1T\u00eb nderuar lexues dhe botues t\u00eb gazet\u00ebs! Kam koh\u00eb q\u00eb dua t\u2019ju shkruaj, por brenga, dhimbja, turpi e mendimi q\u00eb edhe kush e lexon historin\u00eb time do m\u00eb telendis\u00eb, m\u00eb kan\u00eb stepur. Tashm\u00eb jam dyzet e kat\u00ebr vje\u00e7e e dhimbja po m\u00eb g\u00ebrryen.<\/p>\n
Kam lindur n\u00eb nj\u00eb fshat t\u00eb thell\u00eb n\u00eb jugun e Shqip\u00ebris\u00eb. Jemi shtat\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00eb, pes\u00eb djem e dy vajza. Jemi rritur n\u00eb varf\u00ebri t\u00eb plot\u00eb jo vet\u00ebm se ashtu ishte koha e kooperativave, por edhe ishim shum\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00eb, edhe biografin\u00eb e kishim p\u00ebrtok\u00eb e pushteti i asaj kohe nuk u jepte mund\u00ebsi prind\u00ebrve t\u00eb mi t\u00eb punonin n\u00eb shtet q\u00eb t\u00eb kishin paga m\u00eb t\u00eb mira.<\/p>\n
Babi im ka punuar n\u00eb minier\u00eb gjith\u00eb jet\u00ebn, me mendimin q\u00eb t\u00eb merrte rrog\u00eb sa m\u00eb t\u00eb lart\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb ushqyer f\u00ebmij\u00ebt. P\u00ebr at\u00eb rrog\u00eb, ai i b\u00ebri mushk\u00ebrit\u00eb e tij bloz\u00eb n\u00eb minier\u00eb, si gjith\u00eb minator\u00ebt e tjer\u00eb. Sot jeton mes ila\u00e7esh e spitalesh. N\u00ebna ime pothuajse s\u2019ka punuar se \u00e7do nj\u00eb vit e gjys\u00ebm ishte shtatz\u00ebn\u00eb. Dy f\u00ebmij\u00ebt e par\u00eb i ka lindur t\u00eb vdekur nga puna e r\u00ebnd\u00eb n\u00eb kooperativ\u00eb e m\u00eb n\u00eb fund, mjek\u00ebt e spitalit n\u00eb qytet u bind\u00ebn se duhej t\u2019i jepnin raport t\u00eb gjat\u00eb. Mjeku i konsultores s\u00eb fshatit, edhe n\u00eb shtatzanin\u00eb e fundit i thoshte se duhej t\u00eb dilte n\u00eb pun\u00eb. Ajo \u00ebsht\u00eb rritur jetime dhe ve\u00e7 munges\u00ebs s\u00eb prind\u00ebrve, edhe gjith\u00eb andrallat e tjera i duheshin. Pas vizitave t\u00eb shumta e raporteve q\u00eb i dhan\u00eb n\u00eb qytet, n\u00ebna arriti t\u00eb lindte f\u00ebmij\u00ebt e par\u00eb. V\u00ebllai im i madh ka lindur yll i bukur e thon\u00eb edhe sot mamit\u00eb e qytetit q\u00eb kan\u00eb asistuar n\u00eb lindje. Edhe sot ashtu \u00ebsht\u00eb, t\u00eb pushojn\u00eb syt\u00eb kur e sheh. Jo pse \u00ebsht\u00eb v\u00ebllai im, por \u00ebsht\u00eb djal\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u2019u pir\u00eb n\u00eb kup\u00eb. Pastaj lind\u00ebn edhe dy djem e m\u00eb n\u00eb fund, linda un\u00eb. Mamaja ime thot\u00eb edhe sot q\u00eb g\u00ebzimi p\u00ebr \u00e7up\u00ebn ka