Un\u00eb q\u00eb po ju shkruaj jam nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb q\u00eb kam mbaruar matur\u00ebn dhe nuk munda t\u00eb futesha n\u00eb shkoll\u00eb t\u00eb lart\u00eb. Shkaku p\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb shoqja ime e shum\u00eb viteve. Nuk e di as vet\u00eb se si arrita t\u00eb mos futesha n\u00eb fakultet duke b\u00ebr\u00eb at\u00eb q\u00eb m\u00eb thoshte ajo t\u00eb b\u00ebja.
\nUn\u00eb, edhe babin, edhe mamin, i kam me shkoll\u00eb t\u00eb lart\u00eb. Babi \u00ebsht\u00eb shum\u00eb i dh\u00ebn\u00eb pas shkoll\u00ebs. Ai gjithmon\u00eb ka dashur q\u00eb un\u00eb t\u00eb shkoj n\u00eb shkoll\u00eb t\u00eb lart\u00eb p\u00ebr Mjek\u00ebsi. M\u2019i plot\u00ebsoi t\u00eb gjitha kushtet dhe un\u00eb e zhg\u00ebnjeva. N\u00eb fillim t\u00eb shkoll\u00ebs s\u00eb mesme u njoha me nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb e cila ishte shum\u00eb ndryshe nga un\u00eb. Ajo ishte e hedhur dhe shum\u00eb aventuriere. Edhe pse ishim dy tipe t\u00eb ndryshme, un\u00eb rrija me t\u00eb. N\u00eb fillim ajo kishte shum\u00eb shoq\u00ebri, po disa vajza q\u00eb e kishin mendjen te m\u00ebsimi iu larguan, k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb mbeta vet\u00ebm un\u00eb me t\u00eb, se m\u00eb vinte keq ta lija vet\u00ebm.
\nN\u00eb vit t\u00eb par\u00eb, ajo nuk kishte t\u00eb dashur, megjithat\u00eb nuk kishte shum\u00eb d\u00ebshir\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00ebsonte. Vinte shpesh te sht\u00ebpia ime dhe m\u00eb linte edhe mua pa m\u00ebsuar. Babi e kishte v\u00ebn\u00eb re k\u00ebt\u00eb dhe m\u00eb tha:
\n– E di q\u00eb nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb e drejt\u00eb t\u00eb t\u2019i gjej un\u00eb shoqet me t\u00eb cilat duhet t\u00eb rrish. Ela \u00ebsht\u00eb vajz\u00eb e mir\u00eb, por m\u00eb duket se nuk i ka shum\u00eb qejf m\u00ebsimet.
\n– M\u00eb vjen keq p\u00ebr t\u00eb, o ba, se nuk rrin\u00eb shoqet me t\u00eb, prandaj dua ta mbaj af\u00ebr.
\n– N\u00eb radh\u00eb t\u00eb par\u00eb, duhet t\u00eb t\u00eb vij\u00eb keq p\u00ebr veten, se po i le m\u00ebsimet, nuk arrin rezultate t\u00eb mira n\u00eb fund.
\n– Mos ki merak, babi. Un\u00eb jam nj\u00ebsoj si n\u00eb n\u00ebnt\u00eb vje\u00e7are me nota. I kam t\u00eb gjitha dhjeta.
\nDhe n\u00eb fakt, ashtu i kisha, sepse kisha m\u00ebsuar shum\u00eb n\u00eb 9-vje\u00e7are dhe tani m\u00eb duhej vet\u00ebm pak koh\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb marr\u00eb njohurit\u00eb. Edhe kur vinte babi n\u00eb takim me prind\u00ebr, m\u00ebsuesit i thonin fjal\u00eb t\u00eb mira, sepse ende nuk kisha r\u00ebn\u00eb nga m\u00ebsimet.
