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P\u00ebrsh\u00ebndetje. Jam Elda nga Librazhdi, 26 vje\u00e7e dhe jetoj me prind\u00ebrit e mi k\u00ebtu n\u00eb Tiran\u00eb, prej 14 vjet\u00ebsh. Kam nj\u00eb familje shum\u00eb t\u00eb rregullt; nj\u00eb v\u00eblla m\u00eb t\u00eb vog\u00ebl dhe nj\u00eb mot\u00ebr m\u00eb t\u00eb madhe, t\u00eb martuar. Un\u00eb kam nj\u00eb karakter shum\u00eb t\u00eb fort\u00eb dhe t\u00eb q\u00ebndruesh\u00ebm e nuk nd\u00ebrroj kollaj mendim. Edhe pse mund t\u00eb jen\u00eb shum\u00eb faktor\u00eb q\u00eb mund t\u00eb m\u00eb shtyjn\u00eb t\u00eb veproj kund\u00ebr ides\u00eb time, un\u00eb p\u00ebrs\u00ebri nuk tundem nga e imja. K\u00ebshtu, un\u00eb kam mbaruar fakultetin n\u00eb deg\u00ebn e Gazetaris\u00eb dhe punoj prej dy vjet\u00ebsh n\u00eb nj\u00eb radio t\u00eb k\u00ebndshme k\u00ebtu n\u00eb Tiran\u00eb. Kisha nj\u00eb lidhje shum\u00eb t\u00eb gjat\u00eb prej 5 vjet\u00ebsh me nj\u00eb djal\u00eb nga Shkodra dhe, edhe pse duheshim shum\u00eb, kishim shum\u00eb arsye q\u00eb na pengonin nw arritjen e kuror\u00ebzimit tw dashuris\u00eb ton\u00eb. Un\u00eb kam kaluar pothuaj t\u00eb gjith\u00eb rinin\u00eb me t\u00eb dhe kurr\u00eb n\u00eb jet\u00ebn time ose m\u00eb sakt\u00eb, n\u00eb lidhjen time, nuk ka patur rast q\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00eb shkoj\u00eb n\u00ebp\u00ebr mend ta tradhtoj. E di q\u00eb ju do thoni q\u00eb ku e di ti a m\u00eb ka tradhtuar ai, edhe mund t\u00eb m\u00eb ket\u00eb tradhtuar, por p\u00ebrderisa un\u00eb nuk e kam par\u00eb me syt\u00eb e mi, nuk mund ta akuzoj p\u00ebr\u00a0 asgj\u00eb. Un\u00eb si natyr\u00eb jam shum\u00eb e hedhur dhe m\u00eb p\u00eblqen t\u00eb dal. N\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb drejtim, me t\u00eb dashurin jam shum\u00eb n\u00eb rregull sepse ai nuk m\u00eb ka ndaluar asnj\u00ebher\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb dal me shoq\u00ebrin\u00eb, aq m\u00eb tep\u00ebr q\u00eb un\u00eb kam vet\u00ebm nj\u00eb shoqe t\u00eb ngusht\u00eb dhe kudo ku dal apo shkoj, shkoj me at\u00eb. Tw them t\u00eb drejt\u00ebn, edhe pse kemi patur hat\u00ebrmbetje me shoqen, nuk jemi z\u00ebn\u00eb asnj\u00ebher\u00eb dhe, p\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb arsye, i jam mir\u00ebnjoh\u00ebse asaj sepse ajo nga natyra n\u00eb shoq\u00ebri \u00ebsht\u00eb m\u00eb tolerante se un\u00eb dhe nuk ma prish p\u00ebr asgj\u00eb. Ne dalim shum\u00eb fundjavave dhe n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi nuk na ndalojn\u00eb e as nuk na b\u00ebjn\u00eb fjal\u00eb sepse e din\u00eb q\u00eb ne nuk dalim kurr\u00eb nga vetja dhe nuk b\u00ebj\u00ebm\u00eb asnj\u00ebher\u00eb gj\u00ebra q\u00eb jan\u00eb jasht\u00eb normave