Un\u0451 q\u0451 po ju shkruaj jam nj\u0451 burr\u0451 rreth t\u0451 pes\u00ebdhjetave. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
E di se ndoshta mund t`ju duket jonormale, por jam i dashuruar si nj\u0451 adoleshent. Edhe pse kam dy f\u0451mij\u0451 t\u0451 rritur, nuk m\u0451 vjen turp ta pohoj k\u0451t\u0451, por fati i keq \u0451sht\u0451 q\u0451 un\u0451 kam r\u0451n\u0451 n\u0451 dashuri me nj\u0451 vajz\u0451. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ajo \u0451sht\u0451 komshia ime. \u0401sht\u0451 25 vje\u00e7e, ka mbaruar shkoll\u0451n dhe punon n\u0451 nj\u0451 bank\u0451, \u0451sht\u0451 nj\u0451 vajz\u0451 shum\u0451 e bukur dhe shum\u0451 t\u0451rheq\u0451se. Q\u0451kur erdhi n\u0451 pallatin ton\u0451 dhe e pash\u0451 p\u0451r her\u0451 t\u0451 par\u0451, u dashurova me t\u0451. Gruaja ime u b\u0451 menj\u0451her\u0451 shoqe me maman\u0451 e saj. Gruaja ime \u0451sht\u0451 shum\u0451 llafaze dhe z\u0451 shoq\u0451ri me k\u0451do, por n\u0451 k\u0451t\u0451 rast ishte edhe n\u0451 dobin\u0451 time t\u0451 lidhte shoq\u0451ri. E \u0451ma e saj vinte shpesh te ne dhe ajo nuk kishte t\u0451 shar\u0451, por zemra ime rrihte vet\u0451m p\u0451r vajz\u0451n e saj e as p\u0451r t\u0451, as p\u0451r gruan time.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mendoja dit\u0451n kur ajo t\u0451 trokiste n\u0451 port\u0451n ton\u0451 dhe ndjenj\u0451n q\u0451 do t\u00eb m\u0451 pushtonte kur t\u0451 ishte n\u0451 sht\u0451pin\u0451 time. K\u0451to mendime m\u0451 prishnin gjumin e nat\u0451s dhe m\u0451 jepnin nj\u0451 shtr\u00ebngim n\u0451 zem\u0451r. M\u0451 pushtonte frika se do t\u0451 m\u0451 binte ndonj\u0451 infarkt. \u00c7do gj\u0451 mund t\u0451 ndodh\u0451 n\u0451 mosh\u0451n time, q\u0451 disa e quajn\u0451 \u201cadoleshenc\u0451 e dyt\u0451\u201d. Rrija n\u0451 pritje kur dilte nga sht\u0451pia q\u0451 t\u0451 d\u0451gjoja z\u0451rin e saj t\u0451 \u0451mb\u0451l kur m\u0451 p\u0451rsh\u0451ndeste. Edhe kaq m\u0451 mjaftonte mua, mir\u0451po nj\u0451 dit\u0451, kur u kthye nga puna, ajo nuk ishte si zakonisht n\u0451 k\u0451mb\u0451, por me makin\u0451. Shofer ishte nj\u0451 djal\u0451 rreth t\u0451 tridhjetave. Zemra m\u0451 thumboi dhe desh m\u0451 ra t\u0451 fik\u0451t. Ai e p\u0451rcolli deri te hyrja e pallatit dhe ajo zbriti nga makina dhe e p\u0451rsh\u0451ndeti me dor\u0451. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
E pash\u0451 n\u0451 fytyr\u0451 djalin, q\u00eb ishte shum\u0451 i pash\u0451m. Ajo ngjiti shkall\u0451t si\nzakonisht dhe nuk m\u0451 vuri re mua q\u0451 isha te lokali af\u0451r shkall\u0451ve t\u0451 pallatit. Dit\u0451t\ne tjera e prisja po n\u0451 at\u0451 vend dhe ajo m\u0451 p\u0451rsh\u0451ndeste sa her\u0451 kalonte, por\nsot nuk m\u0451 vuri re, si duket, mendjen e kishte gjetk\u0451. U m\u0451rzita shum\u0451. At\u0451\ndit\u0451 n\u0451 sht\u0451pi edhe gruaja e kuptoi se kisha di\u00e7ka. Ajo m\u0451 pyeti se mos kishte\nndodhur gj\u0451 nga puna dhe un\u0451 i thash\u0451 se isha pak i lodhur e s`kishte pse t\u0451 b\u0451hej\nmerak. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nuk fjeta aspak dhe ndihesha shum\u0451 keq. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Q\u0451 nga ajo dit\u0451, ajo vinte n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi e shoq\u0451ruar me at\u0451 djal\u00eb. Ai e linte n\u0451\nt\u0451 nj\u0451jtin vend \u00e7do dit\u0451 dhe ajo zbriste me shum\u0451 delikates\u0451 nga makina. Shpresat\ne mia humb\u0451n. Tani nuk kisha shpresa t\u0451 lidhesha me t\u0451. E ndjeja veten t\u0451\nhumbur, mir\u00ebpo pas nj\u0451 t\u0451 qare vjen nj\u0451 e qeshur. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nj\u0451 dit\u0451, kur po vija rrug\u0451s p\u0451r n\u0451 sht\u0451pi, e pash\u00eb n\u0451 urban. Iu afrova dhe\ne p\u0451rsh\u0451ndeta. Edhe ajo m\u0451 p\u0451rsh\u0451ndeti dhe m\u0451 ftoi t\u0451 ulesha pran\u0451 saj, n\u0451\nvendin e lir\u0451. Fol\u0451m s\u0451 bashku derisa erdhi stacioni p\u0451r t\u0451 zbritur. N\u0451 mendje\nm\u0451 shkonte ta pyesja se pse nuk kishte ardhur si \u00e7do dit\u0451 me makin\u0451n e shokut t\u0451\nsaj, por nuk duhej, pastaj ajo do ta kuptonte se e ruaja kur ikte e kur vinte. Te\ndera e pallatit u ndam\u0451. Dit\u0451n tjet\u0451r shkova te banka ku punonte. Ajo nuk ishte,\nsepse ishte pushimi i drek\u0451s. Shkova te lokali p\u0451rball\u0451 dhe e gjeta duke pir\u0451\nnj\u0451 kafe. Ishte me dy shoqe. I kalova af\u0451r t\u0451 m\u0451 shihte dhe ajo, sa m\u0451 pa, m\u0451\nbuz\u0451qeshi dhe u ngrit n\u0451 k\u0451mb\u0451. E ftova t\u0451 ulej n\u0451 nj\u0451 tavolin\u0451 tjet\u0451r. U mori\nleje shoqeve dhe u ul me mua. I thash\u0451 se kisha ardhur t\u0451 hapja nj\u0451 llogari\nbankare dhe ajo m\u0451 tha se do t\u0451 m\u0451 ndihmonte. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ajo m\u0451 ndihmoi shum\u0451 n\u0451 bank\u0451. Shkova dhe dit\u0451n tjet\u0451r p\u0451r t\u0451 \u00e7uar disa\ndokumente q\u0451 duheshin p\u0451r llogarin\u0451 dhe p\u0451rs\u0451ri i shkova n\u0451 orarin e drek\u0451s, q\u0451\nt\u0451 pija kafe me t\u0451. Na ecte muhabeti me nj\u0451ri-tjetrin. U k\u0451naqa shum\u0451. Tashm\u0451\najo nuk vinte m\u0451 e shoq\u0451ruar. Ndoshta ishin grindur. K\u0451t\u0451 doja edhe un\u0451. I isha\nlutur Zotit p\u0451r k\u0451t\u0451. E doja me gjith\u0451 shpirt at\u0451 vajz\u0451 dhe e d\u0451shiroja me \u00e7do\nkusht. Dit\u0451n e diel\u0451 ajo b\u0451nte vrap her\u0451t n\u0451 m\u0451ngjes. E gjeta! Do t\u0451 b\u0451ja sikur\nb\u0451ja vrap edhe un\u0451. N\u0451 fakt, kisha v\u0451n\u0451 pak bark, por gruaja ime k\u0451t\u0451 gj\u0451 nuk e\nvinte re, nuk e shqet\u0451sonte aspak. Ajo ishte n\u0451 koh\u0451n e menopauz\u0451s dhe nuk\nmerrej m\u0451 me mua e me d\u0451shirat e mia. I shkova nga pas t\u0451 diel\u0451n n\u0451 m\u0451ngjes dhe\ne kalova pa m\u0451 ndier. Ajo kishte n\u0451 vesh kufjet dhe nuk m\u0451 d\u0451gjoi kur i thash\u0451\nmir\u0451m\u0451ngjes. M\u0451 pas, m\u0451 arriti me vrap dhe m\u0451 tha:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Mir\u0451m\u0451ngjes! Edhe ti b\u0451n vrap?