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Ndoshta do t\u2019ju duket e pabesueshme; edhe mua\nk\u00ebshtu m\u00eb dukej n\u00eb fillim. Un\u00eb kam nj\u00eb histori pak m\u00eb t\u00eb ve\u00e7ant\u00eb sesa t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt,\nsepse n\u00ebse n\u00eb qend\u00ebr t\u00eb historive jan\u00eb gjithmon\u00eb dashurit\u00eb, vuajtjet e tyre, z\u00ebnkat\ne tradhtit\u00eb, tek un\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb krejt tjet\u00ebr gj\u00eb. Dua t\u2019jua tregoj q\u00eb nga fillimi\nsepse \u00e7do ngjarje ka lidhje me tjetr\u00ebn…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Un\u00eb jam nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb 28 vje\u00e7are nga Elbasani, por\njetoj me prind\u00ebrit n\u00eb Tiran\u00eb prej 16 vjet\u00ebsh. Q\u00eb n\u00eb fillim, u ndjem\u00eb shum\u00eb mir\u00eb\nn\u00eb lagjen ku mor\u00ebm sht\u00ebpin\u00eb, sepse p\u00ebrve\u00e7 faktit q\u00eb ne si familje jemi shum\u00eb t\u00eb\nqet\u00eb dhe t\u00eb but\u00eb, gjet\u00ebm nj\u00eb mikpritje shum\u00eb t\u00eb mir\u00eb nga fqinj\u00ebt. Nj\u00ebra nga\nkomshijet kishte nj\u00eb djal\u00eb shum\u00eb t\u00eb mir\u00eb me t\u00eb cilin un\u00eb nisa t\u00eb shoq\u00ebrohesha\nshum\u00eb. M\u00eb p\u00eblqente q\u00eb gjith\u00e7ka ta b\u00ebnim bashk\u00eb; m\u00ebsimet, loj\u00ebrat dhe m\u00eb pas kur\nu rrit\u00ebm, bashk\u00eb e pinim edhe kafen. Ndiheshim mir\u00eb n\u00eb shoq\u00ebrin\u00eb e nj\u00ebri-tjetrit\ndhe kurr\u00eb nuk do t\u00eb m\u00eb kishte shkuar n\u00eb mendje ta shihja me tjet\u00ebr sy, p\u00ebrve\u00e7se\nme at\u00eb t\u00eb mikut m\u00eb t\u00eb mir\u00eb. Ai ishte 3 vjet m\u00eb i madh se un\u00eb. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Erdhi edhe dit\u00eblindja ime, mbushja 20 vje\u00e7e\ndhe vendosa q\u00eb ta festoja me shoq\u00ebrin\u00eb time. Mami m\u00eb kishte organizuar nj\u00eb dit\u00eblindje\nt\u00eb mrekullueshme, n\u00eb nj\u00eb nga lokalet e kryeqytetit dhe, t\u00eb them t\u00eb drejt\u00ebn,\nishte dit\u00eblindja m\u00eb e bukur q\u00eb do t\u00eb mbaj mend gjat\u00eb gjith\u00eb jet\u00ebs sime. Ia kaluam\nshum\u00eb bukur sepse prind\u00ebrit e mi, erdh\u00ebn, respektuan shoq\u00ebrin\u00eb time dhe pastaj\nu larguan duke na l\u00ebn\u00eb mua dhe shoq\u00ebrin\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb arg\u00ebtoheshim dhe t\u00eb festonim. Sinqerisht,\nu k\u00ebnaq\u00ebm shum\u00eb dhe m\u00eb shum\u00eb u g\u00ebzova kur erdhi edhe njeriu q\u00eb un\u00eb v\u00ebrtet doja\nq\u00eb t\u00eb ishte aty at\u00eb nat\u00eb. Arjani, k\u00ebshtu quhej ai, m\u00eb kishte b\u00ebr\u00eb dhurat\u00ebn m\u00eb t\u00eb\nbukur, nj\u00eb tuf\u00eb me lule dhe nj\u00eb pusull\u00eb brenda saj, ku shkruhej: \u201cTi je dhurata\nm\u00eb e bukur e jet\u00ebs sime… U b\u00ebfsh 100 vje\u00e7e dhe dashuria mbret\u00ebroft\u00eb n\u00eb jet\u00ebn\nt\u00ebnde!\u201d. Shtanga p\u00ebr momentin sepse nuk e prisja prej tij nj\u00eb let\u00ebr t\u00eb till\u00eb.\nNejse, b\u00ebra sikur nuk kishte ndodhur asgj\u00eb dhe vazhdova t\u00eb k\u00ebrceja me miqt\u00eb e\ntjer\u00eb q\u00eb kisha n\u00eb fest\u00eb, megjith\u00ebse gjith\u00eb koh\u00ebs e kisha mendjen tek Arjani,\nsepse nuk m\u00eb dukej si her\u00ebt e tjera dhe doja me patjet\u00ebr t\u00eb kuptoja se \u00e7far\u00eb po\nndodhte. Se si m\u00eb shikonte tek k\u00ebrceja dhe nuk m\u00eb dukej si her\u00ebt e tjera. M\u00eb\nshikonte si\u00e7 do ta shikonte \u00e7do djal\u00eb t\u00eb dashur\u00ebn e tij. Syt\u00eb e tij shk\u00eblqenin\ndhe e kuptova se donte t\u00eb thoshte di\u00e7ka. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