shoq\u00ebrore dhe q\u00eb n\u00eb nj\u00ebfar\u00eb m\u00ebnyre, c\u00ebnojn\u00eb personalitetin ton\u00eb. N\u00eb fakt, k\u00ebtu n\u00eb Shqip\u00ebri ekziston ende ajo ideja q\u00eb po dole nat\u00ebn je vajz\u00eb e keqe dhe ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb kan\u00eb edhe t\u00eb drejt\u00eb sepse do s\u2019do, jeta e nat\u00ebs \u00ebsht\u00eb pak e rrezikshme dhe surprizat e nat\u00ebs nuk mund t\u2019i parashikosh asnjeher\u00eb. K\u00ebshtu, me k\u00ebt\u00eb shoqen time dalim shpesh n\u00ebp\u00ebr pabe, sepse k\u00ebto jan\u00eb preferencat tona edhe pse ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb do tw m\u00eb p\u00eblqente t\u00eb nd\u00ebrronim ambient. Kisha iden\u00eb dhe vazhdoj ta kem se kur fillon tw shkosh shpesh n\u00eb t\u00eb nj\u00ebjtin vend dhe aq m\u00eb tep\u00ebr, dy vajza si puna jon\u00eb (jo p\u00ebr mburrje, por q\u00eb t\u00eb dyja jemi vajza q\u00eb biem shum\u00eb n\u00eb sy dhe q\u00eb pretendent\u00ebt jan\u00eb shum\u00eb) kjo wshtw e rrezikshme, por si\u00e7 ju thash\u00eb, un\u00eb jam shum\u00eb e q\u00ebndrueshme n\u00eb fjal\u00ebn time dhe aq m\u00eb tep\u00ebr kisha shum\u00eb besim te lidhja ime dhe nuk doja ta humbisja p\u00ebr asgj\u00eb. Kaluan disa koh\u00eb dhe aty te pabi ku shkonim ne vinin gjithmon\u00eb, t\u00eb pashoq\u00ebruar, kat\u00ebr djem t\u00eb cil\u00ebt p\u00ebr nga paraqitja fizike nuk kishin t\u00eb shar\u00eb dhe q\u00eb binin shum\u00eb n\u00eb sy, vetem se m\u00eb b\u00ebnte p\u00ebrshtypje si mua dhe shoqes time; si kishte mund\u00ebsi q\u00eb ata t\u00eb vinin t\u00eb pashoq\u00ebruar? Nj\u00ebri nga k\u00ebta djem na ofroi p\u00ebr t\u00eb pir\u00eb dhe shoqja ime q\u00eb e kishte shume shum\u00eb qejf nj\u00ebrin nga ata e pranoi pijen, edhe pse ishte nj\u00eb p\u00ebrjashtim sepse neve na kan\u00eb ardhur \u00a0shum\u00eb djem t\u00eb cil\u00ebt kan\u00eb dashur t\u00eb na ofrojn\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb pir\u00eb dhe m\u00eb pas, normalisht, t\u00eb hyjn\u00eb edhe n\u00eb muhabet, por as un\u00eb, as shoqja ime, nuk mund ta pranim k\u00ebt\u00eb. Un\u00eb, p\u00ebr arsyet e mia private dhe ajo sepse ka nj\u00eb karakter p\u00ebr t\u2019u admiruar, u buz\u00ebqesh t\u00eb gjith\u00ebve, nuk prish muhabet me njeri dhe askush nuk e ka inat. P\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb djalin un\u00eb i kisha th\u00ebn\u00eb edhe her\u00eb t\u00eb tjera se ai po e shihte dhe q\u00eb me sa duket e kishte shum\u00eb qejf dhe kur pash\u00eb q\u00eb edhe ajo e kishte qejf at\u00eb, mw erdhi keq dhe nuk doja t\u00eb isha un\u00eb shkaktarja q\u00eb ajo t\u00eb mos dilte apo t\u00eb mos kwnaqej sepse nuk kishte pse ajo te sakrifikonte prej meje, ajo kishte jet\u00ebn e saj