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Kjo histori q\u0451 po ju tregoj besoj do t`ju sh\u0451rbej\u0451\nn\u0451 jet\u0451 t\u0451 gjith\u0451ve, n\u0451 m\u0451nyr\u0451 q\u0451 t\u0451 mos b\u0451ni gabimet q\u0451 b\u0451ra un\u0451. Edhe pse i kam\nkaluar t\u0451 dyzetat, jam akoma nj\u0451 burr\u0451 i paraqitsh\u0451m. Gabimi im i par\u0451 \u0451sht\u0451 q\u0451\nu martova n\u0451 mosh\u0451 shum\u0451 t\u0451 vog\u0451l. Isha 23 vje\u00e7 kur u martova. Pavar\u0451sisht se\ndikujt mund t`i duket normale, jua siguroj un\u0451 se me eksperienc\u0451n time, ishte\nher\u0451t. Un\u0451 sapo kisha mbaruar shkoll\u0451n e lart\u0451 dhe shteti m\u0451 kishte futur n\u0451\npun\u0451 pa rrog\u0451, p\u0451r t\u0451 p\u0451rvet\u0451uar pun\u0451n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
U martova me nj\u0451 komshien\ntime. Ajo ishte nj\u0451 vajz\u0451 shum\u0451 e bukur dhe shum\u0451 pun\u0451tore. Un\u0451 studioja n\u0451 nj\u0451\nqytet tjet\u0451r dhe takohesha me t\u0451 gjat\u0451 pushimeve. Kur mbarova shkoll\u0451n dhe\nfillova pun\u0451n, prind\u0451rit e mi menduan se duhej t\u0451 kompletohesha, pra, shkolla, puna\ndhe martesa. K\u0451shtu b\u0451m\u0451. Ishim nj\u0451 \u00e7ift q\u0451\n\u00e7dokush na admironte. N\u0451 fakt, n\u0451 vendet e vogla njer\u0451zit njihen me nj\u0451ri-tjetrin\nq\u0451 nga f\u0451mij\u0451ria dhe deri n\u0451 vdekje, pra, jan\u0451 shum\u0451 t\u0451 lidhur. K\u0451shtu, ne\nmor\u0451m sht\u0451pi e b\u0451m\u0451 f\u0451mij\u0451n e par\u0451, si\u00e7 ndodh zakonisht me t\u0451 gjitha \u00e7iftet.\nAjo ishte e p\u0451rkushtuar ndaj f\u0451mij\u0451s m\u0451 shum\u0451 sesa duhej. Ishte \u201cmaniake\u201d rreth\npast\u0451rtis\u0451, k\u0451shtu q\u0451 un\u0451 dola n\u0451 plan t\u0451 dyt\u0451. Ajo kishte mbaruar vet\u0451m\nshkoll\u0451n e mesme dhe nuk kishte vazhduar m\u0451 tej, k\u0451shtu q\u0451 nuk mund t\u0451 gjente\npun\u0451 leht\u0451, n\u0451 m\u0451nyr\u0451 q\u0451 t\u0451 shk\u0451putej nga sht\u0451pia. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mua m\u0451 rrinte shum\u0451 gati.\nGjithmon\u0451 e gjeja \u00e7do gj\u0451 timen t\u0451 lar\u0451 e t\u0451 hekurosur dhe vaktet e ngr\u0451nies t\u0451\np\u0451rsosura. Nuk zihej asnj\u0451her\u0451 me mua, vet\u0451m se nuk m\u0451 kushtonte v\u0451mendje dhe\nnuk m\u0451 jepte dashurin\u0451 p\u0451r t\u0451 cil\u0451n ishim martuar. Rrija n\u0451 sht\u0451pi para\ntelevizorit dhe ajo gjithmon\u0451 m\u0451 thoshte se pse nuk dilja me shok\u0451t. Un\u0451 i\nthoja \u201ckam d\u0451shir\u0451 t\u0451 dalim bashk\u0451\u201d, por ajo ishte gjithmon\u0451 e z\u0451n\u0451.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
E k\u0451shtu kaluan vitet e u\nb\u0451m\u0451 me f\u0451mij\u0451n e dyt\u0451. Nga ajo q\u0451 ju thash\u0451 m\u0451 lart, interesi p\u0451r mua tani\nkishte r\u0451n\u0451 n\u0451 zero, p\u00ebrve\u00e7 pun\u0451ve q\u0451 b\u0451nte e q\u00eb m\u0451 mbante si princ, nga\nhyzmeti i tep\u0451rt q\u0451 m\u0451 b\u0451nte. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Isha n\u0451 fakt mir\u0451, por ndjehesha bosh. Nga puna m\u0451\nkishte ecur fati. Tashm\u0451 ia kisha marr\u0451 dor\u0451n pun\u0451s dhe punoja n\u0451 nj\u0451 zyr\u0451 s\u0451\nbashku me nj\u0451 tjet\u0451r, por m\u0451 besoni, asgj\u0451 nga k\u0451to nuk kan\u0451 r\u0451nd\u0451si n\u0451se nuk\nke af\u0451r nj\u0451 njeri me t\u00eb cilin t\u2019i ndash k\u0451to t\u0451 mira. Por \u201cfati\u201d m\u0451 trokiti edhe\nmua n\u0451 der\u0451. Kolegun tim e z\u0451vend\u0451suan me nj\u0451 vajz\u0451. Pra, tani pun\u0451n do ta b\u0451ja\nme nj\u0451 partnere. Ajo ishte nj\u0451 vajz\u0451 nj\u0451 vit m\u0451 e madhe se gruaja ime. Ishte e\nmbajtur, por jo m\u0451 e bukur se ajo. Gruaja ime ishte nj\u0451 grua shum\u0451 e bukur dhe\nshum\u0451 e hijshme. Ia thash\u0451 k\u0451t\u0451 gruas sime:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– E hoq\u0451n Maksin nga puna! – i thash\u0451.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Ou, sa keq! Po tani, do ta b\u0451sh pun\u0451n vet\u0451m? – tha\najo, pa e l\u0451n\u0451 pun\u0451n q\u0451 kishte n\u0451 dor\u0451. Asaj anj\u0451her\u0451 nuk i interesonte puna\nime.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Jo, m\u0451 soll\u0451n nj\u0451 vajz\u0451! – ia thash\u0451 n\u0451 k\u0451t\u0451\nm\u0451nyr\u0451 q\u0451 ta b\u0451ja xheloze, por ajo nuk b\u0451hej kurr\u0451 xheloze.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Ndoshta mund t\u0451 jesh m\u0451 mir\u0451 me t\u0451. \u2013 e mbylli\najo bised\u0451n, k\u0451shtu q\u0451 as un\u0451 nuk e zgjata m\u0451 shum\u0451.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
As un\u0451 vet\u0451 nuk e dija se si do t\u0451 ishte t\u0451 punoja\nme t\u0451. N\u0451 fakt, tani q\u0451 e mendoj, ajo ka qen\u0451 nj\u0451 pjes\u0451 e bukur e jet\u0451s sime.\nAjo ishte nj\u0451 vajz\u0451 shum\u0451 e shkath\u0451t dhe shum\u0451 e zgjuar. Ajo m\u0451 d\u0451gjonte dhe\npuna na ecte mbar\u0451 t\u0451 dyve. Ishim b\u0451r\u0451 aq t\u0451\naf\u0451rt sa ajo m\u0451 tregonte \u00e7do gj\u0451. Edhe un\u0451 fillova t\u0451 hapem me t\u0451. I tregoja\np\u0451r gj\u0451rat q\u0451 m\u0451 mundonin, duke i l\u0451n\u0451 t\u0451 kuptonte q\u0451 pavar\u0451sisht se i kisha t\u0451\ngjitha, m\u0451 mungonte v\u0451mendja e nj\u0451 femre dhe dashuria e saj. Ajo vajz\u0451 po m\u0451\nmbushte boshll\u0451kun q\u0451 m\u0451 kishte l\u0451n\u0451 gruaja ime. Pinim kafen bashk\u0451 n\u0451 m\u0451ngjes\ndhe gjith\u0451 dita n\u0451 ecte vaj. K\u0451shtu, e plot\u0451sova me t\u0451 gjith\u0451 kuptimin, k\u0451t\u0451\nmang\u0451si. Tashm\u0451 i kisha t\u0451 gjitha dhe kryesoren, q\u0451 gruaja ime kishte besim t\u0451\nmadh tek un\u0451. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nj\u0451 dit\u0451, kur erdha n\u0451 sht\u0451pi, e gjeta gruan pak\nt\u0451 m\u0451rzitur. Komshia i kishte th\u0451n\u0451 q\u0451 m\u0451 kishte par\u0451 me nj\u0451 vajz\u0451 dhe i ishim\ndukur si dy t\u0451 dashuruar. I thash\u0451 se ishte kolegia dhe ajo u qet\u0451sua menj\u0451her\u0451.