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Un\u0451 q\u0451 po shkruaj jam 30 vje\u00e7e. Kam qen\u0451 e martuar p\u0451r 5 vjet, por nuk kam\nf\u0451mij\u0451. Ish- burri im u martua menj\u00ebher\u0451 pasi u nda nga un\u00eb dhe tani po pret nj\u0451\nf\u0451mij\u0451. Un\u0451 k\u0451t\u0451 vit kam patur tre lidhje dhe nuk p\u0451rfundova me asnj\u0451rin. As\nvet\u0451 nuk e di pse nuk p\u0451rshtatem me njeri.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nga fillimi i vitit u njoha me nj\u0451 burr\u0451 n\u0451\nFacebook. Ai ishte 40 vje\u00e7, i divorcuar. N\u0451 Facebook kishim nj\u0451 mike t\u0451\np\u0451rbashk\u0451t dhe k\u0451shtu, un\u0451 e pranova k\u0451rkes\u0451n e tij t\u0451 miq\u0451sis\u0451. Pasi fol\u0451m p\u0451r\ndisa koh\u0451, ai m\u0451 ftoi t\u0451 pinim nj\u0451 kafe. U takuam. Ai ishte m\u0451 i pash\u0451m se n\u0451\nfotografi, ishte njeri i zgjuar dhe me humor. Na u b\u0451 zakon ta pinim kafen \u00e7do\npasdite pasi linim pun\u0451n t\u0451 dy. Na p\u0451rputheshin mendimet dhe arrit\u0451m n\u0451 p\u0451rfundimin\nse ishim b\u0451r\u0451 p\u0451r nj\u0451ri-tjetrin, por ai kishte nj\u0451 t\u0451 met\u0451; gjat\u0451 gjith\u0451 koh\u0451s\nfliste p\u0451r ish-gruan e tij dhe p\u0451r vajz\u0451n 3-vje\u00e7are, t\u0451 cil\u0451n e shihte nj\u0451 her\u0451\nn\u0451 jav\u0451. Mallin p\u0451r vajz\u0451n e kuptoja se natyrisht, nuk kishte si t\u0451 ndodhte\nndryshe. F\u0451mija \u0451sht\u0451 gj\u0451ja m\u0451 e shtrenjt\u0451 n\u0451 bot\u0451 dhe un\u00eb k\u0451t\u0451 e kuptoj, edhe\npse nuk kam vet\u0451 f\u0451mij\u0451, por gruan, pse nuk e hiqte nga goja? Vet\u0451m kjo ishte e\nkeqja e tij. N\u0451 fillim t\u0451 lidhjes, un\u00eb e duroja dhe me lezet e anashkaloja\nbised\u0451n duke nd\u0451rruar tem\u0451. K\u0451shtu, ai e harronte p\u0451r pak. N\u0451 fakt, dol\u0451m bashk\u0451\ndhe madje b\u0451m\u0451 udh\u0451time dy fundjava n\u0451 pika turistike dhe ishte di\u00e7ka mjaft\nd\u0451fryese. Ai ishte nj\u0451 mashkull me t\u00eb cilin shum\u0451 femra do ta kishin \u0451nd\u0451rr t\u0451\nishin lidhur. Kaluam bashk\u0451 tre muaj, por un\u0451 nuk e ndjeja veten plot\u0451sisht t\u0451\nk\u0451naqur. Tani, kur e kujtoj (nuk ndodh shpesh ta kujtoj at\u0451 lidhje), mendoj se\npo t\u0451 mos ndjehesha pak xheloze p\u0451r dashurin\u0451 q\u0451 kishte p\u0451r gruan e tij, kjo\nlidhje do t\u0451 kishte zgjatur shum\u0451. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Un\u00eb fillova ta largoja pak nga pak, duke mos i telefonuar shpesh e kur m\u0451\ntelefononte ai, gjeja lloj-lloj arsyesh q\u0451 t\u00eb mos e takoja. Ai e kuptoi dhe nj\u0451\ndit\u0451 erdhi t\u00eb m\u0451 priste te puna. Nuk u habita kur e pash\u0451 sepse gjith\u0451 dit\u0451n e\nkisha nj\u0451 parandjenj\u0451 se do vinte. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Si je? – m\u0451 pyeti duke mos ma l\u0451shuar dor\u0451n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Mir\u0451. – i thash\u0451 ftoht\u0451. – Po ti?