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Thon\u00eb se meshkujt dashurohen nj\u00eb her\u00eb n\u00eb jet\u00eb dhe kur ndodh kjo, pranojn\u00eb gjith\u00e7ka n\u00eb lidhje me t\u00eb dashur\u00ebn e tyre, madje duke shkelur mbi t\u00eb gjith\u00eb. Un\u00eb q\u00eb po e shkruaj k\u00ebt\u00eb histori jam mashkull, akoma sing\u00ebll, n\u00eb k\u00ebrkim t\u00eb asaj flake q\u00eb do t\u00eb m\u00eb b\u00ebj\u00eb t\u00eb dashurohem. Megjith\u00ebse kam projekte p\u00ebr jet\u00ebn time dhe nj\u00eb dashuri tashm\u00eb do t\u00eb ndryshonte gjith\u00e7ka, krah\u00ebt nuk do t\u2019ia ktheja aspak. Jam 27 vje\u00e7 dhe kam mbaruar t\u00eb lart\u00ebn. Gjat\u00eb viteve t\u00eb studimit, sidomos n\u00eb vitet e masterit u njoha me nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb e cila m\u00eb b\u00ebri dyshues n\u00eb lidhje me dashurin\u00eb.<\/p>\n
Un\u00eb femrat i respektoj, sepse ashtu jam edukuar n\u00eb familje dhe ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb kjo gj\u00eb m\u00eb merret si dob\u00ebsi. At\u00eb vit t\u00eb par\u00eb t\u00eb masterit, pasi kisha ndenjur nj\u00eb vit pushim nga studimet, se nga puna aspak, kthehesha me entuziaz\u00ebm, sepse shkolla, p\u00ebrve\u00e7 stresit t\u00eb provimeve, ka edhe at\u00eb k\u00ebnaq\u00ebsin\u00eb e vet t\u00eb or\u00ebve t\u00eb kafeve, q\u00eb diskuton me shoq\u00ebrin\u00eb e re, t\u00eb krijuar n\u00eb bangat e saj. Kurioziteti i par\u00eb i nj\u00eb mashkulli \u00ebsht\u00eb t\u00eb v\u00ebzhgoj\u00eb t\u00eb gjitha femrat q\u00eb e rrethojn\u00eb dhe mund t\u00eb them se, n\u00eb at\u00eb kurs kishte goxha vajza t\u00eb bukura, madje do t\u00eb thoja tep\u00ebr. Nj\u00ebra prej tyre m\u00eb b\u00ebri p\u00ebrshtypje. Ishte shum\u00eb trendi, e lezetshme dhe ajo q\u00eb t\u00ebrheq m\u00eb shum\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb kur tregohet indiferente. N\u00eb at\u00eb muaj t\u00eb par\u00eb t\u00eb shkoll\u00ebs, krijoheshin miq\u00ebsit\u00eb dhe un\u00eb dilja p\u00ebr kafe me nj\u00eb nga djemt\u00eb e pak\u00ebt q\u00eb ishim, madje edhe me nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb t\u00eb martuar me dy f\u00ebmij\u00eb. Aty pjesa m\u00eb e madhe ishin t\u00eb fejuara dhe ta tregonin k\u00ebt\u00eb q\u00eb n\u00eb momentin e par\u00eb. Pjesa tjet\u00ebr, ato q\u00eb kishin mbetur, nuk ia vlente as t\u2019i shikoje. N\u00eb nj\u00eb nga ato or\u00ebt kur mungonte pedagogu dhe turreshim te kafet, si p\u00ebr t\u2019u zgjuar edhe nga m\u00ebngjesi, se pa nj\u00eb kafe nuk t\u00eb hapen syt\u00eb, i k\u00ebrkova k\u00ebsaj shoqes sime q\u00eb ta ftonim edhe at\u00eb vajz\u00ebn q\u00eb m\u00eb b\u00ebnte shum\u00eb p\u00ebrshtypje e q\u00eb nuk ta varte fare. Ajo pranoi, u ul\u00ebm n\u00eb nj\u00eb kafe q\u00eb p\u00ebr gati dy vjet do ta frekuentonim rregullisht sikur t\u00eb ishte nj\u00eb sht\u00ebpi dhe aty filluam t\u00eb tregonim pak p\u00ebr veten, pak p\u00ebr historit\u00eb tona personale dhe p\u00ebr ato d\u00ebshira q\u00eb do t\u00eb donim t\u00eb ndodhnin n\u00eb t\u00eb ardhmen.<\/p>\n