qen\u00eb si g\u00ebzimi p\u00ebr djalin e par\u00eb q\u00eb arrita ta sjell sh\u00ebndosh\u00eb e mir\u00eb n\u00eb jet\u00eb. M\u00eb pas erdhi v\u00ebllai tjet\u00ebr, m\u00eb pas nj\u00eb mot\u00ebr me ka\u00e7urrelat m\u00eb t\u00eb bukur n\u00eb bot\u00eb e m\u00eb pas nj\u00eb v\u00eblla\u00e7ko tjet\u00ebr. O Zot, nj\u00eb sht\u00ebpi si \u00e7erdhe apo kop\u00ebsht, quajeni si t\u00eb doni familjen time. Kemi patur sht\u00ebpi t\u00eb vog\u00ebl e ne dukeshim f\u00ebmij\u00eb akoma m\u00eb shum\u00eb.<\/p>\n
Mamaja ime duke qen\u00eb se ishte n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi ato pak rroba q\u00eb kishim i lante e i pastronte shk\u00eblqenin gjithmon\u00eb. Mbaj mend q\u00eb nj\u00eb triko (deve quhej n\u00eb at\u00eb koh\u00eb filli me t\u00eb cilin ishte e punuar) mamaja ime e ka prishur \u00e7do ver\u00eb p\u00ebr ta sajuar me modele t\u00eb ndryshme p\u00ebr secilin q\u00eb e ka veshur. I shtonte ndonj\u00eb viz\u00eb sipas fillit q\u00eb i dhuronte tezja ose nusja e xhaxhit. Mamaja ime nga familja e saj ka patur vet\u00ebm nj\u00eb mot\u00ebr, por edhe nusen e xhaxhit e ka dashur si ta kishte mot\u00ebr prej gjaku. Edhe xhaxhin e kemi patur si shok, se ishte goxha m\u00eb i ri se im at\u00eb. P\u00ebr ne ka qen\u00eb fest\u00eb, lumturi e papar\u00eb kur vinte xhaxhi me familjen e tij. Ata kishin tre f\u00ebmij\u00eb dhe na dukeshin sikur ishin pjes\u00eb e familjes ton\u00eb edhe ata. Ne u rrit\u00ebm shum\u00eb shpejt. E mbaj mend veten q\u00eb n\u00eb shkoll\u00eb kemi shkuar me v\u00ebllez\u00ebrit e vegj\u00ebl e motr\u00ebn n\u00eb krah se prind\u00ebrit duhet t\u00eb punonin, sigurisht, n\u00eb pun\u00ebt m\u00eb t\u00eb r\u00ebnda. F\u00ebmij\u00ebri t\u00eb v\u00ebshtir\u00eb kemi kaluar, por t\u00eb bukur mes loj\u00ebrave n\u00eb l\u00ebndina e brigje. K\u00ebshtu, v\u00ebllai i madh mbaroi shkoll\u00ebn e mesme dhe b\u00ebri nj\u00eb kurs p\u00ebr shofer. N\u00eb at\u00eb koh\u00eb ishte fat i madh t\u00eb arrije t\u00eb b\u00ebheshe shofer. U b\u00eb shum\u00eb i zoti dhe ishte djal\u00eb i pafjal\u00eb. Ai filloi pun\u00eb menj\u00ebher\u00eb pas kursit si shofer i kryetarit t\u00eb kooperativ\u00ebs. Sigurisht, rroga e tij na dha dor\u00eb menj\u00ebher\u00eb. Pas tij mbaruan shkoll\u00ebn dy v\u00eblllez\u00ebrit e tjer\u00eb nj\u00ebri pas tjetrit e filluan pun\u00eb n\u00eb kooperativ\u00eb. Erdhi radha ime t\u00eb mbaroja shkoll\u00ebn e meqen\u00ebse v\u00ebllai ishte shoferi i kryetarit, m\u00eb rregulloi q\u00eb t\u00eb filloja pun\u00eb te furra e buk\u00ebs. Pun\u00ebn