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Un\u0451, mir\u0451 jam, por jam i shqet\u0451suar p\u0451r ty. M\u0451 duket sikur ke ndryshuar. Nuk\ne di \u00e7\u2019kam b\u0451r\u0451 q\u0451 nuk m\u0451 takon dhe m\u0451 shmangesh.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Nuk ke b\u0451r\u0451 asgj\u0451 t\u0451 keqe – i thash\u0451. – N\u0451 fakt,\nlidhja jon\u0451 i ka kaluar limitet dhe un\u0451, p\u00ebr momentin, nuk kam d\u0451shir\u0451 t\u0451\nlidhem seriozisht me njeri.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
K\u0451tu ia futa kot, vet\u0451m sa p\u0451r ta larguar se nuk dija \u00e7far\u0451 t\u2019i thoja\ntjet\u0451r dhe ai nuk hezitoi shum\u0451. Edhe kjo ishte nj\u0451 prov\u0451 e cila v\u0451rtetonte\ndashurin\u0451 e tij p\u0451r ish-gruan. Nejse, e kalova dhe k\u0451t\u0451. Nj\u0451 kolegu im e kishte\nv\u0451n\u0451 re se un\u00eb isha vet\u0451m dhe filloi t\u0451 flirtonte me mua. Un\u0451 isha e vetme dhe\ndetyrimisht, mezi prisja t\u0451 gjeja nj\u0451 krah ku t\u0451 mb\u0451shtesja kok\u0451n. Ky ishte tamam ai q\u0451\nmund t\u0451 ma ofronte k\u0451t\u0451 gj\u0451. Ishte njeri me edukat\u0451 dhe shum\u0451 i dashur me t\u0451\ngjitha femrat, por si duket, nuk ia kishin varur t\u0451 tjerat dhe arriti tek un\u0451.\nAi ishte i martuar dhe kishte dy f\u0451mij\u0451. Un\u00eb pranova t\u0451 pija kafe me t\u0451. Ai m\u0451\ntregoi q\u0451 kishte disa koh\u00eb q\u0451 nuk i kishte pun\u0451t mir\u0451 me gruan. E pyeta se pse\nnuk ndahej, por ai kishte problemin e njer\u0451zve dhe nuk donte ta b\u0451nte nj\u0451 gj\u0451\nt\u0451 till\u0451. M\u0451 mir\u0451 pranonte t\u0451 kishte nj\u0451 t\u0451 dashur p\u0451r t\u0451 kaluar koh\u0451n e p\u0451r t\u0451\nkryer nevojat t\u0451 cilat nuk ia plot\u0451sonte gruaja n\u0451 sht\u0451pi, sesa t\u0451 ndahej nga\ngruaja e ta shijonte jet\u0451n edhe ai, edhe ajo. Q\u0451 her\u00ebn e par\u00eb q\u00eb dola me t\u00eb, e\ndija se nuk do t\u0451 zgjaste shum\u0451. Ai ishte nj\u0451 burr\u0451 shum\u0451 i mir\u0451, por nuk ishte\ni duhuri p\u0451r mua. Ai donte t\u0451 mbushte boshll\u0451qet e tij me mua, por un\u0451 nuk isha\np\u0451r k\u0451t\u0451. Un\u0451 doja af\u0451r nj\u0451 njeri q\u0451 t\u0451 m\u0451 donte v\u0451rtet dhe t\u0451 krijoja nj\u0451\nlidhje serioze, q\u0451 t\u0451 zgjaste.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Por, p\u0451r momentin, ia\nvlente t\u0451 dilja me t\u0451 dhe k\u0451shtu b\u0451ra. Dol\u0451m shum\u0451 her\u0451 p\u0451r kafe dhe nj\u0451 dit\u0451,\npas shum\u0451 mundimesh, shkuam n\u0451 nj\u0451 vend m\u0451 intim, por e pash\u0451 q\u00eb nuk ia vlente.\nIshte shum\u0451 e v\u0451shtir\u0451 t\u0451 rrije me t\u0451, n\u0451 t\u0451 gjitha kuptimet. Nejse, edhe pse e\nkisha koleg, nuk e takova m\u0451. N\u0451 pun\u0451 e anashkaloja, u b\u0451ja bisht takimeve me t\u0451\ndhe ia b\u0451ra mir\u0451. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nd\u0451rsa i treti ishte \u201cprodhim\u201d\ni nj\u0451 seminari. Isha n\u0451 nj\u0451 seminar me ata t\u0451 pun\u0451s. N\u0451 pushimin e kafes, nj\u0451\ntrajnues m\u2019u afrua dhe m\u0451 pyeti n\u0451 m\u0451 p\u0451lqeu m\u0451nyra e tij e trajnimit. Edhe\nvete u habita q\u0451 m\u0451 zgjodhi mua p\u0451r k\u0451t\u0451 mendim, por nga shikimi i tij kuptova\nse kishte di\u00e7ka tjet\u0451r q\u0451 e shtynte t\u0451 fliste me mua. Pas trajnimit, u ul\u0451m\nbashk\u0451 n\u0451 nj\u0451 karrige, n\u0451 autobusin q\u0451 ishte duke na shoq\u0451ruar. Ishim jasht\u0451 Shqip\u0451ris\u0451, k\u0451shtu q\u0451 m\u0451 p\u0451lqeu mendimi i\ntij p\u0451r t\u2019u larguar nga grupi e t\u0451 sh\u0451tisnin bashk\u0451 n\u00ebp\u0451r qytet. Ai ishte njeri\nshum\u0451 i zgjuar dhe me edukat\u0451. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kalova nj\u0451 dit\u0451 t\u0451 mrekullueshme me t\u0451. Edhe ai, kur u ndam\u0451, m\u0451 tha se ia\nkishte kaluar shum\u0451 mir\u0451 me mua. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
T\u00eb nes\u0451rmen, pas trajnimit, sh\u0451tit\u0451m p\u00ebrs\u00ebri bashk\u0451. M\u0451suam shum\u0451 gj\u0451ra p\u0451r\nnj\u0451ri- tjetrin. Edhe ai kishte pak koh\u0451 i divorcuar dhe tashm\u0451, e kishte kaluar\nm\u0451 t\u0451 keqen. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Ndjehem sikur kam rilindur – m\u0451 tha ai. – Po\njetoja nj\u0451 jet\u0451 t\u0451 zymt\u0451 dhe plot me llafe. Ishte nj\u0451 katastrof\u0451 jeta me gruan\ntime! P\u0451rve\u00e7 bukuris\u0451 s\u0451 jashtme, ajo nuk kishte asgj\u0451 tjet\u0451r. Ma mori shpirtin\nme xhelozin\u0451 e saj. P\u0451r shkak t\u0451 saj, kam humbur shum\u0451 udh\u0451time pune jasht\u0451\nshtetit sepse nuk kishte besim. Nejse, tani \u00e7do gj\u0451 \u0451sht\u0451 e shkuar…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ja pra, ky ishte ai q\u0451 prisja! Po\nashtu si un\u0451, edhe ai e kishte harruar ish-in e tij, pra, na p\u0451rshtateshin t\u0451\ngjitha hallet. Me dy t\u0451 tjer\u0451t nuk ishte momenti i duhur dhe problemet e nj\u0451jta,\npor me k\u0451t\u0451, mendova se ndryshonte puna. Edhe kur u kthyem n\u0451 Shqip\u0451ri, i\nmbajt\u0451m lidhjet. \u00c7`t\u00eb them? Ishte nj\u0451 mrekulli. T\u0451 dy kishim koh\u0451 t\u0451 rrinim\nbashk\u0451 sepse as ai nuk kishte f\u0451mij\u0451 dhe ishim t\u0451 divorcuar. P\u0451rputheshim n\u0451 \u00e7do\ngj\u0451. Dol\u0451m bashk\u0451 e shkuam madje dhe dy her\u0451 t\u0451 tjera jasht\u0451 vendit. Kishim\ngjetur nj\u0451ri-tjetrin, por ja q\u0451 nuk ishte e shkruar. Ai kishte aplikuar p\u00ebr\npun\u00eb n\u0451 nj\u0451 firm\u0451 n\u0451 Majami dhe ata e kishin pranuar. Sigurisht q\u0451 do ta\npranonin, por p\u0451r mua nuk ishte nj\u0451 gj\u0451 e mir\u0451. Isha shum\u0451 mir\u0451 me t\u0451 dhe ai me\nmua. Gjith\u0451 ajo p\u0451rputhje e kishte nj\u0451 fund t\u0451 till\u0451. Ai nuk kishte d\u0451shir\u0451 t\u0451\nshkonte, por un\u0451 e nxita t\u0451 shkonte sepse e ardhmja e tij kishte shum\u0451 r\u0451nd\u0451si.