Kur flet p\u00ebr shum\u00eb gj\u00ebra, nj\u00eb nga pjes\u00ebt m\u00eb interesante \u00ebsht\u00eb kur tregon di\u00e7ka p\u00ebr veten, p\u00ebr jet\u00ebn personale dhe lidhjet e zemr\u00ebs. Kur m\u00eb erdhi radha mua, un\u00eb u limitova t\u00eb thosha q\u00eb nuk kisha t\u00eb dashur dhe kur erdhi radha e saj, prita ose shpresova q\u00eb edhe ajo t\u00eb thoshte \u201cnuk kam\u201d, por u zhg\u00ebnjeva dhe u m\u00ebrzita pak kur e d\u00ebgjoja t\u00eb tregonte p\u00ebr lidhjen e vet me shum\u00eb lirshm\u00ebri, megjith\u00ebse vinte nga nj\u00eb fshat (ndoshta edhe prej faktit se ajo kishte ardhur me studime q\u00eb n\u00eb mosh\u00eb t\u00eb njom\u00eb). Ajo q\u00eb t\u00ebrhiqte muhabetin ishte se ishte dhe pir\u00ebse duhani dhe duhanxhinjt\u00eb duan shoq\u00ebri. At\u00eb dit\u00eb u ndjeva i zhg\u00ebnjyer, megjithat\u00eb u vendos nj\u00eb shoq\u00ebri q\u00eb nuk u nd\u00ebrpre. Ajo q\u00eb ndodhi m\u00eb pas ishte se, n\u00eb vend q\u00eb t\u2019i jepja karar emocionit tim, ai shtohej edhe m\u00eb shum\u00eb dhe m\u00eb b\u00ebnte t\u00eb p\u00ebrjetoja iluzione karshi saj. Nuk u limitova, por vazhdova t\u00eb k\u00ebmb\u00ebngulja n\u00eb iden\u00eb time p\u00ebr ta b\u00ebr\u00eb p\u00ebr vete. Fillova t\u2019i afrohesha m\u00eb shum\u00eb, t\u2019i flisja pak\u00ebz t\u00ebrthorazi p\u00ebr simpatin\u00eb q\u00eb kisha p\u00ebr t\u00eb, por edhe ajo shfaqte rezistenc\u00eb. Duke qen\u00eb p\u00ebrdit\u00eb bashk\u00eb, madje edhe ndonj\u00eb fundjav\u00eb kur nuk shkonte n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi, e ftoja p\u00ebr kafe dhe ajo pranonte. Edhe pse her\u00eb pas here m\u00eb thoshte: \u201cUn\u00eb e dua t\u00eb dashurin, nuk mund ta tradhtoj\u201d, un\u00eb nuk dor\u00ebzohesha, si \u00e7do mashkull. Ajo, jo vet\u00ebm m\u00eb emociononte, por edhe m\u00eb jepte iluzione, shpresa p\u00ebr t\u00eb ecur p\u00ebrpara. N\u00eb sezonin e par\u00eb, vija re sa ajo stresohej shum\u00eb dhe i p\u00ebrjetonte keq provimet. Un\u00eb n\u00eb at\u00eb periudh\u00eb i ndenja m\u00eb af\u00ebr dhe ajo tregohej m\u00eb e dashur, madje as t\u00eb dashurin nuk e kujtonte m\u00eb. T\u00eb dashurin e saj s\u2019e kishim par\u00eb kurr\u00eb, ajo fliste vet\u00ebm n\u00eb telefon me t\u00eb, ai jeton n\u00eb nj\u00eb qytet tjet\u00ebr pak larg dhe shpesh i thoshim n\u00eb tavolin\u00eb: \u201cA funksionon nj\u00eb lidhje n\u00eb distanc\u00eb?\u201d.<\/p>\n
