Gjithmon\u00eb kam\nd\u00ebshtuar n\u00eb historit\u00eb e dashuris\u00eb time, gjithmon\u00eb do t\u00eb ishte nj\u00eb fem\u00ebr n\u00eb mes\ndhe k\u00ebt\u00eb gj\u00eb e kam p\u00ebrjetuar shum\u00eb keq sa her\u00eb q\u00eb m\u00eb ndodhte. S\u2019e kuptoja asnj\u00ebher\u00eb\nsi p\u00ebrfundoja duke qar\u00eb e duke mallkuar dit\u00ebn q\u00eb kisha njohur nj\u00eb mashkull. Gjithnj\u00eb\ndashuroja me pasion, i jepesha e t\u00ebra atij q\u00eb doja. Dashuroja gjithnj\u00eb me\npasion, sepse gjith\u00e7ka e lidhja me seksin, pasi k\u00ebt\u00eb e shikoja si par\u00ebsore te\nnevojat e nj\u00eb mashkulli, megjithat\u00eb, p\u00ebrs\u00ebri p\u00ebrfundoja e ndar\u00eb. Kalova nj\u00eb\nperiudh\u00eb depresioni sidomos pa ndarjes s\u00eb fundit. Tashm\u00eb s\u2019kisha m\u00eb asnj\u00eb lloj shprese dhe \u00e7do mashkull e shikoja me\nfrik\u00eb. Kisha provuar t\u00eb b\u00ebhesha motra, n\u00ebna, v\u00ebllai, shoku, shoqja m\u00eb e mir\u00eb e\ngjith\u00eb partner\u00ebve, por p\u00ebrs\u00ebri p\u00ebrfundoja n\u00eb ndarje. Miqt\u00eb e mi m\u00eb t\u00eb ngusht\u00eb m\u00eb\nthonin gjithmon\u00eb q\u00eb akoma s\u2019kisha takuar t\u00eb duhurin, k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb nuk duhet t\u00eb\nshqet\u00ebsohesha kaq shum\u00eb. \u201cT\u00eb gjith\u00eb jan\u00eb n\u00eb k\u00ebrkim e t\u00eb duhurit n\u00eb jet\u00eb dhe po\nnuk provove, s\u2019ke p\u00ebr ta gjetur kurr\u00eb\u201d, m\u00eb thonin, por mua asgj\u00eb nuk m\u00eb b\u00ebnte m\u00eb\np\u00ebrshtypje dhe n\u00eb vend q\u00eb t\u00eb reflektoja p\u00ebr k\u00ebto q\u00eb po m\u00eb ndodhnin dhe ta k\u00ebrkoja\ngabimin brenda vetes, ia vija fajin fatit dhe burrave q\u00eb m\u00eb binin. Duke qen\u00eb se\njeta m\u00eb erdhi e till\u00eb, i vura synim vetes q\u00eb nuk do t\u00eb pyesja m\u00eb, por edhe un\u00eb\ndo t\u00eb flirtoja vet\u00ebm me ata meshkuj q\u00eb ishin \u00e7ift. Doja t\u00eb provoja ndjesi t\u00eb\nreja dhe n\u00eb nj\u00ebfar\u00eb m\u00ebnyre sikur po hakmerresha ndaj asaj q\u00eb m\u00eb kishte ndodhur\nmua gjithnj\u00eb. Nga ana profesionale isha shum\u00eb e kompletuar dhe n\u00eb aspektin e\npun\u00ebs kam pasur gjithnj\u00eb sukses. Kisha vendosur t\u00eb ndryshoja edhe vend pune dhe\naplikova n\u00eb administrat\u00eb. M\u00eb n\u00eb fund gjeta nj\u00eb pun\u00eb q\u00eb v\u00ebrtet m\u00eb p\u00eblqente shum\u00eb\ndhe kisha nj\u00eb pozicion p\u00ebr t\u2019u pasur zili. Doja patjet\u00ebr t\u00eb punoja me persona krejt\nt\u00eb panjohur p\u00ebr mua. S\u2019doja t\u00eb kisha asnj\u00eb kontakt me t\u00eb kaluar\u00ebn qofshin k\u00ebto edhe\nshoq\u00ebrore. E pranoj q\u00eb doja di\u00e7ka t\u00eb re n\u00eb \u00e7do drejtim. Nuk doja q\u00eb as shoq\u00ebria\nime t\u00eb m\u00eb shikonte si viktim\u00eb dhe as t\u00eb trajtohesha e till\u00eb, pasi shpeshher\u00eb e\nndjeja veten t\u00eb till\u00eb teksa shikoja v\u00ebshtrimet e tyre dhe ato \u00e7far\u00eb komentonin\npas d\u00ebshtimeve t\u00eb mia