u00ebn\u00eb gjoja se f\u00ebmija q\u00eb pret \u00ebsht\u00eb i tim biri?!<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Edhe pse u mundova t\u2019ia shpjegoja, ajo m\u00eb tha\nse i biri kishte shkuar n\u00eb Belgjik\u00eb tek e motra, p\u00ebr t\u00eb mos u kthyer m\u00eb. Nuk e\nbesova dhe mendova se ishte larguar p\u00ebr pak koh\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb qart\u00ebsuar idet\u00eb, por\nkoha kalonte dhe mua kishte filluar t\u00eb m\u00eb dukej barku, kurse prind\u00ebrit e mi\nende nuk ishin n\u00eb djeni t\u00eb k\u00ebsaj shtatzanie. M\u00eb n\u00eb fund, mora guximin q\u00eb t\u2019u\ntregoja, duke qen\u00eb se nuk kisha m\u00eb asnj\u00eb mb\u00ebshtetje. Babai im sigurisht q\u00eb nuk\ne priti mir\u00eb, por ajo q\u00eb u b\u00eb si histerike ishte n\u00ebna ime, q\u00eb m\u00eb detyroi ta\nhiqja f\u00ebmij\u00ebn, pasi nuk donte q\u00eb t\u00eb turp\u00ebrohej nga t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt. M\u00eb k\u00ebrc\u00ebnoi madje\nme nj\u00eb thik\u00eb dhe i thash\u00eb se edhe po t\u00eb m\u00eb vriste, do t\u2019i duhej t\u00eb m\u00eb vriste\nbashk\u00eb me f\u00ebmij\u00ebn q\u00eb kisha n\u00eb bark sepse nuk do ta hiqja kurr\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00ebn q\u00eb\nprisja. M\u00eb n\u00eb fund, ajo u dor\u00ebzua, vendosi t\u00eb m\u00eb q\u00ebndronte pran\u00eb dhe m\u00eb dha mb\u00ebshtetjen\ne saj, s\u00eb bashku me babain tim. Koha kalonte dhe shtatzania ime sa vinte e\navanconte, nd\u00ebrkoh\u00eb q\u00eb i dashuri im nuk b\u00ebhej i gjall\u00eb. M\u00eb n\u00eb fund, u dor\u00ebzova\ndhe vendosa q\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00ebn q\u00eb po prisja ta rrisja vet\u00eb dhe t\u00eb ishte vet\u00ebm imi.\nErdhi dita q\u00eb u b\u00ebra n\u00ebn\u00eb. F\u00ebmija lindi dhe ishte nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb q\u00eb kishte t\u00ebr\u00ebsisht\ntiparet e t\u00eb atit. Isha shum\u00eb e lumtur se t\u00eb pakt\u00ebn syt\u00eb e saj do t\u00eb m\u00eb\nkujtonin gjithmon\u00eb at\u00eb. Me mb\u00ebshtetjen e prind\u00ebrve t\u00eb mi, vajz\u00ebs sime nuk i\nmungoi asnj\u00ebher\u00eb asgj\u00eb. E vetmja gj\u00eb q\u00eb i mungonte ishte figura at\u00ebrore. Kaluan\ntre vjet dhe nj\u00eb dit\u00eb, teksa zbrisja shkall\u00ebt e pallatit me vajz\u00ebn n\u00eb dor\u00eb, u p\u00ebrballa\nme t\u00eb. M\u2019u drodh\u00ebn gjunj\u00ebt kur e pash\u00eb, por nj\u00ebkoh\u00ebsisht, mblodha forcat dhe\nvendosa t\u00eb largohesha pa e p\u00ebrfillur. \u00c7udit\u00ebrisht, ai nuk m\u00eb ndaloi, vet\u00ebm m\u00eb\nndoqi me sy derisa u largova. Gjat\u00eb gjith\u00eb k\u00ebtyre viteve, mamaja e tij gjithmon\u00eb\nm\u00eb ka par\u00eb me vajz\u00ebn n\u00eb dor\u00eb dhe kurr\u00eb nuk m\u00eb ndaloi dhe kurr\u00eb nuk ishte kurioze\nta njihte mbes\u00ebn e saj. Un\u00eb jam shum\u00eb e lumtur q\u00eb Zoti m\u00eb fali nj\u00eb dhurat\u00eb kaq\nt\u00eb \u00e7muar si vajza ime, por ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb m\u00eb vjen keq p\u00ebr veten q\u00eb desha vet\u00ebm nj\u00eb\nnjeri n\u00eb jet\u00eb. Ka shum\u00eb vajza q\u00eb lidhen me meshkuj t\u00eb ndrysh\u00ebm, q\u00eb i pranojn\u00eb\nedhe f\u00ebmij\u00ebt e tyre si t\u00eb jen\u00eb t\u00eb vet\u00ebt, nd\u00ebrsa vajza ime nuk pranohet nga\nbabai i saj, i cili nuk e merr kurr\u00eb mundimin t\u00eb zbuloj\u00eb se ajo \u00ebsht\u00eb v\u00ebrtet f\u00ebmija\ni tij.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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