\nKaloi viti i par\u00eb. Gjat\u00eb ver\u00ebs nuk takoheshim shum\u00eb, k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb e kalova ver\u00ebn duke lexuar libra. I lexova t\u00eb gjitha ato q\u00eb na kishin dh\u00ebn\u00eb m\u00ebsuesit. Vendosa se n\u00eb vit t\u00eb dyt\u00eb do t\u2019u vihesha m\u00ebsimeve dhe nuk do t\u00eb lija asgj\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00eb pengonte. Erdhi viti i dyt\u00eb. T\u00eb dyjave na kishte marr\u00eb malli p\u00ebr nj\u00ebra-tjetr\u00ebn. U ul\u00ebm n\u00eb t\u00eb nj\u00ebjt\u00ebn bang\u00eb. N\u00eb fillim, si gjithmon\u00eb, m\u00ebsimet nuk ishin edhe aq t\u00eb v\u00ebshtira, prandaj un\u00eb e ndiqja shoqen ku na \u00e7onte ajo, mir\u00ebpo me v\u00ebshtir\u00ebsimin e m\u00ebsimeve e kisha t\u00eb pamundur t\u00eb b\u00ebja at\u00eb jet\u00eb q\u00eb b\u00ebnte ajo. Duhej t\u00eb m\u00ebsoja me or\u00eb t\u00eb t\u00ebra nat\u00ebn q\u00eb t\u00eb kompensoja at\u00eb q\u00eb kisha humbur dit\u00ebn duke i shkuar nga pas. At\u00eb vit, ajo kishte nj\u00eb t\u00eb dashur dhe kur donte t\u00eb takohej me t\u00eb, m\u00eb p\u00ebrdorte mua.
\n– Tri or\u00ebt e para jan\u00eb t\u00eb r\u00ebnd\u00ebsishme! – m\u00eb thoshte gjithmon\u00eb.
\n– Po t\u00eb tjerat?
\n– T\u00eb tjerat nuk i kemi n\u00eb provimet e matur\u00ebs. Hajde t\u00eb shijojm\u00eb jet\u00ebn sa jemi t\u00eb reja. Mua t\u00eb rriturit m\u00eb thon\u00eb gjithmon\u00eb: \u201cShijoji k\u00ebto koh\u00eb se nuk t\u00eb vijn\u00eb m\u00eb\u201d.
\n– Po m\u00ebsimet?
\n– Ehu, dhe ti me m\u00ebsimet!
\nAjo nuk i donte m\u00ebsimet, k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb po m\u00eb b\u00ebnte edhe mua si veten. M\u00eb kishte th\u00ebn\u00eb dhe babi se po t\u2019i lija m\u00ebsimet nuk do t\u00eb mund t\u00eb m\u00ebsoja m\u00eb pastaj, ndaj vendosa q\u00eb p\u00ebr nj\u00eb koh\u00eb t\u00eb mos i bindesha. Kur m\u00eb tha se po e priste i dashuri, i thash\u00eb:
\n– \u00cbsht\u00eb i dashuri yt. Pse duhet t\u00eb vij un\u00eb?
\n– Q\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00eb shoq\u00ebrosh.
\n– Po ne kemi testim. Si ta l\u00eb?
\n– Po s\u2019ka gj\u00eb, na e p\u00ebrs\u00ebrit zysha her\u00ebn tjet\u00ebr.
\n– Jo, jo. Un\u00eb nuk mund t\u00eb vij.
\n– Si k\u00ebshtu? Pse po ma b\u00ebn k\u00ebt\u00eb?
\n– As ti nuk duhet t\u00eb ik\u00ebsh m\u00eb nga or\u00ebt e m\u00ebsimit! Mund ta takosh pasdite!
\n– Ti e di q\u00eb kjo \u00ebsht\u00eb e pamundur! Pasdite nuk m\u00eb l\u00eb mami.