n\u00eb dashuri. Ndoshta ishin thjesht fantazi t\u00eb miat sepse n\u00eb\nt\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb ata ishin v\u00ebrtet shum\u00eb t\u00eb mir\u00eb, por si\u00e7 ju thash\u00eb, gjith\u00e7ka e\nshikoja bardh\u00eb e zi. Isha vet\u00ebm 30 vje\u00e7e dhe vendi ku punoja dukej q\u00eb plot\u00ebsonte\nat\u00eb \u00e7far\u00eb kisha \u00ebnd\u00ebrruar koh\u00ebt e fundit, n\u00eb lidhje me pun\u00ebn. Kishte goxha\npersonel dhe isha gjithnj\u00eb n\u00eb k\u00ebrkim t\u00eb ndonj\u00eb aventure t\u00eb re. P\u00ebrve\u00e7 lidhjeve\nt\u00eb dashuris\u00eb q\u00eb kisha pasur, kisha kaluar edhe disa aventura t\u00eb vogla me burra\nt\u00eb fejuar ose q\u00eb kan\u00eb qen\u00eb t\u00eb lidhur. E di q\u00eb mund t\u2019ju dukem vajz\u00eb e p\u00ebrdal\u00eb,\npor kjo ishte pasoj\u00eb e zhg\u00ebnjimeve q\u00eb kisha kaluar. Vet\u00ebm n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb sikur\ne kaloja at\u00eb urrejtjen dhe breng\u00ebn q\u00eb kisha brenda meje ndaj meshkujve dhe\nfemrave. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Si\u00e7 po ju\nthoja, kisha pozicion goxha t\u00eb mir\u00eb dhe mund t\u00eb renditesha te t\u00eb tret\u00ebt n\u00eb\nstafin drejtues. Kisha edhe dy shefa sip\u00ebr meje. Nj\u00ebri nga ata, e pranoj q\u00eb m\u00eb\nt\u00ebrhiqte shum\u00eb dhe b\u00ebja t\u00eb pamunduren q\u00eb t\u2019i bija n\u00eb sy. Quhej Toni dhe nuk\nishte t\u00ebrheq\u00ebs vet\u00ebm p\u00ebr mua, por p\u00ebr t\u00eb gjitha femrat aty, bile nj\u00eb dit\u00eb, nj\u00ebra\nnga koleg\u00ebt e mia, duke qen\u00eb se e kishte v\u00ebn\u00eb re q\u00eb e shikoja me nj\u00eb sy tjet\u00ebr\nTonin, mu afrua dhe m\u00eb tha: <\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Anisa ki kujdes,\nmos i nxirr kthetrat se \u00ebsht\u00eb i martuar shefi yn\u00eb! – dhe u largua duke qeshur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Por mua, pik\u00ebrisht\nkjo gj\u00eb m\u00eb t\u00ebrhiqte! E di q\u00eb do t\u00eb m\u00eb gjykoni si t\u00eb s\u00ebmur\u00eb, por m\u00eb p\u00eblqente\nsfida sidomos kur b\u00ebhej fjal\u00eb p\u00ebr marr\u00ebdh\u00ebnie t\u00eb tilla. Vishesha \u00e7do dit\u00eb e m\u00eb\nseksi dhe jo vet\u00ebm Toni, por t\u00eb gjith\u00eb meshkujt aty m\u00eb vardiseshin n\u00eb m\u00ebnyrat e\ntyre (dhe t\u00eb mendosh q\u00eb pothuajse t\u00eb gjith\u00eb ishin ose t\u00eb lidhur, ose t\u00eb martuar!).\nKjo m\u00eb b\u00ebnte t\u00eb ndihesha femra m\u00eb e lumtur n\u00eb bot\u00eb. I joshja me t\u00eb gjitha m\u00ebnyrat\ne mia, por mbi t\u00eb gjitha, ajo \u00e7far\u00eb i kisha v\u00ebn\u00eb synim vetes ishte t\u00eb fitoja\nTonin. Her\u00eb pas here vinte gruaja e tij aty dhe e ndjeja q\u00eb m\u00eb shikonte pak me\nurrejtje, se dikush edhe mund t\u2019i kishte fryr\u00eb n\u00eb vesh. Ishte simpatike dhe b\u00ebnte\nedhe skena para meje me burrin e saj, n\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00eb tregonte mua: \u201cShiko\nse ky \u00ebsht\u00eb i imi k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb ki kujdes!\u201d. Nj\u00eb dit\u00eb e pash\u00eb Tonin shum\u00eb t\u00eb\nirrituar n\u00eb telefon dhe aty p\u00ebrfitova nga rasti q\u00eb t\u2019i afrohesha m\u00eb shum\u00eb n\u00eb\nmuhabet. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