e kisha pran\u00eb sht\u00ebpis\u00eb dhe meqen\u00ebse n\u00eb pun\u00eb kisha gra t\u00eb reja n\u00eb mosh\u00eb, e b\u00ebnim me radh\u00eb t\u00eb iknim m\u00eb shpejt, apo t\u00eb merrnim himet (mbeturinat pasi sitet mielli). Na vinte radha ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb marr\u00eb edhe miell sepse na dilnin thas\u00ebt me pesh\u00eb m\u00eb t\u00eb madhe. K\u00ebshtu, ekonomia n\u00eb sht\u00ebpin\u00eb time ndryshoi.<\/p>\n
P\u00ebrve\u00e7 ekonomis\u00eb, kishim ndryshuar edhe ne f\u00ebmij\u00ebt q\u00eb ishim rritur. V\u00ebllez\u00ebrit q\u00eb ishin m\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00ebdhenj, duke e patur mendjen t\u00eb zgjeronin sht\u00ebpin\u00eb, nuk shihnin \u00e7upat lart e posht\u00eb, por un\u00eb s\u2019i mbaja dot syt\u00eb larg djemve. Kam qen\u00eb nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb e hijshme dhe bija n\u00eb sy e sigurisht m\u00eb kishin ngacmuar djemt\u00eb e gjith\u00eb fshatit dhe t\u00eb fshatrave p\u00ebrreth. Shkolla e mesme ishte n\u00eb fshatin tim p\u00ebr disa fshatra rreth e rrotull, k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb kishim varacion p\u00ebr t\u00eb kullotur syt\u00eb. Nd\u00ebrsa flirtimet ishin t\u00eb p\u00ebrditshme, zemra m\u00eb rrihte p\u00ebr nj\u00eb djal\u00eb t\u00eb fshatit tim. Ai ishte goxha m\u00eb i madh. Kishte dy vite q\u00eb kur m\u00eb p\u00ebrsh\u00ebndeste m\u00eb shihte ndryshe e kishte filluar t\u00eb m\u00eb pyeste m\u00eb gjat\u00eb. N\u00eb dit\u00ebt e fundit t\u00eb shkoll\u00ebs madje m\u00eb shoq\u00ebroi rrug\u00ebs p\u00ebr n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi se pa nj\u00eb djal\u00eb q\u00eb donte t\u00eb m\u00eb fliste.<\/p>\n
– Po t\u00eb shoq\u00ebroj, bukuroshe se t\u00eb kan\u00eb z\u00ebn\u00eb prit\u00eb, – m\u00eb tha.<\/p>\n
– \u00c7far\u00eb? – thash\u00eb dhe ngriva. – T\u00eb kan\u00eb z\u00ebn\u00eb prit\u00eb, djali i X po t\u00eb pret se helbete, po mbaron shkolla e s\u2019kan\u00eb ku t\u00eb t\u00eb shohin m\u00eb, – tha ai dhe eci p\u00ebrkrah meje. – E p\u00ebr ta \u00e7uar deri n\u00eb fund, un\u00eb nuk dua q\u00eb t\u00eb t\u00eb flas\u00eb njeri. Dua t\u00eb flas ve\u00e7 vet\u00eb m\u00eb ty, t\u00eb shoh ve\u00e7 un\u00eb, t\u00eb t\u00eb afrohem ve\u00e7 un\u00eb. Me nj\u00eb fjal\u00eb, jam xheloz me Xh t\u00eb madhe, – tha dhe m\u00eb shikoi sikur do t\u00eb m\u00eb hante. N\u00eb at\u00eb moment kaluam n\u00eb rrug\u00ebn kryesore dhe nuk fola derisa e kaluam at\u00eb djalin q\u00eb m\u00eb \u201ckishte z\u00ebn\u00eb prit\u00eb\u201d dhe pastaj e pyeta jo vet\u00ebm me naivitet:<\/p>\n