N\u00eb nj\u00eb moment ai m\u00eb mori jasht\u00eb dhe m\u00eb tha q\u00eb\nkishte r\u00ebn\u00eb n\u00eb dashuri me mua, m\u00eb puthi dhe m\u00eb tha q\u00eb n\u00ebse un\u00eb nuk ndjeja t\u00eb nj\u00ebjt\u00ebn\ngj\u00eb, mjaftonte t\u2019ia thosha. Nuk e di pse, por \u00e7udit\u00ebrisht nuk munda t\u2019i ktheja\np\u00ebrgjigje negative dhe ia ktheva puthjen. Nuk mund t\u2019jua shpjegoj nga m\u00eb erdhi\najo d\u00ebshir\u00eb p\u00ebr ta mbuluar me t\u00eb puthura dhe ndenj\u00ebm gati gjys\u00ebm ore duke u\nputhur jasht\u00eb lokalit. Nuk po e merrnim vesh \u00e7far\u00eb po na ndodhte dhe t\u00eb dy\nishim si t\u00eb hutuar. Ajo nat\u00eb kaloi shum\u00eb bukur. Ik\u00ebm n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi dhe mua nuk po m\u00eb\nzinte gjumi. P\u00ebrp\u00eblitesha n\u00eb krevat sepse nuk e kuptoja \u00e7far\u00eb po ndodhte. Dit\u00ebt\nn\u00eb vazhdim i kaluam shum\u00eb bukur dhe nj\u00eb dit\u00eb vendos\u00ebm t\u2019u tregonim edhe prind\u00ebrve\ntan\u00eb. Askush nuk mund ta mendonte q\u00eb ata do ta prisnin aq mir\u00eb at\u00eb lajm. Ndoshta\nedhe nga fakti q\u00eb Arjanit nuk i mungonte asgj\u00eb, as nga ana fizike, morale apo n\u00eb\n\u00e7do aspekt, ata ishin m\u00eb t\u00eb g\u00ebzuar se ne, si prind\u00ebrit e mi, ashtu edhe prind\u00ebrit\ne Arjanit. Ishte nj\u00eb mrekulli, saq\u00eb as ne t\u00eb dy nuk po e besonim q\u00eb po shkonte\ngjith\u00e7ka kaq mir\u00eb. Kaluam tre vjet t\u00eb fejuar dhe po b\u00ebnim planet p\u00ebr t\u2019u\nmartuar. Ishim kujdesur deri n\u00eb detajet m\u00eb t\u00eb vogla dhe dukej q\u00eb gjith\u00e7ka do t\u00eb\nb\u00ebhej sipas planeve tona. E vetmja gj\u00eb q\u00eb kishte r\u00ebnd\u00ebsi p\u00ebr ne n\u00eb ato momente\nishte se ne duheshim shum\u00eb dhe ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb kur uleshim t\u00eb bisedonim, habiteshim\nsi nuk e kishim kuptuar m\u00eb p\u00ebrpara dashurin\u00eb ton\u00eb. Por, fati nuk deshi q\u00eb ne t\u00eb\ndy ta kuror\u00ebzonim dashurin\u00eb sepse dit\u00ebn e martes\u00ebs, ndodhi nj\u00eb aksident q\u00eb i\nmori jet\u00ebn dashuris\u00eb time…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nuk mund t\u2019jua p\u00ebrshkruaj ndjesin\u00eb q\u00eb m\u00eb p\u00ebshtolli\nat\u00ebher\u00eb. M\u2019u mblodh di\u00e7ka n\u00eb fyt, nuk munda t\u00eb nxirrja z\u00eb, as t\u00eb qaja, as t\u00eb ul\u00ebrija,\nvet\u00ebm rrija si e mbufatur n\u00eb mes t\u00eb rrug\u00ebs, duke par\u00eb n\u00eb drejtimin nga do vinte\nai me makin\u00ebn p\u00ebr t\u00eb m\u00eb marr\u00eb nuse. Shp\u00ebrtheva n\u00eb lot, qava, qava e qava pa\npushim, saq\u00eb nuk mbaj mend se kush m\u00eb \u00e7oi n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi. E kam qar\u00eb at\u00eb njeri p\u00ebr\nvite me radh\u00eb, derisa nj\u00eb dit\u00eb m\u00eb ndodhi di\u00e7ka q\u00eb ndoshta shum\u00eb prej jush nuk e\nbesojn\u00eb…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nd\u00ebrsa lexoja nj\u00eb dit\u00eb