– M\u00eb fal n\u00ebse\nt\u00eb shqet\u00ebsoj Toni, por m\u00eb dukesh pak i m\u00ebrzitur. Ka ndonj\u00eb gj\u00eb q\u00eb mund t\u00eb t\u00eb ndihmoj?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Faleminderit\nAnisa, por jo, jam thjesht pak me dhimbje koke… – tha dhe vazhdoi t\u00eb punonte\nn\u00eb kompjuterin e tij, pa m\u00eb shikuar fare. M\u00eb dukej pak i v\u00ebshtir\u00eb p\u00ebr ta\nfituar, por kisha besim te vetja q\u00eb do t\u2019ia gjeja pikat e dob\u00ebta. N\u00eb fakt, sapo\nzbulova q\u00eb nuk ishte shum\u00eb i k\u00ebnaqur me t\u00eb shoqen; t\u00eb pakt\u00ebn k\u00ebt\u00eb kuptova nga\ntelefonata q\u00eb e kisha d\u00ebgjuar paksa. Nuk e zgjata shum\u00eb, por shkova mora nj\u00eb\nkafe p\u00ebr t\u00eb dhe nj\u00eb ila\u00e7 p\u00ebr kok\u00ebn. Iu afrova dhe ia vura n\u00eb tavolin\u00eb. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
– \u00c7far\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb\nkjo, Anisa?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– S\u2019e shikon?\nNj\u00eb kafe dhe ila\u00e7 p\u00ebr dhimbjen e kok\u00ebs, sepse ke nevoj\u00eb…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Po shiko se s\u2019kishe\npse ta b\u00ebje, mund t\u00eb dilja edhe vet\u00eb…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Toni, mos ma\ndiskuto, ok? Ne s\u2019jemi vet\u00ebm koleg\u00eb pune, por edhe miq, n\u00eb fund t\u00eb fundit, apo\njo? Jam e sigurt\u00eb q\u00eb edhe un\u00eb po t\u00eb t\u00eb thoja q\u00eb jam me dhimbje koke, do t\u00eb ma\nsillje nj\u00eb kafe… – i thash\u00eb duke qeshur. – \u00c7donj\u00ebri prej nesh ka nevoj\u00eb p\u00ebr\nndihm\u00eb n\u00eb momente t\u00eb caktuara. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Faleminderit\nAnisa, je shum\u00eb e sjellshme. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ai e mori kafen dhe m\u00eb ndoqi me shikim gjersa u largova te vendi im. Tavolinat tona ishin p\u00ebrball\u00eb, i ndante vet\u00ebm nj\u00eb vetrat\u00eb prej xhami. K\u00ebshtu, \u00e7do dit\u00eb e m\u00eb shum\u00eb un\u00eb i afrohesha Tonit. I kisha v\u00ebn\u00eb synim vetes ta ndaja nga e shoqja dhe t\u00eb martohesha un\u00eb me t\u00eb. K\u00ebsaj radhe nuk ia lejoja vetes t\u00eb d\u00ebshtoja, e d\u00ebshiroja me \u00e7do kusht k\u00ebt\u00eb burr\u00eb p\u00ebr veten time. Ai m\u00eb hapej p\u00ebr problemet me t\u00eb shoqen, e cila ishte shum\u00eb xheloze, e kontrollonte shum\u00eb dhe ankohej gjithnj\u00eb. P\u00ebr pasoj\u00eb, ata kishin filluar t\u00eb kishin probleme edhe n\u00eb krevat. Un\u00eb, sigurisht, i jepja k\u00ebshilla se si t\u00eb afrohej me t\u00eb shoqen, pra, b\u00ebja