– Ti, xheloz me Xh t\u00eb madhe p\u00ebr mua? Pse, \u00e7far\u00eb kam b\u00ebr\u00eb e \u00e7far\u00eb m\u00eb ke ti mua q\u00eb na u b\u00ebke xheloz? – thash\u00eb e qesha sa m\u00eb h\u00ebngr\u00ebn mushk\u00ebrit\u00eb.<\/p>\n
– Ja q\u00eb ti m\u00eb p\u00eblqen e dua t\u00eb t\u00eb kem p\u00ebr vete, meq\u00eb nuk e paske kuptuar akoma. Nuk ke b\u00ebr\u00eb asgj\u00eb t\u00eb keqe, t\u00eb pakt\u00ebn deri tani e m\u00eb sakt\u00eb, nuk do t\u00eb t\u00eb kisha l\u00ebn\u00eb t\u00eb b\u00ebje asgj\u00eb me ask\u00ebnd se po t\u00eb ruaj p\u00ebr vete. Pastaj, m\u00eb ndjek zanati si magazinier e di t\u2019i ruaj gj\u00ebrat e mia.<\/p>\n
U pataksa nga gjith\u00eb ato fjal\u00eb nj\u00ebkoh\u00ebsisht, por di\u00e7ka kisha kuptuar.<\/p>\n
Ai, nj\u00eb moment, u ndal e u kthye nga un\u00eb. – Pse, ty nuk t\u00eb p\u00eblqej fare un\u00eb? – m\u00eb tha dhe nuk l\u00ebvizi p\u00ebr t\u00eb ecur. Un\u00eb b\u00ebra t\u00eb ecja, por ai m\u00eb ndaloi.<\/p>\n
– Nuk e di, s\u2019e kam menduar asnj\u00ebher\u00eb, – i thash\u00eb, nd\u00ebrkoh\u00eb q\u00eb u p\u00ebrpoqa t\u00eb merresha me \u00e7ant\u00ebn e shkoll\u00ebs q\u00eb ai t\u00eb mos shihte dridhjen e duarve t\u00eb mia.<\/p>\n
– Epo, duhet ta mendosh dhe t\u00eb m\u00eb tregosh. Tashm\u00eb je vajz\u00eb e rritur dhe mund t\u00eb t\u00eb k\u00ebrkoj\u00eb njeriu di\u00e7ka q\u00eb i k\u00ebrkohet nj\u00eb t\u00eb rriture. P\u00ebr shembull, un\u00eb e dua shum\u00eb buz\u00ebqeshjen t\u00ebnde dhe buz\u00ebt e tua. – U skuqa deri te vesh\u00ebt dhe sigurisht ai e pa e u kthye t\u00eb ecte. – Dhe ta dish se nuk dua t\u00eb pres shum\u00eb, kam tre vite q\u00eb t\u00eb shoh e t\u00eb ruaj e m\u00eb ka humbur durimi. T\u00eb dua n\u00eb krah\u00ebt e mi, kuptove? – m\u00eb tha nd\u00ebrsa ecnim, ai normalisht e un\u00eb e mpir\u00eb akoma m\u00eb shum\u00eb nga \u00e7\u2019m\u00eb tha n\u00eb fund.<\/p>\n
– Do ta mendoj, – thash\u00eb dhe e mbylla goj\u00ebn. Rrug\u00ebs p\u00ebrball\u00eb nesh po kthenin nga puna n\u00eb fusha disa bashk\u00ebfshatar\u00eb tan\u00ebt dhe N. filloi t\u00eb fliste muhabete koti p\u00ebr t\u00eb mbjellat e t\u00eb korrat q\u00eb ata t\u00eb mos dyshonin te ne. Rruga fatmir\u00ebsisht mbaroi shpejt dhe un\u00eb u ndava me t\u00eb. Kur m\u00eb dha dor\u00ebn, m\u00eb tha:<\/p>\n
– Do q\u00eb t\u00eb vij t\u00eb t\u00eb k\u00ebrkoj un\u00eb apo do vish t\u00eb m\u00eb gjesh vet\u00eb n\u00eb magazin\u00eb kur t\u00eb kesh nd\u00ebrmend t\u00eb hap\u00ebsh goj\u00ebn p\u00ebr t\u00eb folur? – dhe qeshi.<\/p>\n