\nAjo u zem\u00ebrua, megjithat\u00eb ndenji n\u00eb provim, po kur mbaroi m\u00ebsimi ajo iku dhe nuk m\u00eb priti. E kuptova se i kishte mbetur hatri. Gjith\u00eb pasditen i telefonova, por nuk m\u2019u p\u00ebrgjigj. Edhe t\u00eb nes\u00ebrmen ajo nuk foli me mua n\u00eb shkoll\u00eb, por nuk u largua or\u00ebt e m\u00ebsimit, ndenji deri n\u00eb fund. U k\u00ebnaqa se mendova se kishte z\u00ebn\u00eb mend. Edhe pse nuk m\u00eb fliste mua, t\u00eb pakt\u00ebn p\u00ebr nj\u00eb gj\u00eb kishte sh\u00ebrbyer ajo z\u00ebnk\u00eb. Kur befas pas nj\u00eb jave, ajo erdhi e m\u00eb foli vet\u00eb e para. T\u00eb them t\u00eb drejt\u00ebn, u k\u00ebnaqa sepse e doja pa hile. Kur dol\u00ebm nga shkolla, pash\u00eb t\u00eb dashurin e saj me nj\u00eb djal\u00eb tjet\u00ebr.
\n– Si jeni, bukuroshe?! – tha i dashuri i shoqes.
\n– Mir\u00eb jemi, po ju si jeni, bukurosha? – ia ktheu shoqja.
\n– Ne, shum\u00eb mir\u00eb! A keni koh\u00eb p\u00ebr kafe?
\n– Kush paguan?
\n– Ne, sigurisht.
\n– H\u00eb, si thua? Tani e kemi mbaruar m\u00ebsimin. – M\u00eb pyeti ajo mua.
\nMeq\u00eb ishte dita e par\u00eb q\u00eb kishim folur pas nj\u00eb kohe t\u00eb gjat\u00eb, nuk doja t\u2019ia prishja. Shkuam n\u00eb nj\u00eb lokal af\u00ebr shkoll\u00ebs dhe nuk ndenj\u00ebm shum\u00eb se kishim hall mos na e kuptonin prind\u00ebrit.
\n– A t\u00eb p\u00eblqen ai djali? Po deshe, i them un\u00eb dhe lidheni.
\n– I mir\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb, por un\u00eb nuk e kam mendjen p\u00ebr k\u00ebto pun\u00eb.
\n– Po vet\u00ebm shoq\u00ebri, mi!
\nN\u00eb fakt, ai djali ishte i mir\u00eb dhe mosha jon\u00eb e donte ta kishe nj\u00eb shok p\u00ebr shoq\u00ebri. Dol\u00ebm edhe disa her\u00eb t\u00eb tjera. Tani ajo e b\u00ebri rrug\u00eb duke ikur nga or\u00ebt e m\u00ebsimit, nd\u00ebrsa un\u00eb ndalesha vet\u00ebm pas m\u00ebsimit e pija ndonj\u00eb kafe. Megjithat\u00eb, edhe pse nuk i lija or\u00ebt, nuk e kisha shum\u00eb mendjen te m\u00ebsimet. Isha lidhur me at\u00eb djalin dhe nganj\u00ebher\u00eb dilnim edhe pasdite. B\u00ebnim sikur po takoheshim ne t\u00eb dyja e takoheshim me t\u00eb dashurit. P\u00ebr fat, n\u00eb fund t\u00eb vitit t\u00eb dyt\u00eb ai iku n\u00eb Gjermani dhe un\u00eb u lirova, mir\u00ebpo ishte tep\u00ebr von\u00eb p\u00ebr m\u00ebsimet. Rrezultatet nuk i kisha ashtu si\u00e7 duhej. U mundova, por nuk arrita t\u00eb p\u00ebrmir\u00ebsoja shum\u00eb l\u00ebnd\u00eb.
\nViti i fundit ishte edhe m\u00eb i r\u00ebnd\u00ebsishmi.
