Kam filluar t\u00eb mbaj ditar q\u00ebkur mendimet e mia tashm\u00eb jof\u00ebminore nuk kam me k\u00eb t\u2019i ndaj. Dikur flisja shum\u00eb me mamin, por ndoshta ato q\u00eb i tregoja, nuk ishin aq t\u00eb r\u00ebnd\u00ebsishme sa k\u00ebto q\u00eb kam tani n\u00eb zem\u00ebr. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nj\u00eb barrier\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb krijuar midis ne t\u00eb dyjave e grindjet kan\u00eb z\u00ebn\u00eb vendin e paqes, sidomos tani q\u00eb un\u00eb kam m\u00eb shum\u00eb nevoj\u00eb se kurr\u00eb. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ndoshta ajo e ka harruar kur edhe vet\u00eb ka qen\u00eb adoleshente. Un\u00eb e kam nj\u00eb shoqe t\u00eb ngusht\u00eb qw quhet Melisa, me tw cilwn kam kaluar shum\u00eb gj\u00ebra, q\u00eb nga kopshti e deri tani. Ajo m\u00eb k\u00ebshilloi t\u00eb mbaja ditar. Nuk kam mbajtur ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb m\u00eb par\u00eb e nuk e di n\u00eb do tw m\u00eb vijn\u00eb fjal\u00ebt p\u00ebr t\u00eb shkruar, megjith\u00ebse kam d\u00ebgjuar q\u00eb shum\u00eb moshatare t\u00eb miat mbajn\u00eb. Melisa sot u largua p\u00ebr n\u00eb Itali… Sa do tw m\u00eb mungoj\u00eb! Me k\u00eb do t\u00eb shfryhem? Kujt do t\u2019ia tregoj sekretet e mia? Kush do t\u00eb m\u00eb k\u00ebshilloj\u00eb? Shoqe t\u00eb tjera kam, por me t\u00eb kisha nj\u00eb raport t\u00eb ve\u00e7ant\u00eb. E p\u00ebrcolla deri n\u00eb Rinas bashk\u00eb me prind\u00ebrit e saj. U u nis me avionin e or\u00ebs 12 e u ndam\u00eb me lot n\u00eb sy. Ajo do t\u00eb filloj\u00eb nj\u00eb jet\u00eb t\u00eb re atje, kurse un\u00eb mbeta k\u00ebtu. M\u00eb ka z\u00ebn\u00eb trishtimi, sa m\u00eb ngjan sikur po mbytem, sikur \u00e7do gj\u00eb ka mbetur n\u00eb koh\u00eb. Jam 16 vje\u00e7e, n\u00eb vitin e par\u00eb n\u00eb gjimnaz dhe d\u00ebshiroj aq shum\u00eb t\u00eb iki nga sht\u00ebpia t\u00eb jetoj vet\u00ebm. Mezi po e pres atw dit\u00eb, mezi po pres t\u00eb largohem p\u00ebr n\u00eb universitet. M\u00eb e r\u00ebnd\u00ebsishmja \u00ebsht\u00eb se kam shprehur d\u00ebshir\u00ebn t\u00eb studioj n\u00eb Itali dhe k\u00ebt\u00eb gj\u00eb e duan edhe t\u00eb mit\u00eb. Do tw jem larg, vet\u00ebm, e lir\u00eb. N\u00eb shkoll\u00eb jam nx\u00ebn\u00ebse e mir\u00eb, gjithmon\u00eb k\u00ebshtu kam qen\u00eb. Mamaja as q\u00eb e mendon t\u00eb jet\u00eb ndryshe, t\u00eb jem nx\u00ebn\u00ebse e dob\u00ebt. Ajo gjithmonw m\u00eb thot\u00eb: \u201cO m\u00eb e mira, o asgj\u00eb\u2019\u2019. Nga nj\u00ebra an\u00eb, edhe un\u00eb e kam p\u00ebr zem\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb mendim, por un\u00eb tashm\u00eb jam adoleshente dhe mendoj q\u00eb nuk mund t\u00eb flitet vet\u00ebm p\u00ebr shkoll\u00eb. Ekzistojn\u00eb edhe gj\u00ebra t\u00eb tjera, si p\u00ebr shembull, un\u00eb nuk jam m\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00eb, po kthehem n\u00eb nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb t\u00eb rritur. Sht\u00ebpia ime ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb m\u00eb ngjan m\u00eb tep\u00ebr si nj\u00eb \u00e7mendin\u00eb, sesa si nj\u00eb sht\u00ebpi me njer\u00ebz normal\u00eb, ve\u00e7an\u00ebrisht kur t\u00eb mit\u00eb nuk kuptohen. Mendoj q\u00eb ata kan\u00eb arritur n\u00eb faz\u00ebn q\u00eb m\u00eb shum\u00eb nuk e durojn\u00eb nj\u00ebrin-tjetrin. Ndoshta po t\u00eb mos ishim ne ose opinioni se \u00e7far\u00eb do t\u00eb thon\u00eb