– Do p\u00ebrpiqem t\u00eb gjej mund\u00ebsi e koh\u00eb dhe t\u00eb vij vet\u00eb, – i thash\u00eb dhe ika me vrap. Nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb se s\u2019m\u00eb p\u00eblqeu propozimi i tij, por m\u2019u duk shum\u00eb arrogant me m\u00ebnyr\u00ebn si ma tha. M\u2019u duk si urdh\u00ebr, por gjithsesi, ishte urdh\u00ebr i bukur. T\u00eb nes\u00ebrmen ajo fjala \u201curdh\u00ebr\u201d n\u00eb trurin tim u regjistrua si \u201cftes\u00eb\u201d, por me mbarimin e shkoll\u00ebs, edhe t\u00eb dalat do t\u00eb kufizoheshin. E thash\u00eb m\u00eb par\u00eb q\u00eb fillova pun\u00eb menj\u00ebher\u00eb pasi mbarova shkoll\u00ebn, k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb e gjeta nj\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb t\u00eb arratisesha. Pas nj\u00eb muaji q\u00eb ai m\u00eb kishte p\u00ebrcjell\u00eb deri n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi, pas mendimeve t\u00eb gjata n\u00eb pun\u00eb, nj\u00eb dit\u00eb ia dola t\u00eb kaloja nga magazina ku punonte N- ja.<\/p>\n
– Erdhe m\u00eb n\u00eb fund! Mendova se harrove se \u00e7\u2019fola rrug\u00ebs, – tha dhe nuk m\u00eb dha dor\u00ebn, por m\u00eb mb\u00ebshtolli n\u00eb nj\u00eb p\u00ebrqafim t\u00eb menj\u00ebhersh\u00ebm nga i cili mezi u lirova.<\/p>\n
– Mos, se do na shoh\u00eb njeri! – thash\u00eb.<\/p>\n
– Le t\u00eb na shohin, asgj\u00eb s\u2019po b\u00ebj, po p\u00ebrqafoj t\u00eb zgjedhur\u00ebn time, – tha dhe mbylli der\u00ebn e magazin\u00ebs. E kuptova q\u00eb s\u2019kisha nga t\u2019ia mbaja.<\/p>\n
– Po ti, nga e di se \u00e7\u2019do t\u00eb t\u00eb them un\u00eb? Pse e mbyll der\u00ebn?<\/p>\n
– Epo, un\u00eb arrij t\u00eb lexoj n\u00eb syt\u00eb e tu, – m\u00eb tha. – E di q\u00eb edhe ty t\u00eb p\u00eblqej po aq sa m\u00eb p\u00eblqen ti mua. – M\u00eb mori n\u00eb krah\u00eb dhe pas nj\u00eb p\u00ebrqafimi t\u00eb shkurt\u00ebr, i liroi krah\u00ebt e po m\u00eb shihte n\u00eb sy.<\/p>\n
– H\u00eb, do m\u00eb thuash q\u00eb s\u2019t\u00eb p\u00eblqej? – ishte shum\u00eb serioz n\u00eb pyetjen e tij. E pash\u00eb q\u00eb ishte i p\u00ebrgatitur edhe p\u00ebr ndonj\u00eb \u201cjo\u201d timen.<\/p>\n
– Jo, erdha t\u00eb t\u00eb shoh q\u00eb t\u00eb mendoj m\u00eb mir\u00eb p\u00ebr ty, – i thash\u00eb. – Nuk di si t\u00eb ta kujtoj fytyr\u00ebn kur mendoj se \u00e7\u2019duhet t\u00eb t\u00eb them, – i thash\u00eb.<\/p>\n