\n– K\u00ebt\u00eb vit un\u00eb dua t\u00eb m\u00ebsoj shum\u00eb. K\u00ebt\u00eb duhet t\u00eb b\u00ebsh edhe ti! – i thash\u00eb shoqes n\u00eb fillim t\u00eb vitit. – duhet t\u00eb shkojm\u00eb se s\u2019b\u00ebn n\u00eb shkoll\u00eb t\u00eb lart\u00eb.
\n– Ashtu do b\u00ebjm\u00eb! – tha ajo. Un\u00eb e njihja se ajo nuk i kishte qejf m\u00ebsimet, por mendoja se mos ndoshta ky vit do t\u00eb ishte ndryshe.
\nAjo k\u00ebt\u00eb vit e filloi mir\u00eb. B\u00ebnte detyrat. Kur vinte te sht\u00ebpia ime, uleshim e m\u00ebsonim. Kjo ishte nj\u00eb fitore p\u00ebr mua. Edhe pse dy vitet e tjera nuk mund t\u2019i ktheja mbrapsht, t\u00eb pakt\u00ebn k\u00ebt\u00eb vit do dilja si duhet. Por nuk zgjati shum\u00eb sepse ajo ishte lidhur me nj\u00eb djal\u00eb tjet\u00ebr. Ai ishte n\u00eb t\u00eb nj\u00ebjt\u00ebn shkoll\u00eb me ne, vet\u00ebm se jo n\u00eb klas\u00ebn ton\u00eb, por n\u00eb nj\u00eb paralele. Ajo nuk i linte m\u00eb or\u00ebt e m\u00ebsimit, ama rrinte gjith\u00eb koh\u00ebs n\u00eb celular. Un\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb her\u00eb isha m\u00eb e pavarur prej saj dhe po ecja mir\u00eb me m\u00ebsime, por kur nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb e shkruar, nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb. Ai djali, i dashuri i saj, ishte n\u00eb nj\u00ebr\u00ebn nga klasat m\u00eb problematike t\u00eb shkoll\u00ebs. B\u00ebri nj\u00eb sherr dhe e p\u00ebrjashtuan, k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb filloi avazi i vjet\u00ebr. Ajo duhet t\u00eb linte or\u00ebt e un\u00eb ta ndiqja nga pas. M\u00eb shkoi nd\u00ebrmend t\u2019i thoja jo si n\u00eb vit t\u00eb dyt\u00eb, por k\u00ebt\u00eb her\u00eb ajo ishte e fiksuar pas tij dhe mendoja se ai mund ta fuste n\u00eb rrug\u00eb t\u00eb keqe. Shumica e nx\u00ebn\u00ebsve thonin p\u00ebr t\u00eb se merrte dhe l\u00ebnd\u00eb narkotike, prandaj nuk doja q\u00eb edhe shoqja t\u00eb p\u00ebrfundonte si ai.
\n– Nuk e kemi mir\u00eb k\u00ebshtu! – i thash\u00eb nj\u00eb dit\u00eb. \u2013 Ne duhet t\u00eb m\u00ebsojm\u00eb.
\n– Po \u00e7far\u00eb po b\u00ebjm\u00eb ne? M\u00ebsimet i b\u00ebjm\u00eb pasdite. Ne i dim\u00eb k\u00ebto gj\u00ebra q\u00eb na shpjegojn\u00eb m\u00ebsuesit!
\n– Duhet ta marrim m\u00eb seriozisht. Un\u00eb p\u00ebr vete nuk dua t\u00eb l\u00eb m\u00eb or\u00eb m\u00ebsimi.
\nIsha e sigurt q\u00eb ajo nuk do t\u00eb b\u00ebnte t\u00eb nj\u00ebjt\u00ebn gj\u00eb me mua. P\u00ebr fat, m\u00ebsuesit organizuan nj\u00eb takim me prind\u00ebr. Babi u xhindos kur pa notat e mia. Ai mendonte se un\u00eb isha ekselente.
