Jam nj\u00eb zonj\u00eb 40 vje\u00e7are nga Tirana q\u00eb kam tre f\u00ebmij\u00eb, dy djem dhe nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb. Gjat\u00eb gjith\u00eb jet\u00ebs sime kam qen\u00eb shum\u00eb e dh\u00ebn\u00eb pas vetes dhe jam munduar ta mbaj trupin n\u00eb form\u00eb, edhe pse jam e martuar dhe kam tre f\u00ebmij\u00eb si yje. U martova kur isha 20 vje\u00e7e, jo se donte familja apo p\u00ebr ndonj\u00eb arsye tjet\u00ebr, por sepse un\u00eb rash\u00eb n\u00eb dashuri. I tregova gjith\u00e7ka mamit e babit dhe ata m\u00eb than\u00eb q\u00eb n\u00ebse e shihja t\u00eb arsyeshme ta prezantoja n\u00eb familje, ishte n\u00eb dor\u00ebn time, por n\u00ebse m\u00eb von\u00eb ai nuk do t\u00eb dilte ashtu si\u00e7 un\u00eb e kisha menduar apo ashtu si ai do t\u00eb paraqitej n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi, un\u00eb nuk kisha asnj\u00eb t\u00eb drejt\u00eb t\u00eb thoja asgj\u00eb.
\nU fejuam dhe kemi q\u00ebndruar t\u00eb fejuar pothuajse p\u00ebr tre vjet sepse un\u00eb duhej t\u00eb mbaroja fakultetin. Studioja p\u00ebr Fizik\u00eb. Gjith\u00e7ka shkonte mir\u00eb me burrin tim dhe sot e k\u00ebsaj dite shkon gjith\u00e7ka mir\u00eb, sepse ai nuk e di se \u00e7far\u00eb i kam b\u00ebr\u00eb un\u00eb 5 vite m\u00eb par\u00eb. Nuk e di dhe asnj\u00ebher\u00eb nuk e kam vendosur n\u00ebse duhet t\u2019ia tregoj dhe sa her\u00eb q\u00eb e shoh burrin tim, me vjen r\u00ebnd\u00eb q\u00eb jam gruaja e tij. Nj\u00eb bashk\u00ebshorte e mir\u00eb nuk duhet t\u00eb tradhtoj\u00eb kurr\u00eb sepse tradhtia \u00ebsht\u00eb shkaku kryesor q\u00eb prish nj\u00eb familje. Kjo ka qen\u00eb gjithmon\u00eb ideja ime dhe m\u00eb vjen shum\u00eb keq q\u00eb nuk arrita ta mbaja deri n\u00eb fund, por jeta qenka e \u00e7uditshme dhe shum\u00eb e pakuptimt\u00eb. E doja shum\u00eb burrin tim. Edhe pse ai nuk e ka shkoll\u00ebn q\u00eb prind\u00ebrit e mi k\u00ebrkonin p\u00ebr dh\u00ebndrrin e tyre, un\u00eb p\u00ebrs\u00ebri nuk e l\u00ebshova kurr\u00eb veten dhe kemi qen\u00eb \u00e7ifti m\u00eb i bukur i fisit. Kujt ia priste mendja q\u00eb un\u00eb n\u00eb mosh\u00ebn 35 vje\u00e7are do ta tradhtoja me doktorin i cili m\u00eb kuroi p\u00ebr nj\u00eb s\u00ebmundje q\u00eb m\u00eb von\u00eb mora vesh q\u00eb nuk e kisha pasur kurr\u00eb?
\nPara 5 vjet\u00ebve ngela pa pun\u00eb, u b\u00ebn\u00eb shkurtime n\u00eb shkoll\u00ebn ku punoja si m\u00ebsuese fizike dhe un\u00eb u s\u00ebmura keq. Asnj\u00eb doktor nuk po m\u00eb gjente dot se \u00e7far\u00eb kisha, sepse nga simptomat dukej sikur isha shtatz\u00ebn\u00eb, por ekoja q\u00eb b\u00ebra nuk tregoi di\u00e7ka t\u00eb till\u00eb. Nj\u00eb dit\u00eb, burri im erdhi n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi me nj\u00eb burr\u00eb tjet\u00ebr dhe m\u00eb tha q\u00eb i ati i tij, por edhe ky vet\u00eb, ishin doktor\u00eb t\u00eb zot\u00eb n\u00eb fshatin e tij dhe se me shpres\u00eb t\u00eb Zotit, do t\u00eb gjente se \u00e7far\u00eb m\u00eb mundonte mua. Ai m\u00eb vizitoi me m\u00ebnyrat e vjetra n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi dhe m\u00eb tha q\u00eb kisha simptomat e veremit, ose ndryshe stres i shkall\u00ebs s\u00eb lart\u00eb dhe q\u00eb duhej t\u00eb merresha me di\u00e7ka q\u00eb t\u00eb ulja pak stresin. Un\u00eb habitesha q\u00eb m\u00eb thoshte q\u00eb isha s\u00ebmur\u00eb, sepse un\u00eb nuk ndihesha keq gjat\u00eb gjtih\u00eb koh\u00ebs, por vet\u00ebm me momente. Doktori ishte nj\u00eb goxha burr\u00eb, rreth t\u00eb tridhjetave dhe shum\u00eb i pash\u00ebm. Ai vinte m\u00eb vizitonte edhe kur burri im, Leoja, nuk ishte n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi. Un\u00eb doja m\u00eb shum\u00eb t\u00eb filloja nj\u00eb pun\u00eb, sepse ndihesha keq q\u00eb burri im punonte dhe un\u00eb jo. Sot po e kuptoj q\u00eb i gjith\u00eb problem dhe gjith\u00eb ajo m\u00ebrzitje paskan qen\u00eb ngaq\u00eb un\u00eb e ndieja veten shum\u00eb posht\u00eb me moral, sepse nuk punoja. Ardhjet e tij n\u00eb sht\u00ebpin\u00eb ton\u00eb u b\u00ebn\u00eb t\u00eb shpeshta, edhe pse un\u00eb nuk i merrja p\u00ebr keq sepse justifikohej dhe gjithmon\u00eb m\u00eb vizitonte.