vajz\u00ebn e mir\u00eb, t\u00eb urt\u00eb, engj\u00ebllin, por q\u00ebllimi im ishte ta b\u00ebja p\u00ebr vete dhe kaq! Kaloi nj\u00eb vit dhe problemet e Tonit me familjen e tij ishin b\u00ebr\u00eb t\u00eb padurueshme. Si duket, afrimiteti im me Tonin i kishte dh\u00ebn\u00eb nj\u00eb goditje akoma m\u00eb t\u00eb madhe marr\u00ebdh\u00ebnies s\u00eb tij me gruan. M\u00eb vinte keq vet\u00ebm p\u00ebr vajz\u00ebn e tij sepse ishte 5 vje\u00e7e, por n\u00eb fund t\u00eb fundit, duhet t\u00eb mendoja vet\u00ebm p\u00ebr veten time. Pas shum\u00eb peripecish… <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Si duket,\nafrimiteti im me Tonin i kishte dh\u00ebn\u00eb nj\u00eb goditje akoma m\u00eb t\u00eb madhe marr\u00ebdh\u00ebnies\ns\u00eb tij me gruan. M\u00eb vinte keq vet\u00ebm p\u00ebr vajz\u00ebn e tij sepse ishte 5 vje\u00e7e, por n\u00eb\nfund t\u00eb fundit, duhet t\u00eb mendoja vet\u00ebm p\u00ebr veten time. Pas shum\u00eb peripecish, ne\np\u00ebrfunduam t\u00eb lidhur. Arrit\u00ebm deri aty sa ai i k\u00ebrkoi divorcin gruas s\u00eb tij,\nsepse do t\u00eb martohej me mua. N\u00eb at\u00eb koh\u00eb kalova nj\u00eb periudh\u00eb t\u00eb v\u00ebshtir\u00eb nga\nthashethemet e njer\u00ebzve dhe nga sulmet e gruas s\u00eb tij, por nga ana tjet\u00ebr\nndihesha fitimtare\u2019 kisha fituar Tonin dhe k\u00ebsaj here po martohesha v\u00ebrtet me\nat\u00eb q\u00eb doja. M\u00eb gjykuan ashp\u00ebr koleg\u00ebt e pun\u00ebs dhe shoq\u00ebria ime, kur e mori\nvesh, u larguan t\u00eb gjith\u00eb. T\u00eb gjith\u00eb m\u00eb thonin se ata kishin qen\u00eb nj\u00eb \u00e7ift shum\u00eb\ni lumtur derisa u shfaqa un\u00eb. N\u00eb at\u00eb koh\u00eb nuk e besoja, sepse Toni m\u00eb ankohej\ngjithnj\u00eb p\u00ebr gruan e tij, por kisha harruar q\u00eb t\u00eb gjith\u00eb burrat k\u00ebshtu b\u00ebjn\u00eb\nkur i josh nj\u00eb fem\u00ebr. E shohin \u00e7do gj\u00eb gabim te grat\u00eb e tyre qoft\u00eb edhe vog\u00eblsira\nq\u00eb mund t\u00eb rregullohen fare leht\u00eb. Gjithsesi, n\u00eb at\u00eb koh\u00eb, logjikoja fare\nndryshe nga sot. Toni u nda dhe u martua me mua. Blem\u00eb nj\u00eb sht\u00ebpi shum\u00eb t\u00eb\nbukur dhe jetonim t\u00eb lumtur. Ato q\u00eb na mundonin ishin vet\u00ebm shikimet e koleg\u00ebve\ntan\u00eb. Edhe ish-bashk\u00ebshortja e Tonit nuk la gj\u00eb pa th\u00ebn\u00eb p\u00ebr ne kudo q\u00eb shkonte,\npor un\u00eb b\u00ebja t\u00eb pamundur\u00ebn q\u00eb Toni t\u00eb mos e ndjente pesh\u00ebn e k\u00ebtij divorci. P\u00ebrve\u00e7se\npunoja gjith\u00eb dit\u00ebn, shkoja p\u00ebrpara n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi q\u00eb t\u00eb gatuaja dhe t\u00eb b\u00ebhesha\nseksi p\u00ebr net\u00ebt tona t\u00eb nxehta seksuale. \u00c7do dit\u00eb i dhuroja nj\u00eb emocion t\u00eb ri\nedhe at\u00ebher\u00eb kur nuk e ndjeja q\u00eb ta b\u00ebja nj\u00eb gj\u00eb t\u00eb till\u00eb. E b\u00ebja me \u00e7do kusht\nvet\u00ebm e vet\u00ebm q\u00eb ta shikoja Tonin t\u00eb lumtur dhe ai t\u00eb