\nAjo u qet\u0451sua, por un\u0451 desh vdiqa. T\u0451 nes\u0451rmen ia tregova t\u0451 gjitha koleges dhe\ni thash\u0451 se duhej t\u0451 ishim m\u0451 t\u0451 kujdessh\u00ebm, por ajo m\u0451 tha se vet\u0451 gruaja m\u0451\nkishte shtyr\u0451 ta b\u00ebja k\u00ebt\u00eb dhe un\u0451 nuk kisha asnj\u0451 faj. Nejse, e kalova k\u0451t\u0451\nradh\u0451. Gruaja nuk ma p\u0451rmendi m\u0451 dhe un\u0451 vazhdova nj\u0451soj derisa m\u0451 hoq\u00ebn nga\najo pun\u0451 dhe fillova nj\u0451 tjet\u0451r. N\u0451 k\u0451t\u0451 koh\u0451, gruaja kishte filluar studimet\nme korrespondenc\u0451 dhe s\u0451 shpejti, edhe ajo do t\u0451 fillonte pun\u0451. F\u0451mij\u0451t ishin\nrritur tashm\u0451 dhe mund t\u2019i \u00e7onim n\u0451 \u00e7erdhe e kop\u0451sht. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
N\u0451 pun\u0451n e re un\u0451 gjeta p\u0451rs\u0451ri nj\u0451 shoqe dhe e\ntrajtova si kolegen e par\u0451. Pra, ia mora dor\u0451n p\u00ebr t\u0451 plot\u0451suar boshll\u0451kun tim.\nPo jua them shkurt q\u0451 k\u0451shtu b\u0451ra dhe n\u0451 koh\u0451n\nn\u0451 vazhdim, por tani di\u00e7ka kishte ndyshuar. Un\u0451 u m\u0451sova ta gjeja dashurin\u0451\njasht\u0451 ateher\u0451 kur kisha p\u0451r grua nj\u0451 sht\u0451piake, s\u0451 cil\u0451s i interesonin vet\u0451m\nf\u0451mij\u0451t dhe past\u0451rtia, sigurisht, edhe sh\u0451rbimi ndaj burrit. Tani nuk kisha t\u0451\nb\u0451ja m\u0451 me nj\u0451 t\u0451 till\u0451. Tani gruaja ime ishte shnd\u0451rruar n\u0451 nj\u0451 intelektuale\nme bot\u0451 dhe nuk mund t\u2019ia hidhje m\u0451. Ajo tani kishte mbaruar studimet dhe ishte\nn\u0451 pun\u0451. Krijoi menj\u0451her\u0451 shum\u0451 lidhje me gra t\u0451 cilat kishin nj\u0451 horizont m\u0451\nt\u0451 gjer\u0451 se i saji dhe pik\u0451risht k\u0451tu kishte filluar jeta e saj e po kufizohej\nliria ime. E kisha mbishfryt\u0451zuar k\u0451t\u0451 liri. Tani kishte ardhur koha t\u0451\nndryshoja. Por, a do t\u0451 mundesha dot? <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ajo e kishte kuptuar tani se m\u0451 kishte munguar\ndashuria, por nuk e dinte se n\u0451se ajo e kishte kompesuar me dashurin\u0451 e f\u0451mij\u0451ve,\nun\u0451 e kisha gjetur k\u0451t\u0451 dashuri jasht\u0451 familjes sime, kudo, te shok\u0451t, shoqet.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Meqen\u00ebse ndjehej fajtore (n\u0451 at\u0451 koh\u0451 ajo p\u0451r \u00e7do\ngj\u0451 faj\u0451sonte veten edhe kur nuk kishte faj), filloi t\u0451 m\u0451 t\u0451rhiqte. M\u0451 ftonte\nt\u0451 dilnim dhe ndryshoi sjelljen n\u0451 sht\u0451pi. Ulej me mua t\u0451 bisedonte p\u0451r\nproblemet e pun\u0451s dhe kishte shum\u0451 d\u0451shir\u0451 t\u0451 rrinte m\u0451 mua, ta ndante \u00e7do gj\u0451\nme mua, por ishte von\u0451. Ajo ende ishte nj\u0451 fem\u0451r shum\u0451 t\u0451rheq\u0451se, madje m\u0451\ntregonte edhe p\u0451r ngacmimet e shumta, por p\u0451r \u00e7udi mua nuk m\u0451 b\u0451nte aspak\nxheloz. Un\u0451 e shtyja koh\u00ebn n\u0451 sht\u0451pi me mendimin se t\u00eb nes\u0451rmen do t\u00eb shkoja n\u0451\npun\u0451 e do t\u00eb k\u00ebnaqesha me m\u0451nyr\u0451n time t\u0451 t\u0451 jetuarit. Kisha qen\u0451 me fat dhe\nk\u0451tu p\u0451rfshihej edhe ajo, q\u0451 mund t\u0451 maskohesha duke b\u0451r\u0451 dashuri me gruan, a thua\nse nuk e kisha tradhtuar asnj\u0451her\u0451. Edhe at\u0451 dit\u0451 kur un\u0451 kisha marr\u0451 \u00e7do gj\u0451\njasht\u0451 familjes, e luaja shum\u0451 mir\u0451 pjes\u0451n sikur as nuk kisha par\u0451 grua me sy.