Un\u00eb q\u00eb po ju shkruaj jam nj\u00eb grua 40 vje\u00e7e. Jam martuar n\u00eb mosh\u00ebn 20 vje\u00e7are me shkuesi. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sipas meje, k\u00ebto martesa paragjykohen, sepse martesa ime n\u00eb 10 vitet e para ishte nj\u00eb martes\u00eb e mrekullueshme. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Edhe po ta kisha njohur vet\u00eb burrin tim, nuk do ta doja aq shum\u00eb. Nuk isha vet\u00ebm un\u00eb ajo q\u00eb ndjeja dashuri (t\u00eb pakt\u00ebn k\u00ebshtu mendoj un\u00eb), por edhe ai m\u00eb donte shum\u00eb e m\u00eb respektonte. Ne jetonim me familjen e tij dhe ishim shum\u00eb t\u00eb lumtur. Un\u00eb punoja n\u00eb nj\u00eb fabrik\u00eb k\u00ebpuc\u00ebsh dhe ai ishte saldator. Kishim nj\u00eb jet\u00eb t\u00eb thjesht\u00eb e t\u00eb bukur. Zoti na bekoi me dy f\u00ebmij\u00eb; dy djem e \u00e7do gj\u00eb shkonte vaj. Por, si\u00e7 thon\u00eb, se nuk duhet t\u00eb shkoj\u00eb vaj sepse rr\u00ebshqet. T\u00eb pakt\u00ebn, k\u00ebshtu po e justifikoj un\u00eb at\u00eb q\u00eb na ndodhi ne t\u00eb dyve\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pas gati 10 viteve martes\u00eb, ai ndryshoi shum\u00eb, nuk\nishte m\u00eb ai i pari. Un\u00eb ia vija fajin vetes dhe mendoja se isha un\u00eb shkaku q\u00eb\ndi\u00e7ka nuk po funksiononte. Kjo ide m\u2019u fiksua sepse ai ndryshoi sjellje vet\u00ebm\nme mua e jo me f\u00ebmij\u00ebt a prind\u00ebrit e tij. N\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb koh\u00eb, neve na ndodhi nj\u00eb\nfatkeq\u00ebsi; vdiq vjehrri im. E doja shum\u00eb, prandaj edhe u m\u00ebrzita shum\u00eb. Edhe burri\nim u m\u00ebrzit shum\u00eb. Edhe vjehrra, po ashtu. Ajo ishte nj\u00eb grua shum\u00eb e mir\u00eb dhe\ne dashur. Sa her\u00eb burri acarohej, ajo mbante an\u00ebn time dhe un\u00eb ndjehesha shum\u00eb\ne sigurt\u00eb af\u00ebr saj. E doja m\u00eb shum\u00eb se n\u00ebn\u00ebn time. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00c7do dit\u00eb q\u00eb vinte, ai b\u00ebhej m\u00eb i keq. K\u00ebt\u00eb hall t\u00eb\nmadh q\u00eb kisha, ia shpreha nj\u00eb shoqes sime n\u00eb pun\u00eb. Ajo m\u00eb tha se duhet t\u00eb\nndahesha ose t\u00eb pakt\u00ebn t\u2019i thoja atij se po t\u00eb mos m\u00eb trajtonte mir\u00eb do t\u00eb\nndahesha prej tij, n\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb q\u00eb ta frik\u00ebsoja. K\u00ebshtu b\u00ebra. Kur i thash\u00eb fjal\u00ebt\nq\u00eb kishim menduar me shoqen time, ai m\u00eb tha: \u201cJe e lir\u00eb, mund t\u00eb ndahesh kur t\u00eb\nduash!\u201d. Un\u00eb fillova t\u00eb qaja me t\u00eb madhe dhe u xhindosa. B\u00ebra rrobat gati dhe u\nnisa p\u00ebr te sht\u00ebpia e prind\u00ebrve t\u00eb mi. F\u00ebmij\u00ebt i mora me vete. Vjehrra qante n\u00eb\nder\u00eb dhe m\u00eb lutej t\u00eb mos ikja, por shprehja e fytyr\u00ebs s\u00eb tij, e cila thoshte: \u201cik\nsa m\u00eb shpejt\u201d, i mundte lot\u00ebt dhe p\u00ebrgj\u00ebrimet e vjehrr\u00ebs. Ajo e shante dhe i\nthoshte se duhet t\u00eb m\u00eb lutej p\u00ebr t\u00eb mos ikur, por ai nuk b\u00ebri as gjestin m\u00eb t\u00eb\nvog\u00ebl p\u00ebr t\u00eb m\u00eb ndaluar. Ika. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Te prind\u00ebrit e mi nuk gjeta ngroht\u00ebsin\u00eb q\u00eb prisja\nsepse aty komandonte nusja e v\u00ebllait dhe asaj i dukeshin barr\u00eb mbi supe\nprind\u00ebrit tan\u00eb e jo m\u00eb un\u00eb, q\u00eb isha kunata. F\u00ebmij\u00ebt u m\u00ebrzit\u00ebn shum\u00eb shpejt, ndaj\nnuk m\u00eb mbetej gj\u00eb tjet\u00ebr vet\u00ebm t\u00eb kthehesha nga kisha ardhur. Mir\u00eb thon\u00eb: \u201cVajza\nlind n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi t\u00eb huaj e shkon n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi t\u00eb vet\u201d. Si t\u2019ia b\u00ebja? Ai nuk ishte\ninteresuar fare p\u00ebr mua, madje nuk i kishte r\u00ebn\u00eb nd\u00ebrmend as p\u00ebr f\u00ebmij\u00ebt e tij,\npor un\u00eb nuk kisha zgjidhje tjet\u00ebr. Mora f\u00ebmij\u00ebt dhe shkova te sht\u00ebpia e burrit.\nE gjeta vjehrr\u00ebn n\u00eb oborr. Ajo, sapo m\u00eb pa, shtangu n\u00eb vend. Un\u00eb po prisja t\u00eb\nvinte, t\u00eb m\u00eb hidhej n\u00eb krah\u00eb e t\u00eb p\u00ebrqafonte nip\u00ebrit e saj, por ajo kishte\nngrir\u00eb e gjall\u00eb. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
– S`po m\u00eb njeh? – i thash\u00eb me shaka, por as kjo\nshaka nuk e b\u00ebri t\u00eb l\u00ebvizte. Sa po i afrohesha af\u00ebr ta p\u00ebrqafoja e ta \u201cshkrija\u201d,\nd\u00ebgjova nj\u00eb z\u00eb gruaje:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Mama, ku t\u2019i l\u00eb k\u00ebto perimet? <\/p>\n\n\n\n
N\u00eb der\u00eb u shfaq nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb e bukur, shum\u00eb e re. N\u00eb\nfakt, edhe un\u00eb e re isha, por ajo ishte shum\u00eb m\u00eb e re se un\u00eb. Edhe ajo shtangu\naty n\u00eb der\u00eb e nuk foli m\u00eb. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Kush je ti? – i thash\u00eb sikur t\u00eb mos e njihja. Ajo\nishte fqinja jon\u00eb. E kisha par\u00eb p\u00ebr gati 10 vjet \u00e7do dit\u00eb e gati \u00e7do or\u00eb, po\ns\u2019e kuptoja pse ajo po i th\u00ebrriste \u201cmama\u201d vjehrr\u00ebs sime. At\u00ebhere vjehrra \u201ce\nmori veten\u201d, si duket, u kap\u00ebrdi e foli:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Q\u00ebkur ike ti, kam patur nevoj\u00eb p\u00ebr nj\u00eb fem\u00ebr t\u00eb\nm\u00eb ndihmoj\u00eb n\u00eb pun\u00ebt e sht\u00ebpis\u00eb, k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb… – donte t\u00eb fliste, por nuk arriti\nsepse n\u00eb oborr u fut burri im. Ai, n\u00eb t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb, nuk ishte i nj\u00ebjti q\u00eb kisha\nl\u00ebn\u00eb. Dukej sikur mezi priste t\u00eb futej n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi, nd\u00ebrkoh\u00eb q\u00eb her\u00ebt e tjera i\nt\u00ebrhiqte k\u00ebmb\u00ebt sikur t`i kishte t\u00eb k\u00ebputura. Ai, sapo m\u00eb pa, u ngrys, sikur t\u00eb\nkishte par\u00eb ndonj\u00eb fantazm\u00eb. F\u00ebmij\u00ebt iu hodh\u00ebn n\u00eb qaf\u00eb dhe po e mbysnin me t\u00eb\nputhura. Ishte nj\u00eb sken\u00eb shum\u00eb mall\u00ebngjyese. Menj\u00ebher\u00eb n\u00eb mendjen time faj\u00ebsova\nveten si gjithmon\u00eb se \u00e7`u kisha b\u00ebr\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00ebve q\u00eb i kisha mbajtur larg babait t\u00eb\ntyre, por harrova p\u00ebrs\u00ebri veten, harrova se \u00e7`ishte e mir\u00eb p\u00ebr mua. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ai b\u00ebri dy hapa drejt meje dhe m\u00eb dha dor\u00ebn e m\u00eb\ntha:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– U ktheve? <\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Po \u2013 iu p\u00ebrgjigja instiktivisht. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Mir\u00eb b\u00ebre! – m\u00eb tha dhe p\u00ebrsh\u00ebndeti n\u00ebn\u00ebn e tij\ne cila nuk e kishte marr\u00eb ngjyr\u00ebn e fytyr\u00ebs normale akoma dhe b\u00ebri nga dera, ku\nrrinte vajza, fqinja jon\u00eb. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Mir\u00ebdita! Si ia kalove? U lodhe? – i tha. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Jo. Po ti? – ia preu shkurt ajo. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Hajde, – m\u00eb tha mua, – futuni brenda! Mos rrini\nn\u00eb oborr. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ashtu b\u00ebm\u00eb. U ul\u00ebm. Ajo na solli kafet mua, vjehrr\u00ebs,\nburrit tim, nd\u00ebrsa f\u00ebmij\u00ebve u solli nga nj\u00eb l\u00ebng. E pim\u00eb kafen t\u00eb gjith\u00eb pa\nfolur. Na duhej ajo kafe p\u00ebr t\u00eb na forcuar t\u00eb gjith\u00ebve zemr\u00ebn, q\u00eb p\u00ebr \u00e7udi, rrihte\nakoma, n\u00eb vend q\u00eb t\u00eb kishte pushuar s\u00eb rrahuri. F\u00ebmij\u00ebt k\u00ebrkuan leje t\u00eb dilnin\nt\u00eb luanin. Ai ua b\u00ebri me kok\u00eb n\u00eb shenj\u00eb pohimi. Mbet\u00ebm un\u00eb, vjehrra, burri dhe\nfqinja. Ai foli:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Si\u00e7 e sheh, pun\u00ebt kan\u00eb ndryshuar q\u00eb kur ike ti. Ti\ne ke par\u00eb q\u00eb lidhja jon\u00eb ka koh\u00eb q\u00eb nuk po ec\u00ebn dhe kjo jo p\u00ebr fajin ton\u00eb. Faji\n\u00ebsht\u00eb i prind\u00ebrve tan\u00eb q\u00eb na martuan pa dashuri. Kjo gj\u00eb nuk mund t\u00eb\nrregullohet sepse kan\u00eb kaluar koh\u00eb e s`mund t\u00eb kthehemi pas. Meqen\u00ebse k\u00ebt\u00eb nuk\ne b\u00ebjm\u00eb dot dhe un\u00eb padashur kam gjetur dashurin\u00eb e jet\u00ebs sime, kam menduar t\u00eb\nmos e \u00e7oj d\u00ebm k\u00ebt\u00eb dashuri. Ti je e lir\u00eb t\u00eb b\u00ebsh \u00e7`t\u00eb duash. Dije se edhe ty t\u00eb\ndua, por n\u00eb nj\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb tjet\u00ebr. – ai tha shum\u00eb fjal\u00eb… Dukej sikur ishte nj\u00eb\ntjet\u00ebr njeri q\u00eb po fliste dhe jo ai saldatori i thjesht\u00eb me t\u00eb cilin isha\nmartuar. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kuptova se e doja shum\u00eb at\u00eb njeri dhe duke e ditur\nse nuk kisha ku t\u00eb shkoja e ku t\u00eb p\u00ebrplasesha i thash\u00eb:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Un\u00eb mund t\u00eb iki q\u00eb tani, por a mund t\u00eb jetosh ti\npa f\u00ebmij\u00ebt e tu? A do mund t\u00eb jetojn\u00eb ata pa baban\u00eb dhe gjyshen e tyre? N\u00eb\noborr ata t\u00eb shtr\u00ebnguan e nuk t\u00eb l\u00ebshonin vet\u00ebm se s\u2019t\u00eb kishin par\u00eb p\u00ebr nj\u00eb\njav\u00eb, po sikur t\u00eb rrin\u00eb m\u00eb shum\u00eb? Po m\u00eb lejove ti, un\u00eb do t\u00eb jetoj k\u00ebtu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ai ngriti syt\u00eb i befasuar. K\u00ebt\u00eb s`e kishte menduar.\nE v\u00ebrteta ishte se un\u00eb e dashuroja, por nuk ia thash\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb mos e ulja veten\ntime. N\u00eb fakt, un\u00eb po e zhysja n\u00eb llum veten time, por ja q\u00eb e b\u00ebra. N\u00eb moment,\nm`u duk se shp\u00ebtova q\u00eb thash\u00eb ato fjal\u00eb, por nuk e dija se ai do t\u00eb kishte qen\u00eb\n\u00e7asti m\u00eb i leht\u00eb nga ata q\u00eb do ta pasonin. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dit\u00ebt n\u00eb vazhdim ishin normale. Ai flinte n\u00eb dhom\u00ebn\ne miqve ku kishte v\u00ebn\u00eb nj\u00eb krevat. F\u00ebmij\u00ebt m\u00eb pyesnin se pse fqinja rrinte te\nne dhe un\u00eb u thoja se ajo ishte jetime dhe nuk kishte ku t\u00eb rrinte. Ndihmonim\nnj\u00ebra-tjetr\u00ebn n\u00eb pun\u00ebt e sht\u00ebpis\u00eb. Un\u00eb n\u00eb pun\u00eb nuk shkova m\u00eb sepse nuk doja t\u00eb\np\u00ebrballesha me shoqet, por i takoja n\u00eb rrug\u00eb e ato nuk m\u00eb pyesnin p\u00ebr asgj\u00eb. E\n\u00e7\u2019do m\u00eb thonin? \u201cSa e trash\u00eb je treguar\u201d? Nuk kishte fjal\u00eb q\u00eb do ta p\u00ebrshkruante\nat\u00eb q\u00eb b\u00ebra. Ai nganj\u00ebher\u00eb vinte n\u00eb dhom\u00ebn time e m\u00eb trajtonte sikur t\u00eb isha nj\u00eb\nprincesh\u00eb. Vjehrra vuante shum\u00eb. Ajo nuk dilte si m\u00eb par\u00eb t\u00eb rrinte me shoqet. Edhe\nkur dilte, nuk vonohej shum\u00eb. Asnj\u00ebher\u00eb nuk e b\u00ebm\u00eb bised\u00ebn q\u00eb duhet t\u00eb b\u00ebnim, por\nvitet kaluan dhe t\u00eb gjith\u00eb u m\u00ebsuan m\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb gj\u00eb. \u00c7do gj\u00eb ishte normale p\u00ebr t\u00eb\ngjith\u00eb ne. Ai b\u00ebri dy f\u00ebmij\u00eb t\u00eb tjer\u00eb me at\u00eb, nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb e nj\u00eb djal\u00eb dhe un\u00eb e\nndihmova shum\u00eb q\u00eb t\u2019i rriste. Ajo ishte e re dhe duke qen\u00eb jetime, nuk kishte\npatur se kush ta m\u00ebsonte p\u00ebr asgj\u00eb, prandaj edhe kishte gabuar, madje m\u00eb\nbesoni, m\u00eb dhimbset se mund t\u00eb jet\u00eb penduar me mij\u00ebra her\u00eb p\u00ebr at\u00eb q\u00eb b\u00ebri. Po\nnejse, vet\u00eb e k\u00ebrkoi. Jeta vazhdoi normalisht, sidomos p\u00ebr burrin tim i cili\nishte si veshka mes dhjamit. Vjehrra ime vdiq pas 5 vitesh. Tani, djali i madh\n\u00ebsht\u00eb n\u00eb shkoll\u00eb jasht\u00eb shtetit dhe m\u00ebson shum\u00eb mir\u00eb, por vjen shum\u00eb rrall\u00eb. Djali\ntjet\u00ebr \u00ebsht\u00eb duke mbaruar gjimnazin dhe do t\u00eb shkoj\u00eb tek i v\u00ebllai t\u00eb studioj\u00eb\natje. Me mua nuk e di \u00e7\u2019do t\u00eb b\u00ebhet, ndoshta do t\u00eb shkoj edhe un\u00eb tek ata, sepse\nve\u00e7 ata kam n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb jet\u00eb. Prind\u00ebrit e mi nuk jetuan shum\u00eb gjat\u00eb dhe me v\u00ebllain e\nnusen m\u00eb ndan nj\u00eb humner\u00eb e madh, nj\u00eb humner\u00eb q\u00eb m\u00eb shkat\u00ebrroi jet\u00ebn. Megjithat\u00eb,\njeta vazhdon. Nuk ka gj\u00eb t\u00eb mir\u00eb apo t\u00eb keqe, varet se si e sheh. \u00c7do e keqe ka\nbrenda edhe nj\u00eb t\u00eb mir\u00eb. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Un\u00eb q\u00eb po ju shkruaj jam nj\u00eb grua 40 vje\u00e7e. Jam martuar n\u00eb mosh\u00ebn 20 vje\u00e7are me shkuesi. Sipas meje, k\u00ebto martesa paragjykohen, sepse martesa ime n\u00eb 10 vitet e para ishte nj\u00eb martes\u00eb e mrekullueshme. Edhe po ta kisha njohur vet\u00eb burrin tim, nuk do ta doja aq shum\u00eb. Nuk isha vet\u00ebm un\u00eb ajo […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":21572,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[95],"tags":[245],"class_list":["post-21571","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-rrefime-mekatesh","tag-mekat"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21571","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=21571"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21571\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/21572"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=21571"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=21571"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=21571"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}