dhe kishte edhe t\u00eb drejt\u00ebn q\u00eb t\u00eb kwnaqej ashtu si\u00e7 k\u00ebnqesha un\u00eb kur dilja me t\u00eb dashurin tim dhe ajo rrinte n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi, sepse normalisht, ajo nuk mund t\u00eb dilte me ne sa her\u00eb q\u00eb dilnim. K\u00ebshtu, e pash\u00eb q\u00eb edhe asaj i p\u00eblqente dhe\u00a0 i thash\u00eb q\u00eb n\u00ebse kishte qejf, ajo mund t\u2019i ftonte n\u00eb tavolin\u00ebn ton\u00eb. Ajo m\u00eb pa m\u00eb nj\u00eb g\u00ebzim shum\u00eb t\u00eb madh n\u00eb fytyr\u00eb dhe m\u00eb p\u00ebrqafoi. Un\u00eb, q\u00eb nuk kisha b\u00ebr\u00eb kurr\u00eb gj\u00ebra t\u00eb tilla, i k\u00ebrkova…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
P\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb djalin un\u00eb i kisha th\u00ebn\u00eb edhe her\u00eb t\u00eb tjera se ai po e shihte dhe\nq\u00eb me sa duket e kishte shum\u00eb qejf dhe kur pash\u00eb q\u00eb edhe ajo e kishte qejf at\u00eb,\nm\u00eb erdhi keq dhe nuk doja t\u00eb isha un\u00eb shkaktarja q\u00eb ajo t\u00eb mos dilte apo t\u00eb mos\nk\u00ebnaqej sepse nuk kishte pse ajo te sakrifikonte prej meje. Ajo kishte jet\u00ebn e\nsaj dhe kishte edhe t\u00eb drejt\u00ebn q\u00eb t\u00eb k\u00ebnaqej ashtu si\u00e7 k\u00ebnqesha un\u00eb kur dilja\nme t\u00eb dashurin tim dhe ajo rrinte n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi, sepse normalisht, ajo nuk mund t\u00eb\ndilte me ne gjithmon\u00eb. K\u00ebshtu, e pash\u00eb q\u00eb edhe asaj i p\u00eblqente dhe i thash\u00eb q\u00eb n\u00ebse kishte qejf, ajo mund t\u2019i\nftonte n\u00eb tavolin\u00ebn ton\u00eb. Ajo m\u00eb pa me nj\u00eb g\u00ebzim shum\u00eb t\u00eb madh n\u00eb fytyr\u00eb dhe m\u00eb\np\u00ebrqafoi. Un\u00eb, q\u00eb nuk kisha b\u00ebr\u00eb kurr\u00eb gj\u00ebra t\u00eb tilla, i k\u00ebrkova kamarierit q\u00eb\nt\u2019i \u00e7onte nj\u00eb let\u00ebr atij djalit me numrin e telefonit t\u00eb shoqes time dhe ai\nveproi ashtu si\u00e7 i thash\u00eb un\u00eb e ia \u00e7oi atij. Nuk kaluan disa minuta kur shoqes\ntime i erdhi nj\u00eb sms n\u00eb telefon ku shkruhej se ishim shum\u00eb t\u00eb mira q\u00eb i dham\u00eb\nnumrin e telefonit dhe se po t\u00eb mos e kishim bezdi, ata kishin qejf t\u00eb uleshin\nme ne n\u00eb tavolin\u00eb, por pas disa minutash sepse dy nga ata q\u00eb ishin n\u00eb tavolin\u00eb\ndo largoheshin. Shoqes time po i shk\u00eblqenin syt\u00eb nga g\u00ebzimi dhe m\u00eb tha q\u00eb do\nkishim b\u00ebr\u00eb gabim sikur t\u2019i ftonim ne t\u00eb parat sepse ata e k\u00ebrkuan vet\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb\ngj\u00eb. Nuk kaluan as 20 minuta dhe dy nga djemt\u00eb u larguan dhe k\u00ebta t\u00eb dy q\u00eb\nngel\u00ebn, ashtu si\u00e7 shkruhej n\u00eb