\nP\u0451r disa koh\u0451, ia hodha me k\u0451t\u0451 m\u0451nyr\u0451. Gruaja k\u0451naqej me mua dhe un\u0451 me t\u0451, por\nprap\u0451 isha vet\u0451m fizikisht me t\u0451. Ajo ende nuk besonte se mund ta tradhtoja. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Tani kemi arritur n\u0451 nj\u0451 pik\u0451 tjet\u0451r. F\u0451mij\u0451t jan\u0451\nrritur, gruaja punon e un\u0451 gjithashtu. Deri k\u0451tu n\u0451 rregull, por a jemi t\u0451\nlumtur? Aspak. Ajo m\u0451 sheh si armikun e saj m\u0451 t\u0451 madh. Sa her\u0451 i afrohem i\nduket sikur i afrohet ndonj\u0451 i huaj. Un\u0451, kur jam me t\u0451, nuk ndjej asgj\u0451, pavar\u0451sisht\nse ajo mund t\u0451 jet\u0451 m\u0451 e bukur se femrat me t\u0451 cilat punoj. Sa her\u0451 dalim s\u0451\nbashku, \u0451sht\u0451 e padiskutueshme q\u0451 do t\u0451 grindemi. Asaj i kujtohet q\u0451 nga\nkolegia ime e par\u0451, aty ku ndodhi dhe shk\u0451putja ime e par\u0451 nga jeta fmiljare e\nderi tani q\u0451 punoj me orar t\u0451 zgjatur dhe p\u0451rve\u00e7 k\u0451saj, rri gjithmon\u0451 me\ntelefon n\u0451 dor\u0451, \u201cp\u0451r arsye pune\u201d. Tani zgjidhja jon\u0451 \u00ebsht\u0451 vet\u0451m ndarja dhe\nasgj\u0451 tjet\u0451r. Nj\u0451 nd\u0451r gabimet e mia ishte se nuk ndihmova n\u0451 fillim gruan t\u0451\nrriste f\u0451mij\u0451t e t\u0451 kishim koh\u0451 p\u0451r \u00e7do gj\u0451, por u tregova egoist e mendova\nvet\u0451m p\u0451r vete.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Po jua them q\u0451 edhe sot e k\u0451saj dite, nuk\nkam arritur t\u0451 ndryshoj. Dua ta shijoj jet\u0451n vet\u0451m jasht\u0451 familjes sime. Kur\njam me t\u00eb, m\u0451 duket sikur mbytem e nuk marr dot frym\u0451. E keqja \u0451sht\u0451 se ende\njam n\u0451 form\u0451 dhe mund ta gjej dashurin\u0451 kurdo e kudo, prandaj edhe nuk mund t\u0451\nndryshoj. Besoj se vet\u0451m at\u0451here kur mos t\u0451 kem mund\u0451si ta gjej k\u0451t\u0451 dashuri\nmund t\u0451 kthehem te familja ime, por at\u0451her\u0451 do t\u00eb jet\u0451 shum\u0451 von\u0451.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Kjo histori q\u0451 po ju tregoj besoj do t`ju sh\u0451rbej\u0451 n\u0451 jet\u0451 t\u0451 gjith\u0451ve, n\u0451 m\u0451nyr\u0451 q\u0451 t\u0451 mos b\u0451ni gabimet q\u0451 b\u0451ra un\u0451. Edhe pse i kam kaluar t\u0451 dyzetat, jam akoma nj\u0451 burr\u0451 i paraqitsh\u0451m. Gabimi im i par\u0451 \u0451sht\u0451 q\u0451 u martova n\u0451 mosh\u0451 shum\u0451 t\u0451 vog\u0451l. Isha 23 vje\u00e7 kur u […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":20678,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[95],"tags":[245],"class_list":["post-21297","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-rrefime-mekatesh","tag-mekat"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21297","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=21297"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21297\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/20678"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=21297"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=21297"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=21297"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}