\nN\u0451 fakt, zemra ime ishte shum\u0451 e pik\u0451lluar, por nuk duhet t\u0451 k\u0451mb\u0451ngulja q\u0451 t\u0451\nmos ikte. U ndam\u0451 n\u0451 aeroport. Un\u00eb isha shum\u0451 keq. Edhe ai ashtu ishte, madje\nm\u0451 thoshte se n\u0451se un\u0451 i thoja t\u0451 rrinte, do t\u0451 rrinte, edhe pse e kishte prer\u0451\nbilet\u0451n. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Jo, jo, ti duhet t\u0451 ik\u0451sh. \u2013 i thash\u0451. – do t\u0451\njem mir\u0451. Rri pa merak.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I mbaja syt\u0451 lart derisa avioni i tij u zhduk n\u0451\nhorizont. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Tani flasim gati \u00e7do nat\u0451. Ai u p\u0451rshtat menj\u0451her\u0451\nme pun\u0451n dhe \u0451sht\u0451 shum\u0451 mir\u0451, por mendja i rri tek un\u0451. Nganj\u0451her\u0451 un\u0451 besoj\nte dashurit\u0451 e m\u0451dha e nganj\u0451her\u0451 jo. E di se kjo dashuria jon\u0451 do t\u0451 venitet\nnga larg\u0451sia, por n\u0451 zemr\u0451n time ka l\u0451n\u0451 gjurm\u0451 t\u0451 m\u0451dha. Do t\u0451 duhet koh\u0451 e\ngjat\u0451 q\u0451 vendin e tij ta z\u0451r\u0451 nj\u0451 tjet\u0451r, n\u00ebse ne t\u0451 dy nuk arrijm\u0451 t\u0451 takohemi\nm\u0451, por t\u0451 pakt\u0451n ia vlen q\u0451 e provova se n\u0451 k\u0451t\u0451 bot\u0451 ekziston dhe dashuria e\nv\u0451rtet\u0451, s\u2019ka r\u0451nd\u0451si se sa zgjat. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
M\u0451sova se dashurit\u0451 e k\u0451saj forme u zgjat m\u0451 pak\nkoha e lumtur e jetuar n\u0451 \u00e7ift dhe zgjat pafund\u0451sisht vuajtja nga humbja e saj e\nkujtesa e p\u0451rditshme. Pa dyshim, kur humb di\u00e7ka t\u0451 bukur, m\u0451rzitesh m\u0451 shum\u0451. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Un\u0451 q\u0451 po shkruaj jam 30 vje\u00e7e. Kam qen\u0451 e martuar p\u0451r 5 vjet, por nuk kam f\u0451mij\u0451. Ish- burri im u martua menj\u00ebher\u0451 pasi u nda nga un\u00eb dhe tani po pret nj\u0451 f\u0451mij\u0451. Un\u0451 k\u0451t\u0451 vit kam patur tre lidhje dhe nuk p\u0451rfundova me asnj\u0451rin. As vet\u0451 nuk e di pse nuk p\u0451rshtatem […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":20772,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[94],"tags":[249,2270],"class_list":["post-21137","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-histori-nga-jeta","tag-histori","tag-lidhje"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21137","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=21137"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21137\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/20772"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=21137"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=21137"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=21137"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}