mesazh, erdh\u00ebn e u ul\u00ebn n\u00eb tavolin\u00eb me ne. Pasi u\nprezantuan me ne, me emra qe m\u00eb von\u00eb dol\u00ebn q\u00eb nuk ishin as emrat e tyre dhe\npasi mor\u00ebm di\u00e7ka p\u00ebr t\u00eb pir\u00eb s\u00eb bashku, menduam t\u00eb shkonim t\u00eb pinim nj\u00eb kafe\ndiku m\u00eb qet\u00eb sepse aty ishte v\u00ebrtet muzika shum\u00eb e lart\u00eb dhe p\u00ebr dy njer\u00ebz q\u00eb\nsapo njihen nuk ishte vendi ideal p\u00ebr t\u00eb biseduar dhe p\u00ebr t\u2019u njohur m\u00eb mir\u00eb.\nK\u00ebshtu, ik\u00ebm p\u00ebr t\u00eb pir\u00eb nj\u00eb kafe n\u00eb nj\u00eb bar-kafe q\u00eb q\u00ebndronte hapur gjith\u00eb\nnat\u00ebn dhe filluam t\u00eb bisedonim qet\u00eb e shtruar. Un\u00eb u tregova q\u00eb isha nga\nLibrazhdi dhe q\u00eb kisha nj\u00eb t\u00eb dashur, lidhja me t\u00eb cilin kishte 5 vjet q\u00eb\nkishte nisur. Kur po thoja k\u00ebt\u00eb, pash\u00eb q\u00eb djali tjet\u00ebr (Ergi quhej, nd\u00ebrsa ky\nq\u00eb p\u00eblqente shoqen time, quhej Stivi) sikur u ngrys pak dhe u duk q\u00eb ngeli keq.\nUn\u00eb, me t\u00eb qeshur, i thash\u00eb: \u201c\u00c7far\u00eb \npate, u b\u00ebre xheloz?\u201d. Ai u kthye nga un\u00eb dhe tha: \u201cJo, po nuk e prisja.\nNgaq\u00eb ju kemi par\u00eb gjithmon\u00eb, bashk\u00eb mendova se nuk do t\u00eb ishe e lidhur\u201d. \u201cUn\u00eb\nnuk t\u00eb g\u00ebnjej dot, i thash\u00eb, as ty, ask\u00ebnd, sepse k\u00ebshtu g\u00ebnjej veten time. Nuk\nmund ta mohoj lidhjen time ashtu si\u00e7 nuk mund ta mohosh ti t\u00ebnden, apo jo?\u201d.\n\u201cUn\u00eb nuk jam i lidhur. Po t\u00eb isha, nuk do t\u00eb vija k\u00ebtu vet\u00ebm, do vija i\nshoq\u00ebruar\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Un\u00eb nuk e zgjata m\u00eb shum\u00eb sepse e kuptova q\u00eb ai donte di\u00e7ka prej meje, por\nia b\u00ebra me shenj\u00eb shoqes time q\u00eb t\u00eb shkonim pak n\u00eb banjo. Shkuam dhe i thash\u00eb\nq\u00eb un\u00eb nuk do t\u00eb b\u00ebja gabime sepse ajo e dinte pozit\u00ebn time dhe nuk doja q\u00eb t\u00eb\ngaboja. Ajo m\u00eb tha q\u00eb nuk ishte nevoja t\u00eb gaboja, por se edhe un\u00eb kisha nevoj\u00eb t\u00eb\nnd\u00ebrroja muhabet m\u00eb dik\u00eb. Nuk doja t\u2019ia prishja asaj, por edhe ai djali m\u00eb\np\u00eblqente (them k\u00ebshtu sepse nuk dua t\u00eb tregohem hipokrite dhe t\u00eb dal si vajz\u00eb e\nmir\u00eb q\u00eb nuk b\u00ebj kurr\u00eb gabime dhe sikur jam e ndershmja e dynjas\u00eb). Ai ishte\nshum\u00eb simpatik dhe m\u00eb p\u00eblqeu edhe m\u00ebnyra e komunikimit. Ato dit\u00eb un\u00eb kisha b\u00ebr\u00eb\nedhe ca fjal\u00eb me t\u00eb dashurin tim, sepse si\u00e7 ju thash\u00eb, ai jeton n\u00eb Shkod\u00ebr dhe\nnuk vjen shum\u00eb shpesh, por kur vjen, rrim\u00eb gjith\u00eb koh\u00ebs bashk\u00eb. K\u00ebshtu, kisha\nb\u00ebr\u00eb disa fjal\u00eb sepse ai m\u00eb b\u00ebrtiti pa t\u00eb drejt\u00eb. Un\u00eb isha e m\u00ebrzitur me t\u00eb dhe\nn\u00eb nj\u00ebfar\u00eb m\u00ebnyre sikur doja t\u00eb hakmerresha. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