mos pendohej kurr\u00eb p\u00ebr\ndivorcin. E shikoja shpesh t\u00eb trishtuar, por e kapja menj\u00ebher\u00eb situat\u00ebn dhe b\u00ebja\nt\u00eb pamunduren q\u00eb t\u2019i ngrija humorin. Por nuk do t\u00eb vazhdonte shum\u00eb gjat\u00eb ky\nlloj p\u00ebrkushtimi nga ana ime sepse Toni po llastohej shum\u00eb nga un\u00eb, nd\u00ebrsa un\u00eb\nkisha filluar t\u00eb lodhesha me gjith\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb v\u00ebmendje q\u00eb i kushtoja atij. Ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb\nkisha nevoj\u00eb p\u00ebr shoq\u00ebrin\u00eb time, hap\u00ebsirat e mia, t\u00eb pushoja p\u00ebr qejfin tim dhe\ni lija pas dore ato \u00e7far\u00eb b\u00ebja p\u00ebr Tonin \u00e7do dit\u00eb. Ai kishte filluar t\u00eb ankohej\n\u00e7do dit\u00eb e m\u00eb shum\u00eb p\u00ebr mua, duke m\u00eb th\u00ebn\u00eb: \u201cti ke ndryshuar, nuk je m\u00eb ajo e\npara\u201d. E kuptova q\u00eb kisha b\u00ebr\u00eb shum\u00eb gabime, e kisha joshur Tonin duke dal\u00eb nga\nnatyra ime e v\u00ebrtet\u00eb, kisha b\u00ebr\u00eb shpesh rolin e burrit si n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi, ashtu edhe\nn\u00eb pun\u00eb, vet\u00ebm q\u00eb ai t\u00eb ishte rehat dhe i lumtur me mua. Isha shtirur shum\u00eb her\u00eb\nvet\u00ebm e vet\u00ebm q\u00eb ta b\u00ebja t\u00eb lumtur Tonin, por ja q\u00eb edhe kjo e ka nj\u00eb kufi;\nsado t\u00eb shtiresh, do vij\u00eb dita q\u00eb do jesh vetvetja nj\u00eb moment. Isha lodhur duke\nb\u00ebr\u00eb gruan perfekte. Ngela shtatz\u00ebn\u00eb dhe shtatzanin\u00eb e kisha me probleme.\nFilluan problemet serioze edhe n\u00eb lidhje me Tonin. Ai ishte nj\u00eb egoist i tmerrsh\u00ebm\ndhe gjithnj\u00eb k\u00ebrkonte nga un\u00eb. Arriti deri aty sa m\u00eb tha se ishte penduar q\u00eb\nishte ndar\u00eb nga gruaja e tij e par\u00eb dhe se i mungonte vajza e tij, nd\u00ebrkoh\u00eb q\u00eb\nun\u00eb asnj\u00ebher\u00eb s\u2019e kisha penguar ta takohte t\u00eb shoqen. As n\u00eb krevat nuk shkonim\nm\u00eb mir\u00eb. Kalonin jav\u00eb t\u00eb t\u00ebra dhe s\u2019b\u00ebnim marr\u00ebdh\u00ebnie seksuale. Gjith\u00eb pasioni\nq\u00eb kisha ndezur un\u00eb n\u00eb fillim, tashm\u00eb ishte shuar. Ai kishte filluar t\u00eb vinte\nvon\u00eb nga puna, dilte m\u00eb shum\u00eb me shoq\u00ebrin\u00eb e tij dhe komunikimi yn\u00eb po shkonte\ndrejt fundit. Nj\u00eb dit\u00eb prej dit\u00ebsh ndjeva nevoj\u00ebn t\u00eb takoja shoq\u00ebrin\u00eb time t\u00eb\nvjet\u00ebr. Megjith\u00ebse kishin t\u00eb drejt\u00eb t\u00eb mos m\u00eb pranonin mes tyre, ata u treguan\nshum\u00eb mikprit\u00ebs. Ajo ishte nj\u00eb nga dit\u00ebt e mia m\u00eb t\u00eb bukura gjat\u00eb gjith\u00eb asaj\nkohe. At\u00ebhere e kuptova se \u00e7far\u00eb kisha b\u00ebr\u00eb n\u00eb t\u00eb kaluar\u00ebn time dhe gabimin m\u00eb\nt\u00eb r\u00ebnd\u00eb; martes\u00ebn me Tonin. Kuptova sa e vetmuar kisha qen\u00eb dhe isha. Grindjet\nme Tonin sa vinin e shtoheshin dhe aty kuptova se, p\u00ebrve\u00e7 