\nKaluan disa koh\u00eb dhe un\u00eb po filloja ta ndieja munges\u00ebn e tij. Kur kalonin dy ose tre dit\u00eb q\u00eb ai nuk vinte t\u00eb m\u00eb kontrollonte, un\u00eb b\u00ebhesha m\u00eb keq. Nuk e kuptoja \u00e7far\u00eb po m\u00eb ndodhte; n\u00eb vend q\u00eb t\u00eb b\u00ebhesha m\u00eb mir\u00eb, po b\u00ebhesha m\u00eb keq. M\u00eb vinte zor t\u2019i thoja burrit tim q\u00eb ndihesha ashtu, sepse e kuptoja q\u00eb po filloja q\u00eb t\u00eb ndieja p\u00ebr at\u00eb doktor me emrin Andrea. Andrea ishte shum\u00eb i zoti n\u00eb pun\u00ebn q\u00eb b\u00ebnte, por edhe shum\u00eb provokues. \u00c7udit\u00ebrisht, sa her\u00eb q\u00eb ai ndodhej aty, un\u00eb isha shum\u00eb m\u00eb mir\u00eb. Nj\u00eb dit\u00eb e d\u00ebgjova tek i thoshte Leos: \u201cKlara duhet t\u00eb l\u00ebviz\u00eb diku, duhet ta nxjerrim nga sht\u00ebpia, se veremi k\u00ebt\u00eb ka, n\u00ebse nuk merresh me t\u00eb, t\u00eb vdes\u201d. Burri im pohonte nga ana tjet\u00ebr. Sapo mbaruan k\u00ebt\u00eb bised\u00eb, erdh\u00ebn t\u00eb dy te dhoma ime dhe m\u00eb than\u00eb q\u00eb duhej t\u00eb vishesha, sepse bashk\u00eb me Andrean do t\u00eb m\u00eb \u00e7onin n\u00eb Durr\u00ebs, p\u00ebr pak qet\u00ebsim dhe q\u00eb t\u00eb dilja pak. Pohova me kok\u00eb dhe shkova t\u00eb vishesha. Nd\u00ebrkoh\u00eb q\u00eb po vishesha un\u00eb, burrin tim e kishin marr\u00eb n\u00eb telefon dhe e kishin k\u00ebrkuar t\u00eb puna. K\u00ebshtu, ngeli q\u00eb t\u00eb shkoja me Andrean. Un\u00eb n\u00eb fillim u stepa dhe nuk doja t\u00eb shkoja, sepse sikur t\u00eb ma ndjente zemra q\u00eb do t\u00eb ndodhte di\u00e7ka. Shkuam diku n\u00eb bregdetin e Durr\u00ebsit, n\u00eb nj\u00eb lokal me pamje nga deti, flladi po m\u00eb p\u00ebrk\u00ebdhelte fytyr\u00ebn dhe sinqerisht q\u00eb kisha filluar t\u00eb ndihesha shum\u00eb mir\u00eb. Po bisedonim p\u00ebr jet\u00ebn n\u00eb p\u00ebrgjith\u00ebsi dhe n\u00eb nj\u00eb moment, i thash\u00eb:
\n– Sot ma paska qejfi t\u00eb pim\u00eb pak ver\u00eb…
\nAi m\u00eb pa dhe me plot goj\u00ebn m\u00eb tha q\u00eb kishte dit\u00eb q\u00eb edhe ai donte t\u00eb pinte p\u00ebr t\u00eb harruar problemet q\u00eb kishte n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi. Aty kuptova se njer\u00ebzit q\u00eb duket sikur nuk kan\u00eb asnj\u00eb problem, kan\u00eb m\u00eb shum\u00eb. Duke pir\u00eb ver\u00eb dhe duke treguar p\u00ebr jet\u00ebn e tij, m\u00eb dukej sikur po njihja nj\u00eb Andrea tjet\u00ebr. Pim\u00eb shum\u00eb dhe as vet\u00eb nuk e kuptova se si p\u00ebrfundova duke u p\u00ebrqafuar me t\u00eb dhe ndjeva buz\u00ebt e tij t\u00eb preknin buz\u00ebt e mia. O Zot, \u00e7far\u00eb ndjesie! Kisha shum\u00eb, shum\u00eb koh\u00eb q\u00eb nuk ndihesha k\u00ebshtu, madje kisha harruar se sa koh\u00eb kisha q\u00eb nuk provoja afshin e puthjes plot pasion. U puth\u00ebm p\u00ebr or\u00eb t\u00eb t\u00ebra dhe n\u00eb fund u gjend\u00ebm n\u00eb krah\u00ebt e nj\u00ebri-tjetrit. Nuk na interesonte n\u00ebse ishte dit\u00eb apo jo, thjesht jetuam disa or\u00eb t\u00eb bukura q\u00eb un\u00eb, edhe pse po b\u00ebja nj\u00eb faj, nuk do t\u2019i harroj p\u00ebr gjith\u00eb jet\u00ebn. Kur u \u00e7uam p\u00ebr t\u00eb ikur, t\u00eb dyve na vinte turp nga nj\u00ebri-tjetri dhe nuk e shihnim n\u00eb sy as un\u00eb at\u00eb, as ai mua. Rrug\u00ebs p\u00ebr n\u00eb Tiran\u00eb ai m\u00eb tha di\u00e7ka trondit\u00ebse q\u00eb kur e d\u00ebgjova, m\u2019u duk sikur m\u00eb ra qielli n\u00eb kok\u00eb:
\n– Klara, ti nuk je s\u00ebmur\u00eb, nuk ke asgj\u00eb, ti je thjesht e m\u00ebrzitur dhe e stresuar, t\u00eb duhet vet\u00ebm nj\u00eb pun\u00eb dhe do t\u00eb jesh shum\u00eb mir\u00eb.
\nE shikoja dhe nuk mund ta besoja q\u00eb ai ishte tallur gjith\u00eb koh\u00ebs me mua dhe kishte dashur vet\u00ebm t\u00eb m\u00eb fuste n\u00eb shtrat. Erdh\u00ebm n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi dhe i thash\u00eb burrit tim q\u00eb ajo sh\u00ebtitje m\u00eb kishte b\u00ebr\u00eb shum\u00eb mir\u00eb dhe se doja t\u00eb punoja, ngaq\u00eb nuk isha m\u00eb aq keq sa p\u00ebrpara. Fillova pun\u00eb si sekretare n\u00eb nj\u00eb shkoll\u00eb private dhe dal\u00ebngadal\u00eb, fillova t\u00eb ndihesha shum\u00eb m\u00eb mir\u00eb. Sot, pas 5 vjet\u00ebsh, ndihem mrekullisht mir\u00eb, sepse kam nj\u00eb familje t\u00eb sh\u00ebndosh\u00eb q\u00eb m\u00eb q\u00ebndron af\u00ebr dhe nuk m\u00eb l\u00eb p\u00ebr asnj\u00eb sekond\u00eb vet\u00ebm, kam nj\u00eb burr\u00eb q\u00eb nuk di asgj\u00eb dhe fle \u00e7do nat\u00eb me mua me mendimin se ajo q\u00eb fle n\u00eb krah t\u00eb tij \u00ebsht\u00eb gruaja ideale. P\u00ebr Andrean nuk di asgj\u00eb m\u00eb, madje edhe Leon nuk e kam pyetur m\u00eb, sepse nuk dua as ta p\u00ebrmend at\u00eb em\u00ebr. Sot, m\u00eb vjen keq q\u00eb e tradhtova burrin tim, babain e f\u00ebmij\u00ebve t\u00eb mi me doktorin q\u00eb m\u00eb b\u00ebri t\u00eb s\u00ebmur\u00eb pa qen\u00eb e till\u00eb. M\u00eb gjykoni n\u00ebse e shihni t\u00eb arsyeshme, por kisha nevoj\u00eb q\u00eb k\u00ebto t\u2019ia tregoja dikujt… <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Jam nj\u00eb zonj\u00eb 40 vje\u00e7are nga Tirana q\u00eb kam tre f\u00ebmij\u00eb, dy djem dhe nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb. Gjat\u00eb gjith\u00eb jet\u00ebs sime kam qen\u00eb shum\u00eb e dh\u00ebn\u00eb pas vetes dhe jam munduar ta mbaj trupin n\u00eb form\u00eb, edhe pse jam e martuar dhe kam tre f\u00ebmij\u00eb si yje. U martova kur isha 20 vje\u00e7e, jo se donte […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[95],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-10817","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-rrefime-mekatesh"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10817","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=10817"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10817\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=10817"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=10817"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=10817"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}