K\u00ebshtu, at\u00eb m\u00ebngjes (sepse ishte m\u00ebngjes, nata kishte shkuar drejt\nm\u00ebngjesit dhe pa e kuptuar kishte filluar t\u00eb zbardhej) b\u00ebm\u00eb muhabet, fol\u00ebm gjer\u00eb\ne gjat\u00eb, b\u00ebm\u00eb shaka dhe ik\u00ebm secili n\u00eb sht\u00ebpin\u00eb e vet. Kur ik\u00ebm p\u00ebr n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi,\ni thash\u00eb shoqes sime: \u201cJan\u00eb djem t\u00eb mir\u00eb, por nuk mendoj se \u00ebsht\u00eb mir\u00eb t\u00eb\nngat\u00ebrrohesh me ata, sepse nuk ishin tipa q\u00eb mund t\u00eb p\u00ebrshtateshin me ne\u201d… Ata\ndilnin pothuajse p\u00ebrnat\u00eb, njihnin shum\u00eb njer\u00ebz dhe nuk m\u2019u duk mir\u00eb q\u00eb edhe ne\nt\u00eb b\u00ebheshim pre e tyre. Asaj nuk i erdhi mir\u00eb kur i thash\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb. Vura re q\u00eb ajo\nkishte qejf ta takonte p\u00ebrs\u00ebri djalin q\u00eb i p\u00eblqente dhe un\u00eb nuk e zgjata m\u00eb\nsepse nuk doja t\u00eb b\u00ebja fjal\u00eb me shoqen time p\u00ebr ata. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Fundjav\u00ebn tjet\u00ebr dol\u00ebm prap\u00eb (Kuptohet ne nuk mund t\u00eb dilnim shpesh, edhe\nnj\u00eb her\u00eb n\u00eb jav\u00eb dhe duket sikur bajatesh), shkuam p\u00ebrs\u00ebri atje dhe pam\u00eb q\u00eb ata\nnuk ishin. Nga nj\u00eb an\u00eb u g\u00ebzova sepse e dija q\u00eb po t\u00eb ishin aty do t\u00eb vinin n\u00eb\ntavolin\u00eb, do iknim p\u00ebrs\u00ebri p\u00ebr kafe dhe k\u00ebsaj here nuk do b\u00ebnim vet\u00ebm muhabet\nsepse nuk kishim m\u00eb \u00e7far\u00eb muhabeti t\u00eb b\u00ebnim, sespe ata na e kishin th\u00ebn\u00eb qart\u00eb \u00e7far\u00eb\nk\u00ebrkonin. Nuk kaloi shum\u00eb dhe ata erdh\u00ebn, vet\u00ebm se k\u00ebsaj here, ky djali q\u00eb\nkishte qejf shoqen time ishte i shoq\u00ebruar, nd\u00ebrsa tjetri, jo. Shoqja ime u\nm\u00ebrzit shum\u00eb sepse ai nuk ishte treguar i sinqert\u00eb me t\u00eb ashtu si\u00e7 ishte\ntreguar ajo me at\u00eb, nd\u00ebrkoh\u00eb ky kishte nj\u00eb lidhje shum\u00eb t\u00eb gjat\u00eb dhe nuk e\ntregoi. Nuk ndenj\u00ebm shum\u00eb sepse shoqja ime u m\u00ebrzit shum\u00eb dhe nd\u00ebrkoh\u00eb q\u00eb po\ndilnim, Ergi doli pas nesh dhe na tha q\u00eb ta prinim te kafja q\u00eb kishim pir\u00eb\nher\u00ebn e kaluar sepse do t\u00eb na shpjegonte se \u00e7far\u00eb po ndodhte. Ik\u00ebm atje dhe\nvet\u00ebm kur erdh\u00ebn t\u00eb dy. Stivi e kishte\n\u00e7uar t\u00eb dashur\u00ebn