atyre q\u00eb kishim\ndiskutuar disa her\u00eb, mund t\u00eb ishte n\u00eb mes nj\u00eb fem\u00ebr tjet\u00ebr. K\u00ebt\u00eb e kuptova sepse\nai po sillej me mua si\u00e7 sillej dikur me ish-gruan e tij. Kuptova q\u00eb ai hapej p\u00ebr\nproblemet e tij me ndonj\u00eb shoqe t\u00eb re. Dhe n\u00eb fakt, e v\u00ebrteta doli n\u00eb shesh. Un\u00eb\nisha n\u00eb muajin e n\u00ebnt\u00eb t\u00eb shtatzanis\u00eb dhe dit\u00ebt e lindjes po afronin, por Tonin\ne ndjeja gjithnj\u00eb e m\u00eb larg meje. N\u00eb vend q\u00eb t\u00eb ishte i g\u00ebzuar q\u00eb po b\u00ebheshim\nme djal\u00eb, ai ishte shum\u00eb i nervozuar dhe vraponte te vajza q\u00eb kishte me ish-gruan\ne tij. Linda djalin dhe isha n\u00ebna m\u00eb e lumtur n\u00eb bot\u00eb, nd\u00ebrsa Toni m\u00eb shikonte\nsi i trembur. Kuptova q\u00eb gjith\u00e7ka kishte marr\u00eb fund. Sado q\u00eb vazhdonim t\u00eb\njetonim n\u00eb nj\u00eb sht\u00ebpi, ai nuk ishte me mua asgj\u00ebkundi. Nj\u00eb dit\u00eb i thash\u00eb se\nduhet t\u00eb flisnim. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Toni, un\u00eb e\ndi q\u00eb ti ke nj\u00eb tjet\u00ebr. Je i lir\u00eb t\u00eb vazhdosh jet\u00ebn t\u00ebnde n\u00ebse ke d\u00ebshir\u00eb! – i\nthash\u00eb. Ai shqeu syt\u00eb nga habia dhe heshti p\u00ebr nj\u00eb cop\u00eb her\u00eb. Pastaj m\u2019u\ndrejtua.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– M\u00eb fal Anisa\nq\u00eb po ta them, por un\u00eb nuk t\u00eb dashuroj m\u00eb. Do t\u00eb kthehem tek ish-gruaja ime. U\nb\u00ebn\u00eb muaj q\u00eb dal me t\u00eb dhe me vajz\u00ebn time. E dua djalin ton\u00eb, por ty nuk t\u00eb\ndashuroj m\u00eb. Erisen e kam dashur gjithnj\u00eb, por nuk e di \u00e7far\u00eb ndodhi n\u00eb at\u00eb\nperiudh\u00eb q\u00eb u njoha me ty. Dua t\u00eb kthehem me at\u00eb, nuk mund t\u00eb jetoj m\u00eb me ty. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
N\u00eb fakt, e\nkisha menduar q\u00eb ishte nj\u00eb fem\u00ebr n\u00eb mes, por q\u00eb t\u00eb ishte ish-gruaja e tij, s\u2019e kisha\nmenduar kurr\u00eb. Megjithat\u00eb, pasi heshta nj\u00eb cop\u00eb her\u00eb, i thash\u00eb:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Je i lir\u00eb t\u00eb\nshkosh, por t\u00eb lutem largohu q\u00eb nga ky moment. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ai p\u00ebrs\u00ebri m\u00eb\npa me habi dhe kjo nga sjellja ime shum\u00eb e qet\u00eb dhe e vendosur n\u00eb at\u00eb q\u00eb po i\nthoja. Nuk kishte si t\u00eb ndodhte ndryshe. Zoti m\u00eb nd\u00ebshkoi n\u00eb po at\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb q\u00eb\nkisha zgjedhur un\u00eb dikur p\u00ebr t\u00eb nd\u00ebshkuar nj\u00eb familje. K\u00ebto ishin pasojat e\ngabimeve t\u00eb mia t\u00eb kaluara. Un\u00eb nd\u00ebrhyra mes nj\u00eb \u00e7ifti, arrita t\u2018i ndaja dhe ia\nmora burrin tjetr\u00ebs, nd\u00ebrsa tani p\u00ebrs\u00ebritej historia, por tashm\u00eb mbi kurrizin\ntim. Do ishte nj\u00eb fem\u00ebr s\u00ebrish q\u00eb do