E dashur gazet\u00eb, un\u00eb q\u00eb po ju\nshkruaj jam nj\u00eb fem\u00ebr 50-vje\u00e7are. Nuk thash\u00eb grua sepse nuk e ndjej veten t\u00eb\ntill\u00eb, p\u00ebr arsye se jam beqare. Historia ime \u00ebsht\u00eb pak ndryshe t\u00eb tjerave q\u00eb\nkam d\u00ebgjuar e lexuar n\u00eb gazet\u00eb, ndaj nuk po zgjatem dhe menj\u00ebher\u00eb po filloj t\u2019jua\ntregoj. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kur isha e re, n\u00eb mosh\u00ebn 14\nvje\u00e7are, n\u00ebna ime u s\u00ebmur nga nj\u00eb s\u00ebmundje e r\u00ebnd\u00eb. N\u00eb at\u00eb koh\u00eb mjek\u00ebsia nuk\nishte si n\u00eb dit\u00ebt e sotme, prandaj edhe nuk zgjati shum\u00eb dhe ajo nd\u00ebrroi jet\u00eb. N\u00eb\nat\u00eb koh\u00eb, dashuria q\u00eb kishin bashk\u00ebshort\u00ebt p\u00ebr nj\u00ebri-tjetrin ishte e madhe, sidomos\nkjo e prind\u00ebrve t\u00eb mi, dashuri e cila pas gjasht\u00eb muajsh vrau baban\u00eb tim. Ai,\nnga m\u00ebrzia e madhe, ra n\u00eb shtrat dhe u dergj n\u00eb t\u00eb. Isha e vog\u00ebl e megjithat\u00eb u\nmundova t\u2019i rrija pran\u00eb. P\u00ebrve\u00e7 tij, kisha nj\u00eb preokupim tjet\u00ebr, v\u00ebllain e\nvog\u00ebl, Ilirin, i cili ishte vet\u00ebm 9 vje\u00e7, por vdekja nuk deshi t\u2019ia dinte p\u00ebr\nk\u00ebto. Ajo erdhi dhe k\u00ebt\u00eb radh\u00eb na la jetim\u00eb, pa n\u00ebn\u00eb e pa baba. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sht\u00ebpin\u00eb e kishim t\u00eb vjet\u00ebr dhe\nme shum\u00eb mang\u00ebsira. Shteti donte t\u00eb na \u00e7onte n\u00eb sht\u00ebpin\u00eb e f\u00ebmij\u00ebs, por halla\nime nuk pranoi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Do t\u2019i marr un\u00eb – tha – nuk i\nl\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00ebt e v\u00ebllait n\u00eb dor\u00eb t\u00eb lloj-lloj njeriu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Edhe un\u00eb n\u00eb fakt nuk doja t\u00eb\nshkoja n\u00eb jetimore, por p\u00ebr d\u00ebshirat e mia nuk pyeti njeri dhe un\u00eb nuk fola\nsepse po b\u00ebhej ajo q\u00eb doja. Halla ishte e martuar dhe nuk kishte akoma f\u00ebmij\u00eb. Ishte\nmartuar n\u00eb mosh\u00eb t\u00eb madhe dhe po priste f\u00ebmij\u00ebn e par\u00eb. Akoma nuk kishte marr\u00eb\napartament, k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb s\u00eb bashku me burrin e saj erdhi t\u00eb banonte n\u00eb sht\u00ebpin\u00eb\nton\u00eb. Pak dit\u00eb pas shp\u00ebrnguljes s\u00eb tyre aty, ajo nuk ngjante m\u00eb me sht\u00ebpin\u00eb\nton\u00eb. Ishte mbushur plot e p\u00ebrplot me gj\u00ebrat e hall\u00ebs dhe gj\u00ebrat tona pak nga\npak po spostoheshin n\u00eb bodrum. Mami dhe babi ishin pun\u00ebtor\u00eb t\u00eb thjesht\u00eb dhe ato\npak gj\u00ebra q\u00eb kishin ishin t\u00eb vjetra, mir\u00ebpo mua m\u00eb p\u00eblqenin se m\u00eb kujtonin\nprind\u00ebrit e