Ai u kthye menj\u00ebher\u00eb me fytyr\u00eb nga dritarja, m\u00eb kapi fytyr\u00ebn mes duarve t\u00eb tij e m\u00eb tha: – M\u00eb shih mir\u00eb, q\u00eb n\u00eb \u00ebndrrat e tua t\u00eb jem ve\u00e7 un\u00eb!<\/p>\n
Nd\u00ebrsa po e shihja me v\u00ebrejtje, e kuptova q\u00eb edhe po dridhesha. Ai filloi t\u00eb m\u00eb p\u00ebrk\u00ebdhel\u00eb e p\u00ebrqafoj\u00eb, por kishte di\u00e7ka q\u00eb m\u00eb b\u00ebri p\u00ebrshtypje. Me aq sa kisha par\u00eb n\u00eb filma, meshkujt p\u00ebrpiqeshin t\u00eb fusnin duart posht\u00eb rrobave apo t\u2019i zhvishnin t\u00eb dashurat e tyre, nd\u00ebrsa N., jo, ai vet\u00ebm po m\u00eb p\u00ebrqafonte e p\u00ebrk\u00ebdhelte mbi rroba. Mund t\u00eb kemi ndenjur t\u00eb p\u00ebrqafuar ashtu p\u00ebr dhjet\u00eb minuta dhe m\u00eb n\u00eb fund, ai m\u00eb puthi n\u00eb buz\u00eb.<\/p>\n
– Tashm\u00eb e kam p\u00ebrgjigjen t\u00ebnde, – tha dhe m\u00eb pa.<\/p>\n
– Po, – i thash\u00eb – e ke p\u00ebrgjigjen time.<\/p>\n
E k\u00ebshtu filloi historia e dashuris\u00eb sime t\u00eb par\u00eb. Takoheshim her\u00eb t\u00eb magazina e tij e her\u00eb n\u00eb nj\u00eb cep t\u00eb lagjes nga ana e sht\u00ebpis\u00eb sime. Pas dy-tre muajsh p\u00ebrqafimesh erdhi edhe marr\u00ebdh\u00ebnia jon\u00eb e par\u00eb seksuale. N.-ja m\u00eb thoshte q\u00eb donte t\u00eb bindej se isha e virgj\u00ebr e pastaj t\u00eb fejoheshim e martoheshim. Sigurisht, ishte shum\u00eb i \u00ebmb\u00ebl, nuk ishte i dhunsh\u00ebm e as fshatar. Megjith\u00ebse kishte lindur e jetonte n\u00eb fshat, kishte di\u00e7ka ndryshe nga meshkujt e tjer\u00eb t\u00eb fshatit.<\/p>\n
N\u00eb fillim, sapo takoheshim, m\u00eb thoshte: \u201cHajde shpirti im\u201d dhe m\u00eb mb\u00ebshtillte n\u00eb krah\u00ebt e tij. Pasi filluam t\u00eb trashnim marr\u00ebdh\u00ebnien ton\u00eb, m\u00eb thoshte: \u201cHajde gruaja ime\u201d, por nuk po ndihej p\u00ebr fejes\u00eb apo p\u00ebr t\u00eb d\u00ebrguar t\u00eb atin q\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00eb k\u00ebrkonin dor\u00ebn n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi. Kisha koh\u00eb q\u00eb s\u2019ndihesha mir\u00eb e kisha filluar t\u00eb dyshoja dhe nj\u00eb dit\u00eb, i thash\u00eb vet\u00eb q\u00eb s\u2019mund ta shtynim m\u00eb k\u00ebshtu.<\/p>\n
– Un\u00eb nuk do t\u00eb dal dot gjithmon\u00eb t\u00eb t\u00eb takoj ty pa m\u00eb par\u00eb njeri e t\u00eb dal pa th\u00ebn\u00eb gj\u00eb n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi, k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb duhet ta zgjidhim k\u00ebt\u00eb pun\u00eb.<\/p>\n