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Po, – e g\u0451njeva, – m\u0451 k\u0451t\u0451 bark q\u0451 kam v\u0451n\u0451 un\u0451!<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Sa mir\u0451! \u0401sht\u0451 m\u0451 bukur kur e b\u0451j me dik\u0451 vrapin. A b\u0451jm\u0451 nj\u0451 gar\u0451? – tha\najo. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Me gjith\u0451 qejf! – nuk e di a ma mbante se isha dyfishi i mosh\u0451s s\u0451 saj, por\nun\u0451 nga dashuria q\u0451 kisha p\u0451r t\u0451, b\u0451ja gjith\u00e7ka. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
B\u0451m\u0451 vrap dhe m\u0451 pas e ftova p\u0451r nj\u0451 kafe e k\u0451shtu, e zgjidha \u201challin\u201d tim.\n\u00c7do t\u0451 diel\u0451 dilnim p\u0451r vrap dhe m\u0451 pas, pinim kafe. Edhe ajo e kishte kuptuar\nse un\u0451 ndjeja di\u00e7ka p\u0451r t\u0451. Nj\u0451 dit\u0451 i thash\u0451:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Je shum\u0451 e bukur dhe nj\u0451 vajz\u0451 shum\u0451 e mir\u0451. Un\u0451\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– E di! Ti m\u0451 ke qejf. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
– E ke kuptuar? <\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Po nuk do shum\u0451 mend ta kuptosh. Nga m\u0451nyra se si m\u0451 sheh, do ta kuptonte\n\u00e7dokush. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
– E pra, shum\u0451 mir\u0451. Un\u0451 kam koh\u0451 q\u0451 po vuaj. Ti je vajz\u0451 e pjekur dhe nuk\nke nevoj\u0451 t`i bie rrotull q\u0451 t\u0451 t\u0451 them se po vdes nga d\u0451shira q\u0451 ti t\u0451 b\u0451hesh\ne imja. \u00c7far\u0451 do t\u0451 b\u0451sh q\u00eb t\u0451 m\u0451 nxjerr\u0451sh nga ky hall?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Po ti…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– E di se \u00e7\u2019do t\u0451 thuash, q\u0451 me mosh\u0451 mund t\u0451 isha babai yt, por \u00e7`t\u2019i b\u0451sh,\nkjo \u0451sht\u0451 jeta?! Un\u0451 k\u0451rkoj nga ti vet\u0451m t\u0451 rrish me mua dhe t\u0451 t\u0451 ndjej pran\u0451.\nMe mua do t\u0451 jesh miliona her\u0451 m\u0451 mir\u0451 se me at\u0451 q\u0451 ke tani. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ajo ngriti syt\u0451 dhe m\u0451 pa e habitur. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Ku e di ti se kam t\u0451 dashur?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Mendoj se nj\u0451 vajz\u0451 e bukur si ti nuk mund t\u0451 ket\u0451 mund\u0451si q\u0451 t\u0451 jet\u0451 pa\nt\u0451 dashur. – sajova n\u0451 moment nj\u0451 g\u0451njesht\u0451r q\u0451 ajo t\u0451 mos e kuptonte se e\nkisha p\u0451rgjuar. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
– N\u0451 fakt, un\u0451 me t\u0451 dashurin tim tani jemi n\u0451 nj\u0451 moment reflektimi dhe ka\nnj\u0451 muaj q\u0451 nuk takohemi, por edhe pse nuk takohem me t\u0451, nuk kam nd\u0451rmend t\u0451\nndahem sepse e dua. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
