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P\u00ebrsh\u00ebndetje! Jam Amanda, nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb 19 vje\u00e7are nga qyteti i Tiran\u00ebs. N\u00eb koh\u00ebn e lir\u00eb e lexoj shpesh gazet\u00ebn tuaj dhe m\u00eb p\u00eblqejn\u00eb shum\u00eb rubrikat e saj, ve\u00e7an\u00ebrisht rubrika e historive nga jeta. Meqen\u00ebse gjithmon\u00eb i kam p\u00eblqyer historit\u00eb e publikuara, vendosa q\u00eb edhe un\u00eb, me sa mund\u00ebsi q\u00eb kam, t\u2019ju tregoj historin\u00eb time dhe do t\u00eb doja shum\u00eb t\u00eb merrja edhe disa k\u00ebshilla nga lexuesit e saj, por pse jo, edhe nga stafi i gazet\u00ebs. Si\u00e7 ju thash\u00eb edhe pak m\u00eb lart, un\u00eb jam 19 vje\u00e7e dhe k\u00ebt\u00eb vit filloj universitetin n\u00eb deg\u00ebn Mjek\u00ebsi. Jetoj n\u00eb nj\u00eb familje t\u00eb p\u00ebrb\u00ebr\u00eb nga prind\u00ebrit dhe dy motrat. Jemi nj\u00eb familje e thjesht\u00eb dhe e lumtur. Un\u00eb jam nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb q\u00eb m\u00eb p\u00eblqen shum\u00eb t\u00eb lexoj dhe t\u00eb m\u00ebsoj sa m\u00eb shum\u00eb gj\u00ebra t\u00eb reja. \u00cbndrr\u00ebn q\u00eb kisha e realizova sepse shkoll\u00ebn q\u00eb desha, e fitova, por edhe pse duket sikur \u00e7do gj\u00eb shkon vaj, gjithmon\u00eb ka di\u00e7ka q\u00eb mungon dhe mua m\u00eb mungon dashuria, dashuria e nj\u00eb mashkulli, nj\u00eb dashuri, nj\u00eb p\u00eblqim q\u00eb \u00e7do vajz\u00eb e b\u00ebn t\u00eb ndihet m\u00eb shum\u00eb fem\u00ebr. E ndjej veten shum\u00eb ndryshe nga \u00e7do moshatare e imja sepse asnj\u00ebher\u00eb nuk e kam ndjer\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb dashuri; kam pasur gjith\u00e7ka, por at\u00eb jo. Ulem n\u00eb kafe me shoq\u00ebrin\u00eb dhe nd\u00ebrkoh\u00eb q\u00eb ata flasin p\u00ebr t\u00eb dashurit apo ish-t\u00eb dashurit e tyre, un\u00eb thjesht d\u00ebgjoj, pa pasur mund\u00ebsin\u00eb q\u00eb dhe un\u00eb t\u00eb jap nj\u00eb mendim, t\u00eb tregoj nj\u00eb histori timen, por vet\u00ebm jap k\u00ebshilla n\u00eb aj\u00ebr, pa p\u00ebrjetuar vet\u00eb asgj\u00eb dhe tregoj shembuj t\u00eb ndrysh\u00ebm, pa e pasur un\u00eb vet\u00eb nj\u00eb t\u00eb till\u00eb.