n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi dhe kishte ardhur aty me Ergin. Ai i k\u00ebrkoi falje q\u00eb\nnuk kishte treguar q\u00eb ishte i lidhur, por kishte pasur frik\u00eb se mos e humbiste\nprandaj nuk i kishte treguar. Ajo ishte vrare shum\u00eb, por ngaq\u00eb ai i p\u00eblqente,\nharroi \u00e7do gj\u00eb. M\u00eb pas ik\u00ebm n\u00eb sht\u00ebpin\u00eb e k\u00ebsaj shoqes time dhe pasi ndenj\u00ebm\ndhe b\u00ebm\u00eb shum\u00eb shaka, do flinim, por problemi ishte si do flinim, sepse nuk\nmund t\u00eb p\u00ebrzinim Ergin q\u00eb t\u00eb flinte Stivi aty. K\u00ebshtu, nd\u00ebrkoh\u00eb q\u00eb Stivi me shoqen\ntime ik\u00ebn nga dhoma e gjumit, un\u00eb dhe Ergi ngel\u00ebm vet\u00ebm dhe n\u00eb nj\u00eb moment, ai\nm\u00eb tha: \u201cA mund t\u00eb vish k\u00ebtu pran\u00eb, se m\u00eb duket sikur ke frik\u00eb prej meje?\u201d. \u201cJo,\ni thash\u00eb, por nuk dua t\u00eb b\u00ebj gabime\u201d. M\u00eb k\u00ebrkoi falje dhe vazhduam muhabetin e\nl\u00ebn\u00eb p\u00ebrgjys\u00ebm. Po zbardhej dhe mua po m\u00eb vinte shum\u00eb gjum\u00eb, nd\u00ebrkoh\u00eb q\u00eb nga\ndhoma tjet\u00ebr nuk d\u00ebgjohej asgj\u00eb dhe ajo qet\u00ebsi b\u00ebri q\u00eb un\u00eb t\u00eb b\u00ebja t\u00eb gabim q\u00eb\ni dha fund lidhjes time. Pas disa \u00e7astesh, Ergi m\u00eb ftoi t\u00eb ulesha p\u00ebrs\u00ebri pran\u00eb\ntij dhe pa e kuptuar, m\u00eb puthi e un\u00eb i ktheva puthjen\u2026 Gj\u00ebrat rrodh\u00ebn vet\u00eb dhe\nun\u00eb kisha b\u00ebr\u00eb gabimin e par\u00eb, pas kaq koh\u00ebsh lidhje. Nuk mund ta mohoj q\u00eb nuk\nu ndjeva mir\u00eb, ndihesha shum\u00eb n\u00eb faj. Ai nuk kishte absolutisht asnj\u00eb faj,\nsepse po t\u00eb mos doja un\u00eb, ai nuk do b\u00ebnte gj\u00eb, ashtu si\u00e7 nuk kishte b\u00ebr\u00eb deri\nn\u00eb ato \u00e7aste. Nga ora 12 e drek\u00ebs, ata u zgjuan dhe pasi pim\u00eb kafen e m\u00ebngjesit,\nik\u00ebm secili n\u00ebp\u00ebr sht\u00ebpit\u00eb e tyre, madje as nuk fol\u00ebm m\u00eb se \u00e7far\u00eb do t\u00eb ndodhte\nme ne n\u00eb t\u00eb ardhmen. Un\u00eb nuk isha mir\u00eb fare, m\u00eb sakt\u00eb ndihesha shum\u00eb fajtore\nsepse kisha b\u00ebr\u00eb shum\u00eb gabim. Nuk e dija se si do t\u2019i dilja t\u00eb dashurit tim\np\u00ebrpara, si do ta puthja, si do t\u2019i qeshja\u2026 isha shum\u00eb keq. Ai m\u00eb merrte n\u00eb\ntelefon, nd\u00ebrsa un\u00eb nuk i p\u00ebrgjigjesha sepse kisha shum\u00eb turp nga vetja. Dit\u00ebn\ntjet\u00ebr e mora n\u00eb telefon t\u00eb dashurin tim dhe i thash\u00eb q\u00eb duhej t\u00eb vinte sepse\nduhet t\u2019i thoja di\u00e7ka shum\u00eb t\u00eb r\u00ebnd\u00ebsishme dhe shum\u00eb urgjente. Ai erdhi dhe\npasi u ul\u00ebm n\u00eb kafe, me z\u00ebrin q\u00eb m\u00eb dridhej, i