t\u00eb m\u00eb ndante mua, por k\u00ebt\u00eb radh\u00eb isha e\nmartuar dhe me nj\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00eb. Pra, historia p\u00ebrs\u00ebritej, por k\u00ebsaj radhe isha e\nbindur q\u00eb e meritoja k\u00ebt\u00eb nd\u00ebshkim, sado q\u00eb e p\u00ebrjetova p\u00ebrs\u00ebri shum\u00eb r\u00ebnd\u00eb. Nga\nana tjet\u00ebr kuptova se sa r\u00ebnd\u00eb kisha gabuar dhe q\u00eb nuk i duhet b\u00ebr\u00eb askujt ajo \u00e7far\u00eb\nnuk do t\u00eb doje t\u00eb ta b\u00ebnin ty. Tashm\u00eb e dija ku q\u00ebndronin gabimet e mia dhe \u00e7far\u00eb\nduhet t\u00eb b\u00ebja n\u00eb t\u00eb ardhmen. Ajo \u00e7far\u00eb m\u00eb ngush\u00ebllonte ishte se un\u00eb isha nj\u00eb\ngrua e p\u00ebrgatitur nga ana profesionale dhe nuk isha keq nga ana ekonomike t\u00eb\nrrisja djalin tim. Tani jetoj vet\u00ebm me djalin tim dhe nuk ndihem aspak fatkeqe.\n\u00c7far\u00ebdo q\u00eb m\u00eb ka ndodhur, ka qen\u00eb nj\u00eb m\u00ebsim shum\u00eb i mir\u00eb p\u00ebr mua. V\u00ebrtet b\u00ebra\nnj\u00eb m\u00ebkat, ama e pagova sepse d\u00ebshtoi martesa ime dhe humba nj\u00eb shoq\u00ebri goxha t\u00eb\nmir\u00eb. Kam filluar t\u00eb takohem me ish-miqt\u00eb e mi t\u00eb fakultetit dhe ata q\u00eb m\u00eb kan\u00eb\nqen\u00eb pran\u00eb n\u00eb t\u00eb mir\u00eb e n\u00eb t\u00eb keq. E them me vete gjithnj\u00eb, \u201cs\u2019ka si shoq\u00ebria\u201d\ndhe ndihem e lumtur p\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb. Nj\u00eb dit\u00eb do t\u00eb gjej njeriun e duhur me t\u00eb cilin\ndo t\u00eb kaloj gjith\u00eb jet\u00ebn time, p\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb jam e sigurt\u00eb. Tashm\u00eb s\u2019jam vet\u00ebm, jam\nme vog\u00eblushin tim i cili m\u00eb mbush shpirt\u00ebrisht. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Gjithmon\u00eb kam d\u00ebshtuar n\u00eb historit\u00eb e dashuris\u00eb time, gjithmon\u00eb do t\u00eb ishte nj\u00eb fem\u00ebr n\u00eb mes dhe k\u00ebt\u00eb gj\u00eb e kam p\u00ebrjetuar shum\u00eb keq sa her\u00eb q\u00eb m\u00eb ndodhte. S\u2019e kuptoja asnj\u00ebher\u00eb si p\u00ebrfundoja duke qar\u00eb e duke mallkuar dit\u00ebn q\u00eb kisha njohur nj\u00eb mashkull. Gjithnj\u00eb dashuroja me pasion, i jepesha e t\u00ebra atij q\u00eb […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":21119,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[94],"tags":[249],"class_list":["post-21118","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-histori-nga-jeta","tag-histori"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21118","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=21118"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21118\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/21119"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=21118"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=21118"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=21118"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}