\nGjithmon\u00eb jam kujdesur t\u00eb mos e shk\u00ebpus n\u00eb asnj\u00eb moment v\u00ebmendjen nga m\u00ebsimet, n\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb mos pendohesha m\u00eb von\u00eb se pse nuk m\u00ebsova. N\u00eb fakt, kjo ka ardhur edhe si pasoj\u00eb e edukat\u00ebs s\u00eb marr\u00eb n\u00eb familje sepse si\u00e7 ju thash\u00eb, familja ime \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb familje e thjesht\u00eb, pun\u00ebtore, pa nj\u00eb trash\u00ebgimi n\u00eb vlera monetare q\u00eb mund t\u00eb ma trash\u00ebgoj\u00eb mua dhe si rrjedhoj\u00eb, e vetmja m\u00ebnyr\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb qen\u00eb dikushi dhe p\u00ebr t\u00eb ecur p\u00ebrpara \u00ebsht\u00eb shkolla. Ndoqa me kujdes dhe v\u00ebmendje \u00e7do k\u00ebshill\u00eb t\u00eb prind\u00ebrve dhe n\u00eb fakt, \u00ebndrr\u00ebn e realizova me fitimin e deg\u00ebs s\u00eb Mjek\u00ebsis\u00eb, por problemi \u00ebsht\u00eb se pse un\u00eb nuk jam e lumtur. Ndjeva g\u00ebzim vet\u00ebm n\u00eb momntin q\u00eb mora p\u00ebrgjigjen dhe vet\u00ebm nj\u00eb jav\u00eb m\u00eb pas. Pastaj, \u00e7do gj\u00eb u venit duke m\u00eb ardhur keq p\u00ebr veten se pse nuk e kisha shijuar adoleshenc\u00ebn ashtu si\u00e7 duhej. Shpesh, vetja m\u00eb duket si qenie jo normale pasi un\u00eb, si askush nga shoqet e mia, nuk kam pasur asnj\u00eb lloj p\u00eblqimi ndaj nj\u00eb mashkulli, asnj\u00ebher\u00eb s\u2019e kam par\u00eb nj\u00eb mashkull si t\u00eb till\u00eb, por vet\u00ebm si shok. Kur ia them k\u00ebt\u00eb gj\u00eb shoqes sime t\u00eb ngusht\u00eb, ajo m\u00eb thot\u00eb q\u00eb nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb asgj\u00eb e mbinatyrshme dhe q\u00eb thjesht, un\u00eb i kam th\u00ebn\u00eb \u201cjo\u201d vetes kundrejt k\u00ebtyre gj\u00ebrave sepse kisha gj\u00ebra t\u00eb tjera m\u00eb t\u00eb r\u00ebnd\u00ebsishme se kaq, por un\u00eb p\u00ebrs\u00ebri nuk bindem dhe vazhdoj ta mendoj veten si jo normale. Po ju, si mendoni, \u00ebsht\u00eb e v\u00ebrtet\u00eb ajo q\u00eb m\u00eb thon\u00eb t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt apo \u00ebsht\u00eb e v\u00ebrtet\u00eb ajo q\u00eb un\u00eb mendoj p\u00ebr veten?!
\nPersonave q\u00eb m\u00eb rrethojn\u00eb u dukem shum\u00eb normale sepse mendojn\u00eb se nuk m\u00eb mungon asgj\u00eb dhe shpesh, kur m\u00eb pyesin se si po ia kaloj dhe un\u00eb u them: \u201cEh, mir\u00eb e shtyjm\u00eb, \u00e7\u2019t\u00eb b\u00ebjm\u00eb\u2026!\u201d ata, shum\u00eb t\u00eb habitur, ma kthejn\u00eb duke m\u00eb th\u00ebn\u00eb q\u00eb s\u2019duhet t\u00eb them ashtu pasi kam gjith\u00e7ka q\u00eb nj\u00eb fem\u00ebr k\u00ebrkon nga vetja; jam simpatike, inteligjente, e shoq\u00ebrueshme, me nj\u00eb karakter t\u00eb mir\u00eb dhe tip i p\u00ebrshtatsh\u00ebm me \u00e7do bised\u00eb dhe mosh\u00eb, por problemi q\u00ebndron n\u00eb faktin q\u00eb un\u00eb nuk e ndjej veten fem\u00ebr. E di shum\u00eb mir\u00eb q\u00eb nuk jam ndonj\u00eb e sh\u00ebmtuar apo tip i bezdissh\u00ebm, por s\u2019e di, s\u2019e di se \u00e7far\u00eb kam. Para ca koh\u00ebsh, n\u00ebp\u00ebrmjet nj\u00eb shoqeje, kam njohur nj\u00eb djal\u00eb nga qyteti i Durr\u00ebsit. Shk\u00ebmbyem numrat e telefonit dhe k\u00ebshtu, nis\u00ebm t\u00eb flisnim, por nd\u00ebrkoh\u00eb q\u00eb ai m\u00eb d\u00ebrgonte sms apo m\u00eb telefononte, un\u00eb e ndjeja si bezdi dhe i p\u00ebrgjigjesha shum\u00eb ftoht\u00eb, derisa p\u00ebr disa koh\u00eb ai nuk m\u00eb telefonoi m\u00eb dhe mua, si p\u00ebr \u00e7udi, nuk m\u00eb b\u00ebri aspak p\u00ebrshtypje, m\u00eb dukej sikur ai nuk kishte ekzistuar ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb. Si mund t\u00eb ndodhte kjo?! Ai nuk ishte ndonj\u00eb tip q\u00eb nuk t\u00eb b\u00ebnte p\u00ebr vete pasi kishte disa tipare q\u00eb \u00e7do fem\u00ebr, p\u00ebrfshir\u00eb edhe mua, do t\u2019i k\u00ebrkonte te nj\u00eb mashkull, por mua nuk m\u00eb b\u00ebri p\u00ebrshtypje. Pasi kaluan disa koh\u00eb, gjat\u00eb periudh\u00ebs s\u00eb ver\u00ebs, ai nisi s\u00ebrish t\u00eb m\u00eb d\u00ebrgonte sms, por mua p\u00ebrs\u00ebri nuk m\u00eb b\u00ebnte p\u00ebrshtypje derisa shoqja ime e ngusht\u00eb m\u00eb \u201cdetyroi\u201d q\u00eb t\u2019i kushtoja pak m\u00eb shum\u00eb v\u00ebmendje sepse mbase po humbja nj\u00eb rast mjaft t\u00eb mir\u00eb njohjeje dhe se ai duhet t\u00eb ndjente pak p\u00eblqim p\u00ebr mua pasi vazhdonte t\u00eb k\u00ebmb\u00ebngulte, edhe pse un\u00eb po sillesha shum\u00eb ftoht\u00eb me t\u00eb dhe kjo ishte mjaft e dukshme. M\u00eb n\u00eb fund, vendosa ta d\u00ebgjoja k\u00ebshill\u00ebn e shoqes sime e k\u00ebshtu fillova t\u00eb flisja pak m\u00eb gjat\u00eb me Indritin. Nisa ta njihja m\u00eb shum\u00eb dhe n\u00eb fakt kishte shum\u00eb cil\u00ebsi q\u00eb un\u00eb k\u00ebrkoj te nj\u00eb mashkull; ishte inteligjent, vazhdonte nj\u00eb shkoll\u00eb t\u00eb mir\u00eb, pun\u00ebtor dhe jo nj\u00eb djal\u00eb parazit shoq\u00ebrie, simpatik dhe shum\u00eb tip i qeshur. Duke i par\u00eb t\u00eb gjitha k\u00ebto cil\u00ebsi, edhe un\u00eb u binda q\u00eb tashm\u00eb kishte ardhur koha q\u00eb m\u00eb n\u00eb fund t\u2019i jepja vetes mund\u00ebsin\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb njohur nj\u00eb mashkull dhe, pse jo, edhe ta kisha pran\u00eb vetes m\u00eb shum\u00eb sesa si shok. Nisa t\u00eb tregohesha m\u00eb e dashur me t\u00eb, ama jo dhe aq shum\u00eb sepse ky \u00ebsht\u00eb tipi im. Shpesh i flisja me ironi dhe nuk lejoja n\u00eb asnj\u00eb moment q\u00eb ai t\u00eb dilte mbi mua apo q\u00eb atij t\u2019i dilte e tija. Llogarisja minutat qe ai vonohej t\u00eb m\u00eb kthente sms dhe un\u00eb i dyfishoja k\u00ebto minuta p\u00ebr t\u2019i kthyer sms tim e n\u00eb shum\u00eb raste mbase ajo sms nuk i kthehej m\u00eb, derisa ai t\u00eb kujtohej p\u00ebrs\u00ebri i pari. Asnj\u00ebher\u00eb nuk kujtohesha un\u00eb e para p\u00ebr t\u2019i d\u00ebrguar nj\u00eb sms, vet\u00ebm n\u00eb rastet kur m\u00eb detyronte shoqa ime. N\u00eb \u00e7do sms duhet t\u00eb kishte patjet\u00ebr ndonj\u00eb kunj, n\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb q\u00eb un\u00eb gjithmon\u00eb t\u00eb dilja m\u00eb e mir\u00eb se ai. N\u00eb \u00e7do moment i tregoja me t\u00eb gjitha m\u00ebnyrat e mundshme q\u00eb nuk m\u00eb interesonte fare dhe q\u00eb ai po vdiste p\u00ebr mua, jo un\u00eb. Motrat m\u00eb kritikonin gjithnj\u00eb dhe shoqja m\u00eb thoshte se duhet t\u2019i flisja pa dorashka, duhet t\u2019i tregoja n\u00eb shumic\u00ebn e rasteve ate q\u00eb n\u00eb t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb ndjeja sepse meshkujt e vler\u00ebsojn\u00eb shum\u00eb sinqeritetin. Un\u00eb, jo se nuk jam e sinqert\u00eb, por nuk e duroj dot faktin q\u00eb nj\u00eb mashkull mund t\u00eb mendoj\u00eb se un\u00eb e p\u00eblqej at\u00eb; m\u00eb duket sikur kam ulur veten. Dhe ju k\u00ebshtu mendoni, apo jo?! Si p\u00ebrfundim, Indriti u largua, u b\u00eb koh\u00eb q\u00eb nuk marr sms prej tij. A ishte faji im, apo thjesht ai nuk ishte b\u00ebr\u00eb p\u00ebr mua? Sjellja ime ishte e gabuar apo ashtu duhej t\u00eb veproja?! K\u00ebto jan\u00eb pyetjet q\u00eb m\u00eb mundojn\u00eb \u00e7do \u00e7ast e jo pse nisa t\u00eb ndjeja p\u00ebr Indritin, por problemi