tregova gjith\u00e7ka. Edhe pse e\ndoja tmerr\u00ebsisht, i k\u00ebrkova t\u00eb ndaheshim, sepse un\u00eb nuk e meritoja q\u00eb t\u00eb rrija\nm\u00eb at\u00eb, un\u00eb kisha gabuar dhe duhet t\u00eb merrja p\u00ebrsip\u00ebr gabimet e mia. Ai qau, m\u00eb\np\u00ebrqafoi dhe m\u00eb tha q\u00eb m\u00eb donte shum\u00eb. M\u00eb tha se kjo q\u00eb kisha b\u00ebr\u00eb un\u00eb donte\nshum\u00eb guxim sepse un\u00eb fare mir\u00eb mund t\u00eb mos i kisha treguar dhe t\u00eb b\u00ebja\nhipokriten para tij. Ai m\u00eb tha q\u00eb kishte nevoj\u00eb p\u00ebr disa koh\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb mendohej\ndhe se shum\u00eb shpejt do flisnim p\u00ebrs\u00ebri, por un\u00eb i k\u00ebrkova q\u00eb t\u00eb mos m\u00eb merrte\nm\u00eb sepse un\u00eb nuk mund ta shikoja m\u00eb n\u00eb sy. Ai m\u00eb merr p\u00ebrdite n\u00eb telefon dhe\nndonj\u00ebher\u00eb un\u00eb nuk ia hap sepse nuk di \u00e7far\u00eb t\u2019i them, por ai k\u00ebmb\u00ebngul q\u00eb t\u00eb\nrilidhemi… Nuk e besoj sepse un\u00eb nuk e ndjej veten n\u00eb pozit\u00ebn p\u00ebr t\u00eb q\u00ebndruar\nme t\u00eb. E dua shum\u00eb, por edhe e tradhtova, p\u00ebr nj\u00eb nat\u00eb prisha lidhjen time,\nndoshta edhe t\u00eb ardhmen\u2026 Me Ergin nuk kam folur fare, ai m\u00eb ka marr\u00eb, por un\u00eb\nnuk dua as t\u2019i d\u00ebgjoj z\u00ebrin, edhe pse faktikisht ai nuk ka asnj\u00eb faj. Jua\nrr\u00ebfeva juve m\u00ebkatin tim\u2026 Po t\u00eb doni, m\u00eb gjykoni\u2026 Un\u00eb, tashm\u00eb, e kam nd\u00ebshkuar\nveten.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
P\u00ebrsh\u00ebndetje. Jam Elda nga Librazhdi, 26 vje\u00e7e dhe jetoj me prind\u00ebrit e mi k\u00ebtu n\u00eb Tiran\u00eb, prej 14 vjet\u00ebsh. Kam nj\u00eb familje shum\u00eb t\u00eb rregullt; nj\u00eb v\u00eblla m\u00eb t\u00eb vog\u00ebl dhe nj\u00eb mot\u00ebr m\u00eb t\u00eb madhe, t\u00eb martuar. Un\u00eb kam nj\u00eb karakter shum\u00eb t\u00eb fort\u00eb dhe t\u00eb q\u00ebndruesh\u00ebm e nuk nd\u00ebrroj kollaj mendim. Edhe pse […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":20984,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[94],"tags":[249],"class_list":["post-20983","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-histori-nga-jeta","tag-histori"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/20983","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=20983"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/20983\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/20984"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=20983"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=20983"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=20983"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}