– Fillove nga pretendimet edhe ti, si gjith\u00eb t\u00eb tjerat?! Duhet t\u00eb t\u00eb d\u00ebrgoj baban\u00eb t\u00eb t\u00eb k\u00ebrkoj\u00eb n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi q\u00eb t\u00eb dal\u00ebsh e t\u00eb m\u00eb takosh?! – m\u2019u vrenjt, nd\u00ebrsa m\u00eb t\u00ebrhoqi p\u00ebr bluze e filloi t\u00eb ma zb\u00ebrthente.<\/p>\n
– Prit, ma sqaro pak k\u00ebt\u00eb \u201csi gjith\u00eb t\u00eb tjerat\u201d, \u00e7a dometh\u00ebn\u00eb? – thash\u00eb, nd\u00ebrsa m\u2019u zu fryma.<\/p>\n
– Epo, ja, t\u00eb gjitha vajzat thon\u00eb m\u00eb par\u00eb, fejohemi, pastaj takohemi e b\u00ebjm\u00eb dashuri e t\u00eb tjera e t\u00eb tjera si k\u00ebto budallall\u00ebqe, – tha ai.<\/p>\n
– Po un\u00eb kam nj\u00eb vit q\u00eb b\u00ebj dashuri me ty dhe nuk t\u00eb kam th\u00ebn\u00eb ashtu, po tani me t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb q\u00eb po zgjaten gj\u00ebrat si shum\u00eb, – i thash\u00eb, nd\u00ebrsa lot\u00ebt m\u2019u mblodh\u00ebn n\u00eb sy. Nuk doja t\u00eb qaja n\u00eb sy t\u00eb tij dhe po p\u00ebrpiqesha t\u00eb mblidhja veten kur m\u2019u p\u00ebrgjigj.<\/p>\n
– Pse, do t\u00eb m\u00eb k\u00ebrc\u00ebnosh ti, nuk do t\u00eb vish m\u00eb n\u00eb takim? K\u00ebt\u00eb do thuash, n\u00ebse un\u00eb t\u00eb them q\u00eb nuk do t\u00eb vij t\u00eb t\u00eb k\u00ebrkoj n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi? – dhe po m\u00eb priste t\u2019i p\u00ebrgjigjesha.<\/p>\n
– Nuk thash\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb gj\u00eb, pse i ndryshon fjal\u00ebt? Ajo q\u00eb thash\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb se nuk mund t\u00eb vazhdojm\u00eb k\u00ebshtu shum\u00eb gjat\u00eb.<\/p>\n
– Epo at\u00ebher\u00eb, edhe ca shkurt do vazhdojm\u00eb, n\u00ebse jo shum\u00eb gjat\u00eb, – tha dhe u kthye nga \u201cpuna e qejfi i vet\u201d me p\u00ebrk\u00ebdheljet e tij. Nuk e di si b\u00ebra dashuri at\u00eb dit\u00eb, por sapo arrita n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi u shtriva dhe u ngrita vet\u00ebm t\u00eb nes\u00ebrmen p\u00ebr n\u00eb pun\u00eb.<\/p>\n
N\u00eb takimin tjet\u00ebr i thash\u00eb edhe shqet\u00ebsimin tim t\u00eb fundit q\u00eb ishte m\u00eb kryesori: – Ka tre muaj q\u00eb nuk m\u00eb ka ardhur cikli, kam frik\u00eb se jam shtatz\u00ebn\u00eb.<\/p>\n
– \u00c7far\u00eb? Si mbete shtatz\u00ebn\u00eb ti? Jam i sigurt q\u00eb me mua s\u2019e ke, – tha dhe i iku fytyra. – E ke menduar mir\u00eb se i kujt \u00ebsht\u00eb f\u00ebmija apo m\u00eb thua kot mua q\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00eb mbetesh n\u00eb dor\u00eb?<\/p>\n