N\u00eb sezonin e par\u00eb t\u00eb provimeve e ndihmova n\u00eb nj\u00eb nga provimet, pasi e njihja pedagogen dhe ajo e mori provimin pa m\u00ebsuar. N\u00eb nj\u00ebfar\u00eb m\u00ebnyre u b\u00ebra heroi i saj dhe fillova ta ftoja edhe n\u00eb dark\u00eb t\u00eb dilnim bashk\u00eb si shok\u00eb. Aty fillova edhe ta prekja; n\u00eb fillim duart, ndon\u00ebse vazhdonte t\u00eb thoshte: \u201cUn\u00eb kam t\u00eb dashur. \u00c7far\u00eb po b\u00ebj?\u201d, kurse n\u00eb syt\u00eb e saj shikoja q\u00eb kishte d\u00ebshir\u00eb. Pas provimeve vinte edhe dita e ver\u00ebs dhe nd\u00ebrsa pinim kafe, nj\u00eb nga vajzat e pyeti si do ta kalonte dhe ajo tha se do t\u2019i vinte i dashuri. E pash\u00eb si i shtangur… Kisha kujtuar se isha n\u00eb rrug\u00ebn e duhur! U nevrikosa dhe dola nga kafja para kohe.<\/p>\n
N\u00eb or\u00ebn e m\u00ebsimit, ajo u ul pran\u00eb meje dhe un\u00eb as q\u00eb doja ta shikoja. Ajo p\u00ebrpiqej t\u00eb m\u00eb shpjegonte se ne ishim miq dhe se ajo nuk kishte th\u00ebn\u00eb asnj\u00ebher\u00eb t\u00eb kund\u00ebrt\u00ebn. P\u00ebr gati nj\u00eb jav\u00eb as q\u00eb i fola, madje as p\u00ebr kafe nuk e ftonim. N\u00eb disa raste ajo vinte dhe m\u00eb fliste, por un\u00eb as q\u00eb i ktheja p\u00ebrgjigje. Edhe pse kjo sken\u00eb ndodhte n\u00eb syt\u00eb e t\u00eb tjer\u00ebve, ajo nuk b\u00ebhej merak, por p\u00ebrpiqej q\u00eb t\u00eb pajtoheshim. Kaloi dita e ver\u00ebs dhe pas saj ajo m\u00eb telefonoi nj\u00eb dark\u00eb. U tregova i ashp\u00ebr me t\u00eb dhe ajo shum\u00eb e \u00ebmb\u00ebl, derisa arrit\u00ebm t\u00eb dilnim p\u00ebr kafe bashk\u00eb me shoqet e saj t\u00eb dhom\u00ebs. Filluam t\u00eb mikloheshim p\u00ebrs\u00ebri, madje t\u00eb dukeshim si nj\u00eb \u00e7ift, edhe pse nuk kishim arritur n\u00eb nj\u00eb pik\u00eb t\u00eb p\u00ebrbashk\u00ebt. Nj\u00eb dark\u00eb m\u00eb ftoi n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi, ku ishin edhe shoqet e saj. Kaluam nja dy or\u00eb n\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb shoq\u00ebrore. Kjo ndodhi u p\u00ebrs\u00ebrit, edhe pse n\u00eb shkoll\u00eb nuk tregonim p\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb marr\u00ebdh\u00ebnie q\u00eb kishim krijuar. Nj\u00eb mbr\u00ebmje n\u00eb fundjav\u00eb m\u00eb ftoi dhe ishte vet\u00ebm. Aty iluzionet e mia po b\u00ebheshin realitet. Ne biseduam dhe si pa dashje filluam t\u00eb putheshim. N\u00eb nj\u00eb moment ajo filloi t\u00eb qahej: \u201cUn\u00eb kam t\u00eb dashur nuk mund ta b\u00ebj k\u00ebt\u00eb, si m\u00eb vajti n\u00eb mendje kjo gj\u00eb?!…\u201d. At\u00eb nat\u00eb nuk ndodhi asgj\u00eb m\u00eb shum\u00eb se puthjet dhe ledhatimet, por n\u00eb vazhdim gj\u00ebrat avancuan.<\/p>\n
Nj\u00eb dit\u00eb, nd\u00ebrsa bisedoja me nj\u00eb nga vajzat q\u00eb shoq\u00ebroheshim, ajo m\u00eb pyeti p\u00ebr lidhjen time me at\u00eb. I tregova dhe gjat\u00eb bised\u00ebs ajo m\u00eb tha: \u201cKa t\u00eb dashur dhe nuk i jep drejtim, o me ty, o me at\u00eb!\u201d. Kjo gj\u00eb m\u00eb ngeli si gozhd\u00eb dhe m\u00eb l\u00ebndoi pak. Tani, n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb rast, kush ishte loloja, un\u00eb apo ai? Megjithat\u00eb, edhe un\u00eb nuk isha gati p\u00ebr nj\u00eb lidhje serioze, k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb limitohesha t\u00eb shijoja momentin, por nj\u00eb her\u00eb i thash\u00eb: \u201cMjaft me k\u00ebto telefonata!