\n– Nuk do t\u00eb dal\u00ebsh m\u00eb pasdite! B\u00ebj \u00e7far\u00eb t\u00eb duash, un\u00eb dua rezultate t\u00eb larta!
\nK\u00ebto fjal\u00eb i tha kur shoqja ime ishte aty. U m\u00ebrzita kur m\u00eb foli aq ashp\u00ebr, por u k\u00ebnaqa q\u00eb i d\u00ebgjoi ajo e t\u00eb b\u00ebnte kthes\u00eb. Po asaj, nga nj\u00ebri vesh i kishin hyr\u00eb k\u00ebto fjal\u00eb e nga tjetri i kishin dal\u00eb.
\n– K\u00ebshtu thon\u00eb gjithmon\u00eb prind\u00ebrit! Mos e merr kaq seriozisht!
\n– Duhet marr\u00eb seriozisht! Ai e ka p\u00ebr t\u00eb mir\u00ebn time!
\n– Ehu, edhe ti sa serioze b\u00ebhesh nganj\u00ebher\u00eb!
\nE kuptova se ajo ashtu do t\u00eb vazhdonte deri n\u00eb fund t\u00eb shkoll\u00ebs. Vendosa t\u00eb pakt\u00ebn t\u00eb mos lija or\u00ebt e m\u00ebsimit. Kur ia thash\u00eb, ajo u m\u00ebrzit pak, por nuk b\u00ebri shum\u00eb naze. Megjithat\u00eb, gjat\u00eb gjith\u00eb or\u00ebs s\u00eb m\u00ebsimit, kur un\u00eb doja t\u00eb p\u00ebrqendrohesha, ajo m\u00eb tallte:
\n– Shih, shih, nj\u00ebra! Tani t\u2019u shkrep ty t\u00eb m\u00ebsosh?! Po hajt mi se kopjojm\u00eb e do t\u2019i marrim t\u00eb gjitha dhjeta!
\nSipas fjal\u00ebve t\u00eb saj, ishte shum\u00eb e leht\u00eb, por nuk doli k\u00ebshtu. N\u00eb provim un\u00eb nuk pata asnj\u00eb shanc q\u00eb t\u00eb kopjoja dhe nuk dola mir\u00eb. Me pik\u00ebt e grumbulluara, nuk fitova asnj\u00eb deg\u00eb. N\u00eb fakt, mir\u00eb m\u2019u b\u00eb se gjith\u00e7ka e kisha b\u00ebr\u00eb me vet\u00ebdije.
\nBabi u xhindos dhe m\u00eb tha se nuk e priste k\u00ebt\u00eb nga un\u00eb. Tani shoqja iku te tezja n\u00eb Amerik\u00eb e un\u00eb mbeta n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi. K\u00ebshtu p\u00ebrfundoi kjo histori q\u00eb besoj se do t\u00eb b\u00ebhet m\u00ebsim p\u00ebr ndonj\u00eb q\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb n\u00eb at\u00eb pozicion q\u00eb isha un\u00eb e t\u00eb b\u00ebj\u00eb kthes\u00eb sa nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb von\u00eb. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Un\u00eb q\u00eb po ju shkruaj jam nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb q\u00eb kam mbaruar matur\u00ebn dhe nuk munda t\u00eb futesha n\u00eb shkoll\u00eb t\u00eb lart\u00eb. Shkaku p\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb shoqja ime e shum\u00eb viteve. Nuk e di as vet\u00eb se si arrita t\u00eb mos futesha n\u00eb fakultet duke b\u00ebr\u00eb at\u00eb q\u00eb m\u00eb thoshte ajo t\u00eb b\u00ebja. Un\u00eb, edhe babin, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":12112,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[95],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-13512","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-rrefime-mekatesh"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13512","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=13512"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13512\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/12112"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=13512"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=13512"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=13512"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}