– Si i kujt \u00ebsht\u00eb f\u00ebmija? Po un\u00eb vet\u00ebm me ty kam b\u00ebr\u00eb dashuri, si i kujt \u00ebsht\u00eb f\u00ebmija?! – shastisa un\u00eb, por nj\u00ebkoh\u00ebsisht e kuptova q\u00eb N-ja nuk do t\u00eb merrte asgj\u00eb p\u00ebrsip\u00ebr.<\/p>\n
– At\u00ebher\u00eb, po ta them, f\u00ebmija nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb i imi, ti b\u00ebj si t\u00eb duash. Un\u00eb po iki dhe mos m\u00eb shqet\u00ebso m\u00eb, – tha dhe u kthye t\u00eb ikte. E kapa p\u00ebrkrahu dhe iu p\u00ebrgj\u00ebrova t\u00eb mendohej.<\/p>\n
– T\u00eb lutem mos m\u00eb thuaj k\u00ebt\u00eb gj\u00eb, ti e di shum\u00eb mir\u00eb q\u00eb s\u2019kam t\u00eb dashur tjet\u00ebr. Ti e di shum\u00eb mir\u00eb q\u00eb f\u00ebmija \u00ebsht\u00eb yti.<\/p>\n
– At\u00ebher\u00eb po t\u00eb them se nuk dua f\u00ebmij\u00eb me ty. Fiksimin q\u00eb kisha p\u00ebr ty e hoqa. Besoj ia ke kaluar edhe ti mir\u00eb me mua.<\/p>\n
Ai iku dhe un\u00eb, sigurisht, nuk mundesha ta ndaloja. P\u00ebr tri dit\u00eb n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi isha si hije. V\u00ebllai i madh e pa q\u00eb nuk isha n\u00eb vete fare dhe nj\u00eb dit\u00eb m\u00eb pyeti se \u00e7\u2019kisha. \u00c7\u2019t\u00eb b\u00ebja? T\u00eb mos i tregoja, barku do rritej e do merrej vesh. T\u2019i tregoja, ishte si ta vrisja.<\/p>\n
– E kam nj\u00eb hall, – i thash\u00eb – po nuk di si dhe me k\u00eb ta zgjidh.<\/p>\n
– Po m\u00eb mir\u00eb se m\u00eb v\u00ebllan\u00eb, nuk ke tjet\u00ebr, – tha dhe u ul p\u00ebrkrah meje t\u00eb m\u00eb d\u00ebgjonte.<\/p>\n
Ia tregova fill e p\u00ebr pe. Deri n\u00eb fund, duroi e nuk foli. N\u00eb fund, qau bashk\u00eb me mua dhe m\u00eb tha: – Do ta presim N-n\u00eb, n\u00ebse b\u00ebhet i gjall\u00eb edhe p\u00ebr nj\u00eb jav\u00eb. Ndryshe, do t\u00eb ikim n\u00eb spital bashk\u00eb, – u \u00e7ua e iku.<\/p>\n
\u00c7\u2019t\u00eb thosha un\u00eb e zeza?! N.-ja nuk u b\u00eb i gjall\u00eb asnj\u00ebher\u00eb. V\u00ebllai im nj\u00eb dit\u00eb m\u00eb mori e m\u00eb d\u00ebrgoi n\u00eb nj\u00eb spital n\u00eb nj\u00eb tjet\u00ebr qytet. Atje kish folur me nj\u00eb mami dhe b\u00ebra abortin. Pas dy or\u00ebsh, dola nga spitali me zemr\u00ebn cop\u00eb. V\u00ebllai kishte qar\u00eb jasht\u00eb spitalit gjith\u00eb koh\u00ebn e n\u00eb fakt, e qara e tij dhe e imja bashk\u00eb vazhdon akoma edhe sot, sa her\u00eb takohemi. K\u00ebt\u00eb krim timin e di v\u00ebllai im i madh dhe N.-ja, po s\u00ebrish krim mbetet, edhe pse nuk e mori vesh askush tjet\u00ebr.<\/p>\n
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