t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt, nuk kishin p\u00ebr t\u00eb ndenjur bashk\u00eb. Sa do t\u00eb doja t\u00eb isha vajz\u00eb e vetme ose t\u00eb kisha mot\u00ebr, t\u00eb mos kisha v\u00eblla. \u00cbsht\u00eb nj\u00eb bezdi e v\u00ebrtet\u00eb, fut hund\u00ebt kudo, m\u00eb luan gj\u00ebrat dhe m\u2019i fsheh, \u00ebsht\u00eb kurioz kur un\u00eb vishem dhe ajo q\u00eb t\u00eb jep m\u00eb shum\u00eb m\u00ebrzi e t\u2019i b\u00ebn\u00eb nervat ka\u00e7urrel \u00ebsht\u00eb se gjithmon\u00eb fiton. \u201c\u00cbsht\u00eb i vog\u00ebl, thot\u00eb mami, hapi rrug\u00eb\u201d. Ik\u00ebn ato vite kur ekzistoja vet\u00ebm un\u00eb, megjith\u00ebse un\u00eb mbaj mend mir\u00eb dit\u00ebn kur lindi, sa e g\u00ebzuar isha. Ishte aq i vog\u00ebl e kisha d\u00ebshir\u00eb t\u00eb kujdesesha un\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb, por me kalimin e koh\u00ebs u kthye n\u00eb nj\u00eb objekt sherri edhe me mamin. Ajo e mbron gjithmon\u00eb dhe, kur e ka gabim, s\u2019m\u00eb kupton. K\u00ebto koh\u00eb n\u00eb bank\u00eb ka marr\u00eb nj\u00eb post t\u00eb r\u00ebnd\u00ebsish\u00ebm, e ka mendjen te numrat e te parat\u00eb dhe \u00e7\u2019\u00ebsht\u00eb m\u00eb e keqja, nuk m\u00eb pyet pwr \u00e7far\u00eb kam nevoj\u00eb un\u00eb, sikur t\u00eb kishte r\u00ebnd\u00ebsi vet\u00ebm q\u00eb mos tw na mungojn\u00eb gj\u00ebrat. Nuk mendon se kam nevoj\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb, p\u00ebr dik\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb komunikoj. N\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb periudh\u00eb i ka shtuar edhe predikimet e saj: \u201cMos u lidh me njeri, duhet t\u00eb ruhesh sepse djemt\u00eb t\u00eb tallin, b\u00ebjn\u00eb gjith\u00e7ka p\u00ebr ty sa t\u00eb v\u00ebn\u00eb n\u00eb dor\u00eb kan\u00eb nevoj\u00eb, ke koh\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb zgjedhur, ai mund t\u00eb b\u00ebhet penges\u00eb dhe t\u00eb t\u00eb kufizoj\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb ardhmen t\u00ebnde, mund t\u00eb jet\u00eb tep\u00ebr von\u00eb at\u00ebher\u00eb\u201d. Ajo vazhdon m\u00eb pas: \u201cMos pi duhan\u201d dhe shpreh pak\u00ebnaq\u00ebsi p\u00ebr koleget e saj q\u00eb e pin\u00eb at\u00eb. Ajo nuk arrin ta kuptoj\u00eb se n\u00eb shkoll\u00eb duhani \u00ebsht\u00eb shum\u00eb i p\u00ebrhapur, pa p\u00ebrmendur hashashin, q\u00eb e pin\u00eb djemt\u00eb n\u00eb or\u00ebt bosh. Duhani, n\u00eb bot\u00ebn e saj, duhet t\u00eb jet\u00eb nj\u00eb di\u00e7ka normale,\u00a0 se shum\u00eb gra e pin\u00eb. Ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb b\u00ebhem kurioze, po ajo nuk e ka provuar, edhe sikur ta kishte pir\u00eb nuk do t\u00eb tregonte. Ajo q\u00eb un\u00eb mendoj, \u00ebsht\u00eb se k\u00ebt\u00eb gj\u00eb ajo m\u00eb shum\u00eb e b\u00ebn q\u00eb t\u00eb ma shpifi mua, megjithse un\u00eb e kam provuar dhe her\u00eb pas here e ndez me shoqet, por nuk mund t\u00eb them q\u00eb jam pir\u00ebse e rregullt. Nj\u00eb nga temat tabu p\u00ebr mamin tim \u00ebsht\u00eb seksi. P\u00ebr t\u00eb, ai nuk duhet as t\u00eb p\u00ebrmendet. Kur ka skena n\u00eb televizion, nd\u00ebrrohet kanali. Kur e pyes, m\u00eb shum\u00eb flet nj\u00eb mur sesa ajo. E eviton, si\u00e7 b\u00ebjn\u00eb m\u00ebsueset e biologjis\u00eb, duke e b\u00ebr\u00eb pushim at\u00eb or\u00eb, pasi kan\u00eb zor t\u00eb flasin, se aq duan nx\u00ebn\u00ebsit e fillojn\u00eb t\u00eb tallen. Me Melis\u00ebn po q\u00eb mund t\u00eb flitet. Ajo \u00ebsht\u00eb me fat sepse ka nj\u00eb mot\u00ebr m\u00eb t\u00eb madhe q\u00eb jeton n\u00eb Itali si studente prej 2 vjet\u00ebsh dhe me liberalizimin e vizave, edhe ajo shkoi p\u00ebr pushime. M\u00eb pas ka p\u00ebr t\u00eb ndjekur edhe shkoll\u00ebn aty. Ajo flet me t\u00eb motr\u00ebn p\u00ebr shum\u00eb gj\u00ebra t\u00eb mosh\u00ebs son\u00eb, madje m\u2019i shpjegon edhe mua. Ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb m\u00eb tregon se edhe me t\u00eb \u00ebm\u00ebn diskuton p\u00ebr k\u00ebto gj\u00ebra, madje e quan di\u00e7ka t\u00eb natyrshme ta b\u00ebj\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb. Melisa \u00ebsht\u00eb tip gazmor q\u00eb e merr jet\u00ebn si t\u2019i vij\u00eb, zbavitet e nuk e shikon si domosdoshm\u00ebri q\u00eb t\u00eb b\u00ebhet dikush n\u00eb jet\u00eb, si ndodh me imponimin q\u00eb m\u00eb b\u00ebjn\u00eb t\u00eb mit\u00eb. Edhe prind\u00ebrit i ka m\u00eb liberal\u00eb. Kur u largua, i premtuam nj\u00ebra\u2013tjetr\u00ebs se do t\u00eb komunikonim gjithmon\u00eb n\u00ebp\u00ebrmjet internetit, nuk kishim p\u00ebr ta harruar shoq\u00ebrin\u00eb. Eh, interneti!… Megjithwse kemi kompjuter n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi, interneti \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb kapitull i mbyllur te ne, i d\u00ebmsh\u00ebm p\u00ebr mua dhe v\u00ebllain, mendon mami, megjith\u00ebse ajo e p\u00ebrdor, por justifikohet se e p\u00ebrdor p\u00ebr pun\u00eb. Un\u00eb e p\u00ebrdor shpesh, kam adres\u00ebn time, kam faqen time n\u00eb Facebook dhe miq. K\u00ebto m\u00eb shum\u00eb i kam realizuar n\u00eb sht\u00ebpin\u00eb e Melis\u00ebs. Mamaja e saj m\u00eb mir\u00ebpret edhe tashti q\u00eb Melisa u largua. Mendoj se Melisa kishte t\u00eb drejt\u00eb… Ditari qenka njw mjet shum\u00eb interesant p\u00ebr t\u2019u shfryr\u00eb, t\u00eb ndihmoka kur ndihesh vet\u00ebm, por ajo q\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb m\u00eb e r\u00ebnd\u00ebsishmja, \u00ebsht\u00eb t\u00eb gjej nj\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb q\u00eb ky ditar t\u00eb mos i bjerw njeriu n\u00eb dor\u00eb sidomos tim v\u00ebllai q\u00eb ka p\u00ebr t\u2019ua treguar t\u00eb gjith\u00ebve n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Kam filluar t\u00eb mbaj ditar q\u00ebkur mendimet e mia tashm\u00eb jof\u00ebminore nuk kam me k\u00eb t\u2019i ndaj. Dikur flisja shum\u00eb me mamin, por ndoshta ato q\u00eb i tregoja, nuk ishin aq t\u00eb r\u00ebnd\u00ebsishme sa k\u00ebto q\u00eb kam tani n\u00eb zem\u00ebr. Nj\u00eb barrier\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb krijuar midis ne t\u00eb dyjave e grindjet kan\u00eb z\u00ebn\u00eb vendin e paqes, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":21576,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[94],"tags":[249],"class_list":["post-21575","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-histori-nga-jeta","tag-histori"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21575","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=21575"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21575\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/21576"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=21575"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=21575"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=21575"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}