nj\u00eb lib\u00ebr dashurie me\nfund tragjik, m\u2019u duk sikur Arjani ishte gjall\u00eb dhe u ul aty af\u00ebr meje. Duke m\u00eb\np\u00ebrk\u00ebdhelur, m\u00eb thoshte q\u00eb un\u00eb nuk duhet t\u00eb m\u00ebrzitesha sepse gjith\u00e7ka do t\u00eb shkonte\nmir\u00eb. Ai e dinte sa e doja un\u00eb, ishte mir\u00ebnjoh\u00ebs p\u00ebr t\u00eb gjith\u00eb dashurin\u00eb dhe\nlumturin\u00eb q\u00eb i kisha dhuruar un\u00eb dhe nuk do t\u00eb m\u00eb linte kurr\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00ebrzitesha.\nAty p\u00ebr aty u g\u00ebzova q\u00eb e pash\u00eb dhe m\u2019u duk si \u00ebnd\u00ebrr, por kjo gj\u00eb u p\u00ebrs\u00ebrit p\u00ebr\ndit\u00eb me radh\u00eb. Kuptova nj\u00eb gj\u00eb; sa her\u00eb q\u00eb un\u00eb qaja, ai m\u00eb shfaqej. Kishte dit\u00eb\nq\u00eb nuk qaja dhe ai nuk m\u00eb shfaqej. I tregova gjith\u00e7ka mamit tim dhe ajo m\u00eb\nyshti, sepse mendoi se un\u00eb kisha probleme, por n\u00eb fakt, nuk ishte ashtu. Thjesht,\nai vinte n\u00eb jet\u00ebn time dhe m\u00eb k\u00ebrkonte falje q\u00eb nuk arriti t\u00eb m\u00eb b\u00ebnte t\u00eb\nlumtur. M\u00eb lutej t\u00eb mos qaja sepse m\u00eb humbiste bukuria kur qaja dhe un\u00eb, duke d\u00ebgjuar\nt\u00eb gjitha k\u00ebshillat e tij, sado e pamundur t\u00eb duket, rifitova jet\u00ebn time.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sot ndihem m\u00eb mir\u00eb, sepse e di q\u00eb at\u00eb e kam\naf\u00ebr. Ndoshta nuk do t\u00eb m\u00eb besoni dhe do t\u00eb mendoni se kam nevoj\u00eb p\u00ebr ndihm\u00eb\npsikologjike, por nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb k\u00ebshtu. Shpirti i tij \u00ebsht\u00eb af\u00ebr meje gjithmon\u00eb dhe\nk\u00ebshtu do t\u00eb jet\u00eb, sepse ne nuk ndenj\u00ebm dot bashk\u00eb p\u00ebr s\u00eb gjalli dhe ai ka\nngelur me peng. E dua shum\u00eb. Edhe pse ai nuk jeton m\u00eb, nuk shoh dot mashkull\ntjet\u00ebr dhe nuk e di kur do mundem. Thjesht, e shoh veten vet\u00ebm me t\u00eb. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Me respekt, Linda.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Ndoshta do t\u2019ju duket e pabesueshme; edhe mua k\u00ebshtu m\u00eb dukej n\u00eb fillim. Un\u00eb kam nj\u00eb histori pak m\u00eb t\u00eb ve\u00e7ant\u00eb sesa t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt, sepse n\u00ebse n\u00eb qend\u00ebr t\u00eb historive jan\u00eb gjithmon\u00eb dashurit\u00eb, vuajtjet e tyre, z\u00ebnkat e tradhtit\u00eb, tek un\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb krejt tjet\u00ebr gj\u00eb. Dua t\u2019jua tregoj q\u00eb nga fillimi sepse \u00e7do ngjarje ka […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":20576,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[94],"tags":[249],"class_list":["post-21326","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-histori-nga-jeta","tag-histori"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21326","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=21326"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21326\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/20576"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=21326"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=21326"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=21326"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}