mi. Pas pak kohe halla lindi vajz\u00eb. Tashm\u00eb e kishte kthyer sht\u00ebpin\u00eb\nton\u00eb sikur t\u00eb ishte e vetja dhe asgj\u00eb nuk na p\u00ebrkiste mua dhe v\u00ebllait. Un\u00eb\nkisha mbaruar klas\u00ebn e tet\u00eb dhe do t\u00eb shkoja n\u00eb gjimnaz, por halla vendosi pa\nm\u00eb pyetur mua q\u00eb t\u00eb mos shkoja. Ajo tha se ishte p\u00ebr t\u00eb mir\u00ebn time, se gjasme\ngjimnazi ishte i \u201crreziksh\u00ebm\u201d p\u00ebr vajzat dhe mund t\u00eb b\u00ebja ndonj\u00eb gabim, se ajo\ndo t\u00eb kujdesej m\u00eb mir\u00eb p\u00ebr mua po t\u00eb m\u00eb kishte para syve. N\u00eb t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb, ajo m\u00eb\ndonte p\u00ebr ndihm\u00eb se tashm\u00eb ishte b\u00ebr\u00eb n\u00ebn\u00eb dhe kishte nevoj\u00eb p\u00ebr nj\u00eb njeri q\u00eb\nta ndihmonte. Nuk kisha \u00e7\u2019t\u00eb b\u00ebja tjet\u00ebr vet\u00ebm se t\u00eb bindesha. V\u00ebllai shkonte\nn\u00eb shkoll\u00eb \u00e7do dit\u00eb, nd\u00ebrsa un\u00eb mbaja beben, e ushqeja, e tundja kur qante etj.,\npra, isha kthyer n\u00eb nj\u00eb sh\u00ebrb\u00ebtore dhe k\u00ebt\u00eb e kuptoja fare mir\u00eb, por s\u2019kisha\nrrug\u00eb tjet\u00ebr. Halla kujdesej shum\u00eb p\u00ebr v\u00ebllain tim. Ajo thoshte gjithmon\u00eb se i\nkishte ngjar\u00eb babait, prandaj e donte dhe me k\u00ebt\u00eb n\u00ebnkuptoja se mua, q\u00eb i kisha\nngjar\u00eb mamit, nuk m\u00eb donte. Isha nj\u00eb f\u00ebmiij\u00eb i mbyllur n\u00eb vetvete dhe k\u00ebto\ngj\u00ebra m\u00eb b\u00ebnin t\u00eb \u00e7mendesha. Koha kaloi dhe un\u00eb tashm\u00eb isha nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb e rritur.\nKisha mbushur 18 vje\u00e7e. Edhe vajza e tezes ishte rritur e shkonte n\u00eb kop\u00ebsht. Nj\u00eb\ndit\u00eb, halla m\u00eb mori af\u00ebr dhe m\u00eb tha:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Ti tashm\u00eb je rritur dhe ke\nnevoj\u00eb p\u00ebr ndonj\u00eb njeri q\u00eb t\u00eb t\u00eb doj\u00eb dhe t\u00eb t\u00eb mbaj\u00eb mir\u00eb. T\u00eb ka k\u00ebrkuar nj\u00eb\ndjal\u00eb p\u00ebr martes\u00eb. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nuk them se nuk m\u00eb kishte shkuar\nmendja te martesa, por kisha \u00ebnd\u00ebrruar ta njihja vet\u00eb e t\u00eb dashurohesha me t\u00eb. P\u00ebrs\u00ebri\nnuk fola dhe u b\u00eb ashtu si\u00e7 donte halla. Erdh\u00ebn tre vet\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb pir\u00eb \u201ckafet\u201d, si\u00e7\nishte zakoni at\u00ebhere dhe un\u00eb nuk dola fare e nuk pash\u00eb ask\u00ebnd. P\u00ebr mua,\nvendoste gjithmon\u00eb halla. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pas nja dy jav\u00ebsh, kishim drek\u00ebn\ne fejes\u00ebs. Aty njoha t\u00eb fejuarin tim, nj\u00eb djal\u00eb jo shum\u00eb i vjet\u00ebr, dhjet\u00eb vjet\nm\u00eb i madh se un\u00eb. U martuam dhe un\u00eb u shp\u00ebrngula n\u00eb sht\u00ebpin\u00eb e tij. Ai banonte\nme n\u00ebn\u00ebn dhe nj\u00eb mot\u00ebr se babai i kishte vdekur. Ai m\u00eb tha q\u00eb n\u00eb fillim se duhet\nt\u00eb isha e kujdesshme me n\u00ebn\u00ebn se ishte pak nevrike, nga mungesa e babait. N\u00eb\nfillim ato t\u00eb dyja silleshin mir\u00eb me mua, por shum\u00eb shpejt \u00e7do gj\u00eb ndryshoi. \u00c7do\ngj\u00eb q\u00eb b\u00ebja un\u00eb atyre nuk u p\u00eblqente. Nuk ziheshin me mua, por m\u00eb mbanin m\u00ebri e\nnuk flisnin sikur \u00e7\u2019t\u00eb kisha b\u00ebr\u00eb. N\u00eb dark\u00eb, kur burri im vinte n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi, ia\ntregoja e ai m\u00eb thoshte se duhet t\u00eb duroja se ato nuk e kishin me t\u00eb keq e se\npo m\u00eb m\u00ebsonin p\u00ebr t\u00eb mir\u00ebn time. Ai vet\u00eb ishte shum\u00eb i urt\u00eb e nuk nevrikosej. Gjith\u00eb\ndit\u00ebn prisja dark\u00ebn me padurim q\u00eb t\u00eb vinte ai, por \u00e7do nat\u00eb un\u00eb i ankohesha p\u00ebr\nvjehrr\u00ebn dhe kunat\u00ebn. U b\u00eb shum\u00eb koh\u00eb k\u00ebshtu dhe ai tashm\u00eb nuk ishte aq i qet\u00eb.\nFiloi t\u00eb zihej me n\u00ebn\u00ebn e tij dhe motr\u00ebn. Kur debatonte me to dilte e kur\nvinte, dukej se kishte filluar t\u00eb pinte dhe kjo gj\u00eb u b\u00eb e zakonshme. T\u00eb them\nt\u00eb drejt\u00ebn, mua nuk m\u00eb ngacmonte e nuk sillej keq, vet\u00ebm se po shk\u00ebputej pak\nnga pak nga un\u00eb. Te halla ime nuk shkoja shpesh, v\u00ebllan\u00eb e takoja te shkolla\ndhe ai ndjehej mir\u00eb me hall\u00ebn. Ishte i vog\u00ebl kur ne mbet\u00ebm jetim\u00eb dhe halla\npothuajse kishte z\u00ebvend\u00ebsuar n\u00ebn\u00ebn. K\u00ebnaqesha shum\u00eb kur e shihja se ishte mir\u00eb.\nNga dita q\u00eb isha martuar kishin kaluar dy vjet dhe tashm\u00eb, asgj\u00eb nuk ishte si\nn\u00eb fillim. Prap\u00eb nuk ishte vendosur nj\u00eb barazpesh\u00eb n\u00eb marr\u00ebdh\u00ebniet me vjehrr\u00ebn\ne kunat\u00ebn. N\u00eb fillim ato ziheshin me mua p\u00ebr pun\u00ebt q\u00eb nuk dija t\u2019i b\u00ebja e tani\nq\u00eb ua kisha marr\u00eb dor\u00ebn pun\u00ebve, ishin \u201ct\u00eb m\u00ebrzitura\u201d q\u00eb nuk kisha f\u00ebmij\u00eb. Kishte\nkoh\u00eb q\u00eb i kisha mbushur t\u00eb nj\u00ebzetat dhe p\u00ebr to, tani isha \u201ce vjet\u00ebr\u201d. K\u00ebto\nkonflikte \u00e7uan n\u00eb kthimin e burrit tim n\u00eb pijanec dhe pas disa vitesh, n\u00eb\nndarjen time prej tij. Shkaku; nuk b\u00ebja f\u00ebmij\u00eb. Kurr\u00eb nuk do t\u2019i harroj lot\u00ebt\nn\u00eb syt\u00eb e burrit tim kur u ndam\u00eb. Ai m\u00eb kishte dashur, por ato t\u00eb dyja e\nshkat\u00ebrruan k\u00ebt\u00eb dashuri. Tashm\u00eb isha 24 vje\u00e7e, nd\u00ebrsa v\u00ebllai 19. Ai ishte n\u00eb\nvit t\u00eb par\u00eb t\u00eb shkoll\u00ebs s\u00eb