\u201d. Mbaruan edhe provimet e sezonit dhe larg\u00ebsia gjat\u00eb pushimeve na ftohu pak me nj\u00ebri-tjetrin. Ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb edhe flisnim n\u00eb telefon, por kaq. Pas kthimit n\u00eb vitin e dyt\u00eb, q\u00ebndrimi n\u00eb shoq\u00ebri na afroi p\u00ebrs\u00ebri dhe nj\u00eb her\u00eb m\u00eb tha: \u201c\u00c7far\u00eb do t\u00eb b\u00ebje ti p\u00ebr mua?\u201d. \u201cAsgj\u00eb\u201d, i thash\u00eb. E kuptova se \u00e7far\u00eb donte t\u00eb thoshte me at\u00eb, po edhe pse m\u00eb p\u00eblqente aq shum\u00eb, vazhdoja t\u00eb mendoja: \u201cKush \u00ebsht\u00eb loloja n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb mes, un\u00eb apo ai?\u201d. Q\u00eb nga ajo periudh\u00eb, ne filluam t\u00eb tregoheshim ironik\u00eb me nj\u00ebri-tjetrin ndon\u00ebse p\u00ebrdit\u00eb uleshim n\u00eb t\u00eb nj\u00ebjt\u00ebn tavolin\u00eb, madje aq ironik\u00eb sa shoq\u00ebria na thoshte: \u201cMjaft ju t\u00eb dy!\u201d. Brenda p\u00ebr brenda s\u2019e pranoja, por e doja, e ndjeja dhe ndoshta, po t\u00eb mos ishte nj\u00eb tjet\u00ebr n\u00eb mes, do ta b\u00ebja pjes\u00eb t\u00eb jet\u00ebs sime.<\/p>\n
Marr\u00ebdh\u00ebnia u acarua dhe arrit\u00ebm n\u00eb pik\u00ebn q\u00eb nuk i flisja m\u00eb dhe numrin e telefonit ia fshiva, edhe pse uleshim me t\u00eb nj\u00ebjt\u00ebn shoq\u00ebri. Sot, kur e mendoj, jam i bindur se ajo la gjurm\u00eb tek un\u00eb dhe m\u00eb b\u00ebri skeptik n\u00eb dashuri. Kam ngelur me dyshimin: Nj\u00eb njeri q\u00eb t\u00eb dashuron, a mund t\u00eb t\u00eb tradhtoj\u00eb me nj\u00eb tjet\u00ebr? As vet\u00eb nuk e di… Ndoshta ajo nuk donte asnj\u00ebrin prej nesh, nd\u00ebrsa un\u00eb, sikur ta dinte ajo… Nejse, tani s\u2019ka r\u00ebnd\u00ebsi!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Thon\u00eb se meshkujt dashurohen nj\u00eb her\u00eb n\u00eb jet\u00eb dhe kur ndodh kjo, pranojn\u00eb gjith\u00e7ka n\u00eb lidhje me t\u00eb dashur\u00ebn e tyre, madje duke shkelur mbi t\u00eb gjith\u00eb. Un\u00eb q\u00eb po e shkruaj k\u00ebt\u00eb histori jam mashkull, akoma sing\u00ebll, n\u00eb k\u00ebrkim t\u00eb asaj flake q\u00eb do t\u00eb m\u00eb b\u00ebj\u00eb t\u00eb dashurohem. Megjith\u00ebse kam projekte p\u00ebr […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[95],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-10110","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-rrefime-mekatesh"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10110","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=10110"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10110\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=10110"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=10110"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/intervista.al\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=10110"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}