q\u00ebndron n\u00eb faktin q\u00eb a \u00ebsht\u00eb kjo sjellja e duhur q\u00eb un\u00eb duhet t\u00eb b\u00ebj kundrejt meshkujve apo duhet t\u00eb ndryshoj? Shoqja e ngusht\u00eb m\u00eb thot\u00eb q\u00eb nuk jam e p\u00ebrsosur dhe mbase kjo sjellje \u00ebsht\u00eb gabim, por q\u00eb un\u00eb as nuk duhet t\u00eb p\u00ebrpiqem t\u00eb ndryshoj karakterin tim sepse e para \u00ebsht\u00eb shum\u00eb e v\u00ebshtir\u00eb dhe e dyta, sepse njer\u00ebzit e sidomos nj\u00eb mashkull, duhet t\u00eb t\u00eb doj\u00eb p\u00ebr at\u00eb q\u00eb je dhe jo p\u00ebr at\u00eb q\u00eb ai do t\u00eb jesh se p\u00ebrndryshe ai nuk t\u00eb do ty, por dik\u00eb tjet\u00ebr. Ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb kjo q\u00eb thot\u00eb ajo m\u00eb bind dhe m\u00eb b\u00ebn ta dua karakterin tim k\u00ebshtu si\u00e7 \u00ebsht\u00eb, por shpesh e urrej veten dhe dua me \u00e7do kusht t\u00eb ndryshoj. N\u00eb qoft\u00eb se nuk ndryshoj, p\u00ebr mendimin tim, do ngel vet\u00ebm, askush nuk do m\u00eb doj\u00eb, t\u00eb gjith\u00eb do m\u00eb quajn\u00eb nj\u00eb tip ironik dhe shum\u00eb indiferent ndaj t\u00eb tjer\u00ebve, nd\u00ebrkoh\u00eb q\u00eb ata q\u00eb m\u00eb njohin m\u00eb quajn\u00eb qenien m\u00eb t\u00eb \u00ebmb\u00ebl n\u00eb bot\u00eb. T\u00eb gjith\u00eb do m\u00eb largohen p\u00ebr shkak t\u00eb karakterit tim, ama edhe n\u00eb qoft\u00eb se ia arrij t\u00eb ndryshoj, do t\u00eb thot\u00eb q\u00eb gjithmon\u00eb do jetoj me dyshimin n\u00ebse ata q\u00eb kam pran\u00eb m\u00eb duan mua apo at\u00eb q\u00eb un\u00eb nd\u00ebrtova p\u00ebr t\u00eb qen\u00eb m\u00eb e pranueshme prej tyre? Nuk e kam iden se \u00e7far\u00eb do b\u00ebj, po kaloj mbase n\u00eb nj\u00eb kriz\u00eb identiteti apo s\u2019e di \u00e7far\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb kjo, di vet\u00ebm q\u00eb ndihem shum\u00eb keq me veten dhe me gjith\u00e7ka q\u00eb m\u00eb rrethon. Zakonisht, ata q\u00eb shkruaj\u00ebn histori, n\u00eb fund japin nj\u00eb mesazh p\u00ebr lexuesit, por un\u00eb k\u00ebrkoj q\u00eb ju t\u00eb jepni nj\u00eb mesazh p\u00ebr mua nd\u00ebrmjet historive q\u00eb mund t\u00eb shkruani. Shum\u00eb faleminderit q\u00eb e lexuat historin\u00eb time. Uroj q\u00eb askush nga ju t\u00eb mos e kaloj\u00eb asnj\u00ebher\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb q\u00eb un\u00eb po kaloj\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
P\u00ebrsh\u00ebndetje! Jam Amanda, nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb 19 vje\u00e7are nga qyteti i Tiran\u00ebs. N\u00eb koh\u00ebn e lir\u00eb e lexoj shpesh gazet\u00ebn tuaj dhe m\u00eb p\u00eblqejn\u00eb shum\u00eb rubrikat e saj, ve\u00e7an\u00ebrisht rubrika e historive nga jeta. Meqen\u00ebse gjithmon\u00eb i kam p\u00eblqyer historit\u00eb e publikuara, vendosa q\u00eb edhe un\u00eb, me sa mund\u00ebsi q\u00eb kam, t\u2019ju tregoj historin\u00eb time dhe […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":21286,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[95],"tags":[245],"class_list":["post-21285","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-rrefime-mekatesh","tag-mekat"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21285","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=21285"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21285\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/21286"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=21285"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=21285"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=21285"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}