lart\u00eb dhe pas disa vitesh, do t\u00eb b\u00ebhej inxhinier. Atij\ni kishte ecur\u2026 Ndoshta k\u00ebtu ndryshon edhe fati i femr\u00ebs me at\u00eb t\u00eb mashkullit. Halla\nnuk m\u00eb pranoi n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi sepse isha e divorcuar dhe m\u00eb thoshte se e kisha\nturp\u00ebruar, k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb shteti m\u00eb dha nj\u00eb dhom\u00eb. At\u00ebhere shteti strehonte tre\nfamilje n\u00eb nj\u00eb apartament. \u00c7do familje nj\u00eb dhom\u00eb e banjoja, e p\u00ebrbashk\u00ebt. N\u00eb dy\ndhomat e tjera t\u00eb apartamentit ishte nj\u00eb \u00e7ift i ri dhe nj\u00eb \u00e7ift tjet\u00ebr me nj\u00eb\nf\u00ebmij\u00eb t\u00eb vog\u00ebl. U rehatova n\u00eb at\u00eb dhom\u00eb dhe u futa n\u00eb pun\u00eb si pastruese n\u00eb nj\u00eb\nnd\u00ebrmarrje. Tani jeta ishte m\u00eb e bukur se m\u00eb par\u00eb. Isha e lir\u00eb dhe kisha vet\u00ebm\nveten time p\u00ebr t\u00eb mbajtur. V\u00ebllai vinte shpesh tek un\u00eb dhe pak shkonte te halla.\nAi mbaroi shkoll\u00ebn dhe e transferuan n\u00eb nj\u00eb qytet verior. Ish-burrin tim nuk e\nkisha par\u00eb prej koh\u00ebsh. Ai ishte martuar dhe ishte b\u00ebr\u00eb me djal\u00eb. Nganj\u00ebher\u00eb e\nndjeja veten fatkeqe se po t\u00eb kisha b\u00ebr\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00eb do t\u00eb isha p\u00ebrs\u00ebri me t\u00eb, por\nm\u00eb mir\u00eb k\u00ebshtu. Me ardhjen e demokracis\u00eb, m\u00eb hoq\u00ebn nga puna se nd\u00ebrmarrja ime u\nshkri, k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb mbeta pa pun\u00eb. Pas nj\u00eb kohe t\u00eb shkurt\u00ebr, u futa pastruese n\u00eb\nnj\u00eb firm\u00eb. Tashm\u00eb, halla ishte plakur dhe m\u00eb k\u00ebrkoi q\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00eb thoshte se ishte\npenduar q\u00eb s\u2019m\u00eb kishte p\u00ebrkrahur, por un\u00eb nuk pramova t\u00eb flisja me t\u00eb. Ajo\nishte shkaktarja e shkat\u00ebrrimit t\u00eb jet\u00ebs sime dhe nuk mund ta duroja m\u00eb pran\u00eb. Kur\nisha e vog\u00ebl, nuk mund t\u00eb b\u00ebja asgj\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb shp\u00ebtoja nga ajo, por tashm\u00eb s`kisha\npse t\u00eb b\u00ebja \u00e7\u2019thoshte ajo, k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb i vura nj\u00eb gur zemr\u00ebs dhe e hoqa nga lista\ne njer\u00ebzve t\u00eb mi t\u00eb dasur. V\u00ebllai u shp\u00ebrngul nga qyteti ku ishte me pun\u00eb dhe\nerdhi n\u00eb Tiran\u00eb. Ai u martua atje ku e kishin em\u00ebruar me nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb vendase dhe\nka dy f\u00ebmij\u00eb. Nj\u00ebra nga familjet q\u00eb jetonte n\u00eb nj\u00eb \u00e7ati me mua iku dhe un\u00eb\nbleva dhom\u00ebn e tyre. Edhe familja tjet\u00ebr u shp\u00ebrngul, k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb un\u00eb u b\u00ebra me\nsht\u00ebpi, mir\u00ebpo v\u00ebllai im jetonte n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi me qira. T\u00eb vinte t\u00eb banonte me mua,\nnuk na p\u00eblqente t\u00eb dyve sepse kemi eksperienca t\u00eb hidhura t\u00eb banimit t\u00eb shum\u00eb\nvetave n\u00eb nj\u00eb sht\u00ebpi, k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb hodha n\u00eb gjyq hall\u00ebn time q\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00eb kthente sht\u00ebpin\u00eb\ne babait tim. Gjyqi na e dha mua dhe v\u00ebllait sht\u00ebpin\u00eb, nd\u00ebrsa hall\u00ebs iu desh t\u00eb\nshkonte t\u00eb banonte te vajza e saj, me dh\u00ebndrrin. Kot nuk thon\u00eb se bota \u00ebsht\u00eb e\nrrumbullak\u00ebt e \u00e7`t\u2019i b\u00ebsh tjetrit, ta b\u00ebjn\u00eb ty. Nganj\u00ebher\u00eb m\u00eb vjen keq edhe p\u00ebr\nhall\u00ebn, por sapo kujtoj se si ajo e shkat\u00ebrroi jet\u00ebn time, marr forc\u00eb. Tashm\u00eb,\najo \u00ebsht\u00eb shum\u00eb e vjet\u00ebr e ndoshta ndonj\u00eb dit\u00eb do m\u00eb duhet t\u00eb shkoj e ta takoj\ne t\u2019i jap shansin q\u00eb t\u00eb mos vdes\u00eb pa m\u00eb k\u00ebrkuar falje. E di se duhet ta b\u00ebj\nk\u00ebt\u00eb dhe do ta b\u00ebj sapo t\u00eb m\u00eb vij\u00eb rasti. T\u00eb shkuara t\u00eb harruara! M\u00eb mjafton q\u00eb\ntani jam e qet\u00eb dhe t\u00eb dy; un\u00eb e v\u00ebllai, jemi mir\u00eb. Vet\u00ebm m\u00eb vjen keq q\u00eb nuk\narrita t\u00eb kem nj\u00eb familje e nj\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00eb timin, por kam familjen e v\u00ebllait dhe\nf\u00ebmij\u00ebt e tij, q\u00eb i dua si f\u00ebmij\u00ebt e mi.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
E dashur gazet\u00eb, un\u00eb q\u00eb po ju shkruaj jam nj\u00eb fem\u00ebr 50-vje\u00e7are. Nuk thash\u00eb grua sepse nuk e ndjej veten t\u00eb till\u00eb, p\u00ebr arsye se jam beqare. Historia ime \u00ebsht\u00eb pak ndryshe t\u00eb tjerave q\u00eb kam d\u00ebgjuar e lexuar n\u00eb gazet\u00eb, ndaj nuk po zgjatem dhe menj\u00ebher\u00eb po filloj t\u2019jua tregoj. Kur isha e re, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":20576,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[94],"tags":[249],"class_list":["post-21369","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-histori-nga-jeta","tag-histori"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21369","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=21369"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21369\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/20576"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=21369"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=21369"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=21369"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}