K\u0451to fjal\u0451 ma shtr\u00ebnguan zemr\u0451n dhe m\u0451 b\u0451n\u0451 t\u0451 lig\u0451shtohesha, por p\u0451rs\u0451ri\nnuk u t\u0451rhoqa. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
– S`ka gj\u0451. Ti mos m\u0451 duaj, por vet\u0451m eja me mua dhe mos m\u0451 l\u0451r n\u0451 k\u0451t\u0451\ngjendje. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
U desh\u0451n shum\u0451 koh\u0451 dhe shum\u0451 dhurata t`ia mbushja mendjen e m\u0451 n\u0451 fund,\najo vendosi t\u0451 vinte me mua. E \u00e7ova n\u0451 nj\u0451 vend jasht\u0451 qytetit. H\u0451ngr\u0451m drek\u0451\ndhe m\u0451 pas u ngjit\u0451m n\u0451 dhom\u0451. Ishte nj\u0451 mrekulli! Kisha vuajtur shum\u0451 p\u0451r ta b\u0451r\u0451\np\u0451r vete k\u0451t\u0451 vajz\u0451, por ia vlejti. Ajo tashm\u0451, dashje padashje, b\u00ebri edhe at\u0451\nq\u0451 nuk e kishte menduar kurr\u0451: T\u0451 shkonte me nj\u0451 burr\u0451 n\u0451 mosh\u0451 sa babai i vet!<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Q\u0451 nga ajo dit\u0451, ajo \u0451sht\u0451 e dashura ime. Edhe pse tani po fejohet me t\u0451\ndashurin e saj, ajo vjen akoma me mua. Ia kalojm\u0451 shum\u0451 mir\u0451 bashk\u0451. I b\u0451j shum\u0451\ndhurata t\u0451 shtrenjta dhe i jap sa para t\u0451 m\u0451 k\u0451rkoj\u0451, n\u0451 m\u0451nyr\u0451 q\u0451 ajo t\u0451 mos ket\u0451\nnevoj\u0451 p\u0451r ask\u0451nd tjet\u0451r. Me gruan shkoj shum\u0451 mir\u0451, ia plot\u0451soj t\u0451 gjitha\nkushtet dhe asaj as i shkon n\u0451 mendje se e tradhtoj. Halli i saj m\u0451 i madh\n\u0451sht\u0451 t\u0451 kaloj\u0451 afshet e menopauz\u0451s dhe un\u0451, nd\u0451rkoh\u0451, po shijoj nj\u0451 \u0451nd\u0451rr q\u0451\nndoshta pak burra t\u0451 mosh\u0451s sime mund ta b\u0451jn\u0451 realitet. Nuk jam aspak xheloz\nse \u00e7`b\u0451n ajo me t\u0451 dashurin e vet, mjafton q\u0451 m\u0451 k\u0451naq mua dhe m\u0451 mban n\u0451 form\u0451\nme rinin\u0451 e saj. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Un\u0451 q\u0451 po ju shkruaj jam nj\u0451 burr\u0451 rreth t\u0451 pes\u00ebdhjetave. E di se ndoshta mund t`ju duket jonormale, por jam i dashuruar si nj\u0451 adoleshent. Edhe pse kam dy f\u0451mij\u0451 t\u0451 rritur, nuk m\u0451 vjen turp ta pohoj k\u0451t\u0451, por fati i keq \u0451sht\u0451 q\u0451 un\u0451 kam r\u0451n\u0451 n\u0451 dashuri me nj\u0451 vajz\u0451. Ajo […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":13812,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[94],"tags":[254],"class_list":["post-21751","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-histori-nga-jeta","tag-histori-personale"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21751","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=21751"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21751\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/13812"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=21751"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=21751"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=21751"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}